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I've never been able to have a one-night stand, because I always end up developing feelings. I guess that's never helped matters.

Finally, all of that has led me to enter into a dynamic of comparing myself to which has generated a strong and bad feeling: envy.


Envy towards my female colleagues, a feeling that I'll never truly be liked except on rare occasions because in the end "everyone finds someone, no matter how awful they are".

I've felt extreme envy and disgust for my partner's romantic and sexual past, which, as soon as I discovered it (believing we were on the same level), led me into a spiral of anger and obsession, and constant reproaches, which almost cost us our relationship.

But to this day I feel, and I can't get this out of my head, that I too would like to know what it's like to feel desired by other people.

To know what it feels like to kiss the lips of a different person.

To feel that intense emotion of romance that I feel I haven't been able to experience, that I've skipped a stage of my life that I can never get back.

And this overwhelms me. Because in this messed-up society we live in, a woman's youth and beauty "expires" once she turns 30, and I see myself approaching that stage and I haven't done anything about it.

To make matters worse, it's a long-distance relationship, which means we see each other less than I'd like and that a large part of the relationship doesn't feel "real." Time passes, we're stuck in this dynamic, and it seems like I can't enjoy either aspect of it. Trapped, doing nothing. And he's already experienced everything I haven't. Of course, he doesn't care as much. He's already lived it all, and he doesn't "expire" in the same way I do.

And now I feel trapped, suffocated, or boxed in. I don't know how to describe it, but it's incredibly overwhelming. It feels like time is slipping through my fingers, and like a thousand things are contradicting each other at the same time.

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>another foid "finding herself" by getting her back blown out by a different dude every day
I've seen this episode before.

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I know what true love is. I love, I LOVE this person like I've never loved before. I repeat, he's my home. But at the same time, this confinement makes me want to breathe fresh air. I want to feel something, and above all, I want to feel alive and know what others have been through.

This probably sounds childish and selfish. I know that. As I said, I lost part of my development.

It's so unfair. For me and for him. I don't know what the fucking fuck to do.

I don't have anybody to tell this. I just needed to vent to some strangers that doesn't know me. I know this is awful from me.

Any similar experiences are appreciated. Thank you.

You could probably go do stuff outside without leaving him, but it seems like you're not sure if you want to leave him because you are inexperienced. You may or may not regret either decision, but you won't know which you really regret unless you leave him, so you can stay and always wonder, or try some new people and see how that goes. I think. I kind of skimmed it. Statistically, if you've dated more than 8 people and like him the best of all of them than he is likely around the best you can do within your lifetime.

>>34483685

Thanks for your comment because it's not judgmental at all. It made me feel better.

The thing is, people are not objects that you can throw away and come back to them after you decide they were the best option at first. I would totally understand his hate against me if I ever do that.

Good advice tho.

>>34483697
Yeah, I agree. I didn't really think you could go back to him after. I was just presenting your options and outcomes, and summarizing what I thought you were going through.

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Every girl needs her ho phase. Sounds like you never did.
Go wild and fuck like 10 guys this summer.
Your boyfriend will take you back in the Fall.
Just don't tell him the details. Tell him you needed to find yourself and have some alone time.

>>34483639 (OP)
Well, I would say that the type of media you consume glorifies that type of thing. If I consume on my free time a guy with his porsche, partying with a lot of sluts etc, I would feel the FOMO too, even if I would hate the experience.
>>34483643
>To make matters worse, it's a long-distance relationship, which means we see each other less than I'd like and that a large part of the relationship doesn't feel "real."
I think that's the major issue, long-distance relationships sucks, I would advice you to try to fix that. I would feel like shit too if I had a gf and I almost didn't had time spent together with her physically. In the end the relationship happens in real life, no digital means will make it good,

>>34484065
>In the end the relationship happens in real life, no digital means will make it good

I totally agree with you on that. I've been saying this for a long time: experiences as relationships are for living in real life, not virtually. I did learn this after a few long distance relationships. It seems I'm done with long distance after 3 rltshps like that, which I think is understandable.

