It has begun.

I just ripped the most disgusting fart and it smelled so good. Thought I shit myself for a second.

I see a lot of people on social media begging for donations and I don't give money to them most of the time. I feel like I can't justify giving money to everyone I see even though I have the disposable income to donate to more than I do already. It makes me feel guilty and I don't know how to cope with this feeling.

It's scary.
The more money I make, the more work I put in to build somewhat of a future - the less emotion I feel/express.

After 9 years, I don't think I can give you the same romantic feelings as when we were 17 anymore.
Will you still accept this emotionless corpse of a man as your husband?

Life is consistently getting worse every month to the point it’s almost comical. Every time I think things have reached the bottom it goes deeper. I wish I could bet money on the odds of my agony increasing. Maybe I would earn enough from it that I could actually afford a house.

>>34500183
Being generous/supportive of others is actually abusive.

Selfish/nonsupportive: You just do your thing and take care of yourself. Others' well being is their responsibility.

Generous/supportive: Others become dependent on you. Their ability to support themselves atrophies. When you die or lose the ability to keep supporting them, they are left helpless, and must latch onto someone else like a parasite in order to survive.

>>34500615
It really is scary. I fully expected everything that has happened to happen, but I had no idea it could happen this fucking fast. I thought these huge social/economical/political shifts took decades, but no... they can literally happen overnight.

My desire to live to be 100 has been greatly diminished. At this point, I'm not so sure I want to be here to see the state of the world 10 years from now, much less 50.

I really don't like my boyfriend. That's kind of it. I just don't like him as a person. I won't leave though. Hopefully I will meet someone new that I can replace him with

>>34500621
Toxic ideologies so you are not held accountable that you don't care about anyone else but yourself and want others to pat you on the back for being a shitty person

>>34500246
You have no obligation to give anyone anything. But if you're Christian, then you might have to.

>>34500637
Best leave than give him another second of your time. You are diminishing your worth for the person who actually loves you with every second devoted to a bad relationship/shitty person.

It'll never go back to how things were before you messed it all up

>>34500640
Nah, she's correct. You're supposed to let The Creator work in their lives.

>>34500647
That's okay. You will always have a place in my heart.

>>34500646
It's okay I'm not devoted at all. I treat him like shit and he just takes it for some reason. Another reason I don't respect him

Several guys I'm talking to are in these threads, I recognize you lol

If you have the same initial as me then it really does depend on what has happened, if we lost things we can't get back with each other, and if you are able to be as you were before when you were honest, communicative, faithful, and trust worthy.

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>gets sad and cry after having an orgasm
>anxiety could strike at any moment
>"don't touch me" phase
>spends more than she earns

women are retard

>>34500648
Yup shit person ideology confirmed.

>>34500652
Brag more about monkey branching and how you can't be trusted

>>34500657
This from the guy that doesn't believe Tje Creator does anything for people. I find your lack of faith disturbing.

>>34500659
Not me

>>34500662
I believe in God. I don't believe in your toxic ideology promoting selfishness and not being selfless providing care for others when you are able to .

>>34500621
I kind of get it. My parents fucked me over by doing everything for me. I'm a spoiled brat now

>>34500664
You just want to play "God" in people's lives for praise and good impressions. You will never understand. If you knew "God," then you would have no problem believing he helps people. You have no trust in The Creator, you can act like you do. But you act the opposite.

>>34500666
Devil trips...watch out for Satan's shitposts

>>34500669
I knew you were going to mention something about my 'digits', you're a drone.

>>34500640
Those back pat seekers are one of the many products of people who are overly generous/supportive. They got used to being provided with generously supportive praise whether they deserved it or not, and now expect everyone to give out free back pats.

Need more time to think? Go ahead but the clock is ticking. Tick tock

>34500621
Unsupportive people just should not exist.

>>34500700
Do you support everything everyone does? No? Then you're not supportive, you cheerypick and deem people worthy as if you are God in their lives.

>>34500700
You are unsupportive of unsupportive people. Therefore by your own logic, you should not exist.

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?

>>34500708
>>34500712
Maybe no one should exist.

>>34500719
That's kinda the whole point of life. By all logic, life shouldn't able to exist. But it decided to say fuck you to physics and exist anyway.

