>late 20s, still jobless and living under parents in a rural town.>never felt the touch of a woman or attention>exposed to photoshop fakes and cum tribs at age 8> use it as a fucked up coping mechanism privately on people i DISTANTLY know till present because I got absolutely zero access to the real thing.> only way out of this misery is to jobmaxx and move out> aware that this kink would fuck up my future relationships> still do it anyways because quitting cold turkey derails my gym, and studies.>not addicted, but the guilt kills me. I dont even know why im posting it here. Probably because i just wanted to justify my decision to set everything up for the 102nd time. I am not addicted, (i.e i dont goon for the entire day to ts). I dont post or share anything outside my PC like how niggers at /r/ do. Everything is done locally.If i quit this cold turkey, It will actually derail my commitments such as gym and study, ergo ill be focused on fighting the urge all day instead of focusing on my work.If i keep on continuing this, i may risk my future relationships. Like, 10 years into the future, i dont wanna visualise what i have been doing now when i am with my loving wife and kids.Fucking hell, ive become a piece of shit degenerate.
>>34447946>use it as a fucked up coping mechanism privately on people i DISTANTLY know till present because I got absolutely zero access to the real thing.LMFAOOO WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU
