idk how this site works this is something dumb I wanted to get off my chest. I'm a streamer , I'm not super popular or anything, I just make vtuber models and play games mostly. One day me and a few friends raided into some guys channel, i recognised his username immediately as a very popular person from like over a decade ago on youtube. i don't wanna specify anything for fear of getting caught on this. but basically i started watching his streams, then i joined his server, then i asked if he wanted to play some friendslop games sometime. he added me on discord and weve been playing together every week or so on stream with some other friends. problem. i developed a crush on him, which is totally retarded because I have a boyfriend of 4 years who i love. Not to mention, I'm 20- this guys in his mid thirties. I looked up all his socials, his records basically clean online- for a super popular internet guy 10 years ago he didn't have anything bad on him- score! Also i found his full name, which i guess makes me a bit of a stalker but whatever, im harmless. i found his face too, hes ugly and old, but im a personality kinda girl so idgaf. the other week he said he was in the (main city) of my country, and asked if i possibly live nearby so we could meet up. i really wanted to but i live nowhere near that city so i had to decline- fuck. anyway, I wanna know, I feel parasocial as fuck but like- we DO stream together like every week- i just watch his streams as well, and he comes into mine sometimes too. it pisses me off. I'm already with someone, and I'm being a freak about some ugly fuck who i play games with. my bf kinda already knows, he treats it like a celebrity crush lol. my bf is cool. but yeah idk- im embarassed as fuck, its just retarded thats all idk. i have nowhere to share this and no one to confide in with this shit.
>>34483744Heart wants what the heart wants idk, clearly you don't love your current bf. >I'm 20- this guys in his mid thirties. Both adults, irrelevant. Probably your female brain seeing a guy that had some popularity and believing you have some social currency to gain by being with him over your bf. Your bf is a cuckold for not stomping this shit out the moment he found out, in that way he deserves whatever you do. Because he's fucked either way, you stay with him he's with someone that casually stalks random dudes on the internet and if you leave to fuck the other guy then he's alone.
>>34485704Yeah this dude got it.You’re cooked lady.Don’t let your man be with someone who already has thought of being unfaithful.Let him find a good woman who isn’t out stalking dudes on the internet.He’s a cuck for not stomping that shit out immediately. How would you feel if the roles were reversed? You want your man of 4 years crushing on a co worker or another gamer and seeing him search her up on socials etc..? My advice? Leave. He may be sad and alone for awhile but it’s better than being with someone like you.
You should totally leave your loving partner over the streamer who probably smells like shit and “hangs out” with people significantly younger, ya he seems totally well adjusted and you seem really mature for your age. You’re totally meant to be with the ugly old man whose almost twice your age playing video games and your loving bf who you’ve been with for four years was really just a practice bf for the real love of your life. You should keep sinking into this totally not delusional and retarded thought pattern
>>34483744I love seeing posts which make me feel more sure than ever that my boundaries are correct and valid. I would never let a girl I'm dating have male friends due to this bullshit. Honestly, the fact that you're spending what little free time you have hanging out with people other than your partner (assuming you're not a NEET and work full time) is already a massive red flag.
>>34485704I do love my current bf, dont know how to dispute that, we get on so so well. the reason i brought up the age difference is to me ive only ever had like 2 boyfriends and i act like a teen. my hobbies are like watching cartoons and listening to bad music, my room is a pink dumpster. so ive always felt behind or younger or whatever- so to me its weird idk. its not really about social currency, i just have really good banter with him when we play. my bf probabaly is a cuck because hes very passive and gets mad at things like- not eating the correct brand of cookies cuz hes autistic. the only good thing is i basically tell my bf everything, he knows how i feel about everyone, and if hes chill with it i guess were chill. i wouldnt leave to fuck some randos. im assertive and loud online and useless and shy irl.
>>34485836Well yeah, thats why i wouldn't leave him, im being irrational. Probabaly worth noting i found out i was 6 days late to my period this morning, so it could be ive been abnormally hormonal for a week. Also I have ADHD, so its common for me to get hyperfixated on things. Usually games or shows but when its people i turn into a bit of a weirdo. My whole life is one hyperfixation after the next, my bf is the only constant and has alwasy been there for me. so idk i dont think id ever leave him.