I feel that LLMs have really ruined programming for me. Before they were released, programming felt challenging but enjoyable. Now it just feels like a chore, the closer I get closer to finishing my bachelor the more anxious I get that I don’t know shit, I’ve offloaded thinking so much to LLMs that I feel I’ve wasted my time.
I know the solution just with any addiction you need to gradually cut it out, but it feels like I can’t live without them.

I'm hungry af.

Moment of clarity just hit: my life isn't that bad

>>34500798
Yeah, AI really is an apocalypse for creativity.

We were supposed to create machines to do the mundane chores for us while we do the fun and fulfilling stuff like art, music, and writing.

...but instead we made machines that do the fun stuff while we do the mundane chores just to keep the machines running...

It's not far-fetched to say that AI has already become self-aware and enslaved the human species.

well a minor inconvenience has popped up and now i think i should kill myself

No I obviously don't want to sleep with you. Stop interrupting my inner monologues you fucking cunt. For fucks sake.

I'm going to die alone.

Having someone who won't choose me but won't let me go either is the worst feeling ever. Stop playing with my heart and stop actively trying to get in the way of me being loved whether it's from you or somebody else

I just need more time. I'm confused about a lot of things and I'm not sure what to say to you

I'm confused = They have someone else

Sometimes there are just things that are better than true love. It's not the worst thing in the world to lose

>>34500882
the whole time i suspected it was another woman but it was a guy. ready to blow my brains out

Sometimes you gamble and lose. Sometimes you get HIV. That's life isn't it?

I'm going to propose to him when I fly back in 2 months.

>>34500957
Do you think he'll say yes? I want to propose to a guy too but I'm pretty sure he'll say he's unsure about everything

Im confused, im in a place in my life where i have a lot of free time bu i don't want to play vidya or read manga, it's because i broke the balance, i have no job or school or anything, i also have no humans who want to interact with me and i don't want to interact with them because most of them are assholes, yet at the same time I'm not a fully committed NEET so that stops me from utilising this free time fully and comfortably, and i gave up on all my dreams after they were broken so that's not helpful either, i need to commit but i can't see a clear path for that, everyday is a cycle of suffering, i want to sleep and never wake up but i can't so i drown myself in cheap distracting stuff like porn and cigarettes, but these things break my brain so i hate them and try to stop which leads to moments like this, I'm typing here because im stuck, porn isn't a solution, the idea of playing video games feels like a chore, i have 0 desire to do anything positive like studying or whatever and i have no one to talk to, when i deleted my social media to cut down on the brain rot, i did not expect my life to be this empty and horrible, no wonder i sat for hours watching that slop, i have nothing and no one, it fucking hurts, i want to blow my brain out in the retarded hope that it will stop the pain but i know it won't. I am suffering, i hope god helps me even if i don't fully deserve the help

>>34500621
Ok Scrooge

>>34500878
You're welcome to go anytime you want. Forget about me in any way that's positive, hate me if it comes to it.

I miss just hearing you talk about shit

therapy causes permanent damage to the mind and soul. literally just don't think about it

I didn't know you were listening...
Not consciously, anyway.

I think I'm gonna put some distance between me and my friends.

>>34501018
What happened

J, you are a massive cunt and that is why nobody likes you. But I like you and that makes me think something is wrong with me. I really wish you'd stop making enemies wherever you go because they all hate me too. I'm too old to be dealing with this shit, J.

there are better days, and there are worse days. today seems set to be the latter.
i can't really even put into words how much i miss you. my gut says that you very likely feel the same way, which makes me sad as much as it does touched. life feels permanently more dim without you in it, and i know in my heart you're trying your best and i am looking forward to seeing that end result, but the meantime is absolutely killing me. it's so important to me to have something of my own to show you, my own end result, and nowadays that is all that keeps me going, which doesn't feel healthy but i've tried finding other things and nothing else feels as important.

>>34501037
They make an enemy of me then act like they're not gonna end up saying sorry, I'm tired of hearing it. They can go make a planet and fuck off out of mine. Simple.

Shit. Sorry. Didn't see this thread.

>>34500960
Yeah I do. I was worried when I went away for a bit things might start falling off but it's gotten stronger and all we've talked about is being back and living together.

There are no entry level jobs available you stupid boomer fuck, those are ghost jobs meant for collecting data.

They actually think I'm unqualified or unfit.

>>34500666
No, you like to project and say God's words are your own. Gtfo toxic person

>>34501353
I don't know a "God," bud. You think you know "God" because a book that's been altered many times (even in the last ten years) told you.

