My fiancee asked me about my first time, we never talked about our previous sex life because she knows I don't like it. But she said she wanted to know certain things about me before the marriage. I lied and told her it was some random girl I met at a party and that I never saw her again. In truth it's something different.>in love with a friend for over a decade>I confess and she rejects me>one day she introduces me to her first boyfriend, the one she later gave her virginity to>they break up because he was violent and used to beat her up>I confess a second time and she ignores me again>she rejects me again>gets a second boyfriend, this time things end because high school is over and they will go to different colleges>I follow her to the college she choose to attend, and after I finally confessed a third time, we become a couple>that night after she said yes she takes my virginity>midway through sex, as I am inside of her I feel an intense hatred, rage and sadness slowly forming in my chest, rising up my throat, I literally want to cry after the orgasm, but I keep it together to save face and wait until I'm home to break down>I break up with her the next day through an email ending a friendship that lasted from childhood into my early 20s>I block her on all social media, ghost her completely, ignore her whenever I see her on campus, pretend she doesn't exist, that we were never friends, that we never had sex, and move on with my life.I never even gave her an explanation, I just never talked to her again. All I know is that whenever I think about her, I want to fucking murder her.To be fair, I don't even know why I did it. It's not like I wanted payback or revenge, or that I just wanted to experience what I was missing and then discard her after after gave her body to me. I could never explain it. Not even to myself, do you think I need therapy? I'm thinking about it.
>>34478397nah you're right, you dished out what you got served.
>>34478397it's because she was used and lost what matters with you.But who knows what really happenedI heard your story hear before and it's told by the first boyfriend>First boyfriend she truly loves ,she promises all of herself to. Something in her side happened related to trauma>Then she dated a second person or that person actually didn't exist. she made him up or something. In either case she was asexual during that time>so when she got back with the first boyfriend she gave all of herself to him and nothing was lost
>>34478410By what matters I mean time, experiences, promises. Obviously if you love her then you work it out with her because she matters over all else.
>>34478397You are one sad little bunny.
>>34478397>do you think I need therapy?You seem like a piece of shit.Don't think therapy can really fix your horrible character.I wish your supposed fiance all the luck in the world, because she is going to need it when you claim to be a victim.
>>34479235Why is he a piece of shit? For discarding some whore who blew him off twice before?She deserves being a cumsock, at least from his perspective.
>>34479308For seeing rejection as an insult in the first place. Good people with moral worth don't expect anything from anyone. If a good man gets rejected, he simply says "No worries", and moves on. It takes a deeply mentally ill narcissist to see rejection as a personal attack, as if the other person owes him something personally.
>>34478397I think it's because you fucked yourself by trying too hard. You can't even blame her lol, you were the cuck who tried 3 times with the same girl.
>>34479308You absolute fucking retard.Thank you for staying away from others so you can't hurt them.
>>34478397>do you think I need therapy?Goodness me, yes. A lot.
