I'm in my dorm, sitting at my desk, staring at my bottles of seroquel and klonopin. I have enough to end it, I think.I'm supposed to graduate next month. I guess I would be if I hadn't fucked everything up. My final project, the thing that could have saved me, is due on Tuesday and I have done absolutely nothing. My professors, my parents, my only friend, they've all stood by me in trying to get me through school and I've failed them all.Even without all of that, I'm just so tired. I don't enjoy life. I see no hope in my future. I go to bed most nights wishing I wouldn't wake up the next morning. Now it's come to this, with me staring at my fucking prescriptions trying to build up the strength to actually accomplish something. I looked up what overdosing on each one entails, and what a combined overdose on both would look like. Risk of coma or death, kidney failure, the works. I guess I'm making this post because even at the very end i'm too much of a fucking coward. What if I fuck this up too, and end up comatose?I feel terrible even dumping this shit on other people, but If I call my parents they'll call the cops, or hospitalize me, and I don't know if I can take that. I just needed to talk to someone, I guess. I'm so scared.
>>34446929i hope you havent done anything, please just talk to me if youre still alive
i'm still here. i'm kind've going back and forth in my head.
i'm sorry about the delay it's making me do the captcha every post. i think i'm going to see what tomorrow brings. I'm still scared, but i don't want to die. at least not tonight. thank you for caring. it means a lot.
>>34446929>>34446993>>34446998take a deep breath. get off 4chan. calm and reset your mind. go for a walk if you can. Take a nap. everything will be okay, I promise. this anxiety is temporary and will soon pass. you'll pull through like you always do. just relax for now and work on it tomorrow. Don't worry about wasting time because you won't be able to work under these conditions anyway. Just try to relax.
It's a fuck up but definitely not something to die over. This very much seems like one of those mistakes that can be corrected in one way or another.I'm not sure if it'd be possible to get a medical exemption for this project, you seem pretty gripped by depression right now. Or maybe there's something fair you can negotiate with your professor, since this project could mean the difference between you graduating or not.Also do you think you could complete the project by Tuesday or be close to finishing it, if you really hustle in the next couple days? How are you attempting to work on it, are you doing your schoolwork in your dorm alone?
>>34446929>What if I fuck this up tooYou will. You'll cause permanent damage, but won't die. I can almost guarantee it. I'm actually speaking from personal experience: I took a massive ibuprofen overdose when I was about your age, gave myself permanent kidney damage, but didn't die. They told me at the time that if I'd taken *less* it would probably have been fatal, but as it was it made me vomit quickly enough that I didn't absorb a lot of it. Even so, I have never in my life been in that much pain. Don't do it. It's not worth it.
OP, don't do it. Take this advice from someone who been through this shit too. I failed my exams and had to drop out. I was ready to end it too. Didn't want my parents to find out until after so I packed up my bags and was about to leave and end it somewhere far away.I was scared, ashamed I let them down, didn't have enough money, no degree, lots of debt, no job, but I didn't want to leave them to clean up my mess.So I stayed.Worked any job I could, made minimum wage but at least it's a start. Prayed to God (the important step), and I swear I'm not making this up, shit took care of itself. Got a call randomly about a job offer, went there expecting nothing but I was hired, worked there a year to repay my loans, then another few years to go back and graduate.I don't know the exact situation you're in, but it seems similar to mine so I felt I should share.Sometimes all you need is a little faith in God and just pray He will take care of this. Don't quit on yourself and those who love you, OP. You failed? Then keep trying.
>>34446929If you don't do THIS you will very likely find wonderful things THAT YOU ARE CURRENTLY IGNORANT of, and we can help you with advice on how to BUILD a happy life no matter how college goes.
>>34446929This is going to sound like an insult but it's a reassurance: You are not special. Exactly this kind of last-semester paralysis is so frequent that the college can predict how many cases they'll get each year and - much more importantly - they know how to help you through it. In whichever order seems best, go to your professor, your advisor and the campus health service, They will know how to get you through this - counselling, therapy and/or just giving you an extension on the assignment.
It's almost impossible to die from an overdose on prescription medications
>>3444692910 years from now you won't give a single fuck about any of these assignments but here's what you need to do right now.Stop taking pills. Period. They are designed to make profit off vulnerable people. Start working on your final project NOW. Use Claude Code, provide it examples of your own writing and ask it to use your style. Email your professor and ask for an extra week. You're welcome.
This reminds me of someone that uses this site. Please don’t do it. People care about your wellbeing. Honestly speaking
>>34446929what is your health problem?
>>34446929you have an entire week man stop being a fucking fag lmao
