Today I saw a hot girl with big boobs that giggled as she walked, nice ass, pretty face, and wore modest clothes, together with an ugly manlet, I felt like killing myself, and I'm not suicidal at all. I never had the opportunity to chase after women, because I was too worried trying to survive, and now that I am an adult I don't know what to do. I don't even know why I created this thread cause I don't think I will be taking any action to get women. I think I am depressed to be honest, and I don't want to get out of my room anymore. I also don't have any friends, it truly sucks. Why some people have everything while others only suffer? I know the answer already. God just loves some people more than others. What to do?
>>34483294>I know the answer already. God just loves some people more than others.You don't know the answer then. Also your outlook on suffering is two-dimensional. Life is more complicated than you think OP. Yeah that guy has a girlfriend, but that does not mean either of them don't suffer. In fact because they have a relationship they've already guaranteed future suffering. Whether that's from a break up or one of them faking gravely I'll in the future either now or in their old age, someone is going to suffer. That's how life works, the more you have the more you will suffer. Everything you have or strive towards will carry with it a suffering tax. The reason why the guy has the social success isn't because God favors him over you. It's because that guy understands that not to let suffering dictate his actions. He pushes past it and does not let suffering stop him from getting what he wants out of life. You could do the exact same, but you need to convince yourself that suffering isn't your master. You can and will still suffer, but whether or not you allow the suffering to make you its puppet or not, that's your choice
>>34483332>One of them faking gravely I'llOne of them becoming gravely ill**
>>34483294Maybe the ugly manlet was her brother or something
>>34483337>Maybe the ugly manlet was her brother or somethingIt wasn't, I am 180cm, and she was a few centimeters taller than me, the guy was smaller than me, and I'm already considered a manlet. So he was like, she was tightly hugging him, caressing his face, kissing him. They aren't siblings, unless it was an incestuous relationship. It didn't help that I was inside the train. I felt like shit the entire ride. I never felt like this, I never wanted to have what another person had. I always thought I could achieve what I wanted if I tried hard enough, well, I was wrong. I don't want to be the bitter old man archetype, but it seems it's where I'm heading to.
>>34483343>I always thought I could achieve what I wanted if I tried hard enough, well, I was wrong.Yes you were wrong. Because human connection is not something you achieve, not everything in life is a high school test, real life outside of college isn't about grades or credits or GPAs or whatever.
>>34483332>>I know the answer already. God just loves some people more than others.>your outlook on suffering is two-dimensionalNo, it’s not. I know they have it better than me. I’m not gonna go on some rant about how much I’ve suffered throughout my life, because I know there’s always someone who’s had it way worse than I can even imagine. But yeah, if God exists, which I think He does, He definitely loves some people more than others. Why else would a kid be born maimed, or kids get cancer? Life is so fucked up.>the more you have the more you will sufferThat’s just denial, sorry. There are people who don’t even know what suffering is. The worst thing that’s ever happened to them is their father telling them "no." You’re just deluding yourself. The fastest does not always win the race, nor the strongest the battle. The wisest are not always wealthy, and the most brilliant are not always honored. Skill does not guarantee favor, nor does hard work promise success. The kind are not always loved, the honest are not always trusted, and the deserving are not always rewarded. Many who labor the hardest remain unseen, while others rise through fortune alone. Riches do not always belong to those with understanding, nor happiness to those with power. For life does not unfold by merit alone. Time, chance, circumstance, and the strange currents of the world often place crowns on unexpected heads, while those most worthy are left forgotten.>You could do the exact sameI couldn't. That's the problem.
>>34483363>Yes you were wrong. Because human connection is not something you achieve, not everything in life is a high school test, real life outside of college isn't about grades or credits or GPAs or whatever.Then what the fuck do I do? I don't know what to do, and I'm so fucking tired. I can't have friends or a girlfriend and I'm touch starved. I think I can't remember the last time I received a hug from an adult, I was probably a kid. What makes a person want to befriend you for real? I can't know for sure. And don't tell me to read "how to influence people and make friends", because I already did and it doesn't help
>>34483370>There are people who don’t even know what suffering is. And I'm not one of them, believe me, I know what that is. I won't blogpost but suffice it to say I am from a family of diagnosed psychotics and psychopaths, violence and abuse was as common as catching a cold in my upbringing. >Win the race>Win the battle>Wealthy>Honored>Favored>Success>Fortune Have you considered the possibility that your thinking is superficial? Shallow? Vain? Unless I am misunderstanding you but it sounds like you have this perfectionist desire for materialistic goodies. Money, attention, admiration, being seen as a winner etc. Why do you think like that?
