>been fapping for years, sometimes not even with high lust>100 gbs of rule34 artwork and videos of different fictional characters categorized by names in folders>Recently discover an artist with cute artstyle and a "femboy" character that gets fucked by women>at first fap to the drawings once and then just forget it becouse there isnt enough drawings yet>My brain still holds that character in my mind, i grow fond of it >I start looking for similar characters and similar thropes, find tomgirls and otokonoko "straight" hentais and fap a lot (i want to be fucked like that)>Wake up one day with that character in my mind, he doesnt leave, he is just there with a strong feeling i cant recognize, while im out i have some sort of weird ass panic attack as i realize i want to be him>I even buy his clothes to try and see if i can be like him>Even consider buying striped stockings but realize im still too fat for them>Wake up and understand that im suddenly just straight up wanting to become a femboy>I want to be one so i can "be sexy to women and be dominated/raped" and yet the desire is way more passionate than anything i have felt, im disgusted by it and at the same time i want it>Even start fapping to hentais with prostate stimulation>Slowly losing my mindWhat the fuck is happening to me, am i just way to fucking retarded or do i secretely have been wanting to be a femboy all along? I have been tried to change my image, lower my weight even try to change my voice just becouse i fapped at a character from a russian twitter artist
Stupid idiot writes like a peruvian down syndrome kid
What's the issue?
>>34534370Emulating something you like/are infatuated with is normal. It's quite literally just a phase that exists because you expose yourself to it. It's like cosplayers or people who pose like tokusatsu characters.Don't look at porn for a week and you'll be fine.
>>34535557I dont know if i should be willing to become it or i should resist the temptation
>>34534370>ESL melts his brain with 100gb of rule34>fantasizes about becoming a femboy>'I want to be dominated and dress up in cute clothes and-'Hey retard, you're going to end up as a tranny. Don't condition your brain to associate sexual arousal with the sight of yourself in feminine outfits or the idea of being submissive in the bedroom. The reason you're fixated on this fantasy is because your porn consumption is out of control... your brain is seeking out novel sexual stimuli regardless of what form it takes. You need to delete your porn collection, throw away any and all sexual paraphernalia (pinups, figures, sex toys, etc.), and abstain from porn for several months. Ignore me and you'll only fuck your brain worse in the long run. You've been warned.
>>34536223Ok i will attempt to do this, if i still want to be cute then ig its more honestly
Don't listen to the other anon and embrace your animaFemboys are based
>>34534370You are conditioning yourself to weird shit to the point you think its "you" who inherently likes that. Other than normal basic biology, everything is trying to condition you either to your benefit or detriment, think parenting or advertising or culture.Here's the thing, we all know that there's some good or bad scale. If you indulge in the bad you'll soon condition it into your personality.And hey I get it, porn is great, some of us have mundane lives and that's the shit that gets us going. But nigger, you can't do this to yourself. This is not normal, porn fuck up your neurology, it's 10x potent in conditioning you to weird shit.You are allowed to forgive yourself and move on. Give this shit up, find something to do in your life, anything, hiking , cycling, group hobbies with strangers, but for the love of God save yourself.
I will try, i will see, i will decide and then ill play xgra on the gamecube
