>lifting again>run and go outside>play music>have social circle now >work >focusing on others in my life as opposed to self centeredness>volunteer >therapy with an old wiseman>cook for myself >dated but broke up still feel horrible about myself; i still believe everyone secretly dislikes me. it's like this fixed belief that doesn't go away, and i don't know how to make it go away, when on paper i am independent and connected to others too. i still cannot trust them, that anyone actually likes me or doesn't think poorly of me. how do you psych yourself out about this
>>34520386does anyone know? i've been feeling depressed and suicidal lately and it seems really antithetical to what is actually happening in front of me and i can't suck it up. even with a life i built that is worth living, i'm not sure what is going on
>>34520504No idea. Maybe get a vacation, have fun and look forward to the next one.
>>34520540good idea. ive been wanting to go to sintra in a few months when i save money, i want to look at the water and speak with locals and be in nature. i just did a staycation and spent time with friends outside, felt even more suicidal and sad by the end, and ungrateful
