Dumb bitch wants to vent to me on the phone while ignoring me irl for more than a month.
I don't give a fuck anymore, I don't give a fuck about your problems, you had me but now you've lost me, for good this time, I'm done being pushed and pulled.

I'm so tired of people saying "just go to therapy bro". I've been in psych wards. I've spent tens of thousands of dollars on mental health treatment. Countless drugs. Countless therapists. For almost 15 years. And it was all for nothing. I never felt any better with anything I tried. None of the therapists helped me. How do you not get burned out with trying this shit over and over again when it's failed so many times?

I should have known I'm unlovable right now. I knew I should have avoided this disgusting mess instead of getting emotionally tangled and wasting my time.
why did I ever think there were logical reasons for being treated as lesser, it's just hierarchy... I was treated like garbage because I am garbage, cast into the role of an emotional trash bin.

said a bad word on AM radio and got away with it kek

I think I love u but I’m gonna wait a longass time before I say it out loud

I'm getting sick and tired of my employee. Everything the bosses do, he complains about. He thinks he knows so much but he can't tell the difference between pliers and a wrench, can't install a battery without over tightening the terminals, thinks diesel engines have chokes and thinks he's entitled to whatever he says he is. I want to fire him so fucking bad, but it would cause a shit storm. The only reason he got hired was there was nobody else and he was readily available, and now his fiancee is the manager of the other portion of the business. I don't want to cause animosity or problems at work, but I'm getting tired of this 30 year old man who thinks anxiety is an acceptable reason to get out of doing work. Fucking vagina havers

>>34546545
This mechanical engineering apprenticehood or what?
I'd think if you hire someone for such a critical role, you'd think they'd keep their emotions in their pocket, shut up, do as they're told, and learn as they go.

The economy is in the shitter right now and if someone so stupid is in your wheelhouse, I'm surprised he's there. Nobody literally can afford to be stupid. I sure as hell can't anyway.

>>34546474
Oh hey, same here. Forest date this, chess that, she keeps dumping shit onto me in pieces. Then I found out she isn't single.
Yet she still keeps telling me where she'll go and when she's coming back.
Now, I'm in the middle of a job change to a real career and I'm in no mood for any of this shit.
I promised her I'll keep in contact with her when I'm gone, but that's pretty fucking useless and it feels slimy for me to keep talking to her. I should've been focused back on my own life.

>>34546271
>I'm done being pushed and pulled.
Good for you. I wish I was strong enough to do the same because this shit is killing me

I think Gemini is better at therapy than Claude. I think I made some more progress today on my general emotional state.

>>34546313
The point of therapy is to teach you to act differently. Whether you go to therapy or not you have to do that part.

>>34546659
Good job Sean

>>34546517
i love u too

I don't keep rejecting the fact that you love me because "I have low self esteem" dumbass. I keep pointing out how poorly you treat me but you just keep ignoring me. You only "love" me the way someone loves their favorite toy

you're right that sometimes bad things happen to good people...but you're a bad person and bad things keep happening to you because you cause them

>>34546665
I tried therapy but I realized I didn't want to change. I wanted to stay the same and complain

>>34546653
is her partner aware of this shit? she's probably unstable. she may try to blame it on you if they suddenly find out and harass you if it fucks up her current relationship, tread carefully man. maybe you should make backups of whatever you can to avoid stupid allegations.
I got myself blocked this morning by mirroring their tone. I feel sad but it also feels like the weight of a thousand rocks was lifted off my chest... because it's no longer in my hands, there is nothing to explain anymore, there's nothing to fix, there's nothing to hope for, there's nothing to expect but silence and stillness and now I have the mental space to exist instead of thinking about all of their subtle jabs, the contradictions and this one sided unspoken psychological guerrilla war that was waged against my being.

I'm not in a unique position based on other threads here. But I'm in my early 30s and have suddenly been hit with the painful realization that my youth is over.
I lost several years of my life due to an illness, have run dry of savings, and need a job now. No place worth a damn will probably hire me. I don't want to get shot doing a low paying job in this horrible area.

>>34546824
I'm so scared of turning 30

I always drive myself into a corner like this. A. l. w. a. y. s. It's not even 2 months ago that I posted the same fucking thing. I always wait for the stress and when the stress comes, I do something but before I have to complain about being like this. Is this just gonna stay with me for the rest of my life or what.
>>34546737
>I tried therapy but I realized I didn't want to change. I wanted to stay the same and complain
Lol. Honesty is the first step, they say
>>34546824
>I'm in my early 30s and have suddenly been hit with the painful realization that my youth is over.
Mid 20s here so I'm not gonna pretend to truly understand. Just wanted to say that, if it makes you feel better, we all feel like this, all the time from the moment we turn 18. No point in dwelling on it. It happens to everyone

fuck teen love fuck missing out on teen experiences. the real tragedy is missing out on young adulthood

Whatever fuck it. At least I have a full head of hair

>>34546683
That's a cool sentence

>>34546847
nice tat does it mean anything

>>34546841
I was too, but then I turned thirty. I’m turning 31 this year and am already enjoying my thirties more than my twenties.

>>34546674
I wish this was heeeeeeeer maybe it will be someday. Maybe it won’t. I’ll be happy with myself for trying either way

>>34546841
happy birthday. i'm just a couple years younger and going through a mid life crisis.. doesn't help im a woman and those hormones go wild

>>34546740
No, and I wasn't even aware she had a partner this whole time until I eavesdropped on my boss' conversation with her.
Now I feel fucking stupid "taking her request seriously" to go to the forest together.
But the good news is nobody is saying shit about us, and she's professional enough to not pull any weird shit on me like that.

