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He SHOULD just say he is sorry and start calling himself Eron and everything would be okay.

>>34452234
I'm scared of getting into relationships because my parents are getting really annoying with their religion and cause a lot of drama. No I won't abandon my parents.

I'm not ready to die.

>>34452238
>having the power to end poverty

>>34452291
No HE doesn't, but MAYBE he could help, AND maybe he is.

Being targeted and treated unfairly by my boss for the past few weeks, can't get my shit together at home either, was excited for today and tomorrow (got tickets to a ball game) but suddenly putting one of the dogs down hours before the game starts, have a funeral to go to in a couple of weeks
What an ugly fucking start to the warm season which I hated to begin with
I'm building a big folder of evidence to send to HR though and I'm almost ready to pull the trigger so that's gonna be kinda cool I guess, love to see my boss get her ass fisted by corporate

I want to just not care about you. That would be for the best and make me happy. I was happy when it looked like I don't care anymore. Why am I even getting invested in this shit? And anyway, when all is said and done you don't care about me much, do you? But drinking until night with Mister X is great, huh? You know, I'm starting to understand J.

>>34452238
NEVERMIND.

>>34452330
>mr. x
>j(ill valentine)
omg hi leon

>>34452330
Think what you want. Not like I havn't included you in everything I have ever done and been open and honest, encouraging and kind. I guess my biggest flaw would be I care too much about the possibility that you seek solice and support elsewhere and have a preference for someone besides me, especially while you lay next to me every night as my husband.

>>34452302
Maybe so but I loved the girl I knew 5 years ago. I need all of her promises kept.

it's over.

>>34452356
what's over? over

I don't think drinking one on one with another guy and joking with him about the tights you're wearing is completely okay

It's called "pressing the hide button" on the larp threads. Easy

I think the world would be an objectively better place if the gypsies were genocided

>>34452357
"it" is over. over.

Ring flushed down the toilet

The kink has become a fixation and now I can't cum without thinking about it.

I DID like you(probably love you) but there are A LOT of strange people on here that open with strange things on discord. (I know we never got to talk very much after I licked your arm).

I'm not sure if you are STILL there or if you still read my messages. I'm sorry. I didn't know in time.

>>34452403
Make time

>>34452414
There's NO WAY she is still into me or HAS NOT found someone by now. But you're right.

Damn.

I hate eating "healthy" because it makes me starve and it also tastes bad too

>>34452461
HAVE a fat day for every skinny day and vice versa. Medium days are neutral. YOU CAN do fat days or skinny days IN EXCESS to gain or lose weight IN ORDER TO REACH YOUR DESIRED "medium weight".

>>34452431
In my case I am the love is her life and she craves me, for me to f her brains out, to give her everything she has ever wanted and to live our promises. Physically take her in every way. She can't stop thinking of me. She wants to come home to me and show me how much she loves the bracelet I made for her.

This time last year, I had three dogs. I'm down to one as of today.
One's age caught up with her.
Today's got really sick really fast with cancer.
I know they're "just dogs" but I'm not doing okay.

>>34452493
I ALSO hope to find a romantic partner one day.

My sister just lost her mental health anchor and now I'm worried I might lose her. She's strong and stubborn so I don't think she's gonna kill herself or anything but I think she's going to change for the worse.

>>34452467
I couldn't take it anymore so i rushed to the fridge and ate all kinds of junk food, i know im gonna be in bathroom for an hour now, maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

>>34452715
Please do medium and slow to digest food (cabbage o algo) tomorrow. Or something. Please.

>>34452715
YOU can actually eat "bad" AND "good" foods at the same time to minimize damage.

>>34452749
>>34452755
ok thanks for the advice, dieting is extremely difficult. On one hand, I love junk food (sometimes, not always because sometimes it tastes bad) but on the other hand, I hate stomach pain.

>>34452715
I just ate some jalapeno kettle cooked chips

>>34452770
You can cover "good" food in a thin layer of "bad" food and get the best of both worlds, but it takes at least LVL2 cooking skills.

>>34452461
Eating unhealthy is better than not eating at all.

You were my favorite but everyone kept saying you had a boyfriend, and you were also apparently part of "that guy's" harem. I genuinely felt like you were too good for me in spite of what happened to you.

I literally couldn't even process everything that happened fully til now. Sorry. I'll shut up. If you're out there, I do want to talk to you again. Sorry other anons.

We have been doing pretty good not running into each other lately but tomorrow we probably see each other and i'm not looking forward to it.

>>34452897
Why not?
Do you think I'm pissed at you?

I can turn a blind eye to a lot of shit. This makes me overly fucking livid. He treats me as if I'm some sort of fucking backdrop yet he will text this woman who he used to work with at 11 fucking at night. I am overtly easy going and this wouldn't be a problem if he actually had conversations with me. Fuck it I'm tired of bending myself towards someone else's will. Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it.

Please let me know how you feel, or give me a way to ask you. Please have feelings for me. I just want you to hold me and let me cry. I want to feel safe with someone, and I want it to be you.

I do if you are who I think you are.

I think you might be who I think you are. I tried to request your old discord from back in the day. Not sure if I got the name right. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm so sorry.

34, KHHV truecel here, ama

>>34452987
Sometimes I wish that's how my crush feels, but that's pretty fucking evil from my end.
She's an overworked, beautiful professional who I can tell needs to lean on someone. Our thing is unhealthy though but goddamn it, I can't just turn her down.

Why can't I cope with reality? I try to distract myself from the fear of
possible scenarios that a large portion of the population has to deal with. I'd
rather forget it even exists. I assume this fear is common amongst normal
people, only for more exaggerated scenarios like involving a deadly tradegy. My
fear tends to be more triggered by sickness than with death. I think there are
things you would rather not live through, like death might be a blessing if that
is the only other alternative. I don't know why, but I feel like I can only
survive in my small bubble of reality, even though it's killing me.

34453084
my cat's name is mittens

>>34453086
POST MITTENS

>>34453066
In what context do you usually encounter her? My crush is pretty hopeless because I see him for less than 10 minutes every month, and we are both working when we see each other.

>>34453091
Let's say at a facility.
We talk to each other for 10+ minutes any time she's around. Beautiful little woman, always travels, has stories to tell even when she's sick, comes to bat for me all the time at work, and she's the hardest worker in the building. As for me? Eh, taking it easy so I can get something better lined up.

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>>34453088
HERE SHE IS!

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>>34453114
SHE'S PERFECT THANK YOU

I was found crying in a dressing room of a strip mall clothing store as a baby. Cops never found my mom. Don’t even think I was born in a hospital, my birth certificate says “Foundling” on it which always raised eyebrows every time I applied for an ID or something.

Spent my childhood in and out of group homes and foster homes. Most of the kids there I met were fucked up from abusive druggie mentally ill parents, almost made me feel lucky in a way. The foster families were never outright neglectful but I could tell I was only there because it meant they got a check from the state. Bounced around so much I never made any friends and I didnt want to be friends with most of those wack job kids anyways.

