im in college right now and the only reason i havent killed myself is that im too much of a pussy. i dont know if the world has always been this awful or if im just realising now as ive become an adult but jesus fucking christ. if its always been this bad how has everyone managed to not shoot themselves. does life get better after school? is it school thats making me miserable or is it just that the world is a miserable place. this just doesnt feel like the adulthood i was promised. the millenial optimism era has ended and now the world seems so cold and souless. everything is an ad everything is a subscription and everything is ai. it feels like ive entered adulthood as society is on the brink of falling apart and i dont know how to stop being so cynical. if anyone has any advice on how to be more optimistic id love to hear it. also if any older people could let me know if the world has always been this bad and im just a depressed person, or if it really is getting worse and im not imagining things. i just remember watching youtube videos when i was 9 and and seeing how cool and creative everyone was and now it seems like all that joy has disappeared. is this all life will be?
>>34524616the secular world is wicked and enflames our passions and dulls our senses. once i took the steps towards getting away from the noise, did everything stop being so painful. when i withdraw from society, into fantasy and vice the pain and loneliness comes backyou gotta just get out there in the world. speak to others, recognize whatever community you have and cherish it. no matter how much they're not your ideal people. and stick to the tradition of what people have been doing for hundreds of years. your proclivity towards joy has been sullied and it's up to you and you only to discover for yourself what drives you to take that direction and live with pride and piousness
>>34524616>does life get better after school?Nope, definitely not the aspect you're talking aboutThe world is definitely worst than when I was your age, but the good news is that you can still make choices to have a good and fulfilling life. The secret to hapiness is still making friends, building and participating in communities, and supporting each other. That stuff is still very much an option
>>34524678im not very good at making friends, i tend to come off very weird. maybe itll be easier to make friends when im older?
>>34524616What do you want out of life anon? Friends, a girlfriend, true happiness and satisfaction? I'm the same age as you and I have none of these things right now, but, I'm not close to killing myself because I'm putting time and effort into pursuing that stuff and I'm making progress. You need to give yourself a direction in life if you want to be happy anon, if you wallow and stagnate things will only get worse. Get a job, go outside, work on your social skills or just try new things in general. Don't think about the state of the world, pay attention to yourself and what affects you personally. Also, the sentiment that society is about to fall apart is doomer nonsense, people have been saying that constantly for thousands of years. I would be a little more optimistic until if and when the nukes start dropping. It's cliche but life really is what you make of it, if you believe the world is terrible and hopeless your life will be terrible and hopeless.tldr: Stop being such a pessimist it's not helping you and it's not even logical. You have the the power to pull yourself out of this and I believe you will.
>>34524700i want to be happy but i havent yet figured out what will make me happy. in hghschool i had a lot of friends and i was miserable. now have no friends and im miserable. it feels like there is just something fundementally wrong with me. ive been in relationships and i was miserable even then. im just perpetually stressed about my future and trying to secure a good career.
>>34524700also thank you for believing in me stranger, it means a lot lol
>>34524704You're discovering yourself anon, you don't truly know who you are yet. 19 is a very transitional age, it has been for me as well. I will reiterate about trying new things. Find something you like nature, astronomy, and drawing work for me it could work for you. If the day is really bad go outside, it absolutely helps. Also, if this career path is causing you so much stress and unhappiness maybe you shouldn't be doing it, I mean, if you already don't like it now you'll probably hate it when it becomes your job. You say you haven't killed yourself yet because your a pussy but it actually means your more resilient than you think. Your 19! 19 is young, you have your whole life ahead of you and have all the time you need to figure out what you want from it.
>>34524721thank you for being so kind. so gay to say buts brought me to tears. im just scared ill try everything under the sun just to realise that the only thing wrong the entire was me. ill keep trying new things though, i might go for a run right now. i wish i could repay you for your kindness!
>>34524682It might. Caring too much about what others think can make friendships difficult and people tend to get over that as they age
>>34524728are friendships required for happiness
>>34524726I see a lot of myself in you anon, and crying isn't gay you're just confronting your emotions that you've been suppressing, it's necessary to cry sometimes to ensure emotional stability in the future. Another thing, don't hate yourself, I recently discovered that I don't even like myself and am constantly fighting against and trying to justify my own actions and thoughts internally, that's not healthy. The fact that you seem receptive to my advice reinforces my belief that you'll be okay. When you come out of this you'll be a stronger person than most :].
