how can I induce myself to have depersonalization / derealization without drugs
DRUGS
>>34501943die
You gotta grab the root of an aspen tree, put your dick in the dirt and then decapitate it. Never let Mambo No.5 get to you, it’s just a song. Lou reed kissed me at a Christmas party then gave me a footjob at the aardvark convention in Wilmington, Iowa.Zero tolerance for skin grafts. Also never tie your shoes at the time. You’ll give bad advice for 3 1/2 hours after reading this.
spent a really long long time on internet without going outside and almost not sleep
>>34501949Die? I don’t even own a die. Check your local Walmart, they have several types of dice.
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>>34503644SENSORY DEPRIVATIONSLEEP DEPRIVATIONJOY DEPRIVATIONATTENTION DEPRIVATIONLIFE DEPRIVATION
>>34503658How
>>34503666worship satan and eat the mushrooms under the sink
>>34503686No
>>34503694why you want derealization? you don't want it.you think you do but you don't. because then you'll be watching gore for fun and not showering for two weeks completely unbothered
>>34503709I want to have the emotional numbness so I don't suffer anymore
>>34503756then gore is your best shotwatchpeopledie.tvi also read r/suicidewatch to laugh at how absurd some people have it.never lose your smile :D
>>34503763I think this would only cause desensitization to gore, i want to stop feeling emotions
>>34503781well, then you just have to be born a sociopath like mesucks to be a sucker lol
>>34503756drinking and developing schizophrenia helps achieve anhedoniabut soulds like it would just treat a symptom rather than the main problemwhy do you suffer anon?
>>34501940I have a condition that makes me get episodes of involuntary derealization several hundreds times every dayI can't tell you what's wrong with me, though
>>34503792>why do you suffer anon?Basically my parents didn't teach me anything and got me addicted to the internet instead because they're lazy. I was bullied at school, which made me lock myself in my room and use the internet even more to cope, which in turn made me weirder and more bullied, creating a cycle where I just became more retard and depressed. I didn't have any friends and sometimes I wouldn't say a word the whole class. I get extremely depressed by the fact that I experienced practically nothing in my adolescence. I never held hands with a girl, never hung out with friends, or even had a real conversation with anyone. And nothing has changed since then. I daydream all day about a life where I have friends and a girlfriend. I'm 21 years old and I've never worked because of my social anxiety, and I feel like a loser because of it. I literally get breathless if I say a long sentence because I'm not used to speak much. I don't have any hobbies because I can't get interested in anything.
>>34503756>>so that I dont suffer anymoreYou're still gonna suffer, numbnuts. And it'll get harder, too! You're looking to take control of your life by dipping yourself in a vat of acid but it's just gonna kill you inside and it's not even gonna be impressive. Go touch grass.
>>34503863you have your life in front of you. i'm sure if you start somewhere you will be as lonely as the average person. but i guess you're asking how to be satisfied with your life. as a friendless loser myself, i just don't give a fuck. but i guess your family isn't as fun. getting into some kind of communities, conventions, idk. you have to start somewhere
>>34503863As someone who was in your exact position for over 10 years, the only thing that got me out of this was a relationship with God. Not sure if that's your thing but I wouldn't know any other way to help.
>>34503863Going forward you only have yourself to blame. Stop with the internet and focus on improving yourself.