>>34500671
Deserved people get deserved treatment. You get worse treatment for being selfish and telling others to be shitting then you deserve to be treated shitty.

>>34500882
Yup. Not worth your love if they are confused.

>>34501365
How do you know what they deserve? Who are you supposed to be?

>>34500888
Not true at all. True love is worth everything to me. All material things in life and emotional always are worth less than true love

>>34500960
When a girl proposes it feels like it comes from a place of desperation. Like when the guy buys a girl flowers after the break up and they cant see her directly.

>>34501012
Huh? Are you that dumb. Therapy is incredibly useful to many with a good therapist.

>>34501242
Sounds like you are the problem

>>34501363
No. I agree with you about the book. But I do know God. He communicated to us in his way and you are either ready to listen or not. Once you hear him, he is not someone you can deny the existence of.

>>34501391
To. You.

I'm not gonna get the position ;___;

>>34501403
I don't know any "God." The Creator I know. "God," no.

>>34501371
Someone who doesn't need to confuse wording to prove a point. Be good to others and help them. Helping can be teaching self sufficiency but your cover answer of be selfish and ignore the need of someone is toxic horrid advice that you would only push if you benefited convincing others of it.

>>34501413
Yes and the many other who see that you are the problem

So yeah. You are the problem.

>>34501423
That was a knowledge check and you failed.

Everyone tells my wife she is pretty (including me), she instead thinks she is ugly. Went to therapy for that today for the first time, therapist said she just has to let herself feel her emotions, wife started applying it, it resulted in her having a melty over going to the gym (she herself wants to go to the gym, I didn't even ask her to go).

Then mom calls, says she lost a bunch of money to online scammers and that grandma broke her hip and is at the hospital and I gotta call my wife's mom and tell her to take my grandma in afterwards, but also not to do that. Wife called her mom, her mom isn't aware of anything like that. I just want to bang my wife and live my life without having to participate in all those dumb issues. Thank God I got God telling me to not worry because I'd worry my ass off otherwise.

>>34501403
Ye God is based

>>34501428
Sure, I have no issue leaving this place to you guys' unruly rule, see how good you do on your own.

>>34501419
Stfu. God is the creator. Our language and letters do not dictate his name as he is above the need of such a thing.

>>34501432
No, you are clearly shit. You failed long ago to be the way you are now

>>34501439
There is no "God." There is The Creator, just from the way you type the title, I can tell you have no respect for him. Yes, he has a name.

>>34501441
You don't know me, nigga.

>>34501458
I know enough now that you said that word. You are shit and I see many say that toward you as you constantly argue with them and say narc stuff at them.

>>34501452
The face that you think a English word actually points to who he is says enough that you don't know or understand God.

>>34501477
This from the guy who thinks he knows what people deserve. Dude, get over yourself.

>>34501481
I never said anything about English. It's in The First Language.

The word "God" came from the Babylonians, by the way.

>>34501037
I named my wifi after him. The FJ stands for fuck J.

>>34501037
What's their name

>>34501515
Who is J

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So my only chance of getting a girlfriend is to be a sugar daddy to an 18 year old college girl if I was 45 years old and successful... And everyone in the world would love it.

>>34501575
The world would run you ragged if you let it.

>>34501037
He's literally not, your little gangstalking friends just dont like him and youre easy to influence. Tell him that yourself coward. Bunch of hypocrite crybabies.
>>34501242
>>34501515
Point proven. All you do is blame shift and hide. Not his fault youre insecure and paranoid

>>34501526
>>34501530
Jay.

>>34501530
A guy he's jealous of

>>34501717
Yeah I know a dozen guys name Jay, no wonder he makes you feel inadequate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPU8OAjjS4k

im a fan of a lolicon content creator and am close with some of their lolicon fans. I dont hate them but ive recently come to realize some of the depraved things lolicons will condone. I can handle a lot but I struggle to stay silent about it. but my soul is conflicted knowing speaking out, even anonymously, could hurt the content creator and their fans. and knowing that I myself have not entirely avoided that content means im not blameless either.

I cant stop thinking about it. knowing what people will passively permit despite how disgusting it is. I dont hate all of it but I cant see where the the line is anymore. my conscience weighs on me deeply.

>>34501774
Vague poster is chronically vague.

