For all my lonely people out there. This is a thread where you can give advice, opinions, experiences and help each other, listen to other anons and share your story.Any advice is welcome, whether you're against suicide or not, doesn't matter.Come and talk, this is the last place for those of us barely clinging onto life.
I almost killed myself 3 times todayFinger on the trigger closeCouldnt do it thoughI cant leave my dog alone and I dont have the heart to kill him first
>>34519816Honestly, good for you, anon. At least wait until he passes.
>>34519816if I had a gun I would be done it a hundred times already. When I die I hope I get to see my dog again, he passed away last year. I have nothing to live.
I'm 23 y/o to older anons reading this, does it get any better? really once you get as broken and lost as this is it really worth it to get out of bed? I don't like the way my life is headed, I don't think I'll ever be happy I want to end it all all I feel is agony
>>34520345I'm 32, and things have gotten better, but it took a while.
>>34520345Yes, dumbass. Most of this shit is hormonal surging. Get a job on a farm or something where you have to use your testosterone all day so your mind can stop yapping at you while you sit around on the fucking internet complaining.Also, all you bitches should read pic related. And stop coming on 4chan expecting sympathy.
>>34519816there are plenty of other drastic ways to change your life besides suicide, and without abandoning your dogthat goes for everyone here
>>34520366I know you're right, having a real job and a goal does get rid of these thoughts I do feel like dropping it all and start from scratch, taking what I've left and moving somewhere else entirely
>>34520345change your lifethis >>34520359i've heard dozens of people tell me "i didn't think i'd make it to age 30, now my life is great!", and i've seen plenty of people with bright upbringings turn to drugs or become homeless or whateverthere's no rational reason not to keep re-rolling & changing your life, from what i can tell>>34520366this as well, it's good if you can find some fulfilling/dignified physical work, it will help your mental state a lotjoin a fuckin fishing boat crewor work on a cargo ship, that's supposed to be very peaceful when you're out at sea for months with a tiny crewor pick something better for your personal situation, just change your life
Im a depressed fag (bi) and im going insane from tinnitus. Had a shit day today and been thinking about suicide again. Posted this earlier >>>/int/221391973Fapped and im listening to music to try and cheer up but not feeling much better honestly
>>34520385it's not a bad ideado it if you feel it's necessary
>>34520396it might be good/cathartic if you screamedtinnitus gets worse from poor circulation, which can be caused from stressful episodesyou might want to spend more time outside the house if you can, you can look for nice places to walk on google maps, it helps me at leastsorry anon
>>34520385There’s always construction work around you at the very least. Go to a site and ask for some work or ask where you can get some. You’ll be around real men all day. You’ll use your body at its peak. You’ll get stronger. You’ll be too tired at the end of the day to think about shit. You’ll make a good day’s wage, and you can have a fuck off delicious meal at the end of it because you can afford the calories. Do that for six months. Then if that doesn’t work, at least you tried, and so then you can an hero all you fucking like.
>>34520399Ty for the replyIt was more embarassing and sobering than anythingI had an ear injury as a kid that's the cause of it, im on a 2 year waiting list for a surgery which may or may not helpMy parents got a bit drunk and started threatening to evict me again n yeah just kinda spiralled from there I feel pretty hopeless
>>34520419sounds like your home life might be the biggest issue, i wouldn't be able to deal with that..mine has been similarly bad but on & offhow self-reliant are you?also, do you have any other sort of support network? like reliable friends, other family, coworkers, etchopefully you have some, this can make it easier to deal with the stressif you can claw some money togehter you might be able to fly to another country and get surgery faster
you should be alright in the end anonshitty day but it'll change, eventually your parents will feel like a much smaller part of your life (or not in it at all)gotta do things etci really don't know i'm kinda tired, sorry
>>34520432>>34520435I could get a job and move out I guess, not sure that id be any less depressed thoughI have literally nobody as said before, mega autist. Ive unsuccessfully been trying edating since november just to have someone to vent to pretty much. When the people im talking to ghost/block me I end up feeling super heartbroken because they're all I have.