And my problem with the FOMO comes more from my environment than the media I consume. People always did more than me, idk why.

>>34484020
I agree with the fact that almost every mentally healthy human needs a ho phase.

>>34484085
>It seems I'm done with long distance after 3 rltshps like that, which I think is understandable.
That's rough, I had one and that was enough for never wanting a ldr ever again. Try to fix that with your bf, if there's no way to fix it I would find local people to date.
>And my problem with the FOMO comes more from my environment than the media I consume. People always did more than me, idk why.
I get that, I feel like that too because I'm kinda a late bloomer. I would say to live your life, you don't need to do what the others did if you do not want it. Maybe you will date a guy but you both don't vibe that much, that's fine. You go to the next and see if things work. You will have the experience without forcing it.

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>>34483639
W*men will burn everything for one last like on the Cock Carosel.

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>>34483639
Reading this shit as a man and I wonder what the point is of even trying. I find a great girl, I treat her well, she's happy. And it doesn't matter because they're still incapable of true love. Oh well, at least 2D exists

>>34483639
> I've been dating my partner for years. >And if, by any chance, this reaches him, which is the last thing I want, I have to say:

>I love you.
No you don’t. You love the convenience and safety he brings you, but you don’t love him. No matter how he treated you well and cared for you, you are willing to betray his loyalty for cheap hookups.
You are taking him for granted, if you had no one you’d be begging for someone to love you, but since you already have one, whats wrong with fucking 10 guys just for fun teehee xP.
If you actually love him, break up with him before “exploring your sexuality”.

>>34483639
OP, you don't realize how very, very normal and ordinary you are. EVERYONE has fantasies of being wild or irresponsible or just other-than-they-are. EVERYONE feels vaguely guilty about them. And most people forgive themselves for the terrible sin of being human and get on with life.

>>34483639
Basically I'm in the same boat except I don't have one-itis (you're the only one for me) kind of perception of a person. My opinion of long distance relationships is that they can't be physical and lack of proximity means lack of real love. My idea of a relationship is cohabitation with mutual good feelings and no outside bullshit. Monogamous and all that, even if not married.

>>34483639
How big are the tits

>>34484776
Man are definitely worse since the origin of the planet in that kind of topics.

>>34484854
I'm not gonna explore my sexuality, first of all. And it's not a "teehee silly me funny thing to do" matter. It's a deeper and hurtful feeling than that.

Also, he already did all that hookup before. He was like that or even worse. And now is he the poor thing bretayed by his pure and true love for you? Like a lot of incel man, can't I feel overwhelmed by my partner's romantic past?

>>34485503
Very small

>>34485278

>proximity means lack of real love. My idea of a relationship is cohabitation with mutual good feelings and no outside bullshit.

Absolutely. In fact, I notice that (we've been long distance for five years, since the beginning ) after some time of not being together physically, I subconsciously starting to "forget" the feelings, like they start to fade. Maybe it's a self-defense mechanism, idk.

>>34485525
So 29 year old with small tits. Maybe i would. Maybe.

>>34485530
I'm 27 and I don't want you to would, thank you.

ew

>>34483639
I found jealousy between girls disturbing. Whether it was ugly, fat, garden variety slags or bar girls offering bad advice to pretty even decent girls which lead to a collapse of their life one way or another;

The case of the local "nice girl":

She had been someone that did well in school, drew, read books and liked by the teachers. Problem, she had been ditched by her friends a number of times from school and through high school. Maybe she was not "exciting", maybe she did not "fit", maybe she just wanted attention from others. At some point she figured that having attention from certain boys she got the attention of her friends. Now, that did not quite do it as they realised she was being "her" again was on the fringes and other times ditched. In year 7 she was doing marijuana with her friend and later her and her friend's boyfriend at his place. People speculated that there was some kind of "contact". In any case, there was guy that really-really liked her and she kept rejecting him. She had been disgusted when she knew that the guy liked her. Anyway, the guy grew a lot, she was ditched again by her friends and she resorted to being his "girlfriend".