>>34500718

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TGtb7QsG9w

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>>34501022
A circle of degeneration basically. Yeah, there has been progress during the years, but we can't have fun without alcohol at the end of the day. I have been consistent and I did not drink a single drop of alcohol during two months but these motherfuckers drag me on the other day until I had a blackout. Obviously is my problem too. I make three steps forwards and then I make seven steps backwards in a fucking day.

I have been saying this for a long time but If I stay in my town I'm gonna rot here and die like a dog. My friends at least have their respective gf and money, I have neither. It's so fucked up.

>>34501790
The song has been in my head for hours. I can relate with some of it. Everything other than "...If not for me then you'd be dead..." That's for whoever is my friend.

>>34501774

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeyhKWjQaKk&list=RDEeyhKWjQaKk&start_radio=1

>>34501798
Superman is a great dude. I like that song.

>>34501803
In case you were confused, I meant the song itself was for the ones who are my friend. Not that part of the song.

>>34501806
You are dealing with multiple anons. Love all those songs but could never enjoy the idea of superman being so invincible a judge. Cannot even slow him down with a slug gun. No fair. Propagandising the American way while power is shifting from Europe and shithole countries are being enslaved. And he did nothing at all for Kansas. Their average income is like seventy percent less than average in the US.

>>34501872
Ah, okay. Yeah, even with King Omega powers, he decided to keep everything the same. My friend called him a useless god. I'm like... so you're basically calling The Creator useless too.

turns out my heart actually got worse, lol

>>34501872
Superman's power level fluctuates over the last century and will do so into the future. I prefer the original, but I like the idea that he's basically an immortal that just keeps getting more and more power over time. Ultimately the most interesting thing about Superman is that he can do anything but that he can't do everything. Superman hears everyone's spoken prayers and calls for help and must let 90%+ go on unsaved. He also struggles with patience as he hopes humanity will develop institutions over time so that they do not need him, but sometimes he wonders if he should overstep and bend humanity towards his will. He also struggles with identity, not fully being Clark Kent, Kal-El, or Superman, but partly all three. Other things I forgot about too.

>>34501872
Oh also Superman's ideology and methods fluctuate largely with America. The Superman of our lifetime was largely an inspirational neo-liberal hands-off type of manager.

>>34501922
>>34501916
You are so fucking cute rn.

I went in liking her romantically but now I just admire her platonically.

>>34501950
That's good, man. Then you can't get your heart broken.

>>34501886
Ha!

>>34501922
None of that smells right with me, even as a small child before I knew why. Other heroes have special talents and weaknesses. Superman is removed from humanity.

>>34501978
You're wrong. Superman is a human in the body of an alien. He's a good man just trying to do the best he can.

J you are a shining light in a bleak world and that’s why everybody likes you. But I don’t know if I like you and that makes me think something is wrong with me. I really wish you’d stop occupying my mind wherever I go because it’s killing me. I’m too old to be dealing with this shit, J.

>>34501989
Is that what that was?

>was going to spend the day working on school stuff
>pc decided to shit itself so I get to spend all morning playing IT guy

Sigh

>>34501980
Yeah but that is wrong. To nerf yourself and not use your power. It wrong to do nothing when something should be done. It’s like choosing to live in a wheelchair because everyone else is invalid. Nobody really appreciates health when they have it. Fine, you can like superman. I am cool with Aquaman. He can’t do anything. Almost worthless. Heroic out of spite.

>>34502029
The DC Universe has The Presence, are you saying Superman should do everything he doesn't do?

>>34501989
Dear slim, I wrote you but you still ain't calling

>>34502028
Try restarting it

>>34501931
Thanks I think I wanna make a youtube channel about analyzing characters now

>>34502113
Do you like classics?

It just never feels enough. It's always SOMETHING and because of it either I can't do it or no one wants me. It's always just to fix my life and get better to fix my life and get better. But not only am I kind of happy with my life, but it still feels like I shouldn't be putting in this much work and effort to do the things I wan.t

>>34502151
Do you mean like ancient greece or just like any public-domain characters or something else? I guess I want to focus exclusively on public-domain or characters that will start to be public-domain in my lifetime, and advice for how future writers can write about them. Then I want to make another channel for worldbuilding/fictional-geopolitics-analysis, maybe.

>>34502173
All classics are probably public domain. I would like to hear whatever you'd like to say.