However I'm indebted to her technically because I asked her for a huge favor, and she granted it. Thankfully I will be busy at my new job very soon, and all that shit will fade.

I just feel like a fucking idiot thinking I had a chance with her after she did my collar in front of my boss, among many other tiny signs.

A friend of mine is worrying about basically getting cucked by his gf and thinks that she doesn’t love him as much as she used to. They both have been cheated on in the past and I even told him that why tf would she cheat if she got cheated on yet he still being paranoid

>>34546893
so she doesn't even know that you're aware and hasn't bothered telling you up to this point? sounds like a nasty situation...
I hope it goes well for you anon.
it's not your fault, you were misled and she lied to you by omission.
you shouldn't feel indebted to people who are willing to hurt you and use you for their own pleasure, sounds like you're talking about a professional favor... you don't owe her anything in any other department, imagine if the same thing happened to your sister, it's completely unfair.

>>34546969
While you're right, I don't owe her shit, she did put her professional titles on the line for me so I can leave to a better job.
That's why I'm humoring this until I'm free and I get to be the man I'm meant to be.

She and I, before that reveal, admitted I'm working a dead-end job and there's no way I'm able to get top grade pay or a promotion here. Then the favor happened. Now I was foolish and told her my aspirations, what I like, and me caring about my own body more than usual, and why I'm going into the Trade (for benefits for my future family and a pension), and that's how said favor happened.

It's weird because she keeps telling me where she's going, when she's coming back, and now texts me instead of me texting her. I'm not playing games, I just don't appreciate being treated like a boyfriend yet I'm not a boyfriend.

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>>34546855
7 to me represents life, love, loss and Lord Jesus Christ.
6 on the iron side, 7 for me.
Initially it was just a relatively matching tattoo with no meaning until I found meaning from it.

>send cute silly joke pic to person ive been dating
>they dont respond the way i expect/want them to
they fucked up cause i dont even want this person no more

>>34546642
No. Not anything so technical. He's literally just a laborer, but he's worked here for 3 or 4 years and learns absolutely nothing. If I tell him to grab a 1/2 inch wrench he grabs a 12 mm because it has a 1 and a 2 stamped on it, and firing him would just start drama across other portions of the business, especially with the other manager who he's engaged to

>>34547022
Oh, shit.
A laborer for that many years and he's that much of a fucking retard?
Lmao, and I thought I was struggling with mechanical aptitude. And this manager he's engaged to, let me guess, she's a C Suite level bitch and he's the boy toy?

Seen that enough times, you'd think the manager responsible for keeping such idiots would get fired. Sorry you're dealing with that, boss anon. I've been victim to something similar. No advice from me though, I complained and then got fired.

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I always ends burnout of everything. Fucking hell.

>>34547026
They're both recovering heroine addicts. That's how they fell in love. Technically im the manager keeping him employed. It's like a best option kind of scenario, potential employees around here are slim pickings and terrible candidates.

>>34547002
I get the pressure... your actions make sense and there doesn't seem to be much wiggle room. though it sounds like she doesn't care much for risks, she's risking her titles, her relationship, god knows what else, perhaps she just believes she's immune to consequences.
my situation was the same limbo state of a pretend relationship with no title but due to different circumstances... there were no other people involved as far as I know and it still sucked the life out of me... so draining, dragging on and on through the fog... I know the feel.

I’m in love with a coworker.

At first I thought it was just the contrast between her and my girlfriend. I’ve been living with, and supporting a chronically ill woman for years. Along came this coworker. Ambitious, attractive, intelligent. Talking to her made me feel something I’d almost completely forgotten.

I don’t know whether it is reciprocated. Sometimes it seems that way, other times it seems like it is just her being socially competent and me mistaking it for interest.

Either way, my life feels strange at the moment.

>>34547177
This is beautiful and heartbreaking, simultaneously. I have been giving my love to someone who I worry doesn't feel the same, so this strikes a chord and helps me recognize my own void.
Do what makes you happy, but don't leave your girl in the dark. She deserves to find her happiness, too.. even if it's without you.

>>34547074
Either way, soon as I'm gone, I'm going to trickle the fuck away from her and then go ghost.
I got what I needed, really. There's another work friend that's setting up a Tinder for me when I'm fully settled in my new role, so worst case, I have a fallback plan to get laid at least.

I genuinely was thinking of getting into a committed relationship with this manager though, right down to 25 years down the line. It was foolish of me.

>>34547228
Thanks for your words, anon. I’ve never spoken candidly about my situation with anyone.

I hope things work out for you.

>>34546223
I’m falling for a girl that I think doesn’t want anything beyond a physical relationship. I think because she’s younger than I am. We talk and hook up often but whenever I try to ask what our relationship is she gets a bit stand offish. She also hides me from her family. The sex is amazing so I’m just kinda rolling with it right now but i do want an actual relationship with her. I want to take her places and do stuff together but she usually just wants to fuck.

i dont get how you can tell me you love me, but not be IN love with me

>>34547317
This is often a difficult concept for me as well and one reason I guard myself and don't use the word LOVE, or at least not for a very long time.
The idea of platonic love is real, but I would not pursue physical intimacy or emotional reassurance platonically.. I also feel that is why 'casual sex' can muddle emotions and confuse the heart.

It hurts to be in love and not have that person feel the same and would prefer to be alone than be 'played'.

>>34547317
I think it's nice to go on dates or have sex with some women. I really enjoy their company in any capacity, except I don't want to attach my identity to them because ultimately at that moment I perceive that I could be with someone that I will love MORE than them. Fish and ponds and all that. You really would be extremely lovable if you were one of the last two people on the planet. Improve yourself in ways that your targets might enjoy both inside and outside. And network more. There's probably someone that you perceive to be 30% out of your league that also perceives you to be 30% out of their league on this planet; you just have to meet them.