>>34486347Idk thats too far, ive always had a lot of male friends, my best friend is male and i call him twin cuz thats just how i see him. If anything its always the guy that gets a crush on me then doesnt wanna be friends anymore when i reject them, which sucks. Also im not a NEET but i am in Uni, only three days of the week though. I spend most of my time alone working on my projects then at night i go to his room (we live in a big building). He watches all my streams because hes also my mod and i tell him everything, i dont do things behind his back.
i fucking hate women so god damn much
crushes are so silly, you're just projecting what you want onto someone else. the person you're idealizing is not real. don't cuck your bf over that
>>34483744uhm ill recommend for you to stay with your boyfriend and tell him everything (wtv u said it here or make it sound more light) and ask him for forgiveness, and promise you will not do that again, and cut ties with that 30 year old guy, and he probably has a wife or smth like that, but having a crush on a person who plays the game 24/7 is kinda weird
>>34485781he wont find anyone else. my bf is ugly and spends entire days playing games in his room, he doesnt open the blinds and he refuses to put his interests anywhere which makes the room grey and boring. all his friends are my friends. if the roles were reversed im gonna be real i dont think i would mind to much, ive always enjoyed yandere / stalker tropes, i read a lot of fanfiction and play a lot of shitty visual novels. but yeah id get jelous of her, but most of all id just make fun of my bf. i dont think i could ever leave him. i cant descibe it but i love him like crazy.
>>34486851why bro? did one of them broke ur heart? or u just a little faggot who cant get pussy?
>>34486857yeah im usually into fictional characters. it is silly, but cant help how u feel i guess
>>34486840have u ever thought or imagined to be with him? do yall have similar interests, personality ???
>>34486862i probaably will tell him i posted on here when i go to bed later after my vod uploads, hes forgiving, and he loves me. i think its mostly homronal imbalance from late period idk. i cant cut ties with that guy, one hes my friend, i dont drop friends, 2 its like a spiderweb of connections between other streamers im friends with. its kinda like if 2 neighbours are argueing the whole street comes out to watch. also sorry for the misunderstanding, he doesnt play the game 24/7, my bf plays games 24/7.
>>34486878What my best friend u mean?
>>34486895yeah
>>34486888nah i probably misunderstood, i get lost in conversations, sorry about that, well its nice that he is very loving and forgiving, but dont take that for your advantage to cheat or smth (im not saying that you will, just an advice)
>>34486900Then my answer is no, hes like me but male, if i wanted to smash myself id just masturbate hahabut seriously nah, hes just twin, ive had tens of male friends i never had any feelings for. probabaly worth mentioning im pansexual atp. my second crush ever was on a girl when i was like 10, so to me it doesnt even matter what gender the person im crushing on is.
>>34486911its cool, but yeah thats where im at, i would never cheat, because logically hes the best person to be with forever, he sees the kinds of jokes i make with the people i stream with and if hes fine with it its a win win
you sound like a fat redditor so he probably feels nothing for you. hope this realization puts a damper on the crush. glad i could help.
>>34486915oh is just as a male, when a girl calls me twin and has a good relationship with me, i just think that shes into me, yk so be careful, and many males do think of that same way
>>34483744Cut back a bit on how often you hang out with that streamer, don’t tune into his stream every single day. Try branching out, connect with other streamers, and meet new people. The limerence should fade on its own over time.>>34486864>my bf is uglyHoly shit that's soul crushing.
>>34486931you sound like a person whos a faggot because someone cant get a pussy or a womans love
>>34486931LOL. im like a medium, we have great banter, make a lot of freaky jokes. but yeah he prolly dont, plus im too young imo. ur bluntness does help thank you
>>34486936nah hes got a boyfriend anyway, hes also gay LOL so that might be proof enough
>>34486956yes i am, but i'm not wrong.
>>34486947yeah i cant tune in to them that often anyway, but he doesnt stream everyday, hes popular cuz of the stuff he does, streams are just a bonus for the real fans. i wish i could be more specific but i dont wanna reveal what hes popualr for. but yeah im watching a different streamer right now for example as im replying to this, so hoping it kinda fades out maybe fi i become a bigger fan of other streamers. i guess it just gets muddied for me as a streamer myself, cuz im always able to message people or play games with them so i never know how crazy i am
>>34486818>I do love my current bfYou clearly don't. Bitch.
Let the man be free. Break up with your boyfriend please, you're going to make his life miserable. How can you lie to him? How can you make his life so miserable when you're clearly fantasying about someone else? If I were you're boyfriend I would want to know the truth and I would want you to break up with me. It would be painful but much better than living in an ilusion.
>>34486963lol i see, fuck those faggots tho lol
>>34486987someones offended. I love him, i just treat 4chan like a diary of intrusive thoughts.
>>34486992i dont lie to him, he already knows all of this, i tell him everything. he just thinks its cute, and another thing he can make fun of me for.
>>34486993LOLLL i love my fag friends <3
>>34487010>LOLLL i love my fag friends <3
>>34487004>teehee, I think I fallen for the faggot I play games with, teehee, just kidding.boyfriend:>laughs and shrugs offinternal monologue:>she can't be real, right?>right?