I got my GED at 16, petitioned my case worker to sign off on me joining the military at 17. Got to bootcamp in August of 2001, just in time for fun and exciting adventures in the beautiful country of Iraq. Well, not that exciting really. I did make friends in the military, really good ones as a matter of fact. Didn’t get any cool war stories or medals, one of my humvee drivers drove us into a ditch because he got freaked out about a pile of trash he thought might be an IED. It wasn’t. Broke my clavicle and banged up my face pretty good. Nothing super serious but enough to get VA gibs for the rest of my life.

Got out, went to college, ran the rat race. All my military buddies started dropping one by one, usually by their own hand. Everyone in the civilian world felt so foreign, unrelatable. I’m in a good place career wise now, make great money (especially on top of VA gibs), but my job is mostly driving around in nature by myself in a company truck and sending emails. I own my own little condo, got all the money I could want, a few lone hobbies like golf and snow boarding.

I don’t know if I’m free or cursed. I don’t know how to tell people any of this because it sounds so unbelievable, like some dark Wes Anderson version of Forrest Gump.

>>34453055
How's it going

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>quit porn and gooning
>immediately miss it and feel a depressing emptiness that smothers me
I just want a friend or an ally, i have nothing and I'm stuck in this gaping hole of an existance, i can't even work out my chest since i already did and it needs to recover, it sounds gay as fuck but porn kept me occupied and allowed me to imagine better things even if it was harmful

>>34452897
If I saw you I would say hi

>>34453091
That sounds rough, you must have seen him more often before the current situation though right?

>>34453137
Been better but it's going to get worse, tnx for asking

my 8yo.
I told him his life is 10% of the way over already and it gave him a childlike form of depression.
won't even eat ice cream. help

this lady keeps complaining about her bf to her friend when i'm in earshot, then she dilates her pupils at me while making eye contact for unnecessary lengths of time

>>34453244
>I told him his life is 10% of the way over
Why did you do that? You made him contemplate mortality he'll probably think about it for a long while wondering why he exists if he's approaching death anyways, might as well pull the plug early, that or he'll find purpose and god.
>won't even eat ice cream. help
Be positive and try to steer things in a positive direction, also give it time, time heals all wounds
Good luck

>>34452897
Funny enough I got a call about an emergency where I could have switched back to my normal shift a bit after this. We saw each other maybe twice in the past two weeks and i'd have to have been in there early for training and she would be working too. The manager who called me was wondering why i wasn't saying anything and i was weighing the costs of have to go in for the training and potentially having to run into for 6 or so hours of my shift or switching my shift to normal and maybe only see her in passing at worst as she is leaving or shopping before leaving. I ended up deciding to keep the training shift since the manager seemed to be ok with me saying no and pushing me towards it by giving some vague excuses i could use. I don't know if i made the right choice but its set now even though I had a chance to escape.

She knows that when she gets out of that shit and comes north I am so much more compatible in lust than anyone else. I'll make her mind melt into a twitching euphoric puddle

>>34453244
Tell him he better eat his ice cream before 100% of his life is over

>>34453295
I know. he's just in there listening to mozart and crying. I'm going to tell him they found a way to live forever on the news

Covered in dirt, metal dust. Cut my hand at one point so bloody.

I had a really good day.

I CAN I PUT MY BALLS IN YO JAW???
(YO JAW)
BALLS IN YO JAW

>>34453321
>I'm going to tell him they found a way to live forever on the news
NO YOU DUMBASS DON'T DO THAT, lying is not the solution, he'll still wonder why he exists and you lying to him will make things worse, just hope he finds god and stop fucking with him

>>34453189
Unfortunately not, which is why my feelings are stupid. But I have seen him for work like this for maybe 3 years now, and only felt this way for 2 months.

I'm working on recognizing boasting and abstaining from that.

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Help I can’t see my fanbase

>>34453347
Based based based

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Snopes said Gary was the best

if you eat BREAD tf kinda nigga even are u, OPRAH

>>34453520
Give me all of your gluten

Massage tomorrow.
It will be so nice to release all my stess

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Some fucko(s), probably in the teens, bashed in my front door while I was out for a few hours, busting the deadbolt through the door frame. Thankfully, nothing was stolen despite a television and laptop being in the near vicinity. But it's still like, I have zero beef with any neighbors, my apartment doesn't stand out, and it's not even readily reachable, being on the second floor. I'm not normally a fan of door cams because I know they can be tapped/hacked into, but I might just have to get one. I'd rather not move out because this is the cheapest in the area that still offers my desired amenities. But ever since moving into this area, I've had
>my car broken into and rummaged through, despite being in the shared garage (partially my fault since it was one of the few times I'd left my car unlocked, nothing stolen)
>My bike stolen from the same shared garage, despite being chained up (dumbfucks actually tried removing the fixture it was chained to until their two braincells connected and they chopped the chain)
And now this. About the only silver lining in this is that I'm getting a new door frame.
Fuck, man.

If anyone here could, please pray for me. Something feels terribly off and I'm feeling a feeling which has come before nightmares and once, a night terror. I don't feel spiritually well. I'm a bit of a confused person, I'm kind of a travesty and I think I'm prodigal, among other things.

single women over 30 really are as bad as everyone says. it was a mistake to try dating again.

>>34453624
Prayed

>>34453624
Your spirit is loved

>>34453244
What the fuck is wrong with you

>>34453630
No worse than any male over 30

>>34453244
Tell him he'll live again after he dies and killing himself won't help him.

>>34453663
whatever makes you feel better. hope you've got your life in order like i do, but if you're a woman over 30 you probably don't, and by the sound of it you don't have a man coming to save you either. good luck!

>>34453630
What does everyone say about them?

>>34453679
grooming suspect 101
the cycle continues

fiancee used to tell me when we first started dating that she doesn’t really know what love is. she just said it again and told me that she stopped bringing it up because it stressed me out. the wedding is on Saturday

You'd want me to die for you, that's what I forsee
Did you think I wanted you because of what you can buy for me?
I wanted you because you were real and so was I
Like I was thrown from the nest and I didn't know to fly
I'm just telling the truth, but that probably would sow a lie

I just wanna hear the real you
I have emotions, I feel too

I honestly don't know what's going on anymore.

I feel like everything now is based on impulse rather than logic. I've been having more irrational thoughts, more switch ups, and more of me generally going against my word.

But on the other hand, my life is going forward positively. I have a date with someone who I can actually connect with. She seemed really excited to go with me over there. My friends keep wanting to hang out with me and have fun.

It's just so difficult to maintain this way of living. I know I can't be permanently alone, but I just wish that I could to isolate me and my never ending vices away from everybody.

>>34453728
If you get married you are an idiot.

