23 khhv. 5'8". i have narrow shoulders and wide hips. it's made me want to commit suicide for years. i haven't left the house in a week. i don't go outside to exercise because i don't want to be seen. clothes look like shit on me no matter what. when i go outside i get migraines and become nauseous at the sight of normal mens' bodies. i posted my body online and people said i was a freak. i've found people with similar proportions and they are mockingly advised to transition. i want to go into the woods by myself and just explode, so my body is burnt to ashes and everything around me is completely annihilated.im not skinnyfat i weigh 130 pounds. my clavicles are narrow. my hips are wide. it has been this way since i was 12 years old. i feel the bone. i deserve some kind of pension or reparation payment for being forced to participate in society as a disgusting undesirable loser. two weeks ago in class, it's almost summer so people show off skin, seeing all the other men and women's bodies filled me with so much indignation and self hatred i cut class for the rest of the week because i felt so pathetic and disgusting in the lecture room. i dont talk to people. i dont have a job. i dont go outside. damn the world to hell
>>34496669It makes me genuinely sad to hear this much anguish through the computer screen, thank you for sharing it anon. I am 6'2 220 pounds and guess what, I feel the exact same nausea when I go outside. My head is too small, my fingers are too small. My calves aren't right, my arms aren't long. It's a by-product of internalised shame that grows the more it's bottled up inside. You need a hug and some friends man. There's nothing wrong with what you look like and if anything you're probably healthier and longer lived than taller people. I genuinely think if you find some mates a lot of your poor self worth will either go away or shrink so small to a point where it won't bother you
>>34497408i've been dealing with this since i was 8 (latently, not taking my shirt off at the pool, sensing that something was wrong, though by puberty when everybody became broad and tall i fully realized something was going wrong) i've gone to school graduated gone to college graduated made friends lost friends gone to new places picked up new hobbies and it will never change my body. even typing this out makes me so disoriented and nauseous and there is this pulling tension throughout my body like it is trying to rip me away from itself for my own good. i wear a giant hoodie everywhere to cover my deformed body. my torso looks bloated and diseased because of my awful proportions. i dont want to make friends i dont want to go outside in the summer unless it is dark i dont want to dress up because male clothes look like shit on my disporportionate body. i dont want a job i dont want interviews i dont want to make friends i dont want to learn to drive i dont want to go to graduate school weairng a backpack hugs my waist and makes look a freak i just want to have the value that comes from being a real man
>>34496669Time to become a femboy, sir. Just kidding, you may have some problems, you should check with the doctor if you're not intersex, I'm serious. I saw a case of a "guy" that had the same problems as you. As he grew up, he started developing female characteristics, and he discovered he was sterile. He did a through investigation and discovered that he was born intersex, with both genitals, but as an infant his parents made him undergo surgeries intended to make his genital appearance conform more closely to male, he also discovered he had internal structures such as a uterus and ovaries, and that if they hadn't stitched his pussy, he would've been able to have kids of his own.
>>34499379I had epispadias which is the opposite of what happens in people with androgen deficiencies or chromosomal defects. klinefelters must be ruled out because i am short and my testicles are a normal size.
>>34496669you should drown your sadness in huge amounts of cock take. orally. you've got the looks for it.
I'm gonna offer serious advice lmaooAnon, i look the same as you as a cis guy too, and all i gotta say is don't let other people tell you what you are. If you're a man, then be a man. Hell, i'm one of the most masculine guys you'll meet and due to congenital shit I have a high voice, a more "feminine" build etc but i know i'm not a femboy or a tranny so i don't become one. I mean, yeah i wish i looked different but that ain't happening. Don't focus so much on your body, i've had serious girlfriends before and i'm not even larping to make you feel better. If someone makes you feel bad about your body then don't engage with them, they ain't worth your time. Just be yourself, don't act a certain way because of your body. I'm myself, people perceive me as a man, and they still perceive me as a man even after they hear my voice. Be confident in yourself (even if you need to fake it), confidence takes you a long way in being perceived as masculine.Good luck kid
