Life is basically like pic. I've always been quite a sperg, ever since elementary I'm very conscious about people making fun of me - it comes from a deep rooted trauma and betrayal. Sometimes I might misinterpret people asking me things in front of people as an attempt to make fun of me, I am extremely paranoid about everyone and calculative on environment. My opinion is always unfiltered because I don't see a point in pretending, for example if someone asks my opinion on tattoos and I straight up say that they are unattractive, I see no point to hide myself, why the hell would I lie that they are super cool. Are "nice" opinions the only ones that are good now?One day I'm a complete misanthrope, secretly hating anyone and the moment I'm home I wonder why am I so fucking lonely.I've had two girlfriends in the past already so that's at least one milestone done, one was short term (around 5-9 months, teenager) and other one lasted 2.5 years.As for friendships, I am fucking lucky to have anyone by this point, just one friend that I can talk to daily and play games with. Even if we aren't an ideal match I'm really happy to have him around.Sorry for sounding like a woman, I am willing to adapt to whatever advice is given to me without making excuses, I really want a step in fixing myself.
Need I mention that ever since last year I've been letting go of more and more people. It just became natural (and addictive) to me and made me feel at ease, that people who did not deserve my company. Also feels powerful to just let go of someone and not really care all that much. I'm glad I have this power of being able to let go instead of holding on to people that progressively turn my life to shit.most notable people were>nerd who always had to give out his "realistic" opinion regarding whatever I wanted to do, would say "that doesn't cool" to whatever I planned to have as a career which only worsened my lacking career ambition>crazy bitch who tried to fuck me so bad she physically assaulted me once and spread the rumor of me wanting to fuck her instead
>>34482907If you're not autistic, just look into your mbti type and figure out what cognitive function stack you have, it'll give a lot of clarity on why you act how you act. The only way anyone gets out of their shit is with hard work over the course of a long time, and you can't do that if you hate yourself and hate living. I'm starting to get myself off my ass and make music, I'm 24 and even I've still got a shot. You could waste those two years like I did and be in your mid 20s when you start or you could start a little every day now. If you ever find out how to make the little things feel worth it in the moment, come back and let us know.
>>34482962I did the test and here's what it says about relationships>In your relationships, whether romantic, platonic, or familial, you bring depth, honesty, and a unique perspective. You value intellectual compatibility highly, often forming your strongest bonds with those who can engage you in stimulating conversations and appreciate your abstract thinking. Your logical approach to problem-solving can be a valuable asset in relationships, helping to resolve conflicts rationally.interestingly enough, whenever I'd have an argument fight with either of my girlfriends I would always solve it quickly through rationality>However, your tendency to prioritize logic over emotion can sometimes create challenges in your relationships. You may struggle to understand or respond to others’ emotional needs, potentially coming across as insensitive or detached. Learning to recognize and validate emotions, both your own and others’, is crucial for building and maintaining meaningful connections. Balancing your need for independence with the interdependence required in close relationships is another important aspect of your relational growth.even more interesting is that my ex's blamed me for insensitivity upon breaking up and I care a lot about giving honest opinions rather than pretending or being sensitive. Not that I don't understand when you should give someone a hug or some space.
>>34483177>>34483339>bro just dieFuck off, life isn't meant to be easy faggot. And if it was then there would be no reason to live. Being a man sucks in particular but being a manlet is twice as bad and I'm still going.
>>34483348Good good, the world needs more worthless wagies and tax spawns. ARBEIT MACHT FREI
>>34483348Dude I've seen so many hot chicks with short dudes it is astronomical. You know Penguinz0? Dude is 5'6" yet everytime on this site a woman crushes on him. You need to believe in yourself more and stop digging yourself into a rabbit hole. Everyone who has been where you are at is looking at you like you're making excuses. And I'm not saying be perfect, but stop being so damn hard on yourself and then that out onto people.
>>34483494>You know Penguinz0?that fucking loser without calves who looks the same after years of going to gym and has to say "I like you" to every girl he says otherwise he won't have a chance and the only reason he gets recognized is because of his status and if he weren't popular then none of those people would speak to him? yeah I know him>You need to believe in yourselfoh I believe in myself but I don't believe in other people>you're making excuseswhat excuses I just said I keep going and it's not false that being a manlet fucking sucks lol. I don't care about my height but how people treat me due to it.
>>34483659>to every girl he saysto every girl he sees*my point is, he knows exactly of his low status due to his height. He cannot choose who he can be with, he has to deal with whatever is dealt to him
>>34483494>just become youtuber with 18M subscriptions bro
>>34483479yeah what else is there to do besides that and having hobbies>dude you're meant to hunt and kill each otherI enjoy having pharmaceuticals and food at my disposal because due to how I was born I would only die
>>34482907>it comes from a deep rooted trauma and betrayalMost of us here are at least somewhat traumatized. You are the only person that can to figure out how to move past your own trauma. I recommend the spiritual path. Stay completely sober, look into mineral baths, meditation, get a tarot reading or reiki, all that shit. Once you get past the trauma, your energy can flow through your body freely and uninterrupted, which is the key to feeling eternal bliss.