I wish there was a way to just wave it off on your own instead of an extra.
I generally don't want to self harm because my body is probably one the biggest things going for me in life, and permanently fucking over that will lead me to much more dire problems later on in the future.
Whenever I try explaining this feeling to my friends, I either misconstrue my true feelings, emotionally overshare too much, or try to tiptoe my true feelings.
I've lied too much to these people that I don't even know the real truth of myself.

>>34453731
Then show up. Add me on discord

I'm so fucking sick of hearing and reading about people who always say, "Your person will find you" or "it'll happen some day"

Every fucking girl I've had feelings for did not reciprocate. Every single one. I'm tired of being perpetually single at nearly 30 years old and people just trying to comfort me by saying it'll happen some day, because it fucking won't.

I'm just so fucking mad, man. Why the fuck didn't she like me back? Why couldn't I just get lucky this one, single time? I'm not mad at her, I'm just mad at life. I'm a literal incel but I don't hate women, I take care of myself, I go out, I have friends, but I get no fucking interest reciprocated back. What am I doing wrong? Am I just getting super unlucky with the girls I develop feelings for?

Massive crush on a coworker, been texting back and forth constantly, and when I finally tell her, she tells me she doesn't date coworkers and says she's really sorry and feels bad turning me down. Im not mad at her, and I understand why, but I just don't understand why the universe couldn't just let me get this one win.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't get her out of my mind. I'm fucking obsessed with her and just want to spend any and all time I can with her. I'm just so starved for attention that I must be blowing these feelings out of proportion.

Just please, please, please give me a shot F. Please. I promise you, we'd be great together.

I feel just too unstable to find someone. But i guess the show will go on.

>>34453759
You're probably not her, so...

Maybe because I bombed that technical interview, but yeah I really just can't survive in this ecosystem even if I tried. All this dog brain is accomplishing is basic cravings and vices. No critical thought, just repetition until the plan fails.

>>34453765
Nope I'm a man

I get pissed off very easily because I don't ever have an easy comeback to go against. If you flame me, there's already a degree to the stuff that you say or something so vile that you say that, 9 times out of 10 I say something significantly less funny and less of a blow.

lol, fart

Should I finish watching Lucifer? I still haven't finished the comic.

And I don't get why they keep calling me to all of these games.
When I want to play a game, it's not about just having fun with friends, or (more likely due to my lack of skills), they just clown me and feed more depression into my soul.
And they KNOW that I suck at everything. Why do they always insist on embarrass beside it being that I'm their charity case..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zLWwGQf7v8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrkEc2V3mO4

things ended with my highschool girlfriend five years ago, we were together for two, I had many firsts with her. Things ended pretty nastily, she didnt cheat or anything, i just had to leave home for a couple of months and she moved on after a good while. It was nasty because before I left home I would get anxious about the future and as a result I would get more sexual, I always asked for consent, but it did get intense, and often she would say yest out of feeling it was her "responsibility." In my last letter to her she responded by revealing that she felt she had been assaulted by me almost daily for the last 4-6 months of our relationship. I spent years trying not to hate myself for what happened and for all the troubles that came into her life because of my actions. Her family defended me for some reason, and I've learned to understand I'm no monster. Five years later, I've dated around a lot, nearly been married, etc. In all the women I've loved since her, I find that I'm not looking for her and I see these woman for who they are and I love them for that. Despite all of this, I still miss her, but shes changed, and I am not trying to be in love with the memory of someone who was a teenager last I saw her, so I move forward. I've seen photos of her since, and shes aged poorly, the people that know her now are surprised we used to be a thing considering they think shes crazy, but it used to be the other way around. Life is weird, she's someone entirely different now, as am I, and I've found that part of me still misses her, part of me is in love with a ghost.

>>34453848
>5 years
Not reading a demoralization larp

>>34453860
needed that, thank you, I will now run several miles

im pushing 30, i'm unemployed, i don't have a car, i'm barely passing my degree, i'm overweight, i'm mentally ill and i miss the hospital. how do you recover from this and find people that don't just want to hurt you or is it just over?

>>34453890
Not over. Start new where you are at and be that person to yourself

>>34453864
Yeah just manipulative shit to make you think badly of the sun

>>34453651
because he asked me and I'm a dumb ass and compared it to the part where he gets bitten by the spider in Spiderman into the Spiderverse (as in the scene is 10% through the run time and when the movie ends he dies). At the time I thought it was a good comparison because the movie is long, as opposed to like 6 seconds on a one minute microwave timer which was my first thought.

Anyway I fixed it by telling him that he could be even 90 or one hundred years old by being active and eating a healthy diet. That's 20 extra years he gets to enjoy and he can't even fully comprehend 20 years so it feels like I just doubled his lifespan

I am an abusive parent. They'd be better off if I just left. No one else will get it but all I can do is abandon ship, just pretend they were dead and I'm dead to them.

I need a job that starts at 6 AM. I wake up at 5 anyway. So it just feels like wasted hours. I'm not some coffee addict that needs to "wake up" for hours. I just want to get out of bed, get dressed, and get the day over with. Then get home by 2 or 3 and have a huge time of freedom.
I actually don't have a typical, set hours wagie job. But what I currently do always involves interacting with people at their homes, so I can't knock on doors at 6 AM. Sometimes I wonder if having a wagie job at an actual location that starts at 6 would be better.

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I don't think I will live much longer. I'm content and calm when thinking about ending my life. My inner monologue, which used to come up with excuses, is quieter. It's almost like the survival instinct deep in my conscience is finally tired. I was only able to overcome that when I was extremely stressed out and suicidal, but now it's no longer there, even when I'm normal.
I feel strangely calm. I got a poison about a year ago that'll do the job relatively painlessly.

I tried hard, anons, I really did. Life chipped at me little by little over the years. Although I don't have frens IRL, talking to anons on the internet made the loneliness bearable. I hope everyone has a great life full of happiness. Thanks for being my frens.

Come on, Universe. Let her answer, please. Just one last shot and I'll find a way to save earth or humanity or something.

How do you fix being hypersensitive? I am tired of getting too emotionally volatile against my friends when they make fun of me.

>>34454177
Consider their feelings, take the high road, and try to be "good".

I'm scared man, really scared, my gut is tying itself into knots, all this push for age verification across the globe is stressing me the fuck out whenever some new thing comes out about something new being put in it genuinely frightens me, the internet is my only outlet for expressing myself and I do not trust any of those pedo protectors to safeguard that information if it becomes the standard for everything I think I'll end up just killing myself

I genuinely hope people like zuckerborg get sent to hell.

I miss caring about things.

>>34454181
I know their feelings. I know they want to instigate to try to get me pissed off is the thing. If I was the better man, I would just avoid talking with them.
But the thing is, that's technically with most of my friends anyways.

