I've been thinking about my future a lot after the passing of a coworker. I didn't know him too well, but from our talks, he seemed extremely cynical and lonely. The way he spoke, it was like he was ready to die. He had an ex-wife, no kids. His "friends" were bantering and laughing the day after his passing. His dreams are left never fulfilled as his health problems stripped him of all his passion.I fear I'm destined for the same fate. I cut my parents off because they are assholes who abandoned me. Don't really talk to my family outside of my brother. I have very few friends. I don't have plans for a relationship or kids, largely due to my inability to be attracted to women. (I'm not gay, I'm only attracted to certain male traits, and have no intent on being with another man.) My entire life I've felt lonely and I'm afraid I'll suffer the same fate as my coworker. What should I do? I don't want to die alone, a life spent playing video games and doing trivial labor.
Just cleanse the parasites, and you'll go back to being attracted to women
>>34495632I've never been attracted to women. This worm shit is just a conspiracy theory. The real reason is much more mundane: lack of a father figure and being exposed to porn early in my childhood.
Everyone dies alone. Only one gonna be down in that coffin is you, so you need to learn to live with nothing but yourself.
>>34495514Friends, family and a list of achievements to look back on won't bring you any comfort when it's your time to leave. They tend to do the opposite, and give rise to feelings of clinging and attachment. If you want to learn how to die well, then that would fall under the study of philosophy. Real philosophy, like Seneca, Plotinus and Epictetus. Not modern sophistry like Camus and Wittgenstein.
>>34495668>I've never been attracted to women. This worm shit is just a conspiracy theory.You could have been contaminated when young, it's very common. A lot of gay people usually report having attraction to the same sex when they didn't even pas through puberty. Just deworm buddy, thank me later.
