>Be me, 19 years old>Considered "conventionally attractive", "funny", "intelligent", and succesful in what I do>Without fail become the most desparate, creepy person every time I fall for someone, eg. my current relationship>Fall for a person regarded as "way less attractive" than I am>Once bake a cake just to bring a piece to them and offer it to them "coincidentally" just so they could eat it with the fork I brought with me from home so I could take after they were done eating and lick it and keep it sealed in a bag>Offer to throw out gum for them just to keep it>Spend all classes drawing detailed portraits of them>Eventually get in a relationship with them>Tell them about the things I did and they seem to be amused by it (bonus points for me being the first person to show romantic interest in them and pursue them)>Give them two custom burnt CDs with my art, make them two shirts, spend a shitton of money on them, write poems about them, write them a love letter that's 4 pages long>They seem to love me back and adore me and my "quirks" (asking them for their sweaty shirt to take home, asking them for their toothbrush, piercing their ear and licking off the blood which lead to banging) for the first 2-3 months of the relationship>Regular sexual intercourse, I was their first and they were my second>Suddenly they turn cold, start ghosting me for days on end, being less affectionate, not even having sex with me (could be due to stress from finals coming up?)>They avoid clear communication, I try asking them whats wrong, they call me "crazy" and "insane" and telling me to "go to a psychiatrist" during one of our arguments (despite me being calm and showing care and concern, they were the one to get aggressive)>Therapist doesn't seem to have a solution for this besides "just detach">Could do so much better, be with some1 who cares>Have a lot of options to choose from>Yet still bring suffering upon myself by loving someone who clearly doesnt care>???
Stop saying conventionally attractive, fagYou sound like a girl
>>34490247This is obviously an e-girl or at least someone trying to larp as one
>>34490263There are no girls here
>>34490130you need to love yourself before you can love anotherand you need to chill the fuck out like wtf??? pace yourself and dont do creepy shit like keeping their gum. telling them that doesnt help either. thats like a guy sniffing a chair of a girl he likes and telling them that. the fucks wrong with you bro
>>34490130>Once bake a cake just to bring a piece to them and offer it to them "coincidentally" just so they could eat it with the fork I brought with me from home so I could take after they were done eating and lick it and keep it sealed in a bagBro i'm not even reading past this point. You gotta see a therapist and get a handle on this before you are knee deep in someone's guts trying to turn them into a house coat
>>34490130I think you gotta stop touching your dick, get off the internet, and really expend that wild energy into fitness. Try walking 10 miles a day for awhile and see how it goes.