>>34454183
Especially since so many people have taken refuge online since covid, plus now we have AI psychosis, and mental health resources still haven't remotely caught up with demand
Now is not a good time to force a bunch of peak-illness paranoid wackos back out into the world interacting with people
>t. peak-illness paranoid wacko

all i want to do is fuck redheads, eat general tsos chicken, drink vodka with arnold palmer, go skiing, go to the beach, and watch asmongold

My boss is a glorified email forwarder who is exploiting his position to "work" from home while delegating literally every task he is assigned to me. On top of me doing everything else, he expects me to learn website development as well on my free time. If I rat him out for being a slimy useless fuck, his boss will just force him to come into the office, where he will continue to do nothing and be mad that I ruined his WFH setup.

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>good looking person talks about sadness
I get so mad at this kind of thing. I guarantee you women have given this guy attention without him even doing anything. Step one, be attractive

>>34454386
This is attractive?
Then I must be a Playgirl model.

>>34454183
>I genuinely hope people like zuckerborg get sent to hell.
I doubt you have much to worry about there

I hope I didn't ruin my chances.

>>34454387
Right? Guy looks like a cankerous foot

>>34454386
Hey wtf I saw this guys video and closed it. Now I feel like that paranoid guy.

There are no copes left

>>34454386
Meh, he could be 5'7"

>>34454474
>>34454387
I only know the thumbnail, but his chin is on point

Not really. I miss where I used to live already.

I'm struggling to get hired even though I have years of experience and certifications on my resume in manufacturing. I have a feeling it's because I tell hiring managers that I got let go because I wasn't a good fit for the team.

In reality, a clique of mean girls did not like me in the first place and reported me to HR for minor stuff (being late, not restocking supplies, communication issues, etc.) and blowing it up to be a major workplace violation. Even though I worked on my faults and changed to make their jobs easier, the girls on the team and their manager friend still wanted me gone and rallied almost everyone against me including HR. Most likely they saw me as a threat to their success. Never had any problems with anyone else in the company until I got transferred to their department. The kicker was that I was employed at that company LONGER than the girls and their manager. The upper managers transferred me to them because they needed help and I had transferrable skills. Now they kick me to the curb before Thanksgiving based on hearsay.

I can't wait for universal basic income become a thing.

>>34454612
God, I really didn’t want this day to come. I just wanna cry.

>depressed
>lonely
>heartbroken

At least I'm not stranded for cash and people generally like me.


>>34454569
I'm that height too and not even close to good looking so I can't relate to good looking manlets.

If there are barely any actual people left here like people love to claim, where the fuck are all the real people at? Inb4 dead internet theory.

>>34454692
What are you talking about

>>34454692
People LURK now

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I'm turning 30 and I'm noticing brown spots appear on my face. I'm panicking.

>>34454861
Kek. Wear sunscreen. You'll be okay.

>>34454867
Can I get rid of them? I also noticed a lot of my cuts and other things are now also leaving spots everywhere for months now. Will daily sunscreen and moisturizing cream fix it?

>>34454874
There's scar sheets for your cuts. You have stop harming yourself

>>34454897
I had a suicide attempt during covid but I haven't done self-harm ever since. I've gotten back to martial arts though and a lot of skin tearing that I thought would heal never did. I also know nothing about skincare but I notice rashes appear after masturbating and I've been doing that a bit too much lately. I'm just scared it's beyond repair.

>>34454909
Masturbation will make you age faster, do that less.

>>34454923
Lying liar anon, stop lying.

>>34454923
Science behind it? I'm trying to get myself into hobbies but mommy asmr is the closest thing I'm going to have to a loving female connection for at least the next few years (I'm only now starting to not be broke) and whenever I am not physically working it's all I can think about.

I'm hoping there are supplements or something that can at least mitigate what I cum out or something in the meantime.

>>34454925
It does. Stop cooming so much and go outside. Or just jerk until your skin dries up and your hair falls out.

>>34454931
I don't masturbate. You're spreading lies, do you have any evidence to support your claims

>>34454931
I've noticed these skin problems as soon as I've gone outside. I'm physically active which makes me horny all the time and since I do martial arts I end up with bruises. I'm scared because they're not healing and now causing blemishes on my face that will destroy the one attractive thing about me.

When a guy tells you to suck that dick, he expects you to put in some actual effort and do a good fucking job! There is nothing worse than a sad bj.

>>34454938
Use sensitive cleansers. Make sure to wash your pillow sheets/pillows. Do you eat a lot of protein?

>>34454929
That is a fate you decided for yourself and spoke into reality. You could have female connection but you choose to play that loser character in life, so you sabotage yourself. The science is looking at a coomer vs looking at a chad that has healthy sex. Obvious difference that instinct picks up on immediately.
And stop enabling squirrel brain behavior acting like desire has power over you. Also no asmr is real, you are choosing to be soothed my blatant lies made to make you a comfy addict. Get real

>>34454936
Yeah go tf outside and stop cooming. All the evidence you need.

>>34454941
I will leave midway.

>>34454945
I just told you I don't masturbate. I don't go outside. Perhaps take your own advice. Holmes

>>34454955
Bitch stfu. Go lie to the mirror.
>muh comfy message board will validate my pathetic bullshit
Go jerk off then, more women for the rest of us.

>>34454941
I literally had to tell a girl I was messing with once that I'm taking the cock away from her. She was so bad and lackluster that I actually lost interest in fucking her. Never before or after has that ever happened.

>>34454960
I do go outside. Why do you troll a lot. Does trolling give you endorphins or something? Were you always a bully troll irl too? You are an asshole douchebag

>>34454942
My average meal is 2-3 eggs, a bowl of rice with some beef, a granola bar, a glass of juice, and every other day I usually have one slop meal. Eggs are pretty protein dense, though I haven't been drinking milk like I used to and I've been skipping on protein powder because it makes me extremely thirsty and I already suffer from dehydration problems.
>>34454944
I don't know how to fix it in a way that doesn't destroy my life. I want a meaningful relationship and masturbation seems better than casual sex. I also have an invasive family who has and will go out of their way to mess with my jobs or women if they don't like them. I am not even mad about it, I just focus on my work and even if I could get a woman that's a turn off because my work is a passion of mine and not one that makes a ton of money.

>>34454968
I will weep with you anon. Lets fall asleep to mommy asmr.

>>34454941
Well instruct her how to suck your cock. Jeez

I genuinely hate them

i'd rather be happily in love than have a successful career, but as it stands my career looks more promising than my love life and it just doesn't really do anything for me. it just seems so pointless beyond being able to pay my rent.

>>34455003
My career is mostly related to humanitarian work so I cope and say it's better. Moreover though I don't think women are into romantic love even if I was in a situation where I could find one.

>>34454994
Who

>>34455010
i am just tired, it's never easy, it never works out, i just keep going because there is nothing else to do, i am also an idiot and should care less but i don't , i want to have another shot with her

>>34454208
OH, trust me, I GET IT. You wouldn't believe me if I told you, nor would either of us have the time.

