Hello, just want to share my porn quitting journey here in case it helps anyone.Started watching porn when I was 7. Stumbled onto a porn site while I was looking for Ben 10 videos on Google. Now I'm 26 and have seen porn/hentais/animations of all kinds. I'm talking compilations, PMVs, all the tags. I've seen fucked up shit on /gif, saw a few guro tags. I started as a straight guy and by last year, I was regularly watching femboys and for a few months, sissy hypno.
During this almost 20 years period, I tried multiple times to quit. This is usually triggered by seeing something messed up (rape, animals, gore, snuff, forced feminization). You can see how it escalates. My worst ones I've seen that my 7 years old would cry if I ever showed him are:- A snuff hentai involving mother and son. They were kidnapped, force to sleep with each other while bound together by ropes. The ending is the group putting plastic bags on their heads and telling them if he doesn't finish inside his mom, they won't take the bag off. They never take the bag off.- Clicked on an account of a guy with the description "this is not real and should never be done in real life". Got curious, clicked, wished I didn't cause it's all cannibalism hentai.- Tried to quit hentai, watch "real people" instead cause it's more realistic. Bounce back and forth between that for a while staying in the safe genres. Slowly escalates. Now, rather than content, I put on quality. Compilations, /gif contents and just scroll scroll scroll. - Eventually stumbled upon femboys and sissy hypnos. Laughed at it first, then after a few years watch it regularly. It's to the point that I imagine female characters were femboys instead. - Then slowly, the sissy hypnos got to me. Started thinking about sleeping with men and sucking dicks but not in a healthy way. It was very degrading and I never felt good after one of those sessions.- Surfed /lgbt for a while, saw the degeneracy there. Went on Twitter, saw the bullshit and decided I can't continue with this bimbo/sissy stuff. Accepted I might be bi but I'll at least do it with some dignity.
Had a few girlfriends in high school but was too spergy/retarded to do anything. My ultimate moment was saving up money to see an escort at 25 years old. Saved up money for weeks. Looked at all the boards/forums. Got cold feet twice reading other virgins' experience with escorts and how they got treated with pity. However, eventually went with it.She was small Asian lady. Mid to late twenties. Definitely experienced. Didn't speak much English and just do it. Walked me through the whole thing. I was super excited at first, then when it's time for the deed, I softened up. We tried everything to get back into the mood but to no avail. I spent equivalent to $300 USD for the experience. 1 hour with all kinds of add ons. We just gave up and went to the shower, which for some reason got me active again. There, she jerked me off and that was it. All that money for a hand job.