>>34547230
good luck anon. I hope you get to where you want to be in life and also find fulfilling love.

New place, new job, closure to several haunting chapters, everything coming together yet I'm as unhappy as ever. Maybe some people are born to be miserable.

>>34547406
That's just what distance from God can do, man.

>>34547406
Same shit happened to me a year ago. Then I met the sweetest, most beautiful girl in the world and everything got worse.

I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!! I want everyone in my life to leave me alone and let me die

>>34547446
Why?

I haven't been able to shake someone's hand for ten years. There's nothing wrong with fistbumps between friends. I already accepted I'm never allowed to shake black people's hands again, you'll end up just palming their fist and have to readjust for a fist bump.
But today. I dealt with some 60 year old white guy. 25 years older than me. No nonsense, pretty serious. I go for the handshake and he turns it into a fucking fistbump. Why is the handshake extinct?
I remember 15 years ago some asshole was saying I had a weak handshake. I worked with old people so I was always gentle. Now there's no handhakes at all? Did covid do this shit? Maybe it's for the best.

I'm thinking that I'm gonna write my thoughts:


I am loving become going to the thing I'm busy bored happy going down to the center. Perhaps one day I'll learn to love what I'm doing to the thing in the place why am I doing such a thing when I'm beyond help. Dog sleeping next to me is potato colored fur chimney bricks house arrangement weird sleeping jealous arthritis.

I don't think I'm schizo I'm just a bit creative and feel the buzz of creativity. That psych nurse don't know shit

If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman?

I'd love to date a girl who has huge knockers but doesn't have a complex about them

>>34547444
And then your brain will tell you that she is too perfect

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>>34547480
>girls with small tits are worried about their tits being too small
>girls with boing tits are worried about their tits doing too much boing
sigh...

>>34547492
In my experience it's more like
>you only like me because of my giant fat fucking slobberknocker milktruck funbags, huh???? you fucking pigs are all the same, i'm getting a reduction!!!

I feel my life is going nowhere, I really don't know what to do, and especially I don't know how to get out.
>I have a job I like but the pay is abysmal despite me being a mech engineer (and a good one too)
>still, I save €400/month on average by having a frugal lifestyle
>the lease is ending in exactly one year and rent will skyrocket, probably doubling
>even if I manage to get the mother of all pay raise (on the order of 25~35%) I still won't be able to afford a mortgage to get a half decent house here because the housing market is THAT bad

I don't know what to do. Everyone's telling me to try my luck abroad, but I have no fucking idea how. Meanwhile the little money I'm piling up are getting eroded by inflation because at the end of the day I don't have the mental bandwidth to take care of that either. I feel like I'm drowning.

>>34547507
New concept: Budget small amounts of money to go out. See how much fun you can have for $30 or less for 2-3 days a week, and if you can be in scenarios where you can meet people and have fun and do something novel. This is $180 a month at maximum and might open new fates you previously did not have access to. Namaste even.

I bought Malazan.

>>34547521
I didn't know what those things were when you asked

>>34547523
Malazan is a fantasy epic book series.
Lucifer is a DC Comics property based on Sandman's Lucifer.

>>34546683
You are going to spend the rest of your life in prison for this.

I wanna go out on an adventure, dissapear for 3-4 weeks, let the unpredictable nature of the world decide what should happen with my life next. It would be cool to meet new people, learn a few things, I don't know man just anything that makes me feel like I'm not in indefinite imprisonment. I'll trade sleeping comfortably on my bed for a few weeks just to get rid of this feeling.

>>34547533
What are you talking about?

>>34547534
OR! Or...
>>34547516
Please consider the high and long road.

it's over.

>>34547557
It's only beginning to be over.
https://youtu.be/vRQb_-mRcAc?si=HrdZ5eexkPBsAg-y

>>34547557
Why do you think that?

I told you to stop calling me

>>34547538
You trying to ruin lives acting like youre exempt from consequence. You are guilty. Guilty of murder, guilty of conspiracy. More guilty then anyone you blame. Your day is coming.

>>34547626
I don't even know your number.

>>34547652
You don't even know anything about me. So why keep calling

>>34547662
I'll try to stop thinking about you, if you think that's it.

>>34547626
Bring bring

I hope my fucking neighbor and her dangerous retard moid go to hell when they inevitably die a lackluster shitty death. Fucking deserve to be curbstomped for show.

>>34547665
I didn't say that

>>34547709
But I'm not calling you. The only way I know that would happen subconsciously is if I think about you.

>>34547690
what they do

Real childhood autism is severe. I have no idea how quirk chungus adults get the same diagnosis as children with a disability who can't hit any development milestones

>>34547647
You must have me confused. My ass literally just preaches positivity

>>34547725
There are probably multiple genes and epigenes that are involved and if this is the case it really WOULD be a spectrum

>>34546223
Antionette, if i was more interesting and we didn't meet through work i would ask you out in a heartbeat. you're the most gorgeous girl ive ever seen. i want to get lost in your red hair and kiss every inch of your body. fuck my chud life. i can't believe i've ever even had sex, let alone the decent amount that i've had.

>>34547741
Yes this is very much true. Autism is a polygenetic disorder with candidate genes found on literally every chromosome

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZAYjMwKBV8
https://files.catbox.moe/r70s1j.jpeg
Watching the video, he says "look at this guy, his family probably has been living here for a thousand years, he's the most british guy you could imagine", and it made me laugh because as soon as I saw him, I thought he looked just like John Locke.
The literal incarnation of John Locke, maybe his very descendant, fighting for the sake of England. KEK.
Based.