>>34455031
You are in love with an idea and not a person. Just let her go already.

>>34455031
Maybe she wants to be with you too but is afraid of fucking up again.

>>34454994
Stop being so hateful

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>>34454622
>I tell hiring managers that I got let go because I wasn't a good fit for the team.

bruh everyone lies at interviews. lie about stuff the hiring managers can't verify. say you got laid off, company restructuring, or role being eliminated. these days companies can only say when you worked and what your job title was. being honest is not going to help you in this shitty economy.

I just want to fuck a sexdoll in my studio apartment while i'm high on weed.

> Be me, 28-year-old anon
> Have this younger sister, let's call her Sarah
> We've been inseparable since we were little kids
> Always had a special bond, but never thought much of it
> Head off to college, leaving Sarah behind
> College life is a whirlwind, meet new people, have new experiences
> But something feels off, like there's a void in my heart
> Can't shake this feeling of loneliness
> Christmas break rolls around, finally get to go back home
> Excited to see family, especially Sarah
> Arrive at my childhood home, everything feels nostalgic
> Decide to invite Sarah to hang out, catch up on old times
> She agrees, seems just as excited as I am
> Meet up at our favorite spot, the old treehouse in our backyard
> Start reminiscing about all the crazy things we did as kids
> Suddenly, Sarah looks at me with these eyes, full of emotion
> She confesses that she's always loved me
> My heart skips a beat, I can't believe what I'm hearing
> All those years, I never realized she felt the same way
> Feelings rush over me like a tidal wave
> We lean in, share our first kiss under the moonlight
> It's like fireworks exploding in my chest, pure bliss
> From that moment on, we become a couple
> Spend the rest of the break together, inseparable
> Realize that the void in my heart was her all along
> College becomes a little easier, knowing I have her waiting for me
> Every time we reunite, it feels like coming home
> And to think, it all started with a childhood bond
> Life is unpredictable, but sometimes, it gives you the greatest gifts
> Sarah is my greatest gift, and I'll cherish her forever

I know you don't want anything to do with me and I won't bother you anymore but deep in my heart I'd would like to be in your life again

>>34454612
I don't. I feel free.

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Man oh man. What a pitiful person. Whining to a manager to get what she wants so much the manager is worried about the special treatment will get them in trouble. I supposed the universe really does give you everything you need to know if you just watch. Can't believe I was interested in her.

>>34455223
Just contact them.

>>34455076
Demoralization campaign

>>34455265
>>34455097
Push and pull until you get what you want huh

>>34455266
I did one month ago, after we were broken up for two months and they said that didn't want to see me. So I won't embarass myself again and just leave them alone

I tried something creative with my girlfriend and she ended up trying to orchestrate the entire thing, telling me everything I should do, instead of going with the flow and having fun while I just sat there clueless despite being the one with the talent to actually make the thing.

>>34454942
Also looking back at this I realize I've been sleeping on the floor a ton lately. I never really took the idea of beauty sleep terribly but I don't want to look like I have lepers by the time I hit 35.

>>34455265
yea being vocal about issues at work can be a double edged sword. if your manager likes you, then they'll try to fix it. if your manager dislikes you, then you come off as a insubordinate nuisance who will get laid off the first chance they get.

fyi: most places don't do anything employee favoritism or care to.

>>34455316
I mean i get it and i wasn't going to do anything about it but the girl that was whining to get what she wants was someone i was interested in and it just flipped the whole script on me seeing her as someone who exploits being liked by a manager so much it could get that manager in trouble. To be honest i detest people like that.

>>34455328
What did they ask the manager to do?

I cleared some more of my room and now most of the random ass cables fit in the closet. I have much better walking room near the bed too instead of the dirty cloths taking up half of the way. And once I upgrade my PC, I will have a perfect place for it. I'd say it was good progress. It's vidya time.

>>34455360
I don't really want to get into it since it isn't something i can do anything about. Though honestly since a few months back i got a promotion and that girl was a department manager and i had to deal with issues caused by her people often enough i'd already lost most respect i'd had for her and this was just the last bit being cratered.

i don't love you because you make an hourly wage

>>34455398
Damn you're one of those

>>34455398
What if I quit my job?

>>34455268
Reality if often demoralizing

>>34455402
>>34455406
Let her live, man, leave her to her delusions.

>>34455378
what in fresh hell is this!?! you were going to risk your job as a manager in this economy pursuing this chick. bullet dodged. you found out that you 2 aren't compatible and you get to avoid losing your job by dating a co-worker.

honestly, she sounds somewhat insufferable.

>>34455418
I wouldn't do it even if it was Snood.

>>34455426
I would

>>34455429
Yeah, but you care.

We can build this up, like a fit shoulder
But for real, though, gotta get colder

>>34455418
Yeah i get it i was retarded. Thankfully whatever guardian force is in the universe conspired to save me from myself. I really should have known since i always had a bad gut feeling about her but i never could figure out why enough to trust it.

these autistic adhd ocd white men from 4chan dot org have me sliding down the wall crying fetal position on the bathroom floor screaming WHY GOD WHYYYYYYYYY

I'm not like these dudes puffing to live
I won't give up, even if I have nothing to give

>>34455408
Your lies are not reality

>>34454702
If you lurked like >>34454713 seems to be suggesting, you would know. Every so often people post about how this site's been taken over by bots or whatever. I think botposting happens, but there are too many humans out there for there not to be a significant number on this site.

4 years ago a meet someone around September that was about to turn 17 in December at the time and I turn 20 in July ,we talk for a while and we decided to meet up in some park, everything was find until out of nowhere she leans to me and kiss me and let her do that after a we were like that for several minutes after that we just go to our homes and I come to the realization that I did something fucked up I tell her her for chat that I didn't want to do that again and block her since then I really feel to guilty about it I shouldn't do that and I wish never happen but I have live with that mistake for my entire life

Holy fuck am I glad the last GIOYC thread is finally dead.

>was she diagnosed
Idk, prob diagnosed herself and used it as an excuse ever since.

>>34455531
who are you replying to?

GIOYC should get its own board

>>34455535
It and the Letter Threads and whatever weird venty general should.
Or at least a couple threads on /soc/ that aren't penises, tits, and discords.

>>34455531
But did she say she had bpd or you're just assuming?

>>34455535
You should get your own whored.