>>34483403>Have you considered the possibility that your thinking is superficial? Shallow? Vain?These were examples. >sounds like you have this perfectionist desire for materialistic goodiesI don't, however, I do want success, an easy life, money, admiration, and attention. What exactly is wrong with that? I have never had any of those things, so why should it be considered wrong to want to live a good life? Why are you trying to make it seem as though wanting good things is somehow immoral?You can spend your entire life living like a monk, giving away your money, helping the poor, feeding the hungry, and denying yourself every desire, while others spend their lives fucking pretty women, indulging in their deepest pleasures, and doing whatever they want, and in the end, you all die just the same.>And I'm not one of them, believe me, I know what that is. I won't blogpost but suffice it to say I am from a family of diagnosed psychotics and psychopaths, violence and abuse was as common as catching a cold in my upbringing.Suffering is not measured only by physical harm, and pain is not always something that can be compared so simply. Sometimes people can suffer deeply even from things others might see as lesser, because suffering is shaped differently for everyone. I do believe I have suffered greatly in my own way, just as you clearly have in yours. But this is not me trying to diminish what you went through. I understand that we all carry different burdens, different wounds, and different stories that shape us. I genuinely recognize your pain, and I sincerely wish you the best.
>>34483434> I have never had any of those things, so why should it be considered wrong to want to live a good life? Why are you trying to make it seem as though wanting good things is somehow immoral?I am not saying it's immoral. I just focused on the pattern I noticed in your writing. And given how you replied, I am guessing you are not a hedonist then, not an egotist, not a narcissistic type of person chasing some grandiose shit. Seems to me like you want to be a success in the conventional worldly sense because you want to fit in. Right? You feel like an outsider, a spectator, everyone around you seems to be moving and growing and making these steps towards social heights and yet you are by the wayside, stuck and stagnant and just watching people blur past you while you remain still, unable to have a sense of growth or a place to belong to of your own? Like the world just doesn't seem to have a (you) shaped seat at the table of life. That sort of thing?
>>34483389I'm sorry man. I'm not that anon you were going back and forth with, but I feel you.As someone who did the irl thing, hobbies, meetups, friends, I will advise it work on getting to the healthy BMI weight bracket, groomed hairs, great clothes, then take some GREAT photos close up. And download dating apps.Brother I'm getting matches and I'm so happy.
>>34483294That is very moralizing It shows that even low-tier guys can get a very attractive gf. Now, imagine if you're a little above average, how much easier it is.
>>34483343>180cm>ManletToday I learned I'm a manlet.Regardless, that just goes to show that all this looksmaxing redpill bullshit isn't as real as the chuds on here make it seem like it is. Hell, I married a girl who was WAY out of my league myself; there's got to be some luck involved sure but it's definitely not impossible.
>>34483981How do you know she is actually out of your league? More likely you’re insecure and brought up putting pussy in the pedestal
>>34483389I would advise you to stop watching defeatism content as a start.
>>34483981He said the guy was under 180 cm, so easily manlet tier in current year. Also, both you and the guy in OP probably got settled for by women who gave their best years to someone else. The fact you married this woman is bamboozling unless this was in the 2010s or she was a virgin before you.
>>34483389Have you reached a point where you honestly know yourself and love yourself? If you haven't then you need to do that first.
