i only made one impulsive try but it wasn't a real attempt because i waited until morning and wolves scared me. i shouldn't bring my phone with me. it was the closest i ever been to doing it. i'm wondering how i can get into that state of mind again. i have two months of free time, i think i would be able to do it with a knife and alcohol, but i have to get to a isolated space in the forest. if anyone has any advice on how to invoke that impulse again, i really appreciate it. i think i would complete it this time since now i know that things won't change. https://youtube.com/watch?v=NPDngKdfF_U&list=RDNPDngKdfF_U
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>>34461441thanks for saying "their loss, king" even if you didn't mean it.>how to invoke that impulse againI think it comes with extreme anxiety and hopelessness. I've felt it twice where I almost ended it. Now the part that objects is quieter, but I'm kind of used it.Why do you want to convince yourself to commit suicide? Maybe listen to the part that wants you to live.
>>34461920>thanks for saying "their loss, king" even if you didn't mean it.i did mean itit's true that the time i went there was when i was worried about event, but it was kinda out of nowhere. post nut clarity. i don't have a part that wants to live, i just want to push myself into doing the thing i wanted for so long. i'm too lazy and i never manage to plan it in a way where i'm not tired and it's still night. i don't want to stagnate in my indecision any longer
>>34461946Have you tried to find a hobby and share it with like minded people? Making vidya or something like that? There are interest boards if you don't have someone irl to share them with.As long as you're alive, you have the capacity to change, and find something that gives meaning. I know it probably doesn't feel like that. You seem like a good person, so I don't think you should die. I'm probably not the person to say this because I contemplate suicide every other day, but I'm sure you would find happiness if you continue to live. The possibilities remain as long as you're alive.
>>34462023the thing is, my interests are in violent extremism. i always feel the nagging thought that i am supposed to do something about the world. i'm not the type of person who's tolerant. so i'm not sure if trying to distract myself from my lack of control is a good idea.
>>34461441>how to convince myself to commit suicidein the name of the Lord Jesus Christ I bless your soul.>now i know that things won't change.things will change. please do not despair. there is hope in God. here are some of the changes that are coming:>Now I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away. Also there was no more sea. Then I, John, saw the holy city, New Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from heaven saying, “Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and He will dwell with them, and they shall be His people. God Himself will be with them and be their God. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:1-4, the Holy Bible.>The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb,>The leopard shall lie down with the young goat,>The calf and the young lion and the fatling together;>And a little child shall lead them.>The cow and the bear shall graze;>Their young ones shall lie down together;>And the lion shall eat straw like the ox.>The nursing child shall play by the cobra’s hole,>And the weaned child shall put his hand in the viper’s den.>They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain,>For the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the Lord>As the waters cover the sea.>Isaiah 11:6-9, the Holy Bible.these are some of the promises of God. his new heaven and earth are coming. you are invited. it will be lovely. so do not end your life. God has a plan for you on his earth. ask Jesus Christ. he will reveal it to you.>‘Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.’ Jeremiah 33:3, the Holy Bible.I will pray for you.>The Lord is close to the brokenhearted | Psalm 34https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sndvVwIpMgU
>>34462085not listening to some parables from someone crucified between two pedos (for absolutely no reason at all)two millenia of human trafficking
>>34462099in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, be healed.
>>34462210>i'm manifesting
>>34462214>angry>overcome with despair>suicidalyou do not have peace. peace is in Christ Jesus. the demonic realm is persuading you to kill yourself over a lie:>i know that things won't change. I am interceding for you. the demonic realm has no power over me. but you are a slave to it. who do you think inspired this mockery:>i'm manifestingrepent of your sins and believe the gospel of Jesus Christ. this is the gospel: Jesus Christ died for our sins, and he was buried, and he rose again on the third day. >For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16it is not God's will for you to perish. consider your ways.
>>34462257watchdominion dot org
>>34462262thank you for the recommendation. God bless you. it was nice chatting with you. it is late and I must go. please do not harm yourself. farewell.
>>34462283you changed my life completelyshalom
>>34461441Thailand exists
>>34462297i am trying to escape my family by suicide. i don't want to explain or answer their stupid questions.
>>34462043Have you tried therapy? Violence is not the answers, fren. Hurting other people only increases the collective misery in the world. Find new non violent interests.
>>34462729i find that hard to believe
>>34461441Your family seems to be really fucking bad for you to want to suicide just to get away.
>>34462301>i am trying to escape my family by suicide.That seems a little extreme. Surely there are less fatal ways to escape from your family? >>34461441>i only made one impulsive try but it wasn't a real attempt because i waited until morning and wolves scared me. i shouldn't bring my phone with me. it was the closest i ever been to doing it. i'm wondering how i can get into that state of mind again.Speaking from personal experience, here: you'll never do it. People who commit suicide successfully don't hesitate, or wait; they just quietly, calmly, and efficiently get on with it. If you're hesitating that much, you'll never be able to go through with it. The sooner you accept that, the better.
>>34462731Hurting other people doesn't make the world a better place anon. Why don't you believe it?
>>34462291Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.>>34462043>i always feel the nagging thought that i am supposed to do something about the world.>>34462262>watchdominion dot orgyou would like to see an end to these types of livestock practices because they grieve you.religion excuses immoral animal treatment because God gave mankind dominion over creation.is this what you believe?>>34462301>i don't want to explain or answer their stupid questions.your family doesn't understand your grief and you are too demoralized to explain it to them. it seems easier to just disappear because>>34461441>i know that things won't change.am I understanding you correctly?
>>34461441Suicide is pointless - You're not gonna achieve nothing with that - But there were threads on here - "why do it alone when you can take out a few politicians that ruined your life with you ?"I personally concur with the 4cuck moderation team that these messages are bannable.
>>34461441>how to convince myself to commit suicideGive me all your money, that will definitely make you determined to kill yourself
>>34465233(Just kidding, it was a joke, don't kill yourself, it's not worth it, it won't cease your suffering)
Its not worth it. Seek out help.