>>34455548
She's said it but she has also said quite a lot that just was not true

get it off your chest, april 22, 2026 AD
========
my Mom called to tell me that our youngest cat (15yo) had to be put down on monday. i suspect she delayed due to knowing that i'm swamped with work and her own exhaustion in the aftermath.
now that she is gone, really the only person left who I really love is my Mom, and after she has to leave, I'll have no one. I have some other family members who I am on good terms with and wish them well, one of whom I'm likely to grant everything in my will considering I won't ever get married or have children due to my dysgenics. but regardless while I don't want them to feel bad if I repaint a wall, it's not going to stop me like how i would for my Mom.
I really wish i was one of my Mom's miscarriages rather than whatever i am now. I feel awful that I've caused her and other people to have imprinted onto me, a monstrous freak that wouldn't exist if there actually was a god watching over earth.
learning of my cat's death didn't alone make me think these thoughts, they were already constant for the past few years. that said, her departure does reinforce them. I'd be less morose if i could tell myself that while bad things are a fact of life, there will also be good. I have had good things happen to me before, but all in the past tense. The few good things remaining are past tense goods things that are still endure as of now, but it is a fact of life that things have to die at some point. if things weren't hopeless, just as bad things can spawn, good can be born too. while the pain of good dying never fully goes away, the love in your heart for them also persists, and the new good would only increase the love inside you. perhaps you'd always just barely break even, but to loved and lost and all that.
but i know that i ran out of new good at least a decade ago. i'll cherish what's left for as long as i can but once they can no longer stay, i'm probably going to head out myself, too.

>>34455604
oops didn't mean to have the first two lines those were copy pasted from the notepad. sorry about that

It is funny how I knew exactly what would happen if I started a relationship with that woman. She herself warned me.
And still, years later when every single fear I had came true, when it is painfully obvious that she does not like me as much as she claimed, that I am hardly special compared to everyone else she was with, that once it inevitably ends I will be just another clown in her collection, it hurts.

I fucking hate being right about everything. I wish people would surprise me for once.

>>34455612
She did want you. You're just taking everything out of context because you're paranoid. She loves you.

>>34455458
White guilt hands typed this.
Also ywnbaw.

how could he leave me for a dominican. A DOMINICAN

>>34455639
Because she's part nig

>>34455639
The pussy must be fire.

>>34452234
This isn't a racism bit. I fucking hate niggers. I hate living with them in an HMO I hate that I've condemned myself to this fate I hate I have no family no friends no fucking job and when I see when I walk into the kitchen it's fucking egg shells, red onion, fucking sticky floors, vegetable oils quadruple diluted washing up liquid when there's literally a shop around the corner and it's EVERYWHERE I cannot stop myself from thinking of just fucking snapping, breaking shit I can't take it any more I can't fuck I HATE LIVING IN THE UK
I HATE THE UK FUCKKKKKKKK FUCKKKKKKKK AHHHHHHHH HH GET ME OUTTTT OF THIS FUCKING SHIT HOLE NATION FUCKKKKKKKK
AHHHHHGGHHHHHHHHHHH

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fsqrDUs7G50

>>34455626
It's like you didn't read a word of what that anon wrote and made a massive assumption based on Jack shit

>>34455665
Doubt it based in the fact

>>34455762
Then why is he with her and not with you?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kG9kstcoAI

I'm so fucking sick of this site.

>>34455770
Why?

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There's a short scifi story called "Beyond the Aquilla Rift", where a man wakes up from cryosleep and finds that he's on a space station with all possible amenities, and for some reason his long lost love in inexplicably there and willing to lavish hours and hours of sexual bliss on him. He eventually figures out that this is a matrix set up, and she comes clean and tells him what's going on. His real body has been drifting in deep space, something went wrong with wormhole shenanigans, and now he's unconscious in this deep space lifeform's nest while she tends to his every biological need outside, and keeps his mind sedated in paradise until he passes away peacefully, using the psionic powers her kind naturally has. There is no hope of him returning home, no way to create a worm hole. This is literally the most peaceful end he can hope for.
He insists on waking up and seeing where he is, seeing her, and flips out when she tells him he's not going to survive it with his sanity in tact, so she lets him wake, and he ends up having to be put back under sedation, at the beginning of his hallucination, with his memory wiped, because the simple sight of the alien horror breaks him. He wakes up an old man and sees that he doesn't have a hope.

And for some reason, I can't help but see parallels between that and my life right now, my job and marriage. I grew up so miserable and lonely, and I've been slowly coming out of this sort of neglected child stupor, and I remember so clearly what drove me out of it was just having a place to be. I wanted a family.

Now I'm in a job that I don't hate, but I don't care about, married to a woman I love, but has all sorts of insecurities about her appearance and may well be infertile. 32 years-old, but I don't think I'm any closer to beating this thing that just made me so sad in the first place, and now death beckons. It lurks in every aching joint and every "that didn't do that before," moment.

It's suffocating.

Is it a good idea to live my life like it's the 2000s?

>>34455797
Depends on if you're Sheldon Cooper.

>>34455770
I felt like that at one point, I tried leaving 4chan many times but always ended up returning because the alternative is a lot worse, other websites have insane censorship and are filled with bots, making them feel artificial. On here, people are at least honest with you. You don't need to create an account to post here, you can say whatever the fuck you want. Isn't it nice to be able to vent while anonymous?

Hit or miss...

>>34455856
>On here, people are at least honest with you
I wouldn't call glowies honest.

>>34455856
Anonymous sperging isn't exactly what I'd call honest. It's psychic gas in the purest sense. The narrative is that it's hard truth that nobody has the balls to put their name on, but the reality is that it's lurking darkness that nobody wants to taint their sense of self with.

>>34455856
>people are at least honest with you
I personally spread lies and misinformation as much as I can and I make sure to phrase it with a mix of detached objectivity and earnest sincerity. I also give advice to people I know with the intention to fuck things up just so it can be a source of entertainment for myself. I'd say this is common. Truth is no matter where you go online or offline you have to use your brain and read between the lines and extrapolate information yourself so what difference does it make whether you're being racist on here or dictionary dot com?
>you can say whatever the fuck you want
I get banned for saying things like "I notice black people don't enjoy fried chicken as much as I thought" on here

>>34455946
And imagine this, when someone does sign every post with a trip then they are attacked by those who only want to take advantage using the anonymity to manipulate others

I hope I didn't blow my chance with you.

oh but you did, n.

Oh yes son I'm talking to you

It's funny I'm remembering how you were telling me about how you wished you were special and I just can't understand why /you/ of all people would have that desire. After talking to other people I realized you are just the default generic guy. To the point where I can't really tell you apart from everyone else. They talk just like you, they like the same things, they think the same thoughts and have the same insecurities and visions. The affection you gave me is not any better than what everyone gives me either. I'm not saying this with spite or anything, it's just something I observed. You are just rather forgettable no matter how hard you tried to be quirky

I sent a message and request to what I think is your discord. Yes, I'm talking to you if you are still there. I'm sorry how long it has taken. I hope if we don't find each other again that you live an amazing life. I'm pretty sure that I love you. I'm such an idiot.

>>34456177
Initials?

