There are 8 billion people on earth, no one truly remains alone forever right? Im 18 years old, I have many interests and hobbies. I can talk to others and im an interesting person. I study, cook, clean, draw, walk, take photos, play games and more. Apparently im good looking so there’s that. I struggle with eating, I enjoy hurting myself and I have mental issues. But I’d never hurt anyone, I’m always the one being hurt at. Every person ive met has hurt me, abandoned me and worse. no one ever seems fit. Everyone seems dead or robotic, hurtful. Never someone spontaneous or wanting, giving and caring, crazy. I give too, i like mutual love. Just seems people don’t want me. As of recently I keep dreaming of someone who’s rough, big and caring. Where we can hurt together and hold each other forever. Maybe I’m too young, maybe my standards are too high, I want someone conventionally attractive. Even though everyone I’ve been with has been below low standards and look odd. Maybe im too hyper aware and too deep. There must be others like me though, someone fitting to my needs. There are 8 billion people. I’m basically asking for advice on why I’m still alone. Am I an idiot? I might be
>>34527092Have you tried asking people out?
>>34527092Your hobbies are almost all solitary.
in my experience most people are really boring and evil. keep looking. it's not you it's them. or maybe it's you too. who knows.