>>34547725
Well, this is like saying, why do one handed/legged people get called disabled when there are people out there who are paraplegic or have no limbs.
"Modern" autists may not be as retarded as the 60IQ downies, but they're so clearly disabled in some form that they get treated like shit and ostracized by normalfags wherever they go, no matter what they do or try to.

>>34547526
I wish men had feelings

I wish women didn't take advantage of men that do have feelings.

i don't like your accent

I wish your version of reality where women take advantage of men was real

why this dude always trying to argue or start something. stop, i love you

i wish men weren't so selfish

"i love you"

you say that to everyone. it doesn't mean anything at this point

>>34547741
It can be a spectrum without collapsing everything into one diagnosis. Schizophrenia is separate from schizoaffective which is separate from psychotic bipolar disorder. Major depressive disorder is separate from persistent depressive disorder.

"i feel differently about you from anyone else i've ever met"

ok is that why you treat me so much worse than everyone else

I wish they sold Apple Cider year 'round.

>>34547887
Eat shit and die, you selfish cunt. Bitches like you should be lynched.

>>34547900
They do

>>34547905
Do they? I thought it was seasonal.

>>34547879
You deserve death. Fuck you.

>>34547867
i literally have TOO MANY feelings. im about to fucking cry because of a girl i have to interact with for work and im an embarrassment so i can't ask her out without getting in trouble and all i want is to marry her and have kids with her and live a happy life with her but i can't, im not good enough and im a slave. ive been cursing myself out loud periodically for the past 2 hours. i wish i was an apathetic heartless chad.

i wish men could be thoughtful

>>34547909
men are only emotional in the most self absorbed egotistical way possible. that's not what anyone means by feelings anon

>>34547909
Ugh

>>34547909
Ok so I held similar feelings until I heard she had a boyfriend, but crying? Come on man, be better.
Yeah, I get having a monogamous, serious relationship with children and a full-time perfect income and a Mortgage that doesn't murder you in 30 years would've been fantastic, but considering hookup culture, that's a fantasy.

At least getting laid is easier than ever. There's nobody to pair bond with anymore unless you're 50 and they have kids of their own, so goodbye making your own children, but again, the sex is easier than ever to get.

>>34547907
I don't think apples are a seasonal fruit but I may be wrong

>>34547909
>all i want is to marry her and have kids with her and live a happy life with her but i can't, im not good enough and im a slave
Men like you keep breaking my heart :(

>>34547922
Why though? It's true.
Even me with a new career down the line, I'm still starting from scratch.
By the time I'm perfect, I myself would be middle aged. That's bad because now either I'm balding or I'm fat as ever or my dating pool is limited to people I can't have families with, because they already made their own.

At least hookup culture still works.

Remember he's never yours, it's just your turn. Men do not have loyalty in their DNA

>>34547921
They aren't, but Apple Cider, I thought was for the Fall.

>>34547919
i know this is bait but just a reminder to anyone reading this, sex is at an all time low especially among young people, it is not easy to get laid if you're not blatantly attractive

>>34547929
I'm >>34547909 and >>34547768. i've never cheated in my life. if i had a beautiful wife i'd never even look at another woman.

34547929
You say that, but women have 5 men in their pocket.
34547934
Just because you're not fucking doesn't mean nobody else does. Skill issue.

>>34547931
I was wrong, it is a seasonal fruit.

>>34547929
Wow, there's nothing I could say to this.

>>34547931
You are right I am so sorry

>>34547912
Die.

>>34547934
i am attractive and still can't find anyone. i'm not autistic or mentally ill or a shut in. i can find hot single people my age but even if they are attracted to me or even declare that they're in love with me they don't want relationships because it doesn't seem worth it or they think they're not good enough for me or they're not ready or they're too scared etc etc

>>34547937
i can't even begin to describe how much of a faggot you are for deleting the yous. if you don't want someone to get a you, don't respond. also look at statistics, if you can't understand them don't lash out like a child.

I turn into an autistic robot whenever I have to text a girl. Dates go well, things get flirty and touchy, hookups are had. But then I gotta text a bitch and I get all clingy and gay and eventually ghosted/friendzoned. I fucking hate it.

>>34547929
I got royalty; got loyalty; inside my DNA.

>>34547893
Yeah but if we rush it we might make wrong guesses that affect PEOPLE

>>34547960
men's hormones prolly switched inside their DNA, have that sucker shit inside their DNA

>>34547960
>sean having loyalty
lol

34547951
Well you're not worth it.
Thanks tho.

>>34547944
It's cool. I was being a smartass and probably a know-it-all.

>>34547951
>i can't even begin to describe how much of a faggot you are for deleting the yous
They're scared I think

34547985
Not really, it's just not worth giving the engagement.

the longer you wait the more she slips away

>>34547985
they're a tremendous bitch and a wimp. taking time out of your life to make your posts special is so said.

you yes you anon. this is God speaking to you

>>34548059
Hewwo?

>>34548064
hello my child.

>>34548065
If you are talking about post >>34548036
I am not talking to a girl lord. What do you need me to do?

34548056
Like what you've been doing?

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>EEfag
>failed two classes this year
>fired from shitty warehouse job
>no job prospects besides semi-offer at industrial controls company doing plc nigger shit
>no real friends
>most people think I'm retarded (I am) but are polite about it
>any inkling of motivation and ambition stamped out
If I wasn't taking ashwagandha I'd be freaking out right now. I just want to be a normiel IQ normie doing dumb normie shit, why do I always have to stress out about shit? Even when I was a child in middle school I'd stress out over my retarded classes and go through this same cycle, it was getting better the past couple years but I guess I haven't changed.