>>34456177
wrong discord, send the message and request again please

>>34456190
Whose? I think her brothers told me it was A.L., but I'm not sure. So much information was being dumped at once that I kind of got overwhelmed and it took a long time to process. I know we've had a lot of missed connections, I think she's been stalking me, and so much more.

the drugs permanently fried my brain. i think i was aware that it had consequences but i forgot while i was on them i guess. i'm forgetting it again right now

>>34456190
>>34456212
I don't know what discord. I think I sent it to the right one. Please tell me another if not and you are her. Sorry if I got your initials wrong if you are her. We kind of met under strange circumstances. Sorry. I'm not even sure that you are her.

God, please, I hope I did not mess this up.

oh my god

>>34456190
>>34456218
If I got your initials wrong and you are her please don't think that means I don't care. I care.

I know you are here and I know you are reading my messages. I know you know I am writing this to you. I am talking to YOU

Please, just one miracle and one last forgiveness.

>>34456242
Why would she forgive you?

>>34456244
Because I was ignorant and not ready and will do whatever she wants. Sorry. It's hard to write as well or think when I care about something this much. I don't want to scare her away though either. Balance or something.

If you think about it 30 is middle aged. If you're 30 twice you're 60, if you're 35 twice you're 70, and 60-70 is a pretty reasonable age to pass away I would say. 30-35 is pretty much the point where things go downhill

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>>34456259
>60-70
>67

A woman's time is her most valuable thing. Things like "I wasn't ready" "I wasn't sure" "I just needed time to prepare" are a massive risk and if you think about it, a very disrespectful excuse. Especially when those things carry the chance that he might decide not to after all.

>>34456263
Okay this is the first time I thought the meme was funny. I get it now. Actually holy shit this is hilarious. LMFAOOOOOO+O

I just want to make you happy, and I hope you are happy without me if that's how it has to be. Thanks for loving me for a time. Sorry if I wasted your time. I don't know how I can make that up to you, but would be willing to listen. Ah jeez, I'm so lame. Sorry.

Sometimes the best apology you can give to someone is to just kill yourself with a big sword

>>34456276
It's now her decision. I am committed. I believe the story seems very empathizable from my position. Sorry, if I was stupid.

>>34456284
I SHOULD probably find out how she feels first.

>>34456291
Let's just assume the worst

>>34456296
I'll consider it as a backup plan if all else fails.

In the time you spent to send me 1000+ messages you could've, I don't know, offered a sincere apology or something. Or tell me your plans to fix things. Please I just wish you'd say something sincere and meaningful. I mean genuinely meaningful not stuff like I miss you and I'm thinking about you. Do you know how many excuses I make on your behalf? I give you so much more chances than you realize. Even now I'm on my knees praying you'd just act right and do just one thing that gives me hope. I WANT to be with you but you make it so hard for me. It kills me to hate you but loving you is worse.

Think nigga THINK oh my goooooood THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINK!!!!!! IT'S RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This must be how my dad felt when I asked him to help me with my math homework when I was a kid

imagine you punch someone in the face, call their mom a ho, slay their whole clan and they stop talking to you and you go can you tell me what i did wrong? i don't know what i did, you can't expect me to be a mind reader.

it doesn't matter at a certain point if they're truly ignorant or a manipulative piece of shit. who cares if it's autism or every cluster B personality disorder, it looks the same from the victim's pov. i can't care too much about your intentions if your actions are abusive either way

SNAKES. SNAKES in the grass everywhere but guess what here I come with the lawnmower BITCH!!!

i have your post about me in the archives bookmarked and i keep going back to look at it. i wish i could respond to it and you could see it and it would mean we could talk to each other again somehow but i'm 99.99999999999999% sure you don't even remember you wrote that and there's no way you have your own archived post about me bookmarked. you weren't even trying to talk to me you were just talking about me. i just wish you knew i saw it the moment you posted it. in fact one the replies was me but i didn't reveal it and you didn't respond. crazy how this stuff works right

Wish I could at least know what was that thing you used. I'd go to the store and buy it so I could smell you again

Crazy how life works. I love you. Sorry. I'm here if you ever need me. Sorry if I got any information wrong. If we started hanging out I would never forget or not know a single thing about you for the rest of your life, but no pressure. Have a good one.

>>34456306
Why do you have to choose between love and hate? You can forgive someone even if they don't formally apologize. You don't have to love them, but you don't have to hate them.

>>34456337
What's stopping you from reaching out outside of this website? No contact info?

Sorry I took too long. I'll be back soon, but I wouldn't blame you if you looked elsewhere.

I'm not looking elsewhere

>>34456345
Hating them is the thing that will drive me away from them. I need it to protect myself otherwise I'd just get pulled in again.

you are a little bitch. but i do care

I would talk to you again, easily. It's not like it takes much out of me to just talk. You know I like being difficult though and I love these little games. Try harder and I'll answer. I want to see you get creative

>>34456396
I found someone I don't have to jump through hoops for and who's actually excited to hear from me. Good luck!

are you seriously forgetting what you did to me? YOU were the one who left ME for ANOTHER WOMAN. HELLO???

Is a relationship supposed to feel like you're one wrong move from being crushed beneath the weight of second-guessing yourself and trying to do everything right?

In my case

>>34456239
If you were you would add me on discord that starts with a f

>>34456242
I pray every day

>>34456256
Difficult to do but I've tried my best down long time for her

>>34456276
Everyone's time is valuable. I've kept mine for her despite the years

>>34456410
I live in constant fear he will make one wrong move, step on a landmine and completely obliterate everything I built and worked for. Feeling like fate is up to you feels empowering, can you imagine the opposite? I do everything right but that won't save me from just one wrong move from an idiot

>>34456415
It's terrifying for me. I can imagine the opposite though. I've already lost my job and I feel like I took a risk for love that may not be paying the dividends I expected.

>>34456410
early dating feels like that for me, relationships don't

>>34456419
It gets easier once you're in a relationship?

None of us know what will happen in the end. We just have to march on and see what happens. Until then I am still ghosting you

>>34456417
are you someone i know? i know a guy who just quit his shitty 24/7 wage slave job and has something going on about a girl too. he doesn't know that i'm talking to her and that's why she's not talking to him right now.

>>34456429
Lol no, I was a software engineer. The emotional weight of the relationship took a toll on me in addition to my poor sleep and I got fired last year.

I recognize someone in this thread

I didn't know you came here

I love you and hope you live a happy life.

*avoids you*

True, true

what's funny is i could just talk to you again. you are but a click away. i think you think i don't have access to any of my accounts anymore but i do. i look at them a lot actually. sometimes i just sit there and look at the chat without reading anything. to just reminisce. i look at our pfps. it's funny how i could just say hi and i know we'd go back to talking like we never spent any time apart. it's just funny how physically it's not like i was "away", i always have access to a screen one way or another and i pretty much always will. you are always right there with me even if you might feel like we're worlds away. you're missing someone who is essentially standing right behind you. you ever think about that

>>34456423
>>34456433
>>34456436
Who

>>34456453
just read this in an owl's voice

>>34456423
>>34456429
>>34456436
Demoralization larp and attempt at influence

>>34455775
>>34455856
People here are contrarian jerks who all speak in annoying lingo, and the worst part is that there's no good alternative. That's why I'm sick of this site even though I keep coming back to it.
>>34456077
Sounds like you're part of the problem. I hate that you exist.

