This is a worthless post that I'm making to vent because it bothers me occasionally, and today moreso for no good reason. I want to fall in love and get with a girl someday. I really do. I dreamt that one day I'd get my own little happy ending, meet someone, have dates, hold hands, walk down the road with, get married, have sex, have kids, and be relatively content with my life.Yet the older I get, the more likely I feel like that will never happen. It's dumb, but the idea that I'll be here, not having a single experience in my life with someone romantically, and if I ever do meet someone, they'll at least have some experience... I hate it a lot. At the very least, barring even simple experiences like dates or holding hands, hugs, kissing, or whatever... I would want to end up with someone whose a virgin like me. Yet if I complain about this fact, and say that I want someone like me, then I'm bound to be deemed as a misogynist or some crap, or that I'm dehumanizing someone else.Why? Is it wrong for me to want something like that? It's not about religion, or being an incel or whatever. I've never met someone I could ever truly like, after all this time. If I ever come to like someone, they'll have already been with at least 1 or 2 people before. Our relationship won't be of equals but someone who's experienced and someone who isn't.
>>34508099Minor additional note: I remember some stupid viral post about the anime where a girl didn't have any firsts to give, and the responses from people were "she can guide you and give you firsts." It was so irritating to read that. I don't want to be guided by anyone, or have my hand led by someone. I want to walk together with someone and stumble through each moment or process at a time, even if it's not the best outcome possible. Yet if I were to contest this point, I'd be called whatever insult you could have in the book for a guy who's a virgin. I hate it. I hate being born a person who eventually developed this stupid value compass or whatever you want to call it because it makes me think this notion or belief that I have about "love" is completely and utterly stupid.
>>34508099Anon, if this helps I had a friend who already made out with a girl. Broke only two months. And the girl already had experience. Only the 5% of my entire uni is in a romantic relationship and both members have experience. If I were you, I'd date anyone regardless of how much people they've fucked with. Most people kinda go into their first relationship knowing it won't be the last. So I say, please do not be harsh on yourself and lower the bar a bit. WAGMI
>>34508099u gotta take control of your life & do something about it, anonhatred exists for when our boundaries are violated, but it's not always clear how to honor ityour own inaction is what leads to you feeling hatedoesn't mean it's your fault, but it means you can fix it by acting somehowjust remember you can change your life & don't resign yourself to failurealso there ARE other things to live for, don't worry
