I'm an autistic. 19. Currently in university going for biomedicine, the thing is, it's difficult for me to learn stuff, and i feel terrible because my entire class is prettier than me, they all have jobs, successful lives, and full of money with stable families, meanwhile i'm here living in hell since i've been born. I have been depressed since i was 11, i now have a boyfriend and my life is really getting better, but i feel a sense of emptiness sometimes, it's not a suicidal feeling, but something else. I don't know if it's because of my BPD. But i feel like there's no hope left since the only thing that i care about in my life is my cat and my boyfriend, i try doing makeup but i never look good, like it doesn't look good in me like it looks good on other girls. I don't really have a feminine face, i have a long nose and my jaw is a bit more square shaped, everytime i try to dress feminine i look like a damn joke. It's weird since i get hit on a lot by other guys, even though i am really not interested, but i can't understand how, since i don't think i look good. My eczema makes me feel worse about my body. I don't know i feel like i'm only venting at this point, and my english is kind of bad, it's not my first language. But is there a way to get rid of the feeling that you're terrible and useless to society? I go to therapy since i was 12 but it never helped. I wonder if i will succeed in life, my life would be better if i was only a little bit cuter. Maybe i'm bad at makeup? Or the makeup styles won't fit me? Also this is my first post on here, sorry if it's in a wrong way or something. I want overall life advice and makeup advice would be better too, maybe some hair advice. My hair is shoulder length and wavy, but i always straighten it because i don't know how else to style it.
>>34530486You must look decent if guys hit on you. Attractive people usually underrate their appearance.
>>34530486>and i feel terrible because my entire class is prettier than meyou still care about this shit? in fucking UNIVERSITY?you need to grow the fuck up, genuinely
i care! i used to get bullied a lot for my appearance back in school, and i stopped going to classes because of it :( i know it can sound like a stupid thing, but it was so bad i had to change schools for a bit.
>>34530538are you OP or
>>34530527oh sure tell her to grow up but when I want to date an 18 year old she's suddenly a child
>>34530486>it's difficult for me to learn stuff, and i feel terrible because my entire class is prettier than meStop wasting energy looking at other girls and study.