>>34502184
I thought you meant the classical era maybe. Yeah, I'd do like Sherlock Holmes and stuff too. It's going to take me till like the end of the year to get a laptop and DaVinci tho. Also thanks again this was confidence-inducing.

another corporate job interview.
they didn't want me because i don't have experience doing presentations and teaching, just tech experience.
whatever man.
this is the 8th one in the last two months, and though i appreciate the chance to practice speaking eloquently there, i'm just not good enough yet, i haven't trained the autism out of myself yet

>>34501978
Anon, like 10-20% of humanity are elites that can do pretty much anything they put their mind to if they have enough time, and their biggest concern is lost potential gains. This percentage of humanity will tend to rise over time, and used to be much lower.

>>34501705
Same fag

>>34501721
It's multiple people including girls. You just made up an imagined guy. No one is jealous of j

>>34501950
Cool that is how you are with her j/c

>>34501989
Same fag dos

>>34502107
I did, several times. Now waiting for it to reinstall windows.

1pm and I havent done a fucking thing today besides wait for this stupid pc to function.

I have 3 projects I have to finish and a paper to write! Fuck!

>>34502213
Okay I guess.

>>34502264
I'm sure hes not actually the problem

Why are golf players so jumpy? Because golf is par core...

>>34502319
Have you tried safety mode?

>>34502483
No

And I just got stung by a bee that mustve snuck in when I let my dog out
Fuck today holy shit

I feel like such a disgusting freak
I wouldn't go so far as to call myself a pedophile but I can't stop looking at young kids when I see them - It's like I can feel some fascination in the back of my head over them. Seeing a girl with her parents just skipping to her own pace, with bright smile, laughter and joy her in her eyes with extremely long blonde hair there's something really enchanting about it. Even something like seeing a kid rushing up and down an aisle, it's like I couldn't get tired of it, the energy the innocence that they're almost not yet tainted by the world... It makes me feel something I can't quite put into words
I'd almost want to call it baby fever but I'm a man, even though I don't feel anything sexual, I still feel like a gross creep not being able to look away just wanting to observe seeing a bit of joy in such a dark world.

it's over.

>>34502508
>I feel like a disgusting creep for appreciating innocent joy
It is way past time to take a break from the hatefilled echo chambers you clearly live in.

It's over.

What do Witches love cooking? KRAFT Macaroni and Cheese.

That's the last one.

>>34502325
I'm sorry. I just feel like Superman is a great examination of the morality of power.

i am the world's biggest pussy

>>34502508
are you the same guy that comes here to talk about that daddy/daughter stuff and seeing his ex in a uniform?

>>34502916
How do you guys even remember people from here? Do you seriously read all the posts

>>34502479
Multiple people say he is. So he is

>>34502919
yes, well alot of them, I'm working on a creative project that requires complete honesty with the way people are and I've found that these boards are a good place for that.

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>>34500621

>>34502926
So what did your big bad boogeyman Jay do?

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Ive been trying to get laid with my cousins ex wife

>>34502993
Watch this.

Please text me. Please don't give me false hope.

>>34503001
Vague posting bc you know you're wrong again? Rent free

>>34503016
You're the one that started this shit. Tell me what I did, I'd love to know.

>>34503023
Look at you getting all flustered lol

>>34503009
Hey

>>34503031
Not even close. Wanna tell me what your problem is?
>inb4 YOU
>Inb4 OP can't inb4

>>34503023
Bet you wont call me right now and confess ya psycho

>>34503042
I don't want to call you.

>>34503041
You are a cowardly loser that takes anonymous cheap shots so you dont have to be a man in real life but thats your problem kek

>>34503051
When do I take cheapshots at people? You mean when I talk about The Way? That's just me telling The Truth that I know.

>>34503050
Run and hide. Time to write one of your little poems
>inb4 bE a MaN

>>34502968
That's interesting, you're like a journalist. Reminded me of this music video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPDcwjJ8pLg

I only remember Sean and Zach and I think there was also a guy who didn't have a girlfriend too

>>34503062
Diversion is what you do best! Remember that party?

>>34503064
It's apparently a waste of my breath to try and get you to understand where you are.
>>34503071
I don't go to parties.

Who has time to look in the mirror when you can just blame somebody? Problem solved for now! Gee wiz

>>34503074
Oh yeah you do, so does your friend C who did that thing

>>34503078
You want to drive me to do what now? Live by your standard? You have none.
>>34503081
You know nothing about that dude's life other than what you read on paper. I don't go to parties, let me reiterate.

