>A boss wrote me a beautiful letter for a future job>Someone from the future job is helping me specifically to get me in>I have help from people in getting me back and forth in a short window of time>I have a driving test to pass within next month, and I had help re-teaching me to drive>There's seeds of doubt plantedYou see, I've been used to being a loser this whole time. All this winning feels weird to me. I've been homeless twice before, and I had to deal with living in a ghetto for 2 years. I got a much better living place since last year, and I've been learning how to be an adult this time, as last time, I was pushed out of the house when I was 18, and was forced to rent a studio apartment on minimum wage. That forced me to not even save or bathe, just keep the place alive. Rent got too high, I worked a bad job after sabotaging some good ones, and I went homeless at my fault this time.Now, with everything beautiful happening so I can land my dream job, I'm not used to it, and I'm scared of losing everything again, because I know once I lose it all again, it's over.It's been a rough several years. Now, I can't afford therapy just yet because I'm not in my dream job. Why do I feel nagging inner doubt? And how do I stifle it properly?While I have a gym membership, work bullshit's hampering it, so I'm stuck until the schedule stabilizes next month.
>>34510987I'd say you have to realize you do deserve good things happen to you to make the feeling stop. All those things are result of your efforts and overall performance. Some of these are general help as opposed to gifting you things>I had helped re-teaching me to driveYou still re-learned, no one can do that for you. Fingers crossed for you and your new job anon.
