I have a nice family and friends, i am interested in what I study, I go out a lot, im not missing out on any of the things people my age do, work out 2 hrs a day, I have dreams aspirations all that shit, had a gf but I didn't like spending time with her all that much.I had sleep disturbances and searched about how to fix it and came across depression as one of the causes and realised that I might genuinely have depression, I don't enjoy anything at all, I feel like crying FOR NO REASON every night, I'm tired all the time, don't have any enthusiasm, even when I find something funny and am actively laughing or 'enjoying' something, I keep feeling something in my throat and I have no idea what it is and now I'm realising it might be that depression sadness How tf do I fix this? I don't even have anything bad going on in my life or some past trauma bullshit to pin this on, I'm just like this? Is this gonna be my life forever?
>>34461584it's time to start drinking yourself to sleep
>>34461584just follow the script and don't slip out of character. we'll pretend this never happened.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Af-k9sTAYEQ
I don't feel happy at all ever even while I'm doing something I like or something that's supposed to be fun Am i supposed to take hard drugs to feel an ounce of happiness, I don't even feel horny any more, it got boring
>>34457776This guy can blame his depression on not having a gf, I can't even do that, I have nothing to blame it on
>>34461594be careful, you can't say slurs on blue boards
Dunno, maybe your life is too good or you need to take meds.
I think I might be a little happy if I end up becoming what I wanna become and had a "soulmate" or "real love" or something like that even tho I don't believe in that
>>34461611Yeah maybe antidepressants
>>34461614what do you want to become? just follow your dreams
>>34461621It's too ambitious but not impossible and i believe you shouldn't go around talking about your dreams if they're too ambitious Even If I don't believe that I'd end up becoming a mechanical engineer and I'm actually interested in that and I'm good at studiesBut I think Im never gonna be happy even if I achieve all I wantI keep thinking I'm gonna die in 40 or 50 yrs anyway so maybe I should just end it now, considering all I'm doing on this earth is be miserable, but at the same time I'm extremely scared of death and getting old, I see old people who are unable to walk or do anything and spending all their time making sure they don't die the next second and i get extremely fearful of being that someday, I'll probably kms at 50 or something if not earlier
>>34461636dude i don't think any one of us will survive the next ten years lol
youre perfect. sorry youre going through this
>>34461584Unironically get meds prescribed
>>34461584“Let's suppose that you were able every night to dream any dream that you wanted to dream. And that you could, for example, have the power within one night to dream 75 years of time. Or any length of time you wanted to have. And you would, naturally as you began on this adventure of dreams, you would fulfill all your wishes. You would have every kind of pleasure you could conceive. And after several nights of 75 years of total pleasure each, you would say "Well, that was pretty great." But now let's have a surprise. Let's have a dream which isn't under control. Where something is gonna happen to me that I don't know what it's going to be. And you would dig that and come out of that and say "Wow, that was a close shave, wasn't it?" And then you would get more and more adventurous, and you would make further and further out gambles as to what you would dream. And finally, you would dream ... where you are now. You would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually living today.”
>>34463378How? Am i supposed to go to a fucking therapist and be a pussy infront of him and cry? I don't wanna do thatI started smoking again but that doesn't do anything for me either I just get a little dizzy
>>34463740>be a pussy infront of him and cryI don't think you need to show any emotion at all, just tell the situation. Though I don't know how it works in your country.
>>34461584are you white?
>>34463756I'll look into it
>>34463761I ask because I know what is wrong and i can help
>>34463896Ok I'm not white, give me your solution
>>34463761You just wanted to know if I'm white or not. You don't even care
>>34461584Depression being a chemical imbalance is actually 100% correct in some cases. You seem to be one of those cases. Your shit is just all fucked.
>>34464336Fixing it requires >regular aerobic exercise, consuming nutrient-dense whole foods (especially protein and healthy fats), optimizing sleep, increasing natural sunlight exposure, and managing stress through mindfulnessI do all of these already, I'm fucked forever for no reason and no cure
I hope god kills himself
>>34464356Sometimes it's not fixable. Or maybe you just need to start thinking differently. Some new age spirituality or religiousity required to inspire you.
>>34463740>How? Am i supposed to go to a fucking therapist and be a pussy infront of him and cry?Yes? Beggars can't be choosers. If you're suffering and can potentially find a way to help lessen this suffering, it's not really smart to cling onto your pride if it gets in the way. Also what >>34463756 said, you don't have to necessarily cry.
>>34464366>>34464372I'll look into it
I'm gonna watch an erotic movie now
>>34464362The kikes killed God, at least his human incarnation. Suicide is always an option for you, though.
To be honest I always thought everyone was miserable because life is so boring, repetitive, finite and most people aren't what they want to be and don't have a real genuine love or friend
I need to fall in love or something