He walked her home, they talked on the phone she was very anxious about any physical contact with him. He did not press, he was just being patient until she was ready. As soon as her old friend group invited her back in she would dump him with some contradicting excuse: "I am too young", "not ready" etc. They were on again off again. Remember her being very anxious about any physical contact with him? Well, she met with some other guy during class and she gave him blowjobs and snuck into her backyard to watch her shower (she texted before of course) . Her new pot smoking friend and new group covered for her.

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>>34485638
Our boy and us did not know until a few years after high school. Apparently, she had something going on with her neighbour; he saw them one day and she was shocked like she cheated on him. That guy she gave blowjobs to got expelled for smoking in class. She tried to come over her our boy's house and even made plans but instead she brought her mum to scold him for "trying to do something" to her daughter. Needless to say our boy was not happy and was going to end it with her. Some idiot simp told her or her friend and she and her pot smoking buddy set up a kiss during lunch time. Our boy was happy she was trying. When it came to lunch time, her old buddies showed up and they started to accuse our boy about him pressuring her to give him a blowjob after the kiss. Anyway they kissed, her old friends welcomed her back and she broke it off with him with another contradicting excuse.

She kept talking about him for weeks and her friends told her to stop talking about him if she broke up with him. They ditched her again. She had to go home for recess and lunch. Our boy took pity on her and got a girl he knew from kindergarten to be friends with her. That girl tried to get back with our boy as his fake girlfriend again but he refused. Eventually, she left that girl that was her new friend and that new group because she was prejudiced and ungrateful towards them; they took it well but they did not speak her much again. She joined another group that was very culturally incompatible.

Now, our boy a few years later rekindled feelings for her. She rejected him after his love confession. He chased, he stopped and started to like another girl. Said other girl got into a relationship so he got over her fast. One day his fake ex girlfriend being ditched on a "skip school" day asked our boy out and promised to keep it secret, that its going to be different from last time and what not. He was reluctant, he accepted.

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>>34485660
She again was anxious about being physical with him, she gave blowjobs to another guy during toilet breaks and she had a boyfriend from another high school at since at least 6 months before she asked him to be his girlfriend. And, she broke her promised of keeping their relationship secret after a couple of days. Her old friend group became interested and started to make brief contact with her. It was suspicious that she and her new group did not want our boy to go to her friends birthday party. We suspect that she brought that other guy from a different high school instead. She got close to her old group and she dumped that guy again.

She said she "wanted to have fun and enjoy life", her friends advice who by the way liked him (hmmm, interesting). The guy tried to change her mind, he felt it was a huge mistake. The next few years she had flings while she kept tabs on our boy. She even slept with his friend as well, we despise him. She is a divorced single mum that caused drama and problems in so many social groups. She even had the nerve to get some guy from our year to set them up again. Our boy was spitting fire, he was having none of that. She is mad and even said "he owes me a relationship". She is apparently suicidal and her mum is desperately trying to find mutual contacts to set them up.

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>>34485681
The case of the "quiet nerdy girl":

"M" lets call her, she become very fond of this boy. He was very good to her despite her ethic background. They met during sport and they were from different schools. She would join his school's sports activity as she was lonely. She became friends with his classmate. Problem, there were some mentally handicapped boys that liked her from her school. At times they would corner her, "J" lets call him, would basically rescue her and even scuffled with them. One was a Serbian kid that was a refugee with his parents, one from Iraq as a refugee too and another kid from Turkey as an immigrant. She was going to go to another high school but she liked "J" and her new friend so much that she went to the same high school them.