>>34548091
Hey fellow EEfag, what classes did you fail?
Keep at it, it's really hard. You don't have to be a PLC monkey forever especially if it's just an internship

>>34548104
>>34548091
Meant to say "you're not stupid, EE is just really hard"

>>34548036
>>34548059
are you talking about me and my Antionette posting? if so trust me anon the chance has already passed, she won't love me, our children will not be born

>>34548036
I'm not waiting, if she slips, she slips.
Gawrsh.

>>34548104
Power Systems and Sets and Proofs (I wanted to take Analysis). The proofs course was fun I just didn't have enough time, finished with a D+.
I think my university is dumbed down though, the lowest grades in 2 of my courses was a C. I was proabably one of >5 people, if not the only one who failed which makes me want to an hero.

>>34548059
No, it isn't. Why would you believe that?

And that is the last social skills question I asked chatgpt. Now I should have a grasp of it now. Does it mean I'm charismatic? No. It means I can handle myself socially when the charisma fails and faulters like it usually does.

it's okay to run away

>>34548120
Oh I think I remember you posting about this on /g/ lol
I know boomers and basedlennials harp on about us being retards but at the end of the day if you're in an ABET accredited program you're in an ABET accredited program. If you passed all your calc and diffeq and physics and linear systems and emag and all that shit you're certainly not dumb, you have what it takes to finish the degree and go on to be a great engineer (if that's what your goals are or what you hinge your self esteem on or whatever). Just keep chuggin away man. I'm in the same boat, though I haven't taken the big boy classes yet. We're all gonna make it.
Do you have a specific niche you want to get into after graduation?

>>34548176
Listen to yourself. Making yourself the Arbiter or Voice of God, when you know that is a trap. If The Creator wants to speak to me, he can audibly, there's no need for you.

>>34547963
based

I am the storm that is approaching.

I am the gassiest Chungus that knocks. I am the one who laughs. I am Keanu Wholesome 100. Uganda forevah. I farted a tornado of gazelles. My peanus is a weenis uwu. Skibidi ohio 67 chicken stars hitler.

Got called into a meeting and majorly chewed out at work today for repeatedly "looking disgusted" at clients, and finally had to confess that I'm on the spectrum and don't have much control or awareness of my facial expressions. My boss literally, actually said "you don't have to tell us that, we can all tell."

Should I just kill myself?

>>34548198
>he can audibly,
Schitzo?

I audibly took a shit on the balcony and it landed on someone's car lmao. Heard the glass break and all.

>>34548268
Nah. You're learning. Practice in the mirror and show an AI some selfies and ask for body language critique in particular.

>>34548268
fucking hate autists who use their autism as an excuse for everything. like they said they know you have it and are trying to tell you specifically what you're doing wrong. so why can't you correct it?

>>34548272
can i hire you as a (s)hitman so you can crap on my situationship bf's car? he has two of them

>>34548273
>>34548274
I literally don't even feel my face making these expressions I'm apparently making, though. How am I supposed to control it if I have no physical awareness of it?

>>34548186
I feel like it's the opposite nowadays. Doing well doesn't mean much but doing poorly definitely does. I've accepted I'm a retard so I don't really care at this point

>>34548280
I told you. Look up duchenne smiling too. There are literally muscles in your face that you can control or at the very least relax.

>>34548285
I mean I don't know how to replicate these expressions to post pictures to an AI or whatever

I will Google that term though, thank you

>>34548289
Literally fucking post your picture and ask it what you look like, then try to do 5% better, then try to do 5% better. You'll eventually be able to play your face like a piano.

>>34548289
Like imagine things that make you make faces, look in the mirror. Think of some of your own ideas. God fucking damn I feel bad for your boss, Howie.

>>34546223
I just saw the most beautiful girl in the elevator of my apartment building. I stepped in the elevator just after her but she looked annoyed I had stepped in so I just constantly kept saying sorry and then when the doors to my floor opened I just said have a good day! like I didn't just awkwardly apologize for my existance then I speed walked out the door.
:/
I'm never going to be in a relationship I guess... D:
I wish i had actually talked to her

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Part of me thinks she's just love bombing me and taking me because I am willing and able and one of the first to get my foot through the door.

The other part of me truly does wish to believe we are a match made in heaven.

>>34548277
Depends what models they are.
I can't shit on Subarus, my grandma drove them and loved them.

>>34548300
Chad would've farted

>>34548321
At least that would've been funny. I just let go of all my spaghetti.

you treat me like shit and all you can think about is how you love me way too much that it's torturing you. what the fuck am i supposed to do about it lmao

>>34547712
Fucking huffing cleaning chemicals is what the spic tards are doing. Genuinely hope they both burn in hell. Her and her jailed son. Go back to the slammer where you fucking belong

>>34548282
Nobody's gonna care about a failed class and a D+ after you graduate, man, least of all employers. But they will absolutely be put off by your attitude should you land an interview with them.
Believe me man I spiral about whether I'm a retarded fraud because I got a B despite totally shitting the bed on a final because the weighting was so easy, but at the end of the day we can't jump in a fucking time machine to 1970 to do all this shit "the real way". Try to focus on enjoying the content and learning as much as you can for its own sake and making connections.
The world legitimately cannot afford to lose people who ARE cut out for this (YOU) and have incompetent pajeets take those jobs and do that work instead. If you quit now the odds of a plane falling out of the sky in 5-10 years goes up

>>34548326
That's a weird contradiction.
How is he not your ex yet?
He sounds alcoholic.

>>34548332
Eh, I mean it's one thing when it's early classes but after doing this several times it increases the fraudness by several factors

>>34548269
Yes. But he can break any veil, you don't need to be Schizo.

are you there anon? it's me, God. i will send you a sign soon. you'll know it's for you when it happens

>>34548367
I will get no such thing.