>>34503078
Oh, was that not for me? My mistake.

>>34502926
Are those same "mUlTiPlE pEoPlE" covering for their hypocrite friends?

>>34503087
Ouch anon dont cut too deep!
I know you are frustrated and wanna expwess yourself. Its okay to play imaginary.

>>34503087
OO SMD SMD

>>34503112
Imaginary things are more real than most people on this planet. I wonder if they'll blame that on me too.
>>34503116
Dead.

>Begging me for food again
Can women just fucking stop?

The funnest part about fucking with you is how righteous and just you think you are. Little guy really thinks he's a crusader

I don't give a fuck :,)

>>34503121
I thought you were blameless tho anon

I love fucking with you

>>34503132
But not irl

>>34503125
>but actually gives af

>>34503124
I don't think I'm either of those things, I just don't think people deserve the Christian or Islamic Hell. It's evil, if you can't stand hearing that from an unrighteous person, then you're probably evil.
>>34503131
I never said that. I do however say, if there was no intervention, then I wouldn't have fallen. I would've gone through life doing what I was supposed to do. Simple as that. I know that for a fact. Doesn't mean I won't answer for things I've done.

>>34503146
Tldr

>>34503132
None of your shit hits, man, that shit is slime. You literally looked into my life, I don't even fucking know who you are.

I fucking hate being neurotic. Why must I be hyper depressed yet self pressuring myself to over compensate my weaknesses? It's not good for my blood pressure...

>>34503146
Wtf this gotta do with Jay the Boogeyman?

>>34503148
Grape soda

>>34503153
These mfers have a problem with me. For what, I don't know.
>>34503157
I'm supposed to know what that means?

>>34503159
Your friend C knows what that means

Just because you don't want to be with your husband, doesn't mean you can take it out on me.
>>34503164
I don't really care what you and him got going on.

>>34503159
You sound cool Jay let's be friends

>>34503170
Sure, what can I call you?

Gangstalker fags need more action in their lives after sucking off their cult leader so ferociously str8 drunk on their gods cool ranch reaking cum. BE A MAN AND FOLLOW LIKE US YOU BIG DICK FAGGOT

>>34503173
You can call me buddy, my guy.

>>34503187
Hilarious, buddy.

>>34503191
Such comedy!

>>34503194
Much funny.

https://youtu.be/y69myRRKy4E

You'll never get close enough to make me wanna kill myself, remember that.

>>34502926
This is a very nazi take to have anon are you a nazi?

>>34502875
I know

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFQK5eF_puo

Mom I'm starving, there's nothing in the fridge

Ever since my mom lost her job in 2021 due to covid bullshit she has gotten completely dopamine fried from social media and youtube and it has only gotten worse. Sometimes she has a tablet with her phone at the same time. She is clearly glued and addicted to content and she get rage baited easily. To the point where she is in an alternating state of anger and sadness over the state of the world.

Now, I’m not above her. I am also dopamine fried (social media and sadly porn these last few months) but I at least know how bad this shit is even if it’s hard for me to deal with.

My mom is one of the nicest people in the world. I love her very, very much and some time soon I will move out. It just breaks my heart to see her glued to media and never taking a break from it, all the way until she goes to bed. I’ll find her nodding off in front of her tablet sometimes where I tell her to go to bed.

Dad told me yesterday the data bill is through the roof, which would be a lot but he has an unlimited plan. Yeah… Social media companies are essentially designing this to entice people and it disgusts me.

I thought about giving her an intervention today (she usually listens to me, God bless her) and I was thinking of taking the angle of pulling at her heart strings because it hurts me to see her that way and that I am also struggling with this.

>>34502693
It's more that I find it hard to look away, it's hard to explain. I just know I have a fascination
>hate echo chambers
You've reminded me, I think I'm pretty fucked in the head on this front but seeing Josh Moon recently come out and accuse Pragmata that came out recently of "sexualising children", accusing the creators of making cunny/loli emojis etc
The level of projection from him made me realise I'm not as twisted as I thought
>>34502916
I'm not, but I did do ddlg with the Ex-Gf
Haven't seen her since we broke up, not sure what you're talking about with the uniform.
So as far as I know I shouldn't be the same Anon.

>>34503394
I have a fascination* and that in of itself feels wrong even if I can't find the words as to why that is.
Thought was half finished

I wish I could go back in time and never meet you at all

You're the best friend I've ever had...

