I became helplessly addicted to porn 5 years ago, and the rabbit hole has only gotten deeper and deeper. It started with relatively common genres of porn: cowgirl, doggy, creampie, etc. 1 or 2 years in, I started trying to slowly phase out any kind of 3D porn since I felt AWFUL whenever I finished with it; 2D porn, on the other hand, didn't seem to negatively affect my mood; quite the opposite, for that matter. It all went truly downhill when I encountered the faceless gay porn general on /gif/. I, unknowingly of the catalyst it would become later on in my life, opened that goddamned thread. I wasn't particularly opposed to liking dick; I'm comfortable with my sexuality, and I know that I'm mostly attracted to feminine traits: jerking off to a couple of webms wasn't going to change that. To cut a long story short, I kept watching, and watching, and watching, until shemale and femboy porn became my staple choice of erotic content. I feel like utter SHIT when, after cumming, I'm left blankly staring at my monitor watching a man with bolt-ons plowing another man's hairy asshole. It's not a pleasant experience at all, yet I keep coming back to it. My brain has likely become so accustomed to it that whenever I feel like jerking off, my dick naturally craves and gravitates to that kind of content. I'm at a complete loss here, because I don't want to completely cut off porn, since, as I said before, masturbating to 2D doesn't feel nearly as bad as 3D does.
>>34468745Just accept it, the more you fight it the worse the struggle.will be. While if you just accept it, jack off to it to your heart's content, you will eventually lose the taboo of it and revert to your normal sexuality in the future. But not until you admit to yourself you like it and indulge it
>>34468762Trust me, I've tried owning it. Repeatedly. It just doesn't werk that way. I may get drunk on the fantasy in the heat of the moment, but the moment I expell the semen out of my cock, I instantly revert to my true self.
>>34468745that's the nature of it anon, it will always scale to something you don't like if you have enough free time to engage in it>>34468762not OP, I tried it and it does not work
>>34468745That's what happens when you separate love from sex. You dehumanise the human body. And when you dehumanise the human body, the bodies become kine objects, toys, dopamine provoking symbols made of meat and holes. Your mind focuses on the pink feminine perfume meat and holes, the female body. Then you are getting into the female stink, her asshole. You justify it because it's at least a feminine anus, it's perfume stink, it's female ass. Then you start to accept a woman with a hairy anus. "It's flowery anus hair, feminine ass hair it's fine" you think to yourself But at some point you go down the spiral and just the sight of a single curve or anything resembling a hole on skin turns you on. Then you get into gay shit, you start seeing "feminine" things even in a man's hairy gaping asshole. And it all happened because you removed love out of the equation of sex. You let porn rot your brain nigga.But don't panic. It can be reversed, but you need to start putting up a fight against the porn usage.
>>34468785Usually what gets me out of a degenerate fetish phase is just forbidding myself from it for the sake of my soul. For example, I really like the fantasy of getting cucked but I dont watch it because I know it hurts my soul.
>>34468804Nta but it hurts your soul because that's what most fetishes do. Because that's where fetishes come from. Fetishes always correspond with a non-sexual yet fucked up life experience you had. The fetish is just the mind's way to recreate the dynamic in a sexual way to offer a false sense of control. And for cuckolds that's the pain of humiliation and feeling invisible. Feeling extremely small, undeserving of being a participant of anything in life. And cuck porn is the embodiment of that exact thing.
>>34468817>And for cuckolds that's the pain of humiliation and feeling invisible. Feeling extremely small, undeserving of being a participant of anything in life. And cuck porn is the embodiment of that exact thing.Yes, I know. I didnt have one, or it didnt become obvious, until I had been cheated on. I understand its my minds way of coping, but it isnt good for me to keep feeling pleasure from fantasizing about being disrespected. Thats why I dont let myself jack off to it anymore.
>>34468801That's the worst fucking aspect of it all: I'm a huge moralfag when it comes to love. I've spent countless hours berating and scolding other anons for being lust-driven freaks that often take the beauty of love and intimacy out of sex; it's called making love for a reason, for fucks sake. I'm a huge hypocrite.
>>34468826Yeah the mind is whack like that. I didn't have a thing for BBW until I got severely mentally abused by my psycho ex who happened to be chubby. That's the pattern for men it would seem to be. Whatever fucks you up in life trickles down into libido and becomes some kind of fetish later.
>>34468817>And for cuckolds that's the pain of humiliation and feeling invisible. Feeling extremely small, undeserving of being a participant of anything in life. And cuck porn is the embodiment of that exact thing.I wonder if that's the explanation, at least on this part of the internet, for this fetish be so popular
>>34468836You're not a hypocrite. You're a man who knows right from wrong precisely because you did wrong. A hypocrite wouldn't admit to what you admitted to. I'm a man who believes in love and tries to embody that too, I'm a husband and a father myself, and even I have vices and inner demons. Every man does, brother. Men who pretend they don't are usually posturing, hiding their shame and wishing it away by trying to be above it. But truth is every man falls short. I've done things in life where I've fucked up and hurt people with my actions yet in the same day talked someone else out of a suicide. Life isn't black and white. We are capable of both good and bad, but it doesn't mean we are innately bad. It is my belief at our core we are fundamentally good, but we are never perfect. What separates the solid man from the weak man isn't a matter of perfection or being free from this kind of fuck up. It's about who can admit it and who can't. Who is trying to put up a fight against it and who isn't. And even if you're only putting up 1% of a fight that's still a fight that still counts for something. Making this thread is your way of doing that. So give yourself some respect for that
>>34468745>watching a man with bolt-ons plowing another man's hairy assholeThat's a weird way of thinking about it. But if it makes you feel any better, most trans women outside of porn and major cities are ugly as shit, don't have implants or ass and don't pass at all.
>>34468873>I wonder if that's the explanation, at least on this part of the internet, for this fetish be so popular.Well yeah, it's full of asocials, shy guys who typically got bullied in school. Similar is true with feet fetishists. They're dudes who couldn't maintain eye contact due to social anxiety, their eyes always down to the ground, head hung lowz especially when talking to or in the presence of women. So their eyes are glued to their feet until over time that becomes the same as looking at cleavage for them.
>>34468876Thank you, Anonymous. Truly. I'll work hard not only for myself, but also to be the man you believe I am. Knowing someone cares is more than enough to drag me out of the bottomless pit of self-pity I fell into.
>>34468901You're more than welcome. I don't believe you to be the man you are. I fucking know you are that man. It's an absolute fact, because the fact you show contempt for the hole you fell into is evidence you are not the man you fear to be. You are a going to get past the addiction, that's not a matter of if but when. Once you pairbond with a woman and I mean really pairbond I'm talking whole nine yards, the marriage and the fatherhood and being each others rock, all this shit you're facing now goes bye bye. Your addiction is on death row and you can look forward to it's execution.Stay in the fight brother, and God bless you.
>>34468745Man X woman will always mog all other genres of porn tbqhwy (way more range) although it's all cucked shit