>>34520453>Ive unsuccessfully been trying edating since november just to have someone to vent to pretty much. When the people im talking to ghost/block me I end up feeling super heartbroken because they're all I have.yeah this sounds like a bad idea & a bad behavior loopgetting ghosted tends to happen less with irl friends (say through a job or whatever), because you have shared experiences together & bond/relate over those, whether you realize it or notmeeting people to talk to & socialize could be a good reason to get a job, not just being more independentjob isn't a huge commitment either, you can try a few & hopefully they don't all suck, if they do there's not much lost you can just quitwork is work but some jobs are needlessly hellish (because of people you work with or whatever else), while others are somewhat more comfyit has less to do with the "tier" of the job (ex. janitor vs accountant vs engineer) than it does with random factors, like one particular fast food job could be hellish while another is really funuse your judgment, and if a job seems needlessly hellish you don't have to put up with itmega autism i wouldn't worry too much about, every zoomer is like that more or less nowshared experiences goes a long way in helping people bond, even if they're different or don't relate too muchit has more to do with good intentions from both parties, i reckon
meeting people online can be good, it's not necessarily badbut i think it's better to meet them through a shared interest like a game or a hobby or whatever, you're less likely to run into pathological and unpredictable people than you are with edating explicitly
if you get lucky & find a fun job with good people, you don't even need to move out necessarilyit can be fun just for its own sake & fun to have money, along with opening up weird opportunities and a place to spend time outside the houseto be honest i'm in a similar situation, i'm partly talking to myself here lol
>>34520484>>34520488I worked fast food for 3 years actually. Didn't love or hate it, didn't make any friends though. Im pretty introverted and normally don't care for friends or actively seek them out, its times like this when im feeling down that I want someone and I end up pathetically venting on /int/ or whatever. Most of the time if a friend tried to talk to me id be annoyed because id rather do solitary activities.Feel free to elaborate on your situation, im interested
I'm 21 and after endless rejections I'm convinced I'm going live the whole of my life never experiencing what it feels like to be in love with someoneI don't care for wealth or fame, I'd sacrifice all material things for love because it's the only thing in this world that I actually want8 billion people on Earth and not one gives a fuck about me
>>34520486Yeah
I'm 34 and honestly think I'm subhuman. Everyone else is a human being and I'm just some soulless retard. I feel defective compared to everyone else
>>34519800How do you guys feel about trying to use medicine? My life is perfectly fine so I shouldn’t be depressed. I haven’t found talk therapy to be useful.On an SSRI right now that is good and bad for me. While it’s been a great help for my overall anxiety and unhappiness, it’s also made me not care about anything, including work, my relationship, and being alive. I feel numb. The only thing that stopped me earlier is that I didn’t have a will set up yet. Or that’s my excuse at least. But I do really need to create one.Going back to the doctor today.
>>34519800
You're fine bro have a good week you can do it
I'd do unspoken things to be "lonely" for a bit have have some time to myself.You don't know what you have until you've lost it
>>34521167I've always been afraid of them, I'm no junkie but have done acid, coke and weed before and never have gotten issues I do it just a couple times every few years. But SSRIs that's something I'd never consider trying I told so to my therapist as well.A relative who's been taking meds at least for a decade told me how much they regret it, and I met a guy my age once who destroyed his life and warned me not to mess with them ever, he was in a very bad situation not depressed but he had nothing literally that really got into me
>>34520345Yeah, it doesn’t disappear fully but it gets much, much smaller
>>34521746I do think they’re over prescribed. I think everyone should try therapy before resorting to medication.And I’ve heard good and bad things. For some they claimed it saved their lives while others claim it gave them permanent side effects that continue even after stopping. Kinda a gamble it seems. As far as I can tell, they’ve overall helped me but not in that significant of a way.
>>34521823and what does it feel like? do you not feel like a robot or some sort of zombie where your mind and thoughts are numbed all the time or do you feel slow? how do you feel?
>>34521852It's different for everyone. I don't feel like a robot or a zombie, but I feel like nothing really matters, including my existence. And the grind of daily life is starting to become tiring and in my opinion, not worth it. In fact, I think you have to be a bit of a zombie to be happy like this. I know many will think I sound stupid, and I envy that, but it's how I truly feel right now.
Guys I'm thinking on dropping acid should I do it when I don't feel that good yet?
It's going to be time for me soon. Haven't seen my boyfriend in 2 weeks. I just found out his status on social media is single. I hate myself. I hate the life I live. I hate this place I'm stuck in. I can't cope anymore. I figure a good solid stab into my inner thigh should be enough for me to bleed out in the tub or maybe in bed. I haven't chosen which place yet. I have a decent knife but I'm going to have to take a lot of pain killers and a ton of alcohol so I'm not coherent enough to feel too much pain. He was the only thing keeping me here. Now that I know that even he doesn't love me, I truly have no one.