>>34487028idk i fall for fictional characters every other week so its kinda not new for me. ill start talking about difefrent characters for days on end until it fades, its just rare for me to do that with a real person
>>34487037The whole point of my reply was saying that you didn't tell your boyfriend for real. You probably made a joke or told him in a playful way.
>>34487038ohhhh, no i did. i told my bf first that i found his real name and that i think i had a crush on him. i told him other stuff about how i felt jelous when something happened or like a dream i had about it. he knows all of it, except this thread i guess which ill tell him tonight.
>>34487023omg wtf is the screenshot, that is actually so scary but he deserves for fucking a dude, and did he fucked a homeless faggot or what???
you're a really bad person OP. what are the odds most women are like this bros? this makes me terrified of being with a woman. she sounds like she hates her boyfriend. I don't want someone to hate me.scary.
>>34487056Your boyfriend is a complete cuck, and he probably would like the cuck chair.
>>34487058>that is actually so scary but he deserves for fucking a dudeFucking a dude is not the only way to get worms, be careful out there, lol
>>34487084most women are not like this. i was raised by the internet when my dad wouldnt pay attention to me. i have odd interests and do odd things. i love my boyfriend, im obsessed with him, im just an ass like nagatoro. I have many female friends who are completely normal, its just me who's like this, dont let whatever shit some girl says online say put you off. pay attention to girls irl.
>>34487095i will check the hole before i put it in (with my finger) lmaoo
>>34486866because they're disloyal and dishonest as fuck, ever since 2020 they've just gotten mean to me for no reason, and stories like this remind me of it. i got pussy new years 2025 so its been almost a year and a half. i used to get a ton in college but ive basically been an incel since 2020.
>>34487140not all girls are the same gang, the reason a lot of girls are disloyal its because of the society we live in, society made men weak, and women be whores, but not all girls are like that, i met so many that are hella nice and loyal asf (mostly slavic girls are very loyal)
>>34487161>slavic girls are very loyalthats the first time ive ever heard that, ive heard the opposite, that they're whores for money who will leave you for a richer man in a heartbeat. which is what this slut is doing. all women are evil.
>>34487169well seems like they are gatekeeping them lmao, but nah not true at all, well there are some slavic girls that are whores, well what i will recommend for you is to find God/Jesus Christ, and He will take care of you and your life, and He will give u a loyal woman
>>34487177trust me, id end up with the woman who goes on missions to guatamala to get gangbanged by animals. all women are trash and evil
>>34486864>my bf is ugly>but i love him like crazy.>and I'm being a freak about some ugly fuck>I looked up all his socials>we could meet up. i really wanted toWow it sure seems like you love your bf huh.Jesus, if women are like this, I don't want any relationships ever.
>>34486832>Also I have ADHD, so its common for me to get hyperfixated on thingsStop letting your brain take the blame for things you feel yourself. Its not your chemicals and brain that made you feel that way, its you yourself that lusted the streamer.
>>34486840>ive always had a lot of male friends, my best friend is male and i call him twin cuz thats just how i see him.Poor guy, he must be imagining he'll get his turn one day.
>>34487526Nigga they are both degenerates and so are we since we are in this fucking website the fuck we gonna do about it. We are all weird in this website.>>34487084Do you really think like this? Omg I read a post on 4chinz women are terrible lmao. Like how can build your worldview on an online post like I get it honestly specially if you young but cmon bro think a lil bit things might be like this BUT they also might not!>>34486832Good for you that you know yourself. You might feel like shit if you hurt your bf anyways. I think part of relationships are to endure these temptations that come and go in life, they are inevitable but it's your choice in the end. And usually giving in to big pulls end up making us feel bad.
>>34487589>We are all weird in this website.Erm, no? You're trying to normalize being a "degenerate" without defining what a degenerate means. Is masturbating to /d/ stuff degenerate? Yes, its a nerd otaku-like degeneracy. I'd guess most of 4chan has some kind of this degeneracy.Is considering cucking your loving boyfriend with some neckbeard you met online degeneracy? Yes, but its a whore-like normalfag degeneracy.We're not the same and will never be, don't try to make it seem like you're a "4chan degenerate" (whatever that means), you're just the run of the mill hoe degenerate.
