>>34527885
>because the only thing stopping me right now is not wanting to inflict pain on my family
That is a good reason, Ive been to 2 separate wakes for dudes I knew in HS and seeing their parents and family members absolutely distraught and destroyed over their beloved son/brother killing themselves will always stick with me. That was my first solid reason to not end myself. However, it is not sufficient because you need a more personal reason that does not depend on others. For that, I recommend reading something you find profound. As goofy as it is for me to say, reading the VN "Wonderful Everyday" also really helped me develop the will to keep living. Its central theme about being happy no matter how absolutely fucked life gets really stuck with me. For some it is too pretentious or too pornographic but it really changed my outlook on life, its probably just my personal projection that made it so significant to me lol. I also like thinking about Nietzsche's eternal recurrence. If you think that when you die, you will relive the same life again with no prior memory, you really start to try and change your life for the best. Having a solid passion has helped me a lot to, I use my guitar as a crutch to stop worrying about all the bullshit that makes me anxious and lift weights to let ouy my anger. Take what I say with a grain of salt as ive been getting over this shit quite recently and am probably slightly insane. But still I feel much better now that im not engaging in serious suicidal ideation constantly.

>>34527885
>Shy shouldn't I end it if every day is just suffering?
Because that suffering is coming from you, not from anything external to you. This means two things. One, is that you can put an end to the suffering if you will to. Two, is that the suffering won't stop at the moment of death, it will simply follow its cause, which is your own mind.

>>34527885
I'm in the same spot. I dont enjoy anything anymore, only reason im alive is cause my parents.

Ok kill yourself go to a bridge and look at the edge then you'll see that you don't want to kill yourself I had a similar situation once a friend legit just gave me his gun and told me you want to die then shoot yourself I didn't want to end it anymore

>>34528968
>Ok kill yourself go to a bridge and look at the edge then you'll see that you don't want to kill yourself
Or maybe, he will actually do it.


Don't do that OP. You don't want to die, your life is miserable and that's why you are staring death in the eyes. Don't kill yourself. Life is pretty.