Why do I still feel bad about getting revenge on a man who tortured me? I don't want to go into too much detail, not out of fear of the police (it's been too many years), but moreso I think I'd lose the interest of people who could potentially have valuable feedback.A bully from HS and I accidentally met due to me looking for a job. He already worked there and my retarded memory problems caused me to forget the majority of his hostility. I filled out a job application on paper, turned it in, he ripped it up in front of me and laughed. I told him I want to speak to the manager and he lied to be saying he's not there. We got into an argument about it and then he proceeds to TORTURE me with a taser and kicked me in the balls I don't even know how many times. At least 20+. It was so agonizingly painful that my muscles were sore all day the next day...I got revenge 2 days after being tortured by him by gouging out both of his eyes and stabbing him with his own knife repeatedly. He didn't die, but he almost did that day if I hadn't restrained myself more. The police arrive soon after (probably because he screamed loudly as his eyes were getting mutilated) to question me and get the nearby camera footage of our fight. I overheard one of the cops say that he was reviewing the footage of our fight right next to the manager of the store who had a camera of our fight (the same manager who I complained to about being tortured by one of his employees). When I complained about being tortured the same day it happened to his manager, the evil piece of shit laughed hysterically about it in the room right next to us! The police didn't do anything either because the evil bully deleted/destroyed the evidence.
The store manager refused to fire the guy even though I practically begged him to get rid of this psychopath. Two days later when I mutilated my torturer, the police talk to him, review the camera footage, and then the manager somehow destroyed the video. Idk if it was on a CD, tape, or digital, but I overheard the cop tell another cop that the video just got destroyed right in front of him after they watched it together. The police came by and did nothing of value other than ask questions and then left. I even got on my knees in front of the cops to plead with them to help me, but there was no evidence so I might as well have made the story my up, right? So what are my options here? Forgive my torturer and move on, or do the smart thing and take matters into my own hands? This is definitely not always the smart option, but it worked out well for me.
should have cut his balls off too. You weren't in the wrong and shouldn't feel bad.I would absolutely love to stab my ex wife in her eye sockets.
>>34478701nigger what is there to forgive? You took his eyesight.
>>34478703Too much blood. The evidence would've been all over me. Thankfully, I didn't get into any legal trouble over mutilating him. >>34478705Idk, man. I just feel bad. Neither of us should have had to deal with each other like that...
>>34478710it's normal to feel bad after crippling someone, yes.Just be lucky you aren't serving time and forget about it.
>>34478698A warrior is spreading fear among a region and then hears about a monk who is not afraid of him and his army. That makes him angry and he visits the monk. When they meet he says: "Don't you know who I am? I could run this blade through your stomach!". The monk replies: "Don't you know who I am? I could receive your sword without even flinching."...
>>34478698I've reported you to the FBI you are clearly mentally unstable and should be locked
>>34478698>Why do I still feel bad about getting revenge on a man who tortured me?Because revenge is always fruitless. Retaliating doesn't undo the harm that he did, so you're only piling harm on top of harm and no one gains anything as a result.
>>34478716Good perspective. Thanks.>>34478735How is this story relevant?>>34478926It's practically self defense, but okay. >>34478933I strongly disagree. My actions stopped him from seriously hurting anyone else in the future. I did a good thing.
>>34478960>How is this story relevant?If you are truly strong, you wouldn't need to retaliate. You felt bad because you succumbed to emotional weakness.
>>34478977lmao fuck outta here with your turn the other cheek biblethimper hippie bullshit.power hungry maniacs deserve ultra violence inflicted upon them.
>>34478989>power hungry maniacs deserve ultra violence inflicted upon them.That belief makes you a power hungry maniac. You're creating a world of backstabbers and plunging yourself into it, with that belief.
>>34478960>My actions stopped him from seriously hurting anyone else in the futureHow do you know that he wouldn't have regretted his behavior on his own? What if your actions drove him to resentment and bitterness, rather than introspection and remorse? What if he's finding ways of hurting people without his eyesight now because of your actions, rather than in spite of them? As a general rule, aggression can't be stopped with aggression. It's like trying to stop a fire with gasoline. If you want somebody to stop and reflect on their behavior, it's always better to refrain from acting on or even harboring feelings of vengeance.
>>34478977No, I feel bad because of my PTSD reminding me of mutilating his eye sockets with his own knife. It's not exactly a pleasant visual experience.>>34478989Maybe not ultra violence, but with some people, violence is the best option. Like with sled defense when getting robbed for example.>>34479003He's literally 1 person out of 8+ billion. He doesn't have nearly that much influence on the world's average behavior, and neither do you.>>34479014I know that he didn't regret it because he tried to torture me again. I blew what I think was K2 smoke in my face on purpose so he could torture me even harder while I'm having another panic attack. Not only was he an evil psychopath who deserved to become disabled, but he also LAUGHED AT ME while he was torturing me. Maybe the other Anon is right. Your hippie beliefs are ridiculously out of touch with reality.