>>34548367
Which anon are you refering to anon?

FORESHADOWING, BITCH

>>34548359
How is failing an objectively harder junior/senior level core EE class a bigger fraud indicator than failing calc 2 or something?
What tripped you up so badly in your Power Systems class, anyways? Purely curious as a fellow EE student. My school doesn't have any mandatory power classes and I'm probably gonna focus on signal processing shit

Stop kissing me on the cheek every time you see me faggot

>>34548367
aight

>>34548374
tiny hat problems require tiny mustache solutions

>>34548375
It was graded by Jeets which basically give zero partial credit, every exam question has like 5 parts and if you get one wrong you basically get all of them wrong. It was also the last final I took right after another final so I was fried. I got a 93 on the last test so I figured I was fine but I ended up getting a 12 kek.

>>34548382
I'm not gay, dude.

Everyone wants a revolution but we all forget what comes with that

>>34548389
Lmao I was worried you were gonna be like "fock dude I don't understand delta-wye bullshit". Having unnecessarily hard jeet profs doesn't make you a fraud. You clearly understand the material enough that you'll absolutely pass next time. There's an alternative timeline where you did the exact same things and passed because you had a white prof who used a reasonable curve. Just keep your head up dawg, when you graduate you will have an official "Inarguably not a retard in any sense of the word in any context" certificate and comfy upper-middle-class income for the rest of your life. WAGMI

good thing that was one of the last of the major commissions I wanted to do for a long time, and i don't think anything major will be needed for a while. i'm going to mostly let the bank build up with the next couple of paychecks.

i'm very glad i'm getting better hours again along with the better pay, should work wonders after a month or two.

>>34548414
I mean don't get me wrong, I'm a retard that knew fuck all in that class and the average was decent (73), but Jeets grade horribley

So, if you had a choice, would you want me to keep coming back to Earth? Or abandon humans for a good 100,000 years? Most votes will be my move.

>>34548442
It's hard to prep for shit like that. I assume since the average was ok the profs at least gave you past exams and whatnot to practice with. It really is just about getting as many 'reps' of those exact kinds of questions in as possible thru the semester. IMO a good professor is one who embeds that kind of practice into the course very frequently, sadly the vast majority cant be fucked to do that

>>34548455
If you're God give us some space to grow. Jeez. Lay off, old man.

>>34548487
Idk what will happen in those 100,000 years, so no. I am not The Creator, But I am the one who made the Earth.

Antionette you're going to make me kill myself. im still cursing myself over you. i hate you for being so pretty. i hate myself for not being interesting enough to entice you. im a failure.

It feels like every guy these days is a short bald bitch and it genuinely makes me want to kill myself

>>34547974
You are clearly not worth it. Every post I've seen you make is whiny.

>>34548000
Then don't say anything retard, by saying something you are showing that it is worth it for you to engage but you are too much of a pussy to be accountable for what you said.

>>34548602
You understand that tall people aren't the norm, right?

>>34548604
He's probably a short bald bitch

>>34548613
>NTA
You got a problem, vro?

>>34548611
So you're agreeing with me that every guy is a short bald bitch

>>34548367
>>34548455
God, if it's really you, please hear my prayer and stop making men short bald bitches

>>34548618
Okay? Why don't you go to the land of Jotunheim?
>>34548623
Then you'd want a 9 foot guy.

gn gioyc
i hope you get it off your chest this time for real

>>34548618
These "short bald bitches" can survive without their thirst being fulfilled like a cactus can without water. We don't need you and we don't care if you're hot. If you don't like us, you don't, simple as that. Go seek attention from it all you want, we're gonna keep playing Counter Strike and TF2 while sipping our MTN Dews in a goblet, because we enjoy life.

>>34548036
True, but this applies to guys too.
>I made him chase me forever and he lost interest and found someone else.
>How could this happen?

>>34548634
Sean don't do it you kind of have some things to live for still. At least you're not a short bald bitch right?

>>34548635
>We
No...no Zach don't tell me you're a short bald bitch too...

>>34548641
im just sleeping anon
i am short and bald
honestly i feel like that description is really bad on the internet world of checkboxes but honestly i think i might be a slightly above average male at a glance in person and i can beat up most guys
iunno, good insult, even defending myself makes me sound insecure doesn't it? well see ya later

can't believe the few men we have in these threads are revealing themselves to all be short bald bitches

>>34548646
>i am short and bald
SEAN IS BALD???

>>34548647
>the few men we have in these threads
This website is 99% men, /adv/ might have more women than other boards but I seriously doubt GIOYC is >10% women.

God, is this the sign you were warning me about? Are all the men left really short bald bitches? Should I kms? Send me another sign

>>34548648
short AND BALD

>>34548650
I would say /gioyc/ is 70% women and 30% short bald bitches but the board is 50/50

>>34548658
Ay, yo, gawd. Chill on the subs.

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>>34548654
here's your sign

short bald bitch with glasses = evil narc manipulator
short bald bitch with beard = violent bpd asshole

Know the difference. It could save your life one day.

>>34548664
Ay, yo. Chill tf out, I don't even know you.

>>34548664
>short bald bitch with glasses
always a skinny faggot
>short bald bitch with beard
always fat and smells bad

>>34548655
What the fuck. That's not how I pictured you at all

>>34548671
Idk you either.

>>34548662
Why does he roll the dung?

>>34548667
which one are you? get it off your chest

>>34548681
Chill, man, Idk you.

>>34548679
To flex his superiority over the frog aka short bald bitch

If you're depressed and you're a short bald bitch it's not because of anything other than being a short bald bitch. Just stop being a short bald bitch and you'll be happy

Imagine being an Anunnaki 'goddess' and being kicked out of your family.

