For a while now I have gone on and off of interacting with my hobbies. This is not a case of having a tough week at work and simply needing rest. These periods last a long time, months. During which I am basically subject to acting on many impulses. I doomscroll, randomly DM most people on my friend's list, mindlessly edge when not horny, watch Youtube videos I dont have interest in and constant check tab after tab, refresh feed after feedThis sort of mindset just sticks for months on end and I do not know the cause of it. Even at work, I have my own office and kind of schedule my own work. I would spend so many hours, literal hours, just scrolling on my phone putting work off. But randomly 2 weeks ago I stopped and caught up with things and am doing them in a timely manner. Because my phone is in my pocket / to the side. So I guess the cause is just...my phone / social media I just feel like this should be the real me but it never is for long. I cannot tell if I am awakened or if this is yet another fad. It will pass, and I will regress back.I have major feelings of insecurity right now about what causes myself to be productive / focused / and generally more, well, alive - is it random cycles or caused by my actions.Can I act in a certain way to curtail certain behavior, rather than try and forcefully do the desired behavior. Through habits can I subliminally coerce myself....if that even makes senseLast September - November i was consistently good, great, best ever in fact.....and then I stopped. It seems random.It's odd all of this started at the same time, being productive at work, dieting, and now this- but i dont believe it is seasonal, just cyclical.
>>34453378Get a dumb phone. You wont, though.
>>34453508I’m not sure if my phone is the problem or something elseIt helps me focus at work by not using it but at home I don’t feel desire to do anythingNot a repulsion but just nothing stands out I’m trying to see if doing certain things could make me feel a certain way, like certain rules or banning / blocking certain behaviorLike a defensive maneuver on what not to do instead of what to do
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Any physical symptoms?Do you get exhausted easily?How common is it for you to feel you arms burn from muscle fatigue from holding up your phone to your face?What about your ability to focus?If you were to go out for a walk near a park, would you say you're more of a "narrow-gazed-person", as in, you observe only what's in front of you and the path you're taking, or, would you say you're more of a "wide-gazed-person", as in, you observe distant objects and nearby objects with equal intensity?
>>34454985uh no i think im pretty normal all around
>>34455021That doesn't mean anything.If you're "pretty normal all around" then why bother with making this thread.
>>34455084I dont fall in line with your random symptoms but still have reason to make a thread
>>34455090Well, just say that, then.The last one wasn't even a yes or no question.>apple or pears, pick one>nah bro, I'm normal fr fr
>>34455112i ignored it because it was weird and i dont see how it relates
>>34455136Fine. Have fun living in zombie land.
>>34455150So what’s the diagnosis doc or are you just gonna be a faggot
>>34455239Kek
