I actually prefer being sober, but im a fucking alcoholic

>>34491380
Because you're the counselor!

>>34491391
Dude, im serious.

>>34491380
Worried, probably because it's a massive change. How long have you managed to be sober without these meetings?

>>34491404
I actually went to rehab for a week came back sober some shit happened here and I fell off the wagon for three years.

>>34491408
Just to make sure I understand, you're going to an AA meeting because you haven't been sober in three years?
I'm only asking because this would account for you being worried, it's a massive change.

>>34491380
NA>AA
keep coming back. Share that you're new, share that you're worried. They've all been there. Get people's number there and call them. get a sponsor

NA is way better and more comprehensive, the sponsors are more serious there and so is the stepwork, and more effective, also NA is not religious. But both are a good start

>>34491450
It's going to be a massive change, that I want. And we're always going to be anxious before making a change in our lives. But its almost making me not want to go and im fighting against it

>>34491512
Thanks, I was a bit iffy about the whole religion thing. I'm agnostic

>>34491524
from what I've seen and heard, AA uses religious language and some of the steps are religious. NA uses religious language, but functionally, most everyone there ignores it, and it is super irrelevant to the actual premise of getting sober and making connections with people that can support you and uplift you.

What's your location?

>naworks . org

>>34491516
You're gonna be okay anon. I say this all as a drunk who doesn't want to stop and who doesn't have the will to go to AA or any version of it. You're already miles ahead of other drunks like myself. You're gonna be okay.

>>34491543
God isn't, or may be there but he's not the reason I started drinking. It was me.

>>34491616
same

If AA doesn't work out for you or you don't feel right about it, please look into addiction counseling from a licensed psychologist. The two work very differently and you may find if one is a poor fit than the other is preferential.

>>34491616
>>34491639
God will always love you regardless.

>>34491380
Because you have to reveal all of the shameful shit you are.

I was an alcoholic once bro and you are full of shame and niggerdom.

You will quite literally die as a joke, or get sober. Up to you brother. Jesus Christ will save you. Read the Bible and pray for cleansing.

If you are a girl you are going to come out of it with more problems than the drinking

I think when it comes down to anything, it's just boredom, i dont have much to do or do around here. I have no friends, socially isolated, in a bad place mentally. I'm pretty much tired of it.

>>34493845
ok then hit a meeting and share about it, that's what you're doing here but this place isn't going to help you get friends or recovery

>>34493973
I forgot about the meeting today. But last night 7 beers and two vodka drinks. I dont know why im doing it man. I hate waking up hung over, im tired of spending money that isn't mine, im tired of killing myself, im tired of being alone, im tired of being unhappy, im tired of relying on substances to deal with the past that's over and done. This is addiction, this isn't having a couple a night, out, and_or with friends. I'm sitting here not wanting to drink, im sitting here knowing I have a problem and I need help and to silence these demons of depression that haunt me everyday.

>>34494193
go to a meeting

>>34492078
Shit, even if you're a guy. I went when I was in my early 20s when I really didn't know what it all entailed, and my "sponsor" tried to trap me in his car and coerce me into sex in my 2nd week going. Everyone there is a garbage piece of shit with bigger problems than the booze, honestly, but maybe that's just where I live.

>>34494310
never had this experience in NA even as a woman
Can't speak for AA
Must be regional

>>34494318
I live in one of the most addictive places on the planet, Vegas, so yeah, most people in these programs are not only in AA, but gambling anonymous, and narcotics anonymous. I've tried going to multiple groups and tried to find the right people, but I find that someone who says they're a year sober might not have drank in a while, but they relapsed on heroin last week or blew $600 they didn't have at the grocery store slot machines/

I quit without AA. I hate listening to the peoples sob stories like oh no your wife and kids and your house and car and job suck oh you poor thing. I had nothing and been so much lower than them and it drove me to drink. So I had to do it on my own, ~1.5 years sober now.

>>34493845
if you solve it by evading the mental state, you will keep running away your whole life. the reason these meetings build on faith is because you fucking need it for any stable result. you need to have faith in the validity of your experience, even when both your reason and emotion, and everything you're conscious of is telling you it's wrong. you need to be able to experience boredom and being tired of things without looking for an escape. without even believing it will get better. for their own sake. if you don't, you might get 'addicted' to something other than alcohol or narcotics, something that's adverse effects are not currently recognized, but you will still always be an addict.

>>34491380
How did it go, OP?

It's possibly worth saying that there are many different forms of support and counselling for recovering addicts, and in every single study AA's 12 Steps programme always comes out the worst of the lot in terms of the percentage of addicts who manage not to relapse. So if it doesn't seem right for you, don't give up; explore other options.