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Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)04:57:29 No.34524671

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Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)04:57:29 No.34524671

My grandmother passed away last year. My mother took ownership of her home after probate ended and managed to sell it to split the profits between the family. The money is in escrow now, and i'm due to receive nearly 100k after taxes and shit. This money is in escrow right now and going to be massively helpful to me, in giving me a chance to pay off debts, get medical issues taken care of, invest in my future, and kickstart my life by re-attending college.
I should be pleased right about now, but i'm absolutely miserable. This last month or two has been the absolute lowest point of my life mentally. I can't find the energy to do anything, i'm unreasonably irritable especially at work, i'm overeating like crazy to the point I gained 10 pounds in a month, and I feel like I can barely go a day without spiraling into deep self-loathing depression and wanting to blow my brains out. This should be my happiest moment in years; I can finally fix problems that have been plaguing me and give myself financial security again. But I can't find even the smallest glint of light. The fuck's wrong with me?

Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)05:00:56 No.34524672

Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)05:00:56 No.34524672

>>34524671
Idk what's wrong with you. What thoughts go through your head when you're porking out or thinking about killing yourself?

Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)05:02:15 No.34524673

Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)05:02:15 No.34524673

>>34524672
Usually that i've wasted my life and i'm a complete embarrassment. Which are the same thoughts i've always had on a regular basis but it's gotten much worse.

Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)05:09:44 No.34524680

Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)05:09:44 No.34524680

>>34524673
Hmmm, do you feel guilty for not having solved your problems yourself? Like, does being rescued by this inheritance make you feel like more of a failure?

Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)05:15:02 No.34524691

Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)05:15:02 No.34524691

>>34524680
Well yeah, if the money didn't come through then my life would've been an abject failure by any measurable standard. I'd probably go bankrupt and then my dental hygeine would continue to decline until it killed me because I can't afford to get work done.

Anonymous
05/12/26(Tue)05:19:25 No.34524694

Anonymous 05/12/26(Tue)05:19:25 No.34524694

>>34524691
Well, that thought might be why this windfall is making you feel more suicidal.

Just know that it is normal to be helped or rescued. I know society talks a lot of self-made men, but fact is most people got a leg up and plenty would have failed without one. Also, that worldly success matters to you, but not to a lot of people close to you. Being kind matters to other people. People don't care if you have a good career and your life in order, they care about how you treat them

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