>>34548675
I mean I wasn't always bald and might not be in the future. We'll see. I genuinely can beat up like 7/10 men and have a good shot against the 8th if that matters. Globally this number is even higher. Feels bad to be a disappointment THO ngl.

>>34548697
Idk how you do it, Sean. Idk how you do it.

>>34548697
a short bald bitch beating people up is scary

alright whatever guys gn

>>34548697
>might not be in the future
You can grow it back?

I still have feelings for him. Help.

>>34548705
Goodnight, you.

>>34548708
Is he a short bald bitch?

>>34548708
Just call him a short bald bitch all day until you hate him.

>>34548710
No

>>34548708
Does he talk to you?

>>34548714
Can I talk to him

>>34548707
We'll see.

>>34548716
Yes is this an interview?
>>34548718
Are you gonna call him a short bald bitch?

>>34548724
No I just never met a man who wasn't a short bald bitch

>>34548724
>Is this an interview?
No, was going to ask what's stopping you from being together. If he's not single understandable, you just have to accept that's a closed door and it's a waste of time to keep fantasizing about it, but if he's single and you're on speaking terms, you could always reach out yourself.

Oh. Nah.

>>34548724
Yes

I had to close Final Draft because it's pissing me off that I don't want to write.

>>34548634
goodnight sean, maybe one day

>>34548733
It's a closed door for a lot of reasons. Yearning hurts like a bitch though. Next life.

>>34548754
yearning hurts like a short bald bitch

>>34548754
>Next life
Even thinking that way is bad for you - you'll never truly get over him as long as you're fantasizing about some way to be with him. There's plenty of love, possibly better love, that'll pass you by if you keep your heart closed because you lie to yourself thinking there's got to be some way (back?) into his life. Letting go hurts and it's not easy, but letting go of an impossibility is way better than letting go of reality because you can't get over him.

>>34548754
>>34548790
Also I'm assuming the impossibility is because he's not single or even married. If he's just an ex, he's single, he still talks to you, and he hasn't outright said "no," you could still reach out. Not that reaching out to an ex is always a good idea either, but if you reach out and he shoots you down, at least it gives you a chance to move on. But I'm assuming the closed door is far more serious based on your post, and if that's the case, you only have one choice.

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Enjoying life.

And still not a libtard.

Looking for an Oshin, deeper than the Deep Blue
I'm dead enough to reap you, but I want to keep you

How do I reconcile the fact that I hate people with autism, and myself for having autism, with the fact that some of my friends have autism? I want to hurt them for being subhuman retards just like I hurt myself, but at the same time I can't bring myself to really hate them. I feel like its my duty to make up for my autism by hurting other autistic, because I have no other way to apologize for existing.

>>34548900
no one likes autists even other autists

I don't like autists because they're bullies more often than they are victims.

Fuck autists

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>>34548900
>Hates people because his privileged peace and quiet got slightly threatened by a little bit of impatience.
>MFW smartasses like this have the most retarded form of patience in the world.

>>34548905
I don't like people who always look for enemies to have antagonists in their selfish auto-biography.

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>>34548908
Cool go haze it to the max. See how I give a fuck. Tell me if you're such a saint what do you do for people besides look at how your life is diabolically torture and the giga-chads and stacies don't try to b- Sorry hold on GIGA-SMART CHADS don't try to be your friend? What a selfish desire. Wanting to be smart at the expense of having to enjoy life and enjoy your peers who would love to be around you, but frankly your auto-biography of how tortured you are and the hipsters who cheer you on is more important.

Man, thank God I stop giving a fuck to lame-ass hipsters who find the negative in things. Yeah and your anime influenced art is gay.

Being autistic is awesome.

>>34548613
I think he's tall, uggo with a small penis

Really destructive habit (voyeurism) of recording my neighbors fucking (which they do quite frequently and carelessly moaning loud enough for me and others in the building being able to hear these clowns at work) be it by sound or video (don’t ask about the video part). This shit is messing with my job, my girlfriend, my life. Anyone been through the same and managed to stop? If so, do tell because I do sincerely want to quit being obsessed with whether or not these two strangers are doing it or not.

I'm not your mentor, you wont fix me, you shouldn't copy any of my mannerisms, pyour family issues wont get resolved by making me your pet project, I'm not the one that got away, I'm not the potential father your son needs, I dont possess the BWC you are craving for. Leave me the fucking fuck alone.

>>34548904
From Uranus.

>>34548790
>>34548807
Thanks for taking the time to write all that. I don't know what to say.

Don't mess with my girl
I'ma be the one to bring it to ya...

>>34549006
Don't mention it, I hope you're able to find peace.

Also know that baggage and regrets are totally normal - everyone's got some - but dwelling on the past always leads to missing out on the present. Closed doors suck, but there's a lot of joy in taking open doors and seeing where they lead. Some of them are bound to lead to an even better place, but you've got to stop imagining paths to places that don't exist to fully appreciate that.

>>34546665
Ok and I can't seem to help myself due to my mental illness. I've tried self-help books, exercise, diet, sleep changes, hobbies, etc. Then I try to go to mental health professionals to get their assistance for 15 years and nothing helped. It's just constant cycles of failure and going nowhere because I can't function like a normal person and they can't seem to help me. The last psych I talked to told me I should check myself into a psych ward again but I don't want to go back. I'm just frustrated because I'm almost 40 at this point and I'm still a mentally ill mess from 20 years ago. The urge to kill myself gets stronger every year as I truly feel hopeless

>>34548939
Neighbor is a virgin. You are just mentally ill

I want to suck on big tits
I want my gf to suck my dick

>>34548939
You gotta move man
t. masturbated every time I heard my neighbors fucking

34548610
Damn, I got 2 in a row.
I really must live rent free.

>>34546223
>>34546223
So is this is? I'm single forever. I'm poor forever. My pets are dead. Millions of my shit is stolen. Now I just get sick a lot and watch my parents move slower and slower. Dad is the same belligerent ass he always is and Mom I think is fully depressed. Every doctor I run into is just helping the sociopaths that have stalked me for 30+ years.