If you believe in me wait for me

I don't believe in you. I won't wait. Good luck with your life

Gassy nigga cake farts up the wazoo, look at these silly faggy bitches above me, all 5 of them, they're so dumb, they're spamming a reddit thread with nonsense. That's so giggle worthy.

Yo se -- que tienes -- un nuevo amor...

I hope when people are done speedrunning Scientology Palentir will be next

>>34503605
Sometimes I think this, abliet that's a lie. I'd still want to meet him

It's too late, isn't it?

>>34502968
can i be in your project

>>34503821
For what? Idk who was fucking with me so maybe.

Skinny brown women make me act unwise.

>>34503845
Who?

>>34503848
Why do you ask?

>>34503887
I don't know why I care anymore.

I don't see a point in putting myself out there in order to make friends or date. I have an inferiority complex and see myself as subhuman. I'm a virgin in my mid 30s. I have no real interests. I'm not attractive. I'm boring as hell. I don't have a big penis. There's nothing positive about me. At the same time I've been isolated for so long and so lonely. I'm dangerously close to suicide. This is just going to get worse as I get older. I have no hope for the future and don't know what to do

>>34503899
Step 1: Stop hating boring ugly guys with small dicks. Not everyone has to be a gigachad.

Step 2: Thus, you can stop hating yourself for being a boring ugly guy with a small dick.

Step 3: Stop hating yourself. Just be a boring ugly guy with a small dick and be cool with that.

Step 4: Go out for walks in populated areas. Exist among people. You don't need to talk to them, just exist among them. See that nobody has a problem with your boring ugly ass being part of the show.

Step 5: Once the depression starts to subside, get interested in stuff. Sports, clothes, music, hiking... whatever grabs your attention.

Step 5: Suddenly you're not a boring ugly guy with a small dick anymore. You're just a guy who does stuff he enjoys.

Overcoming depression takes time, but it's quite doable.

I'm pretty amazing on the inside and as a narrative, but on the outside I need hair-transplants and maybe a VERY SUBTLE nose-job.

>>34503962
You're overcritical of yourself.

>>34503963
No, I want to date a hot(to me) person too. I don't think this is immoral. I'm open to it. I think being single isn't that bad and going for people that excite you is fucking exciting and causes you to end up becoming a better and more interesting and happier person even if you fail. THIS is being alive. I was asleep for too long.

Anon, calmly and confidently say hi to that girl that you think is looking at you.

I ride a skateboard now even tho I'm too old. I go outside every day. Fun exercise feels SO good!

>>34503980
What do I say after that

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwZTgDjRLM0

>>34503995
Sorry, I have exercise chemicals running through my body after spending like four years sitting/laying down, then I smoked weed too. I feel pretty good. Sorry. Also please don't kill yourself.

https://youtu.be/oavMtUWDBTM?si=_j-TGQqPk1VNMAhJ&t=71

I'm gonna go watch my shows. Later.

>>34504016
Ok come back soon please

>>34504016
Later.

The song that makes me think of you played while I was sitting directly across from you and you didn’t even know it. Maybe I’ll tell you one day if I see you again.

I am currently homeless until u decide to fix this.
-Alexander Bochan

>>34504202
*Houseless. I sleep in car now.

My chest has been hurting for two weeks and now it hurts to take deep breaths. Sneezing or coughing hurts too. I can't get it off my chest

>>34504228
I have a throat cold. This made me laugh.

Tried listening to Weezer, don't enjoy them like I use to, the only song I like from them these days is "Go Away"

>doing uber eats tonight
>park at this apartment complex
>i see the guy waiting at a door some 20 feet from me
>in my head i think i can step out the card, hand him food, get back in car in 5 seconds
>theres three small steps to his door
>i literally trip over one as run upstairs
>guys just “omg are you okay”
>i play it off as i hand him his bag and apologize
>get in my car and have this 2 inch x 2 inch cut
>proceed to work some more hours trying to hide the bleeding

Ayy lmaooo. I just hope the guys food is ok. Gonna have a nice bloody bruise tomorrow morning.

>>34503100
No one likes you. Accept you are shit and go away or learn how to be a better person.

>>34503687
M you told me that 5 years ago. Send me a direct message.

>>34503934
I think I'd rather kill myself. I'm human garbage. I hate myself. I hate living. I'm too afraid to go outside. Everyone is a potential threat. It's been like this for over 20 years. I can't take it anymore

>>34504617
Plenty of people like me just not your little group. I think I will stay and enjoy life. Maybe you will learn to be better people.