>>34483744Calling him ugly, acknowledging that and saying I'm a personality girl and saying you feel para social is painting a very clear case - you care about your streaming career and you will hoe out for a possible boost, but you don't give a fuck about him or about your boyfriend, you're despicable and a corporate climber. You must be Asian. Disgusting. Kill yourself if you would like>>34486864>Calling your own bf ugly but saying you can't leave himWow, you are the center of the SWAMP of stagnation. You are one of those women who cannot be alone because you feel like you'd kill yourself, you monkey branch. You use people for comfort and good mental health. You're a viper, a predator, a soul sucker, a user. You're disgusting. I'm not saying the people around you are much better, but you're the absolute worst.If they are trash - you are the stinky disgusting juice that accumulates at the bottom corner of the trash bag. That stinky mix of wet meat runoff, rotting vegetables, body fluids, trapped moisture, that's you. You're the worst. Go to hell
my gf doing the same thing as op except with a real guy we know, i cbf going into detail but what do i do bros, i dont wanna leave her
>>34486840I think you're a horrible partner and if your boyfriend had any self respect you would be single
>>34486915>hes like me but male, if i wanted to smash myself id just masturbate hahaWomen really are aliens. Your thought processes are retarded and don't make sense. Seeing similarities in character as a negative in dating is probably why all of you seem to get into abusive relationships so much. Honestly, you shouldn't even have rights, you're all such massive fucking retards it's crazy
>>34486864>>i dont think i could ever leave himmeanwhile the OP is you considering leaving him lmfao
>>34487084I thought about this for a bit reading this thread. OP is very mentally ill and it's VERY obvious. Every single post is full of immaturity and red flags. She also has very shit social skills, no fucking way can she mask this in real life either. If you end up with a woman like her, you would instantly know something's off, and if you don't leave, you deserve it. It's entirely on you to dump her ass. The chances of you dating a woman like this, as long as you're not thinking with your dick, are 0. They can't hide this shit. As long as you spot the red flags and refuse to engage with them, you're fine man, don't worry about it or think most women are like this. Just avoid the ones that are, they make it obvious.
>>34488703>i dont wanna leave herSociopathic advice incoming, but men really gotta start monkey branching more. It's a valid strategy. If you had a cute girl you liked that also liked you back, would you stay with this cunt? The only reason you're afraid of leaving is because you'll be single and you'll probably have a really hard time finding someone else. And that's a valid concern, no wonder you're refusing to do the sensible thing, it will be really painful for you. So don't leave. Just start putting yourself out there until you find another girl. Leave after you find one. It won't even take any effort or emotional pain to do so at that point, it will just feel natural.
>>34488703tell her how you feel. as the poster i dont really have good advice but being suepr open to communicating the issue is the best thing to do. if she brushes it off or calls u crazy then shes downplaying it. youll know in your heart whether you want to stay or leave.
>>34488732Never did i say similarities in dating are negative, i just dont find my best friend agttractive in any way? hes twin, as in, hes like a twin brother, thats how i see him. i would never get into an abusive relationship im not a retard LOL
>>34488741I'm extremely good at being normal irl. I have excellent social skills. You only notice an issue if you entered my room or went on my computer, its a state and evidence of a lot of my interests. Spotting red flags in women can be extremely difficult, I'd say women are like master manipulators with the way they bully other women through just a glance. irl I'm nice to everybody, I help all my friends, buy them things and show up to their appointments or whatever. I'm just writing everything out as I would in a diary that no one would read. But I am very immature, which is why from my perspective the age gap felt off to me.
>>34483744Little update I told my bf about this thread last night, he reacted the same way. He thinks its like another thing he can make fun of me for. He has 0 intention of leaving me over this. I feel like a lot of people replying to this got off on the wrong foot about this. This is kinda like a deep intrusive thought ive been thinking about kinda deal. I just had no one to share it with, so here it ended up. It helps me overcome things im dwelling about when I write about it, so thank you for everyone who replied. I had another streamer friend who got a crush on me after like ONE stream of REPO together, which was kinda funny. He dealt with it by telling me and told me he wanted to distance himself from me because of it. And now hes back and were friends again, which is nice. So I might try his approach to get over it.
>>34488954hey op I know your frustration, not going into detail but my crush is older, I have a long term bf that was going nowhere and the crush lived in another state. My bf was so wrapped up in his world he wouldn't look at me no matter what I was trying to say. So. Crush said he wished we could see each other irl and asked it I could come to him but that is out. So i sent him one pic and said "we'll nver know" and sad face. He came to my state and town and we met in public first. I was so nervous and thinking about him leaving I started crying like he is my fate. Longing for him now is making me crazy. We have seen each other two more times and I broke up with my bf who seemed unconcerned. I guess what I'm saying is maybe your guy is fate for you too.
>>34489078Honestly that's super interesting, I guess the only difference is my bf does care a helluva lot about me, im like his whole world, so it would be silly to leave him over something like this, he's logically the best person to be with to be happy you know. I'm happy that you got to meet your crush tho !! Must've been super fun, ur bf deserved it if he was that unconcerned about you and in his own world.
>>34488954>I feel like a lot of people replying to this got off on the wrong foot about this.Is your bf reading the thread right now? Hey, you're a cuckhold lmao
>>34488703cuck
