Basically I feel the need to do well at my job so I drink caffeine but then it makes me irritated, antisocial, and giga autistic - people don't like me while I'm on it, and they eventually turn on me. I've endured this pattern at like 5 jobs now. I can try quitting but then I feel like I don't meet my own standards. How do I drop my standard of work ethic while quitting caffeine without feeling like a lazy fucker? Basically how do I become normal and okay with doing the minimum?
bump because autism
inb4 "just stop being a faggot dood"
Food is for fuel not drugs Change job if you can't handle it
>>34484311true. I quit recently because I couldn't deal with my coworkers getting hostile over some dumb bullshit. basically what I'm trying to say is that "chill" is not how I have ever perceived of myself as being "good": chill =/= good worker - and yet it would be what keeps me from quitting my job. how does one break this mentality, is basically what my question is. the mentality of: "I must work very hard to do well"
>>34484341also that mentality included "take stimulants to get things done"
>>34484341Ur not getting anything in return for your job, other than making some people at the top of the pyramid richer. So there is no point in being a "good" worker anyway. Even if you were slightly faster at your job or something, it's at the cost of frying your physical body and neurotransmitters and neuroreceptors and etc just for some shitty job that's robbing you of most of your labour anyway as the people at the top of the pyramid make your purchasing power weaker and weaker as they get richer and richer. Plus you have other options to choose from, you're not locked into this job
>>34484921yeah I guess the built-in ethics that came with religion and having standards have pretty much disappeared today. I just feel dumb without stimulants - maybe its because I never learned how to chill and just give the minimum to not get fired...
>>34484921threads gonna die soon, have a playlist I'm listening to right now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBEmAFHF4XA:D
>>34484921its an insecurity thing I think - I fear getting mocked for being an underperformer instead of valuing my own health and peace of mind more... its a stupid way to think. -.-'
>>34484120Replace caffeine with resting / getting better sleep and also eating healthier. I don't drink caffeine often because I don't want to develop a dependency. This has lead to when I wasn't getting enough sleep, waking up feeling like shit, but I'd struggle through it and drink some orange juice. It might be really rough on you if you ignore a caffeine need if you use a lot of it. Cut back over time.
>>34484974solid advice, I feel like I eat ok but I can improve my diet for sure. I think the problem lies in "letting go of needing to be better than my natural self through drugs" - this idea is the core problem... I haven't gotten over it ever. the need always comes back when I am the most tired after quitting. I have tried before but only made it like 3 months - weak shit I know...
>>34484966Nice Japanese composed Vidya music>fear getting mocked for being an underperformer instead of valuing my own health and peace of mind moreAnd it's what the elites at the top of the pyramid want you to think so they can continue siphon your labourAt this point, either have clear goals or no goal at all, because if you just accumulate stuff "just in case", elites use that gap to to siphon out everything they can. Pay as little tax as possible. Buy hard assets. Etc.Better to be slow n steady and know exactly where you're going than fast and heading the wrong direction
>>34484120Caffeine is not the enemy. If you are irritated, antisocial, and giga autistic on it, that's because you are irritated, antisocial, and giga autistic when not on it.
>>34485005*devil laughing*
>>34484999If I had a clear goal, a North Star so to speak it would be quit caffeine and other drugs permanently, eat healthy and focus on mobile app development and making a sellable product - I imagine freemium ads-ridden meme apps to make a few thousand a month each with decent user generated content I make which gets my apps exposure on social media - not sure how I'm gonna go about it but I'm learning React Native at the moment and I have some skill in Web Development but never had a dev job. I think I have a good shot if I make stuff and put it out there, the ads part is spooky to me though because *insecurity*
>>34484999I make $15/hour lol
>>34484999give this track a listen: 2:29:04 Current of the Times - Yudai Satohhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBEmAFHF4XAI feel so dumb right now lol
>>34484999I quit my job because I sperged out too many times about getting mad at myself for not being able to stop humming songs out loud I don't know the lyrics to due to sublingual undiagnosed tourettes syndrome. I decided to drink like 8 drinks tonight for the first time Ive had alcohol in 4.5 years. Last time was Christmas 2021, when I felt less like a doofus. Idk I'm probably gonna drink myself to sleep lol foooookeeeeeeyt
>>34485132Chill, you're over-pathologizing, just cuz a song's catchy doesn't mean you have sublingual undiagnosed Tourette's syndrome. Or maybe you do have it but it's not some disease it's just a common phenomenon anyone who's ever had a song stuck in their heads has. Keep looking for higher pay jobs, work the app on the side, find a partner to form a family, reproduce, only way to fight elites is to do what elites do, get their resources so they can't get ours
>>34485210Ok sure but basically I sounded like a retard, people laughed at me, then I would get pissed off at myself and at them and kinda mumble angry things to myself lol. It's also like impossible to stop it from happening - at least that was my experience while having caffeine on those days