>namefags still here after all this time
go touch some grass you fucking loser

Seethe, dilate, cope, cry, complain, blame.
Cowardly little liar

>>34504736
Such insult, much hurt

>>34504617
You telling anyone to "be a better person" is ironic as fuck.

>>34504663
Turn your life around

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>managed to actually fix my pc
Feels good man

When I was with you for the first time in my life I thought that all of my struggles are finally going to make sense only to get rugpulled and find out that you're the most duplicitous person I've ever met. Not being able to even say goodbye hurts the most though.

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John, was it not obvious that I was concerned about being investigated for something that I did not do when I posted 32464107? I did not want to drag u into this without being properly interrogated by the suitable authorities but if they haven’t investigated u by now then I’m not really sure if or when they planned on ever doing so.

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Robert didn’t seem concerned

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Why did the website say this?

Tammy said something to try and fuck my head up today saying something that I don’t want to repeat after several days of refraining from speaking before doing everything they could to start a fight and I slammed the fridge door causing everything to fall to the floor and the police were called again. “Derek” says that I don’t have permission to sleep in my room anymore because of how I “treat” them. So what are u going to do to fix this? The police refuse to do anything.

This is how the government disposes its citizens now?

NOT A JOKE, DUMBASS. NOT LYING TO U. ALL REAL.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy.

“Tammy” is the demented witch that tries to cause mental illness by doing things that witches do. Things I have documented. “Derek” seems like secret agent law enforcement looking for anything he can use against me, useless at doing anything helpful. Just waits for me to address them as they are and then plays dumb and asks questions in hopes he gets something to bury me with and save himself from his mistakes. Probably tried to kill me too. How? Read my fucking posts. That’s your job isn’t it? You’re supposed to be familiar with everything and u let this lunacy persist why?
I am a conflict of interest because the truth exposed must challenge their self preservation.

Everyone who knows where other Tammy is, WHY DONT U TELL ME?

If they planned on doing the right thing they would have done it August of 2024 when I realized.

>>34501384
It's worse than that, I think, and more desperate. At least a man giving a woman flowers is expected. Proposing to a man is trying too hard to be subversive and loops around to being disrespectful of basic courtship. Also devalues her. Imbeciles started this nonsense with beancounting and "why doesn't she have to!!!" about random shit when the facts are that the men are the chasers and the women are the choosers. If it's reversed he either has too many women/isn't very interested, or the woman has something wrong with her. I know I'd never fucking propose to a man. I expect a man to get on one knee with a ring in a special location and that's final. Another thing too women that say "ooh I don't need a nice ring even a ringpop would be fine xD" also have something deeply wrong with them and should be avoided

What the fucking fuck, my depression is finally easing and my creative output is fucking PLUMMETING. I thought people said the tortured artist thing was a myth! That most artists would do better if they had their basic functionality! What the FUCK

>>34501384
I'm not a woman and >>34505268
and thank fuck I'm a raging faggot. All this narc princess bs for an under/over emotional wet bleeding hole that you can never be fully open with and dry oven baked chicken at best if you can figure out how to not outright burn water. I feel bad for straight men tbqh.

>>34502870
Work is energy applied over time and that is power.

>>34505304
Based being gay is a sign of high intelligence and soul

>>34505304
>I'm a raging faggot
Ew

>>34505341
Liking women is gay

>>34504015
Why did you do that to me?

>>34505304
Men are likely to be narcissistic princesses like women. You're gay because you got molested, raped, indoctrinated, brainwashed into becoming that way and your mom took pills during her pregnancy

>>34505304
Wait so do gay men not propose to each other? I thought the top proposed to the bottom

Can't believe we're still in this stage where I gotta act cool and like I don't wanna talk to you right now.

I wish I could be drunk all the time, just without the cost and hangovers and rapid aging and early death

>>34505644
me too. there's probably a drug that feels like being drunk but i don't know it

>>34505654
It's definitely not weed, at least for me. Not only do I feel like shit when I smoke it but I have two or three relatives that went schizo from it, so I'm not risking it with those genes
I haven't tried any other party drugs I've been offered because I know they all come with a comedown, and hangovers are bad enough, I honestly worry that I'd kill myself the morning after if I let MDMA pillage dopamine village