Those boys were also there too. The Serb refugee kid threw tantrums to get his parents to give him "something to grow", they injected him with steroids and other stuff until he looked like he was 25 in year 7. The Serb refugee kid gave his spare steroids to the Iraqi refugee and Turkey kid. They looked like they were 16 in year 7. The Serb refugee kid kept asking out "M" but "M" refused very politely and very nicely. "M" liked "J" very much and was very sad when she found out "J" liked some other girl and was not bitter towards him, rather, understanding and sweet as ever. One day in year 8 "M"'s friend and "J"'s classmate from school spoke to "J" about making "M" his girlfriend. "J" declined, while it was a bit autismo of him he did not feel they were culturally compatible and said "M" still looked like she was in year 6 or "small" as he put it. He was right and while had no malice about it, it was a bit insensitive. Again, "M" took it well and sweet as ever. "J" said that once she "grows" ("J" being "J") he promised to take her out on a date. "M" was containing her excitement and would shy away from making eye contact with him.

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>>34485745
In year 9 "M" with her friend that was "J"s classmate in school would watch "J" play sport during recess and lunch.
The Serb refugee kid that looked 25 from 7, the Iraqi refugee kid and the Turkish kid that looked like 16 from year 7. Saw her watching him, they stopped playing basketball and played the same sports as "J" did. The Serb guy was very aggro and played very dirty, "J" is very tough and was stoic about it (he had a edgy arc later). "M" scolded the Serb refugee guy which he was embarrassed and she commended "J" for his character.

Later that year "M" had a relationship with a guy from the same ethnic/cultural background (Chinese) as her lets call him "A". One day "A" exploded at some guy that was a year or two above us during lunch. He was from a somewhat similar ethnic background (Phillipinno) apparently something to do with "M" and they nearly had a fight. Allegedly, "M" was flirting with him. "A" and "M" broke up soon after. "A" calls "J" over told him that "M" likes him. "J" looked so confused, asked "M" what happened and she was just staring at him speechless.

In year 10 "M" and her friend watched "J"' play sport again. One of "M" classmates from high school had a crush on her and because she did not reciprocate his feelings she started kicking the ball at her, lets call him "B". "J" kicked the ball at her as well but he was being playful (and childish). "B" started to kick the ball really hard towards "M" aiming for her head. "J" intervened to protect her, covered her and he absorbed a few ball kicks. "J" pleaded her to leave and she was looking at him zoning out again. "J" and "B" had a scuffle with "J" pushing "B" to the ground over that. Later "M" tried to get "J" to kiss "M", a teacher yelled at them just before they made contact. The Serb refugee and steroid abuser and his three buddies threatened "J" over that intimate moment and "J" just being unphased told them that "nothing happened".

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>>34485841
"J" said he did not want to go ahead with her "M" because of the "strange" timing with that teacher seeing them (come on bro....) and maybe he did not trust that "M" was loyal. She was kind enough to bring back the ball for "J" when he was playing so there was that. "M" and her friend started to skip classes, they would go to the city centre and walk all day checking out guys that also skipped school. One day "M"'s new boyfriend visited her at high school, they broke up the week after. "J" got involved with some other girl that was dorky, he went through a bad break up.

In year 12, "J" and "M"'s friend spoke with "M" again, lets call her "D" doing the almost annual check up on whether "J" wants to go out with "M" and that time "J" hesitantly accepted. "D" was overjoyed and "J" and "M" had their "trial period". Basically, "J" recovering from the bad break up a year and half ago and wanting to get to know "M" before any relationship happened. They got on very very well despite "J"'s previous objections implying "M" was a deaf-mute. By then, the roided Serb refugee, his buddies, the other guys from the year as well as "J"'s ex-girlfriend and her friends lingered close by. "J" also had a big natural growth spurt by then.

They started to taunt her and insult her background, "J" told them to stfu. They had continued harassing her, "J" confronted them and they froze. They started again given and he fought them in the library, it was a fucking riot and they all ran from him. They stfu after that. "M"'s parents found out she had someone and got a matchmaker to find a suitor. They found him and he started to come to high school to visit her. Now, I do not know if "D" got "M" to try make "J" jealous as to make him like her more(?); "M" did text the suitor and would chat with him and "D" while "J" was there with her. The suitor wanted to start a fight with "J", called him a "pussy foreigner" or something like that among other squealing comments he made.