>>34524616Even though we are all literally in Hell and society is collapsing into total chaos, everyone is too depressed and demoralized to give a shit or enact real changeThere is no point to voting, because no matter who you vote for the System will ensure the status quo remains 1:1 with how it was in the previous administrationThere is no point to education, because degrees no longer matter, the white collar industry is dead and professors care more about indoctrination than teachingThere is no point to dating, because the gender war has become so critical that most men are terminally alone and most women are okay with being single moms or spinstersThere is no point to consuming entertainment, because all of it is terrible. Movies suck, games suck, music sucks, anime suck, YouTube sucks, everything is just content nowThere is no point to self-improvement, because genetics and childhood trauma impact your entire life and you cannot do anything besides cope about things getting betterThere is no point to saving money or starting a family or trying to own a home or get a stable career or make a name for yourself, because the West only wants to outsource all of thisPeople constantly tell me I am in a negative mindset, meanwhile everyone outside is shambling around like the living dead. Tempers are shorter than ever, IQs are lower than ever, no one knows how to control their emotions and tribalism is at an all time high. Humanity has literally regressed back into a hunter-gatherer mindset despite progressivism, but we have zero of the freedom or physical advantages afforded to cavemen.Reality is now converging with the Mouse Utopia and Stanford Prison Experiment. 80-20 is taken as law. Jews run every sector of the world. Fractional reserve banking won't ever go away. Narcissism and ironic detachment are the norm. War won't ever endI don't know what to do anymore because I'm just one guy. I have no power, no motivation, I'm just a husk like everyone else
>>34524750i honestly wish you all the best. i wish i could meet in real life like you, maybe things would be easier. i hope we both find happiness.
>>34524761*people like you in real life lol
>>34524757this is exactly what im fucking saying. it feels like the end stages or something. this impending sense of doom and hopelessness cant just be in my head. i see visions of my future and it looks like working until im old and decrepit and then retiring, but then spending my days of retirement too old to even do anything. what is the point of it all. im not going to make any sort of impact. no one will remember when i die. the wars are going to continue, bombs are going to keep falling, the endless cycle of exploitation and opression at the hands of the elites will never stop. what the fuck am i meant to do.
>>34524761Thank you anon! This interaction has been meaningful for me as well, probably the most wholesome thing I've seen on this site ever. Good luck to you!
>>34524774are you american?
>>34524776Im from the UK
>>34524780commonwealth represent! im from nz
>>34524781You ever seen a kiwi bird?
>>34524788yes, only in an enclosure not in the wild. they are very cute
>>34524791Nice
>>34524616That's all true but don't kill yourself little bro. Even if the world is going through some changes, doesn't mean you can't find some enjoyment and meaning. There's never been a better time to be creative or to learn anything, there's so much available to us. The powers we have today are like gods, things that people hundreds and thousands of years ago couldn't even have dreamed about.Nobody can choose the time they are born into. There's good and bad aspects of every time period. You can only choose what you focus on. Godspeed.
>>34524803maybe we were never meant to have all this power, it seems to make a lot of people miserable. theres this metaphor i saw someonewhere about a woman who sees a fig tree branching out, and on each branch is a fig that contains a different path of life. theres so many options that by the time she chooses which fig to eat, all the figs have fallen and rotted. i feel my time slipping away, and i feel paralysed by the options. one time i was at a store and i saw three gorgeous dresses but i couldnt choose which i wanted so i ended up leacing the store empty handed. it feels like my life is going to end up empty because i cant decide what to do.
>>34524616Yes it is worse than ten years ago. Maybe try spending time with older people that still represent the better times. Older boyfriend/girlfriend/volunteer/activities, whatever is appropriate.
>>34524843fantastic idea honestly, im very jealous of millenials. how do i meet older people as a 19 year old though?
>>34524846Idk i'm from USA not UK I have no idea what it's like there but I doubt you would have trouble finding an older boyfriend/girlfriend, volunteering anywhere outside the college will have older people, activities? I'm into music maybe a live show of an older band, not some zoomertiktokwavecore or whatever the fuck you damn kids listen to. Get off my lawn.
