I just had sex with a man for the first time in my life and i really dont know why i did itYou know being a porn addict i said to myself having sex with a guy is something i will never do, like a line i will never crosd, but i just did it, i really dont know what to think, dont even feel bad about it, which worries me because am a christian and maybe am just completely fucked up and i should kill myself or am i taking it too seriously??? dont even know, i am completely numb
Literally doesn't matter (outside of direct implications like hiv), people have been doing it for eons.Xtianity is a jewish psyop
>>34519192Calm down, it's alright man. I'm christian too, and I personally don't think this is reason enough to cause harm to yourself.If you want to talk about it, why did you choose to have this act with this other person? Did you know him before? Are there feelings involved? What happened? It's ok if you don't want to talk about it, too.
Spoiler: humans will naturally fuck anything and are only constrained by culture
>>34519192You gay and that's okay, bud.
You’re gay. The reason you’re addicted to porn is avoidance but it clearly doesn’t give you what you need so you try and seek more of it. Just accept it and move on with what you really want. It’s really not a big deal.
>>34519192i watched porn every day basically for 25 years and never got the slightest inclination to have tyrone inseminate meyour honest problem is not taking personal accountability for what you do (like most Christians) instead of blaming consumer choices for turning you into something
>>34519192As a deeply closeted fag myself, I think you did the right thing. It's difficult to come to terms with who you are, what you are, but embracing what you are is essential in a person's fulfillment, to accept your identity. I just repress it, have for more than a decade (I'm 29), and it has made for a big reason of unhappiness in my life. This is who you are, you've taken a step in accepting yourself, denying yourself would only hurt you especially considering how suppressing it will never make the gay go away, believe me.That said, please take all precautions for safe sex, gays are especially vulnerable to STDs so use your head and don't think with your dick, I'd give you advice there but you literally have more experience than me. Just be very careful if you're fucking strangers, I guess? People whose habits you don't know and by extension how likely they are to be carrying STDs / HIV. Not gonna lie that's some scary shit, I couldn't stay hard knowing each time you fuck a dude you're playing a game of russian roulette but I *am* a bit of a hypocondriac so don't listen to me, I'm paranoid
were you top or bottom?
>>34519212"Xtianity is a jewish psyop" is a Jewish psyop.
>>34519212>Xtianity is a jewish psyopOh really? Why don't you kys then? It's just darkness after it anyway
>>34519192I'm super straight but one of the best blowjobs I ever had was from a man. He deep throated it perfectly and swallowed every drop.
>>34519192If you're not sure how you feel about it, take some time and decide. If you don't want to do it again, don't. But if you decide it was actually enjoyable, then why not? But figure out how you feel first.
>>34519558Why would you do that? Try to get him to kill himself? It won't make your "God" any less a false one.
>>34519192OK So you did it. There are now 3 possibile futures: 1. You loved it so much you want to do it again and again and again2. You hated it so much you never want to do it or even remember it again3. You can take it or leave it and might or might not ever do it againAll three are potentially happy futures
