I'm starting to think there isn't. Whenever I come up with reasons to live it usually boils down to three things>What if I mess up my suicide and end up in a wheelchair or something>What if the afterlife, whether it's hell or reincarnation or whatever, is real and its never actually over>Social validation, whether it's friends or girlfriends, keeps me from doing anythingI've relied on social validation and fear for way too long. Now that I'm starting to plan my life around not having friends or a girlfriend all I have left is fear. There is literally nothing I want to do with my life and nothing I can do or make will make the lives of anyone else better, much less mine.
>>34523524Jeez, that's a lot man. I can't help you. You tried, like, actual therapy?
>>34523524have you tried to build a life worth living? Do you know how?
>>34523999Yes, therapy only works when you have motivation. I have no motivation because I have zero internal drive for anything and I didn't get a worthwhile answer from my therapist about why life is worth living.>>34524002I've accomplished things, I have a career set up, but I'm really at the end of my rope. If my brain attacks me nonstop and I can't do anything right without numbing my thoughts with SSRIs is that even a life worth living?
>>34524056what? I'm not talking about career at all. I'm talking about a life worth living, one with pleasure and meaning and connection and belonging or at least one of those things
>>34524214>PleasureHard to come by, mostly just get mild, numbing amusement.>MeaningThere's no meaning to anything I do.>Connection and BelongingI really shouldn't count on that, that's all I've had to go off of and it leads to me ending relationships because of my lack of self worth. Learn to love yourself before others and all that. But there's nothing there to reasonably love so yeah.