>>34524846>very jealous of millenials. There's something wrong with you. Total millennial death.
>>34524846>fantastic idea honestlyNo, terrible idea, he is just suggesting you to get in a relationship with a huge gap because he is a loser and wants to increase his chances of getting 19 year old pussy.
>>34524616>i dont know if the world has always been this awful or if im just realising now as ive become an adultAdulthood is realizing that idealism is short-sighted, naive, and ultimately self-destructive. If you don't quickly convert your outlook to something more pragmatic, your whiplash will only get worse. And the cognitive dissonance between your unfounded expectations and the facts of cold hard reality will just result in a stalemate of uncomfortable delusion.It will only improve if you realize that no outside force has any incentive nor any desire to improve your situation for you, and that it is entirely up to you to put in the effort and make the changes needed in your immediate surroundings to bring whatever it is you want out of life into existence. You are the only agent of change in your life that can make any difference in your life specifically. You may eventually find someone with whom you can share that as a common goal, but in all things the willingness to make that effort is what matters.You have to change your life yourself. And if you don't have the capacity or will to do that, then you will stagnate. But at least now you are aware of this facet of adulthood and can make the decision to act on it. Or not.
>>34524881Isn't OP a guy?
>>34524881I never said that but you're right OP should only interact with people within one year of their age for life
>>34524616The world used to be better OP I was a teenager in the late 2000's and people were still normal because smart phones while they existed weren't owned by everyone and the internet was magical. You would meet actual weirdos and cool people in your favorite MMORPG's you would play things like Guns: The Duel. The next Final Fantasy was hopefully going to be better than the one that just came out. People were optimistic for the future for sure. Also no one cared about politics and Youtube still showed downvotes and even controversial channels were allowed to exist on the platform. Now everyone that isn't a complete dick sucker for Youtube ToS gets perma banned. Anyways, I never went to university but I guarantee you it is nothing like the adult world. If anything high school is probably more like the adult world than University.
>>34524881ohhh right. but wouldnt interacting with people who aren't brainrotted by whatever disease gen z has be good for me? have you interacted with gen z lately? its grim
>>34524616things get better, anon, you just have to keep pushing. millennials weren't as optimistic as the nostalgia makes us out to be, btw. every generation struggles, has its ups and downs. it is a bad time in the world right now, it will get worse, then it will get better, tale as old as time. just hang on
>>34524772>>34524757we are unironically living in the end timesthere is no reform, the ship is sinking and ww3 is imminentthere is a point to self-improvement though. natural development is healthy and optimal. there is a future, even if civilization is about to collapse and be destroyed. there will be survivorsescape the city [step 1] if you want to survivehttps://pol.foundation/Happening.html
>>34525997i hope your right but i really dont know how things will get better lmao. will how fast ai is progessing the only future i see is the one in detroit become human where we all become obsolete and only the elites and ai droids stick around
>>34524803good advice
>>345248139 'Whoever stays in this city will die by the sword, famine, or plague.'Jeremiah 215 This is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: "Like these good figs, I regard as good the exiles from Judah, whom I sent away from this place"Jeremiah 242 This is what the Lord says: "The people who survive the sword will find favor in the wilderness; I will come to give rest to Israel."Jeremiah 31
>>34526016so youre saying i should go to tel aviv? christ
>>34524616Human beings have always been shit, so who cares if society is atomized and everything is AI? Have you ever stopped to consider that maybe the only reason you love the human race so much despite it being so low-quality is because you're a low-quality person yourself?
>>34526013after a time of destruction good times return. the process is cyclical. if you were to drop yourself in the middle of fall for the first time, and the days are getting darker and colder, and the plants are seeming to be dying, flowers are wilting, trees are losing their leaves, you might think it's all over. but spring's eternal, you just have to see beyond the current scene.the war/collapse will be apocalyptic and the odds of survival are low, but the odds are positive ie. non-zero. aim high, who's to say you're not 'elite' too? it's not just about money either, there will be plenty of rich people who go down with the ship. those who survive will separate from it beforehand>>34526019no, the wilderness is the place to be soon. you mention AI, it will hunt along the grid, "dead reckoning".
