I didn't go through anything bad, I have brought a lot of bad into this world toward my family and others. I realise I am a narcissist as a person, I am working on not making it an excuse but I do believe me being away from others would be for the best, not for self pity, and that would not be fair on my family either to do that. My father turned his back on everyone and hasnt been seen since, my brother who we are blended family together with my dad and my mum, he doesnt have anything to do with us, nature of his job and his choice, I love my mum and would like to be with her forever, so if I seem confused I am, my dad stepped up for me even though he puts me in the middle with my mum and him, I really am insufferable in a lot of ways and disgusting, shaping up and sticking around would be the best thing to do, but shaping up is the first step. Do narcissists change genuinely? I don't know, I don't know if I really have a true/core self either it hasn't felt like it, and I only feel good when I'm useful as a tool as a man with my physicalness or somethning but my body lets me down (and I let my body down), and i hope I rot in hell and die like I wish my bio father would but I imagine I'll fortunately live for a long time. Iam a very privileged and fortunate person and I've been narcissistically abuive of my fortunate circumstances.
>>34445026Were you diagnosed as NPD by a professional psychologist?
>>34445026>Do narcissists change genuinely?They can, it just takes effort. Remember that your diagnosis is just a label meant to describe a pattern of behavior. It is not a power or condition in its own right. It goes away as soon as that behavior goes away, and you're in complete control of your behavior.>I don't know if I really have a true/core self eitherEveryone's true and core self is 'no self'. Which is to say, generosity, selflessness, objectivity and impartiality. Everyone can reach that goal because that goal is merely the absence of bias, avarice and prejudice. You don't have to find some secret hidden self, you just need to destroy your bad thoughts and habits and good thoughts and habits will naturally and automatically take their place.
>>34445026You don't sound very narcissistic. Genuine narcissists rarely realise they have a problem: as far as they're concerned they're superior and amazing, and the only issue is that other people can't see just how amazing they are. NPD is a condition which makes the people around the narcissist unhappy, not the narcissist himself. So, you ask: >Do narcissists change genuinely?And the answer to that is, almost never. But that's because narcissists generally don't *want* to change. They don't think there's anything wrong with them! If you have identified traits in yourself that you think are undesirable, and you are willing to put some work into changing them, then there's every chance you'll succeed. It won't be easy, but it will be possible.
>>34445026Why do you think you have NPD?Were you properly diagnosed?
>>34445026 I know a person who was diagnosed with npd. Although things are harder for them, they are pretty nice person. There is an unfair stigma around the disorder. All because someone meets the criteria, it doesn't make them a bad person. Someone can lack empathy but hold a moral code that has them choose to take empathetic actions. Isolating yourself is not healthy and will make things worse. Instead, get therapy if you can afford it. Also, forgive yourself. It is alright if it takes time before you become the type of person you want to be. Just keep working towards that goal. Being a narcissist or having narcissistic traits does not mean you shouldn't treat yourself with kindness. Killing yourself is not the way to go.
>>34445026I have a narcissist father, and what such a person is compounds a evil beyond your comprehension.Seriously, i doubt that's the case, i think you could have been manipulated by a person and this person projected themself on you.This was the case with my father, i spoke with hi for almost a year after a period of almost 10 years without speaking. Every single evil he had done i felt like i have committed. Be very careful with the origin of those feelings, track them down and write about it.
>>34445254THIS.
>>34445555Quads of truth. NPD is overrated in its 'evilness'. I've seen normies do worse shit than actual narcissists. The only realm where you don't wanna be around them is in the dating dynamic. Besides that they can be alright, they make for good leaders if you work under them. Their high ego means they can't help but tell all their exploits and skills and insights to you, you can learn a lot from one
