am I neurotic if I get bothered by and think about these minor social interactions a lot?Like how when I hold something out to hand it to someone, they don’t take it until I put it on a counter or whatever and then they immediately grab itOr how I repeat something back to someone and ask “is this what you said?” for clarification and they just repeat what I said instead of simply saying yesOr how if I use a certain terminology for something, the other person makes it a point to use a different one. And then when I adopt their terminology, they start using mineOr how people just keep repeating themselves if I take more than half a second to respond instead of just allowing me to ask them for more information or clarification myself instead of being treated like a retard
when I had shit self esteem and depression I would spend hours replaying every social interaction in my headnow that I have my shit together it NEVER happenson the (very rare) occasions I think I could have handled a conversation or presentation better, I just think "oh well, I'll do better next time"
>>34509192Yeah that's pretty much the definition of neurotic.Sounds like CPTSD: Understand, you're that way because you have enduring constant casual emotional abuse. Have more compassion for yourself, not less. When you are down on yourself, it means you deserve more love, not less.To resolve this, you have to take the time to reparent yourself, engrain in yourself that you are worthy, you deserve a baseline level of respect just like everyone else. You should develop a sense of self-worth that radiates from within, and not from other people's instantaneous reactions. A person with a healthy mature psyche focuses on the bigger picture, the task at hand, not nitpicking little things. And sometimes people are just dicks or cranky for a moment and you don't have to absorb their negativity.But it's funny about the terminology thing. Sounds like you are unintentionally annoying and creepy, neurotic people tend to come across that way. I.e., I'm awkward and can relate to what you are saying except I get annoyed when other people copy me. People going out of their way to avoid sounding like you is next level, kek.> Or how people just keep repeating themselves if I take more than half a second to respond instead of just allowing me to ask them for more information or clarification myself instead of being treated like a retardWho's "people"? You shouldn't calibrate social interactions with "people" based on how your fat cranky SSRIed roastie mom or alcoholic pedo boomer boss is a dick to you.