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>>34485884
"J" kept telling him to "watch it" and "M" would calm him down with the suitor leaving soon after. A couple days later "J" snapped and laid into that suitor who ran crying like a girl. The suitor thought he could just come back but each time "J" would just bash him. "D" and "M" felt sorry for him and kept asking "J" to let him join them. He refused, by that time "J" and "M" were intensely intimate. "J" blew up at her and "M" cried a lot, explaining that her parents are forcing him on her and to just wait it out.

The suitor came again, forced a ring on her and "J" went ballistic. He thrashed that suitor and he basically told "M" that he was done with her. "M" scrabbled for help, reached out to "J"'s ex-girlfriend and her friends and his friends. The girls told her to make him jealous and she overdid it. "M" touching the guys inappropriately while "J" was around. "J" was very unimpressed by her, "M" desperately and frantically went back "J"'s ex girlfriend, her friends and "J"'s friends. Those girls told "M" that "J" liked orgies(???) and to tell "J" that she had a surprise for him. "M" looked embarrassed and red-faced, she told the guys that she "wanted to try it". One of the guys in our year told "J" that his ex-girlfriend and her friends are getting "M" do to an "orgie" with the guys. "J" ran over and yelled across the library "dont do it 'M'!". She went into the study room with the guys. "J" thought it was bullshit until one of his ex-girlfriend's friends called "J" over and look at the "surprise" they prepared for him. "J" was livid and beat the shit out of those guys. He told people after that they were "taking turns on her", it took us long while to understand what he was talking about, we were that shocked.

Later "J" and "A" being "M"s ex-boyfriend from year 9 team up and started a riot in the library. Those girls and guys ran for dear life. "M" was at a loss as to why "J" was disgusted at her and resented her.

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>>34485926
"M" became very upset and extremely embarrassed. She cried for days and "J" avoided her. The guys kept begging her to "do that again", one of them that Serb refugee steroid abuser. She kept saying no with tears in her eyes and hiding her face. Later that week they gang raped her and police had a dilemma of her making advances on them and saying she was gang raped. The girls in the year that gave her that advice were panicking. "J"'s ex girlfriend tried to flirt with him which he rejected her. "J" took out his anger on those girls.

Sadly, "M" was gang raped at high school daily. She was crying and could not open her eyes. Those subhumans were smiling and "thanking" her. She begged "J" to forgive her, "J" called her every name in the book and even spat on her. Teachers had a dilemma too like the police did and they expelled "M" later that year. We had like PTSD or something from that. "J"'s mate that went to another school gave him something and wiped his memory (cant blame "J", his friend though was too much).

"M" obliged marrying the suitor, the Serb guy threatened her family if he did not have his way with her, he abducted her, forced him to be his girlfriend, invited the other rapists to rape her and they forced her into prostitution. They had targeted other girls and they have been threatened. "M" had three kids with the suitor and her family mourns her smile from years ago. Her family tried to get "J" after all those years to talk with her again, he just forgot everything and he would react strongly out of nowhere if someone tried to talk to him about her.

OP, you need to do some soul-searching because the mourning that girls have over love is significant. Also, be very-very wary of the jealous girls and their "advice"

Just beat the fuck out of women

>>34484100
I haven't had one and don't feel or think that i need one. Can I ask why you think this? I honestly just want 1 person that loves me and thats it. Me love them back as well of course

>>34485522
Not the anon. And yeah you can feel overwhelmed by his past. But this isn't about his past. Its about your feelings. You didn't say its due to his past. You are saying its due to your own insecurities and want to do more even tho what you want is useless. You would hook up and then cry about how nobody wants you for you and are just using you. Then you would probably complain about any future bf based on this hooks ups if any of them were decent. If not then nothing. Then you would probably complain about somethinf new anyway

>>34485515
Not the anon but it doesn't matter which is worse. Imagine if your bf felt the same. And he told you. How would you feel?

