>Did really good in school but did not get good uni>Take a gap year to prepare for a uni entrance exam>Highly motivated initially, enjoys studying>But starts to procrastinate and end up wasting the year>Wasted of a lot of time on porn, games, anime, manga>Developed a sissy fetish that comes back every 2-3 months>Extreme guilt and regret from wasted time and fucked up life>An avoidance loop is formed - Waste timeRegretDepressedWaste more timeMore regret.........................>Should genuinely kill myself nowI am using forum answers just as a means of cope but I will take any advice that can help me even a little. I just want to get back to a disciplined life and not waste anymore time... or should I just end everything
you're at uni just talk to girls. ask girls to study. don't do that other shit
You got to stay focused OP.