>have year to write a-level history about 1700s france>procrastinate very badly unintentionally. deadline never feels real even as it gets closer>genuinely feel like I will do it>deadline 2 weeks. rapid work, genuinely pulling all nighters for the last one but barely get it into a decent shape by last day with extra pity time>it's basically only 75% done and Im ashamed to be around my two classmatesi havent felt this level of selfhatred in nearly a decade and never this much shame. im nauseous knowing some other teacher is gonna read my papermache shit. i need instant steps for self improvement so I can stop thinking of killing myself.
>>34521951>instant no personality change is instant>resistancewhy did it take so long? explore that; where you afraid? comfortable? in denial? did you have a plan of attack for the essay? all of this is to avoid repeating it in the future >killing yourselfgive yourself a break, i know you probably feel shamed up rn but it's schoolwork and genuinely not worth that level of self punishment
>>34521967i meant instant hyperbolically, as in I just want immediate steps to start on the journey of not being a piece of shit.idk, it did feel comfortable but more like it's was genuinely just something I had total cognitive distance about, like a lot of projects I have. I guess its like saying>i know what I can do or I can learn it very fast so I could literally start right nowat anytime and that maybe leads to a total blackhole of motivation. im thinking of it being a kind of lacanian death drive. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56qSHLEJnSU explanation if youre not philosophy brainrotted like me)idk how else to put it. like I'm probably not actually gonna do it but genuinely really feel the impulse to out of total shame and it being the confirmation im nothing but a potential man as cringe as that sounds (lot of people praise me for being smart or say ill do big things but this failure in me will mean I never will if I dont take care of it NOW(-ish))
>>34522001sorry if this is too much info. tried to keep it and relevant and possible but wish this helps at all
>>34521951Do things immediately as fast as possible then relax rather than relax(panic&avoid) until the last minute.
>>34521951there are no quick solutions. Think about what makes you procrastinate. Not generic shit like "I don't feel like it". Actual reasons why you don't want to do the work. Do you actually want to pursue this course of education? Is there something distracting you?
>>34521951Start practicing the art of acting immediately. If something comes up, no matter how insignificant, do it immediately instead of lying to yourself that you'll do it at a later time, if necessary make up a story in your head that you have to tackle things immediately, otherwise something bad will happen. Start with small things like chores around the house and eventually you'll condition your brain to act regardless of the task.
>>34521951Instead of watching retarded broscience YouTube videos go read about why people procrastinate and what can be done about it. There's no magic bullet. unless you have genuine adhd I guess