Why did you stop me from killing myself so many times if all that life was going to be was continuous torture?

When does this end? Why does it have to end like this?

Good morning all short bald bitches

>>34548740
gm

Yeah you are bleeding and it is a bit unfortunate that some maniac took a stab at you. It's still no excuse to interrupt my inner monologue you inconsiderate cunt.

i wanna have a wank but my parents are home and I have a driving lesson in half an hour god damn it

yes I am old enough to post here

you had your chance and you blew it

Good morning to all blood thirsty murderous drug addicts

I find it difficult to stomach a lot of media centered around suicide. Not because of PTSD or anything, it's just... so many people in them still have a way better support network and life situation than I do, and it's painted as this great oppressive thing, and I see people talking about how difficult it must be, when all I see is ungrateful little shits that actively burn down bridges other people keep trying to rebuild.
If that's supposed to be difficult, how the fuck am I expected to manage this for much longer?

>>34549328
Don't watch media that makes you feel bad. Plan, Act, Reoptimize, Plan, Act...

>>34549328
>media centered around suicide
I can't name a single one

Thinking back to the driving test, it's actually the opposite of safety to mandate using your turn signal 100 feet ahead no matter what. No one does that when there are no cars behind you and there are still two turns between you and your turn and there are cars waiting there that might pull out in front of you because that signal was too early.
When I took my driving test, I was driving with a permit longer than most. My advice to teenagers is to go take the test as quick as possible, or you'll get too used to common sense driving and find it harder to follow the autistically procedural driving test.

>>34549308
i did

Which one of you tried to access my insta at 7:15?

Good morning to all psychotic pathological liars who never matured passed kindergarten

future ex-wife was here last week for our son's birthday, what a weird feeling that was. spent the whole time in a whirlwind of activity - cooking for the boys, cleaning, doing their laundry (i can take care of myself just fine and they are leaning the ropes). her life in cali is very hard and shes making next to no money and spending most of it for basic living expenses. shouldn't have asked for a divorce on christmas morning you bitch, there's no going back now

>>34549365
past*

>>34549397
Ty

>>34549410
I'm sorry and you're welcome also.

All I have ever wanted was to do good, love and be loved, enjoy my life and develop a fun and kind personality. Realistically, I know none of that will ever happen. I still die sad and alone, always waiting to fall in love. I feel sick :/

>>34549552
Same :/

>>34546271
>>34546657
Bros I'm in the same spot. I'm really mad at myself for still allowing this girl and her bullshit to have any power over me.

>>34546824
31. Had a shroom trip at the age of 28 and realized my youth was over and am now kind of accepting it. I still feel like my late teens/early 20s but know those days are long gone. Literally. The world I grew up in even 6+ years ago is fucking gone and my type of mindset is no longer welcomed in any way. That is to say: optimistic, hopeful for the future, looking for actual solutions. I quit a good paying job 1.5 years ago and have lived off saving and debate whether to find something new/go back to old industries knowing I will never achieve what I want or if I just enjoy the money that remains until the money runs out and I kill myself. I honestly prefer the second option as I have no idea how I'm gonna do this for another 35 years until retirement assuming that's even an option for our generation. I had my fun and rock and rolled in my 20s, got my stories, but I really don't care to go on knowing there's nothing similar to that.

Ok, that's some actual bullshit.

Alright, I think I accepted I am likely dying alone AND I'm going to try to date out of my league anyway.

i have to see Antionette again tomorrow. I'm going to fucking hate myself so much.

>>34549828
same, im going to chase beautiful redheads even though none of them will ever touch me

How do I stop being depressed about tfw no gf? I have more things to worry about than a girlfriend.

>>34549895
No you dont.

>>34549898
Yes I do. I work a shit job, I drive a shit car, I live with my shit dad. Everything is shitty shit shit

>>34549905
you're gonna have to fix all that shit if you want a gf.

>>34549941
Is that Hollywood trope still being thrown around unironically? Literally all you need to do is keep trying your luck with different girls until you either find one that’s at the very least mildly sane and presentable to your friends and family and sometimes look doable enough - or better yet keep trying your luck and then realize what an incredibly dumb concept dating and marriage is for a man and just collect experiences until you’re old enough to either be able to afford to pay some twenty year old student with a lot of loans to squeeze you dry or just stay broke and alone forever, but at least you’ll have the memories and story of what it felt like being a free man

Wish it was mine, but it's his
You want someone else, that's just what it is

I went to church and light a candle and asked god to help me with my looming financial troubles and now a week later I got 1k from a charity that I don't have to pay back. God is truly great.

>>34550093
That's awesome. What is the name of the God you prayed to?

>>34550142
It was a catholic church, so whatever you'd want to call that god other than god.

It's been 7 months and I still miss the shit out of her. Wtf is wrong with me. I know I fucked up and maybe things will never work, but I still wanted to try. Did you think of me on your birthday..

>>34550205
Takes like two years for men

>>34549282
gm

I think she burned me out. I'm tired of her cadence. I get it, that's how she shows affection, and that's how she wants me to show affection, but I just can't do it anymore.

>>34550205
>>34550217
its been 13 years for me and i still think about her daily

I told my best friend I'm on the right path and making the right choices now, but I'm not

>>34550278
It takes 2 to tango