The Emperor of Mankind said that the only true knowledge is self-knowledge, anyway. Other hylics are for having fun and sharing memes o algo.

>>34455797
It's a nice fantasy, but it's impossible in this current age.

>>34456450
It's like that until they disappear and are gone forever. Death is the great divide

My relationship has improved since instead of getting pissy at my bf every time he does or says something stupid or spending my own time ruminating and crying over it I just strip on cam for other guys. It works twofold, I "get back" at my bf and get hyped up/feel wanted again especially if the problem was he made me feel ugly or neglected. The first time I did it some part of me was hoping I'd regret it and just feel dirty instead but surprisingly I don't at all. There's zero guilt. After all I'm just some rando to them and they're just some rando to me, this is just over the internet, usually we're countries apart and he barely speaks English or something. I don't even do it twice with the same guy. I block and even report/get them banned if they send explicit messages after. And it truly just cures whatever thing I was angry about, I completely forget what it even was after. And yes I'm not stupid I know this sounds horrible to everyone else, I know it's "bad" but I'm so happy I found something that just works perfectly. I'm just happy now. Yay

I thought my fiance's family liked me, or at least didn't mind. But we went on a nice vacation (that I paid into more than my fair share). I mentioned I was gonna steal their sister away for one day out of the itinerary. She wanted to go to the beach, they didn't. Thought it would be fine, they could go shopping. Half way through the week, they blew up and screamed at me in the main entrace of the resort. Saying I was being mean and rude and all sorts of other stuff. I apologized and said it was probably just a miscommunication, and that I really wasn't trying to be rude, but could see how it came off that way (what's a joke to me, isn't to others, etc).

So, they cancel the day's plans, and I go back up to our room, my fiance is siding with her sisters, for some reason, saying that she understands what they mean, but never said anything about it, and seemed happy to go out with me to do what she wanted. So, we talked and I messaged her sisters asking if we could sit down and figure it out. 6 hours later they reply and we go sit at the cafe and talk.
They say "I hope your marriage fails, I don't wish ill on my sister but I hope the worst for you, I hope you die, you're disgusting". Completely out of fucking nowhere. I just sit there and say "I don't agree but I'm sorry you feel that way, I was hoping we could be friendly" and the sisters just smile, a smirk and go "no I don't want that, I don't want to ever see you again, I hope your marriage fails and your life is ruined".

I'm still mad. It happened 6 months ago and I'm still fuckin PISSED. I've helped put money into the condo my fiance owns (thankfully I'm named on the title) and my fiance is trying to tell me that her sister wants to fly her boyfriend in from out of country and stay in one of the rooms while they handle a marriage cert. I'm just, I don't know. It's a rage in my stomach. The sisters both apologized to me, but that's a really fucked up thing, right? I'm not crazy?

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On top of that, on the way out of the town, one of the sisters left, leaving me and my fiance and the other sister to babysit the elderly mom on the way back. I had to sit there and play nice which was stomach churning but whatever, you do it because you love. But when I was talking to the mom and said "You know I've been dating your daughter a long time, I already proposed but I'd like to get your blessing." and you know what she said? "She's an adult, I don't care." Not even just a "sure", straight up didn't care.
I'm so torn between emotions desu. I've spent 4 years building up this relationship and now the thought of being around these people that despise me so much is actively fucking with me. I literally have no life and would probably have to end it if we didn't work out, but I also don't know that I could handle being there, around them, so long, all the time (because they all still mooch off my fiance, of course).

Fucking hell I feel like a pussy for not speaking up, but what does that get me? It gets me nothing but them being angry and trying to turn her against me. I can't even say I trust her to not fall for their shit, maybe it's not meant to be. Maybe I'm meant to take these few years as my good karma in life and then just fucking die.
Sorry for double posting.

And I lowered my standards for you too

After several years together, a broken engagement, and a few months waffling about, she and I have officially decided to cut contact. There is no animosity or anything, but it is also a very somber feeling to be closing the chapter like this.

She feels we've become too different in general and does not want a future together at this time.

What was it all for?

i need to learn how to drive. i need to get a driver's license. then i need to get a car. i could always just hop in my car. i could just drive away. i need a car

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>>34456546
I genuinely don't understand what you are mad about. Sorry but I'm taking their side on this. It does sound like some miscommunication thing or there's important stuff you're leaving out

I can't stop thinking about you. I hate you so much. And I love you so much. Every time I look at your eyes I just get lost within the void within the ocean of your eyes. The only way I can get over you is if you get with someone. But not me.

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What's wrong with boomers, what's wrong with narcissistic parents
I will never understand birthing a child and treating it like shit, taking 100€ single session of sauna or massages while they can barely survive on their own while giving them nothing, or having an anxiety attack and denying everything when you ask them about all the abuse they did in your childhood while they claim they don't remember any of it

Fuck them all

>>34456560
Out of nowhere, on a vacation trip with my fiance and her family, the sisters, for no reason I can discern, started saying they hope our relationship fails. The only thing I could get out of them is that I jokingly said "I'm stealing your sister away for a night" earlier in the trip. They both stated they wish ill upon me, they hope I die.
Then they backpedalled about a week later, saying "they realize they were overreactive" but that shit really sort of stuck with me. I can't get it out of my head months later. If someone feels that strongly about me, do I want to be there? Will I be able to live there or will they take steps to fuck my life up? Will they try to turn her against me? Have they already?
It's probably paranoia, but that's why I'm just venting here. There is no "other side of the story" I didn't do anything and didn't even talk to them beyond that one line. And we'd been perfectly genial to one another beforehand. It completely blindsided me.

i want to tell you the truth: i hate your taste in music. i wish you'd stop sending me songs. i hated every song you've ever sent me. not just found boring but it's actually difficult to come up with music this bad. it's the kind of music where if you came across in the wild you'd stop for a second and wonder what kind of person listens to this shit?

I'm always wary when someone says they were blindsided by someone getting mad at them or leaving them out of nowhere

Could someone know when I'm actively on my phone? I woke up to go to the bathroom, get water etc and picked up my phone to listen to a video and this guy messaged me on whatsapp like quite literally as soon as I started using my phone. The message wasn't delayed because my phone was hibernating as I slept either... he just "happened" to text me the minute I started using my phone. And this has happened before, several times where he coincidentally messages me after I get up from sleeping before I can message him. I have my last seen off and you can't see what I'm typing. I feel kinda paranoid about it.

>>34456564
And if you are her, you know we are made for each other. -amithyst

>>34456591
telepathy is real

>>34456576
Who

>>34456576
Agreed, The music that keeps being posted here is trash.