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First woman to ever show any interest in me, how do i stop this?

>Be me
>Well spoken and somewhat charismatic
>Also never leave house, neurotic, destroyed my career, nuked social life, ugly as sin
>Reach 28 years old
>Mother arranges for me to meet her friend's daughter
>I really don't want to do this, forced into it
>Meet the girl, 22, she's cute and sweet and very autistic
>She likes me
>Why the fuck does she like me?
>I'm good at talking but my entire life is a fucking mess
>Start trying to sabotage the relationship
>Tell her i'm not religious (she is religious, both our families are religious)
>She calmly asks me to explain
>Says she respects my opinion and that it's fine, as long as i'm a good person
>?????????????
>Tell her i'm changing careers because i couldn't tolerate corporate wageslavery
>Says that it's fine, doing something meaningful is more important than money
>?????????????
>Fuck it. Trauma dump about shit and make it very clear it's mostly my fault
>She listens the entire time without saying a single word
>Tells me its okay, then shares similar struggles she's had
>?????????????
>I tell her plainly that she is way too good for me, that i'm not dependable, am neurotic, she should find someone better who can treat her well
>Says "I don't know that yet"
>?????????????

You fuckers told me women like this don't exist. What the fuck am i supposed to do? I have literally no redeeming qualities, not even money. Is she trying to steal my kidney? Is she fucking stupid? Please tell me how to not fuck this up.