I think I've come to the realization that there are mental issues affecting my brain suddenly. As a kid my childhood was good even though my parents always weren't. Not abusive or anything but there were periods of lots of stress and where I didn't always have both of them present while we moved a lot. Reading more into it I think I had or currently still have high functioning autism, I had a lot of the signs of autism and always felt out of place somewhat. (my parents never got me tested because they aren't big mental health people) I made friends easily and have plenty of "good" friends but if I'm being honest I don't know if I really have a truly good friend. I always would initiate everything if I wanted to hang with them and still find myself doing that even at 23, they never seem to initiate and it's like I'm always chasing people with little reciprocation. I've never had much luck with women despite being decent looking I think (maybe cause I'm 5'7?). I have trouble opening up to anyone emotionally but women more specifically. I love my family and friends enough that I would die for them but to be honest I think I would move on in like 3 days like nothing happened if they died. How do I cope with the realization that I might have a few mental issues that have subtly impacted my relationships my entire life? I don't know how much I can chalk up my romantic or personal life to my mistakes or these problems. Is it even worth getting a diagnosis at this point or talking to a professional about it? If I do have attachment issues or autism, is there anything i can do about it or am I just stuck with being single and with unfulfilling friendships the rest of my life? If it is a problem I don't even know if growing friendships or asking a girl out is even a good idea anymore.
>>34444236Diagnoses are only important if they help you in some way. I can't see any real benefit from being diagnosed autistic. Read more about dealing with the condition if it interests you. Attachment issues are more important since they can be overcome and if that's a concern then you probably would benefit from seeing a counselor who specializes in attachment theory.Also, don't worry about the friends not initiating thing. That is a very very common experience. Even among good friends, most people don't initiate. It means they are passive people, not that they aren't really friends