>>34485522
>But at the same time, this confinement makes me want to breathe fresh air. I want to feel something, and above all, I want to feel alive and know what others have been through.
Yea you want to explore your sexuality by fucking multiple men. We’re telling you that you are shitting where you eat.
>can’t I feel overwhelmed by my partner romantic past
Yes you can. Maybe it would be better if you date someone with a similar level of experience as you. Have you talked to your bf about that before?
>he did the hookup before, why can’t I?
Well, you said you loved him, so why do you need to hook up with someone else?
Maybe you stopped loving him and started only feeling that its unfair that he had his whore phase and you didn’t, and you wanna one up him. Don’t shit where you eat if you actually love him, because you’ll end up not having him and be used as a cumdump by multiple dudes. Genuinely for me your mindset makes no sense. If I were a undersexed virgin incel and got a whore gf, I wouldn’t want to become a manwhore to match her experience, I’d just leave her because I don’t feel confortable in having a relationship with someone with more experience, or if I loved her I’d just deal with the fact that we love eachother no matter our previous experience.

Move to where he is and marry him, I guarantee you that going through a ho phase where you fuck hundreds of men that only want your body will make you 10x more miserable thatn you are now.

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>>34485976
>OP, you need to do some soul-searching because the mourning that girls have over love is significant. Also, be very-very wary of the jealous girls and their "advice"
Solid advice.

>>34485638
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>>34485745
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>>34485976
Holy shit
I didn't read all of that but I can't imagine anyone tolerating any of that immaturity and nonsense. It's stupid and broken from the start. Any sentence I pull at random is retarded idiocy I can't imagine anyone paying any attention to for a single second.
Not that I doubt it's true. It's just retarded from every angle.

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>>34486668
>Solid advice.
>>34486668
Bro, the "nice girl's" mum used to be a prostitute at the red light district of the city. She was the type of child that in the supermarket her parents would give her the chocolate she wanted and after a few seconds want a different chocolate over and over again. Her dad married her knowing that, her mum though they were "loaded" even though her mum and her husband lodged with her parents. She even cheated on her husband while she was pregnant and when she camp to school camp to "supervise" the girls. I think she came there to perv on them and cheat on her husband. Apparently, she "saw" those girls many times.

As for the quiet nerdy girl: her mum used to be a contestant at a beauty pageant in China during the late 1960's or 1970's approximately and got second place which really affected her mother who considered it an injustice. Her family was from a very humble background and "M" studied a lot. Those mentally handicapped and steroid using guys made a pact in primary school that one of them is going to marry her. Years later they gang raped her for years, threatening her family and forced her into prostitution. The gang rapists were "rape"fugees, simps and really bad at girls.

"M"'s family told "M" that if she stayed with "J" his family would turn her into a prostitute and the "suitor" came from a "rich" family. "J" and his family would never, I dont care if he was this or that or whatever. They would never. Turns out the suitor and his family were also humble. The suitor and his family demanded "M"'s family to support them and "M" had to also endure being a prostitute and a housemaid for the gang rapists. "J" and those subhumans fought again as "M" still had feelings for her and they saw "M" as their "girlfriend" who would one day "choose" one of them. She kept choosing "J". "M" is miserable and very sad, her husband hits her even in public and he gambles.

Sorry about the typos, those are hours of typing and sorting.

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>>34486668
Thank you by the way.I hope it might help and save some people

>>34485522
why are you dating a degenerate man whore? its way easy to find an incel shy guy
this is on you only

Comparison is the thief of joy. You even acknowledged it in your posts. You can pursue what you will, but do it because you want to, not because you envy others. There's also ways to navigate this while retaining the relationship, but not everyone is going to be open to those kinds of solutions. In absence of that, what takes presedence, your sexual fantasies, or love for your partner?

>i'm a whore please justify my behaviour
you're missing out on being a disposable cumrag.
If you have an ounce of love and respect for your current partner you will leave him to find someone worth his love