>Have early childhood sexual encounter>Get self-insertion fetish for shota>Woman on shota>Trap on shota>Futanari on shota>Male pokemon on shota>Decide that I need to get rid of this attraction out of the guilt it has on my mind and the disgust I have for myself>Stop visiting AO3>Make it a goal to minimize my exposure to porn altogether>Avoid hentai sites>Hide sexual threads on boards like /v/ and /co/>Delete my AI chatbots account>Try my best to repress my sexual urges>My desire to see the shit I am embarrassed about skyrockets and is harder than ever to ignore>Usually get so horny that I compromise by wanking to solo content of normal looking womenWhat do I do? Is this normal to go through if you are trying to repress an attraction?
>>34526025Embrace it, fag.Also greentext the story for us
>>34526097It's nothing major>Be 5 years old at grandparents house>Slightly older cousin is there>We play in the backyard>Gets me behind a shed where no one can see>Tells me "This is what adults do" and tells me to go down on her>She does it a couple more times when I visit>Is probably why I resonate so much with shota
>>34526025Sorry you're going through that, OP.Where did the male Pokemon come from?
>>34526311I don't really know how I started getting sexually attracted to male pokemon although I think I might have a vague understanding of whyFor some reason, I am attracted, to a certain degree, to things that are not human. When I was really young, it started with people like mermaids and aliens like Starfire and elves. Then I moved onto centaurs as a teen and anthropomorphic women The more distant they are from basic women, for some reason I get more attracted to a certain degree. I find things like Goombella and neco-arc and goblins arousing. Things that would be seen as unfuckable by society but in my fantasies, they are lovers and so I look past the difference and fuck themPokemon are no different. They are intelligent and it would be weird for a trainer to get with one, so the idea of finding love is appealing, and I think there is just something added when they are a male because it is less conventionalI don't know why I am like this way
>>34526371If I had to guess, child you being used as a sex toy by a woman (which is not "nothing major" btw) put you off to women. I'm guessing your woman-on-shota interest is specific to MILFs. Maybe seek therapy regarding those interactions.
>>34526401I've thought about it but the idea of me telling another person who knows who I am about this makes me so worried about what they would think about me and what might they say to someone else
Just accept that it's something you find hotAs long as you're not doing anything IRL, why feel ashamed of it?
>>34526025Are you the guy that came here like a week ago about the shota fetish guilt? Regardless if you are or not therapy is a good first step (trust me). Avoiding porn entirely isnt a good solution. Think of it like a serious food issue, is avoiding food going to heal your relationship with food? Obviously not. You cant avoid the issue because sexual attraction and feelings are a part of adult life. You need to work through the guilt so the urge and demand isnt so strong. its not easy but its certainly possible. im working through my own version of this issue now so im speaking from a place of semi understanding. You'll get through it man but it wont be easy
>>34526612>what they would think about me a good therapist will think you're just coping with trauma, and that you need to either move past it somehow or develop coping mechanisms that don't make you feel ashamed.>and what might they say to someone elsetherapists risk losing their job forever whenever they break confidentiality. I've heard in some places they can even catch criminal charges for it.
>>34527020Keep in mind Therapists can and in fact legally must report things if they think that their patient is at risk to harm children.
>>34527027he clearly isnt going to act on any children though, that isnt the nature of his trauma and isnt the conclusion point a therapist would draw. At least from what he's said there is zero reason to assume that. He'd be more likely to do age regression sex play before going for a kid, it just doesn't line up with his trauma and how he draws pleasure from it.
>>34527006Yeah, and I probably remember you since you seem to be talking about the stuff that an anon posted that stuck with me. >>34527020I just got signed up for therapy. It's completely unrelated to what I am going through but I hope I can somehow find out if I feel comfortable talking about this stuff. I might break the ice by talking about my early sexual childhood experience
I feel bad for you and I hope you can get better