>>34479054>No, I feel bad because of my PTSD reminding me of mutilating his eye sockets with his own knife. It's not exactly a pleasant visual experience.That just proves my point. You paid the price. If you were stronger, this wouldn't have happened.
>>34479054>He's literally 1 person out of 8+ billionAnd so was your tormenter. Does that make his behavior right? Does that make your pain at his hands insignificant? Morality works on a universal basis. Bad behavior is bad for all time, it doesn't matter if only one person engages in it. Trying to minify your moral responsibilities takes away any right you ever would have had to complain about somebody else's immorality towards you.>I know that he didn't regret it because he tried to torture me againYou don't know that he would never have regretted it. Even you regret your own behavior towards him, despite feeling that it was justified, as evidenced by your lack of inner peace.
because you are seeking REVENGE and not JUSTICEdumb cunt
>>34479066I was stronger than my enemy, so that's gotta count for something. You saying I'm weak when the only thing you know about me is that I won a very violent fight is kind of ironic and backwards.>>34479078My regret is because my PTSD haunts me sometimes. He wouldn't have regretted torturing me because he thinks torturing people is funny. Plus, he's also a legit genuine psychopath. These people don't feel remorse.>>34479509That's tough talking coming from someone who's hiding behind an anonymous name and hiding behind a screen.Besides, how was what I did *not* justice? He 100% deserved to become disabled after attempting to torture me twice in the same week! What is wrong with some of you people on this site? Seriously. >Are some of you legit trolling me? Save that ch¡ldish shit for /b/, not /adv/. Shame on you trolls.
>>34481285>Besides, how was what I did *not* justice?Because you did it from a place of emotion, not a place of impartiality. Justice is always impartial.
>>34478698>gouging out both of his eyes>stabbing him with his own knife repeatedly.>He didn't die, but he almost did>Why do I still feel bad about getting revenge on a man who tortured me>he proceeds to TORTURE me with a taser and kicked me in the balls I don't even know how many times. At least 20+. It was so agonizingly painful that my muscles were sore all day the next dayI dunno, maybe you could've sued for assault and gotten a massive payout instead of descend to an even worse level of monkey than he already was? Maybe you feel bad because you know that the revenge you dished out was completely retarded and disproportionate as a punishment? How do you even get into a situation where someone is kicking your balls 20+ times and you have nobody around you to call for helpLike, you could've kicked him in the balls 40+ times but instead you resort to gouging their eyeballs out, like...He's bad sure, but you're worse
>>34481285yeah YOU are just an insufferable person
>>34478698nice playwright kiddo
>>34481331So just forgive and forget that I was tortured is your advice? Why would I do that when I could make my enemy suffer instead?>>34481467Not only are you lacking context, but you must've not read my entire post before commenting on it. I already tried going the legal route by getting the police involved and they did nothing of value other than ask questions and leave. Your suggestion is terrible because I already tried this. Read the OP again.>>34481602How does defending myself make me insufferable?>>34481616It's not a fake story, but I don't have any evidence to say otherwise. So I might as well be making up my story for attention from anonymous strangers, right? Give me a break. I'm here looking for help, not looking for trolls like you.
>>34482243>Why would I do that when I could make my enemy suffer instead?Because making your enemy suffer doesn't undo your own suffering, and in fact adds to it. That's why you're suffering now. The world is built on cause and effect, so from a purely logical perspective it must be the case that like produces like. He caused harm, and he suffered harm. You caused harm, and you now suffer harm. For your own sake, it would have been better to let the cycle end.>How does defending myself make me insufferable?You didn't defend yourself. You went out of your way to avenge yourself. Revenge is not self defense, and the fact that you're sitting here and willing to lie to us about that is the reason why people find your personality unpleasant. A man who will justify himself using dishonest means is a man that the entire world hates and sees as disgusting.
>>34482307I'm not lying. Maybe you didn't read the entire thread, but I mentioned that he attempted to torture me again 2 days later. Granted, maybe I shouldn't have tried to be around him whatsoever 2 days later, but what choice did I have? Forgive and forget like a hippie?
>>34478710So is making this shit up some kind of sexual thing?
>>34485040Nice job dodging my difficult question. No, I don't get any sexual satisfaction whatsoever from talking about trauma. I'm going to get the chance to talk to a virtual meeting therapist slightly before this thread expires (probably). I wish I was making it up...
>>34484864>but what choice did I have?You could have just not been around him. You even asking this proves it wasn't self defense and that you aren't a victim. You're like those women who go into dark alleys with miniskirts on and then insist that getting raped wasn't at least partially their fault as a result of careless decision making.
>>34485040this one isn't sexual, just a thirdie's bully fantasy
