My whole childhood was spent in foster care and institutionalized bs because my mom never got her act together. How do I stop feeling this way and grow up and make something of my life for once?
>>34457595>How do I stop feeling this wayWhat way? You didn't say how you feel.
>>34457606Like I missed out on my childhood and a crucial part of developing as a human
>>34457595The past had nothing to do with you.Childhood need have nothing to do with adulthood. You are not responsible for that.You are free now.
>>34457595I wasn't in foster care but my childhood was hell. I relate to your OP picture except I wasn't a hello kitty, I'm a dude. And the demonic screaming person I relate to that. What I did is I stopped trying to be male hello kitty. I accepted that the screaming demon man is exactly who I am and I built out of that. I accepted the ugliness of my childhood and stopped running from it. I accepted I was the piece of shit I was desperate not to become and I stopped pretending. And when I did that, it turned out I wasn't really as bad as I thought I was. What I called my inner demon turned out to be an inner child, and instead of hating it, I decided to take care of it. Give things to it I wished I had gotten. Line compassion, forgiveness, mercy. Then I finally matured and finished what my parents couldn't do. I also forgave my parents as well and chose to do the same for them, chose to see the good in them instead of only the bad. Understood they were just humans who had suffered, and in their suffering and self-immolation, they burned others and spread suffering. And that's what I had become too without knowing. I simply repeated the exact same steps as my parents, and that's because the apple never falls far from the tree. But once the apple gains awareness, it can then decide how it will grow. And once you begin to choose how you will grow with awareness, you can break the cycle by accepting the cycle and repeating it, but this time, without the poison.