1/2>>34484172>you and the guy in OP probably got settled for by women who gave their best years to someone elseNo, the woman was very young, probably around the same age as me, early twenties. I guess that's what made me seethe more. I had never felt like that before, it was the first time, lol.>>34483776>That is very moralizing It shows that even low-tier guys can get a very attractive gfI don't know about that. In my experience, that guy was the exception. He probably was at the right time, in the right place, wasn't an autist like me, and things just happened for him. Even though I seethed at the time, looking back, I feel happy for him. I hope you can get a nice girlfriend just like he did.>>>34483707>BMI weight bracket, groomed hairs, great clothes, then take some GREAT photos close up. And download dating appsI was jacked, I had been working out since I was 14, but I stopped taking care of my body. I'm still very fit, but I'm not well groomed and don't really care about nice clothes. I've just let myself go over the last 2 years. I want things to change, but I don't want to put myself out there or use social media or dating apps. I know it's a contradiction, but I can't help it. Maybe I need to work on my inner self. The problem is, I'm nearing my mid twenties, so I don't think I have much time anyway.>>34484160>I would advise you to stop watching defeatism content as a start.I haven't really consumed this kind of content for a long time, but I did watch BP and read a lot about determinism and BP. I have a good memory, so even though I stopped, I just can't forget.
2/2>>34483981>Today I learned I'm a manlet.Sorry, I didn't mean to offend you. It's my height, and I feel like everyone I meet, even women, are taller than me. I know this is a bit above average in most countries. That's how fucked up the dating game has become, lol.>Hell, I married a girl who was WAY out of my league myself; there's got to be some luck involved sure but it's definitely not impossible.There's definitely some luck involved, but I do think you must have good qualities she saw in you. Well, anyway, BP doesn't really matter and shouldn't matter to you, because you already accomplished what most men my age aren't doing, which is finding a nice wife.>>34484227>Have you reached a point where you honestly know yourself and love yourself? If you haven't then you need to do that first.Sorry, I just can't love myself. I feel ugly and completely devoid of any redeeming qualities. In other words, what lucky woman would ever get the privilege of ending up with me? LOL
>>34483294Why do people turn to suicide instead of murder?
>>34484271>>34484274You seem depressed, I hope you find a way to get better.
Who caresIf he can get one, so can you
>>344832941. See woman you find attractive.2. Say "Hi"
>>34483294>I don't, I don't, I don'tSocialize with men at first, you get to women faster if you have friends.Women give sex for love and men give lover for sex, learn it.
>>34484104Nah she legitimately was. I did ok with girls before I met her despite a white trash upbringing, but she's always been dream girl material.>>34484172>>Also, both you and the guy in OP probably got settled for by women who gave their best years to someone else. The fact you married this woman is bamboozling unless this was in the 2010s or she was a virgin before you.I am the guy she gave her best years to, we met when I was right out of highschool and she was in her first year of university. She was a virgin before me though, that's true.>>34484274>you already accomplished what most men my age aren't doing, which is finding a nice wife. We got married in the past year and I'm 26, safe to assume we're pretty close in age.
>>34484554>If he can get one, so can youThe whole point of the thread is that I can't. If it was that easy, I wouldn't have made a thread in the first place.>>34485104>1. See woman you find attractive.>2. Say "Hi"Not that easy. The guy you posted is rich and famous. I have nothing going on in my life besides being a wagie.>>34485312>Socialize with men at first, you get to women faster if you have friends.>Women give sex for love and men give lover for sex, learn it.I just can't. Even though it takes me a long time before I talk to someone, I've made some male friends rather quickly once we started talking, and at first, we seemed inseparable. But we slowly drift away, no matter what I do.During my last year of high school, I transferred to another school. It took me a few months before I started talking to people, but I found a friend group and made a really close friend. We were like brothers at first, but as soon as high school ended, I tried making plans and contacting him multiple times, and it just didn’t seem to work.Sometimes he would cancel our plans out of nowhere, and even when we hung out, it would take another six months or more before we saw each other again. He also never seemed to initiate.Eventually, I gave up, and he never reached out again.Something similar happened at university.>>34484294>You seem depressed, I hope you find a way to get better.I'm really not sure if I am. I think that I still have the will to live, even if it's out of spite. I am thankful and I wish you the best as well.>>34484287>Why do people turn to suicide instead of murder?Nobody is at fault for my shortcomings except me. I would never try to destroy someone’s life if they had nothing to do with my suffering in the first place. It has never made sense to me to hurt others just because I didn’t get what I wanted. That is the behavior of a spoiled child who knows no suffering.
>>34484274>Sorry, I just can't love myself.You need to start here first then.
>>34485654What does the ugly manlet have that you don't? Hmm?
