Left is recent, 5'8 203lbs, down from ~225lbs at my worst. In recovery.Can someone help diagnose what's wrong w my brain though>get girlfriend about two months after the rightmost pic was taken (may '23)>she's my best friend and I think we're getting married>slowly slide into complete numbness/apathy/porn addiction with my self from 2023 --> 2025>we go long distance in 2025 and the descent into madness quadruples from 25-->26>she breaks up with me last month because I'm obviously a fucking loser at this point>I don't care about her after like three days somehow, probably moved on while in the relationship and just resented her for not being able to chase other girls>spend the last 30 days with almost no rest days, cardio til im nauseous, clean eating with a few crash diet days thrown in, haven't jerked off in two weeks and thinking about touching my dick makes me feel sad. Complete turnaround from being fully sedentary + muscle memory helps but I really need to lose about 20lbs to be able to see anything.>latch onto this new even hotter girl who cuddled with me but just shut me down yesterday, I think she's been keeping me on a leash for the attention>I literally can't sit still or sleep. I start thinking about this new girl who won't give me the time of day and just go do cardio at midnightI feel things again but it's just bad and pathetic feelings. It's clear my self worth is in the shitter and entirely wrapped up in female attention. I mean shit I think even the 2023 pic was entirely built for girls. What steps do I take to I recover and stop being such a faggot?
Not sure to be honest. But what's with men being completely subjugated by the pussy? Holy shit
>>34499836Recover your sense of self worth. You're doing well, taking care or your mind and body.No matter your initial intentions, you got to this point by yourself and your own determination, brother.I say, keep working on yourself as you have, and try not to think as being with this girl as the ultimate goal. Take care of yourself, value your mind, your vody, your life, the things you have achieved. The rest will come with time.Not saying you should be a narcissist or indifferent towards others and stuff obviously, only that you should do things for yourself, too.
>>34499836I dont really know enough from you post because all i get is:>uggggh gotta weeeerk out to get puuuuussy>get pussy>uggghh depressed, gettin fat gotta weeeeerk out againgood on you for working out and all but I think you need another hobby as well. also what do you want? a relationship or just pussy? if the latter then focus on a hobby and weeeeerkin out.
