Jfc anon. Yes it is possible to change. Don't give up hope. And don't post anything on 4chan that you wouldn't want the feds to hold against you in court.

>>34467782
Alright, I’ll work to become better. My head is a little leveled now and I was getting a bit manic, thank you.

>>34467765
Obviously don't incriminate yourself as >>34467782 says. Don't turn yourself in because it will hurt your family and friends. If you can't be better for your sake, do it for them. Now let's address all of these issues.
>I’m in my early 20s and resentful of the person I’ve grown into: a terminally online, suicidal, depressed, hypersexual, anxious wreck who still lives with his mother and barely makes any money at his job he’s had for five years.
Go outside more, do healthy habits, socialize, maybe try meds or therapy idk. Upskill so you can get a better job.
>I somehow have a girlfriend and friends, but lately I just feel miserable around them. I have trouble sleeping, do the bare minimum in college, and don’t read anything that isn’t Twitter or 4chan.
Do you like your friends and gf? Make sure your answer is not affected by your depression (either positive or negative). It's good to have time to think and reflect and cutting out people you don't like is good but if you are depressed your brain might be tricking you into isolation which is bad especially because you are depressed (funny how that works). No screens 1 hour before bed, set a consistent schedule, 8 hours of sleep daily. Actually study and go to a quiet place to get shit done, maybe office hours to, and pull a chart from /lit/ and read that instead. Much better than 4chan or twitter slop.
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>>34468070
Loneliness, alcohol, stimulant abuse, deadline stress, lack of sleep, comparing ourselves to others, being in a rut, all those things can make us catastrophize our situation and make it feel like there is no way out.
It's never that deep but it's difficult to remember that when you feel your lowest. Don't talk about yourself negatively, just challenge yourself to break your rut and replace it with healthier habits.

>>34467765
it's possible to change, but some people were meant to suffer.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Af-k9sTAYEQ

>>34468174
>I also recently found out that something I did three years ago could constitute a serious crime and could potentially land me in jail for six months to a year. It’s unlikely anyone will ever find out unless I directly confess, but it’s a reminder of how much of a shithead I’ve been up until the past few months, when I’ve finally started to recognize it. It makes me want to vomit.
I don't know what you did, if there is any way to hint at it without incriminating yourself then that would be helpful. You said it was serious and vomit inducing so I'll try to cover multiple things.
>DUI
Stop drinking. If you can't control it then never go back. Maybe ease back into it if you can.
>Violence
Control your anger, take up a physical sport (helps with depression).
>Sex crime
Stop drinking/drugs/porn, learn people's boundaries, etc.
>CP
No porn or any sexual content. If you were going down the rabbit hole you can reset your brain. If you're a pedo idk man don't go near kids and look at stopitnow.org. You said it was serious and this is the only thing I can think of that you would not want to confess to online.
>This realization of how shitty I’ve been has intensified the pain I’ve been feeling and left me wondering where everything went wrong, and whether I should turn myself in or kill myself. I’m hesitant to do either because I think it would deeply affect my family and friends and could hurt them mentally or financially. Is redemption possible for people like me, or should I give in to shame and give up?
Already discussed, decide to be better and take it one step at a time. Maybe turn to volunteering/religion/community or something. Good luck.

>>34468174
Thank you very much for the advice. And, yes, it seems best that I don’t do anything drastic as it could affect the people I love.
>1
Going outside is definitely something I want to do more. Long walks help me come up with ideas, and since I’m an aspiring writer, it helps. Funnily enough, I did have therapy scheduled last month, but I was late to the appointment and have to wait until June for the next one.
>2
I’m getting sick of my girlfriend as she can often be very dismissive and immature (funny coming from me, I know). But I pity her and her circumstances a lot, that’s probably what’s keeping me attached to her. We don’t really have sex often either, a lot of the times she is too moody to, but it can be my fault sometimes as well. As for my friends, I like them fine enough. Mostly all my friends are girls, though, and I’ve always had trouble making male friends. So that’s something I do admittedly desire.
>3
No screens 1 hour before bed is a good rule. I actually do have plenty of /lit/core books I impulse-bought years ago to make myself seem like an intellectual, but I never actually read them, kek. I guess I should get to that now.

>>34468185
I definitely am often affected by loneliness, lack of sleep, and comparing myself to others. I have OCD and it can be a real nightmare sometimes. I’ll try to stop being so down on myself. Thank you.

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>>34468205
Without saying too much, option three is closest. I don’t drink, and while I’m violent in my head, I am far too weak to attack anyone, and I’m not a pedophile/rapist.

I am spiritual, but always put off by a lot of organized groups, though admittedly I haven’t been keeping up with praying or speaking to God as much as I used to. I should probably start doing that again.

Thank you, I’ll take all of this into account. I will be a better man.

>>34468666
Forgot to also mention I have a job interview this week. So here’s hoping it goes well. 12 an hour to 16 an hour would certainly be nice. Alright, that’s all from me until any further replies. Thank you all.