This is a mix between asking for advice and also wanting some sinking suspicions I have confirmedI tend to have periods of inactivityI’ve tried finding the cause but to no availThat’s not really the focus thoughRecently I finally feel like not only doing things again but avoiding the time wasting activities I used to do instead (putting down my phone, less social media, etc)And I am viewing doing the things I used to avoid in a more positive light, I’m not against doing them suddenly and I want to stay this way and want to figure out HOW to not go off the rails for months rotting awayNow, this feeling comes and goes in waves, in a few months I might have another multi month hibernationBut what I’m wondering is this: Is the desire to doing something, anything, something that you can manipulate based on your viewpoint of that task (not task as in work just any activity)For example, instead of focusing on having to write a story you wanna finish, focus on the idea of expressing your imagination and creationsIf you don’t want to clean don’t focus on the act of dusting and vacuuming, but the refreshing feeling afterwards If you’re at your job slacking off just don’t think about the act itself of working but something elseIt’s really hard for me to describe but does anyone get what I’m gonna say and can vouch for this idea / give a name towards this style of thinkingLike even watching a TV show is something I’ve avoided for a while, if just felt like a monumental task, but instead of focusing on the literal action of doing it but the enjoyment I’d feel from doing it, I wanna do itIf I think of the act of doing it, it makes my mind sort of feel against it because it’s a guaranteed use of my timeI don’t want to think of the action and commitment I know this was a weird ramble so if it’s even somewhat coherent someone ask for a better explanation I just didn’t wanna lose this thought I wanna keep this good mood and form good habits and prevent relapsing!
>>34479340>*But does anyone get what I’m trying to sayNot what I’m gonna say
Additionally, how important is it to try and avoid time wasting behaviors vs trying to form good habits / outlooks towards doing thingsLike if you consider wasting time a “negative” and being productive a “positive” how much more important is it to focus on blocking off negatives, to not pull your mind down into a negative zone
you sound like you have schizophreniaare you in your 20s?
>>34479393Yes but why would you say thatI was just kinda ranting since I was in a rush at work I don’t usually gather my thoughts so strangely
>>34479539sure you dont
>>34479548Ok big dick daddy I will go get diagnosed for the random thing you pulled out of your ass
>>34479774why the fuck are you suddenly talking about my arse you massive fruit basket
>>34479393LOL namefags consider to be cancerous Don’t worry about it OP
>>34479948whatever you say schizo
>>34479958why are you calling every ITT a schizo I don't get it
>>34480150He is a bored unc that's trolling lol don't worry about him
>>34479340TldrTouch grass>Is the desire to doing something, anything, something that you can manipulate based on your viewpoint of that task (not task as in work just any activity)>If you don’t want to clean don’t focus on the act of dusting and vacuuming, but the refreshing feeling afterwards>give a name towards this style of thinkingYes it's called extrinsic motivation.
>>34480150this site is a schizo magnet, and not the good kind
>>34481302True yeahIdk it’s hard to explain but I just get stuck in ruts for a while and then that rut becomes my new habit and natureI guess just doing things without focusing on my mind desiring it is the best way of avoiding this?Basically I wanna prevent it from happening again / understand why I’m suddenly productive againFor no real reason, no external factor, I am caught up and ahead at my job and finally making headway on my hobbies
Sounds like addiction, burnout, and or adhd. I only relate to adhd and addiction. How i deal with it when my phone and my bed is pulling me into it and doesnt want to let go, is with emotional regulation and meditation(kind of). In one small moment where ur not looking at the screen or sometking attention grabbing, sit in that. Sit in the quietness and Slow down. Let ur mind return to u and pay attention to it instead. Sometimes it takes twenty minutes there before i can get up, but the key for me is the way i talk to myself when im there. Im not miserying over the to do list or fighting myself for failing. What actually moves me is, processing shit. Just letting the thoughts have a space to exist and with slowness and forgiveness. And i dont mean sit in mental torment! No. Been there, not helpful. Just be present with myself and God desu. If ur lucky enough to have a good idea of what god is. If not, whatever, not my job. But i will say that the WAY you treat yourself matters, the way you talk to yourself. And when youre stuck in a rut where does a helpful inner voice come from? If u find it, i call it god. U can call it whatever works for u. Disconnect from addictions, reconnect with urself.also if it is adhd and burnout, it doesnt need a label desu. I call it extremes. Learning how to "middle ground" yourself gives u a lot more control. And the lesson that burnout teaches is that no, resting isnt a waste of time. Do it and do it right, not by drowning in addiction.
Wait and when i say "20 minutes to get up" i also mean it took two weeks before leaving my front door again, but maybe it was resting in my head for before getting up for 20minutes or two hours, who can tell? Right?
>>34482414I guess that makes senseInstead of falling into the same loop over and over again like hitting a mental brick wall just take some time to gather yourself, find your inner voice and desires, and hopefully willpower / motivation to actually do the thingThe issue is my lack of desire, even now I know I’m gonna go home and do my hobbies and have fun after workBut I feel nothing pulling me towards that, no anticipationBut I guess relying or expecting desire is what makes down periods easy to get into to begin with?It’s just odd I have months of productivity followed by half a year stretches of doing nothing with my time
>>34481605What are the good kind
>>34482780all but solipsistic schizos
I think what I am actually looking for is fulfillment and not pleasureMasturbation is pleasure just as finishing a book is or working outFulfillment is something elsePerhaps that's why I need to not focus on the desire to do things, or expect an anticipation or build up - but rather - just do them while avoiding all the fluff and filler in life that wastes time
