>Have early sexual encounter with a girl before I was in first grade>Made me perform cunnilingus on her>Fucked up my head and made me think sexually at an unhealthy young age>Become hypersexual and now have a plethora of fetishes ranging from furry to vore>Of all the fetishes, shota makes me feel the most ashamed>Self-insert to situations like straight shota, shotas getting banged by futas and traps and and pokemon and furries>Find myself spending a good amount of time resisting these attractions and stave myself from porn altogether but compromising on just watching normal stuff like solo women>Always cave in and get hyper horny and eventually blow my load and immediately feel guilty a second laterI've had tingly feelings watching older characters interact with boys since I was 6 and I recognize that it is wrong and is an attraction that is disgusting to most people. I am too embarrassed and nervous to go to a therapist to handle with these thoughts. What is the best thing I can do to get rid of this fetish? Is it even likely I can get rid of it or am I stuck with it and will just have to mitigate how much I think of it? I feel like such a piece of shit every time I cave in and the thing that I have to feel comforted with is I am at least aware of my fetish being wrong and I am not happy about it and want to change. I know there are a lot of people who have much worse fetishes and see nothing wrong which I am really thankful that I am not one of those people who don't want to change>Don't watch pornI did that a long time ago for months and all of my fetishes were still there after I caved in
>>34474307You don'tYou just accept it and live with yourself and keep your twisted desires to yourself
Can someone explain why some therapists recommend victims of childhood molestation write their own erotica about it? It comes off as counter productive for coping with the trauma
>>34474307Idk. Maybe try overtime imagining the shota that represents you growing up. Until eventually the shota is just a regular man. And then progressively imagine sex in reality
This isn't really advice, bur you're not alone. You can probably find a loving consenting woman willing to indulge you. And it won't feel as bad when you have someone to hug you after.>t.shotacon girlI don't know if I'd admit aloud to being a shotacon though. I'll never admit it. I would phrase it more along the lines of. You want to feel small, and want your woman to take care of you. She doesn't even have to be a con. If she loves you, she'll see it as innocent enough and be more than happy to indulge you.
>>34474307masturbate to wholesome stuff, if you are circumcised get a good lotion and bust softly to a cutie
>>34475565I appreciate your reply. It really does help to know I am not alone in this. I get the feeling of wanting to tell no one about this attraction. I've only told a good online friend who also revealed his own shameful kinksI don't think it's even that I want to be small. Aside from the classic heroic fantasy of saving a damsel, even when I am dominant in my fantasies, I still am being led around by a leash like an animal
Shota is tame shitUr only fucked up cuz society said so, if society just went like, whatever, you wouldn't careSpend less time gooning and more time IRL ya loser
>>34475582Would restricting my masturbation to just vanilla solo videos help me move away from my fetish?
>>34474307coming from someone with similar issues with shame and hypersexuality (although they manifested differently as it happened later in life) I can give you some personal anecdotal advice. I do recommend seeing a therapist. You aren't a pervert, you have trauma man. They are paid and trained to understand that before going into analyzing things. Its scary and intimidating I know, im trying to reach the point of going to one myself and am still worried but you gotta do it. It will help to be able to get everything off your chest and have someone reassure you that you arent disgusting. As for the issues itself they arent going to necessarily vanish ever, you just have to work on controlling it. The first step is to work on taming the shame feeling, that is what makes the issue worse and keeps you in the cycle. Im sorry you have to go through that, I know from my experience I would never wish the journey on another soul, but trust me things do get better.
>>34478017Seconding this, very wise words from this anon.
>>34474308OP wants to get rid of those desires, not accept them
>>34479666>you don't
