>be a suicidal wreck a year ago>hate myself for being generally unlikable and awkward>social faux pa makes me evil>i cost too much to not always be happy>learn about radioactivity>the worst most destructive force known to man>melts you slowly>learn about unabomber manifesto>manmade horrors beyond conception>broke up with gf in manic state>fugue state>disassemble smoke detector for nuclear button>common manamade horror >ground into dust>inhale>no effect at first>like a cigarette>over two weeks lungs get so bad>can barely prevent myself from telling>gets worse and worse every day>hurts so fucking bad>one day I wake up fine>like it never happened>a year goes by>chest gets slowly tighter and tighter>starts to hurt>can't breathe right>now I can't sleep either>get xrays>don't tell them>they say I'm anxious and send me home>give me potassium>doesn't help>didn't tell them the truth>cant tell anyone because they might take away my right to make medical choices>dont wanna die anymore>i taste metalwhat do I do? should I tell someone, or maybe this will go away again? I don't want my family in medical debt
>>34592930You should tell a doctor, but lie about the circumstances under which you inhaled it. Here is some health info: https://www.epa.gov/radiation/radionuclide-basics-americium-241
Okay not that this isn't solid advice, but does anyone have any ideas as to what lie I am supposed to use? I'm a neet, I can't just claim I was in an industrial accident. Also I'm well aware of the health effects, that's why I did it. It's just been enough time now that I wish I hadn't. Really thought my lungs would just be healed by now if I didn't die back then. How do I explain to a doctor that my lungs are possibly radioactive alpha-emitters? I have a doctors appointment in about 2 hours.
>>34592930You are already dead, moron.
>>34594465If that's true, then I guess my new question is whether I should see a doctor or just find a less suffocate-y way out of this. I really wanted to outlive my cat at least. Maybe at least I can spare my family the pain of watching me experience my half-life
>>34594490Yes, see a fucking doctor.
>>34592930>Faux paYou Amerimutts SUCKYou will never know cheap and high quality healthcare, you will never know a high trust society, you will never experience a homogenous society, you will never experience being able to be stupid without being afraid of getting shot.You suckYour lack of cultureYour consumerismYour lack of identity What a sad excuse for a country.Luckily you keep the world safe, so at least there's that. But generally you guys suck. Still better than 90% of the world, but you suck. I am from the beautiful and civilized Netherlands, you cannot say shit.
>>34594501Agreed. Being an American in the 20th century is one of the big reasons I did this. There's nobility in dying from natural disease or even having the healthcare be accessible enough to prevent it. There's a horrible irony in poisoning yourself with the worst substance known to man that happens to be named after my country simply because I had so much lying around.
Update for those interested:I couldn't wait for my urgent care appointment so I went to ER. My heartrate was 150. Doctor said that whatever radioactive materials were inside me have all since dissolved and are chemically non-existent. No clue if that's true, but I frankly doubt it. Does anyone know if metal dust stays inside forever, or would Titatium/Americium just dissolve like tylenol? Apparently I was right when I thought I'd be fine once I stopped hurting the first time. Doc said he has no idea what's wrong with me but lowered my heartrate and sent me on my way. My potassium was still low but he said it's not related. I have to make some appointments but it sounds like it might be about 3 months before I can see someone about it. ER said if I'm about to die I can come back. Not sure if or when that will be. X-rays, EKG, etc show I'm otherwise unremarkable but my heartrate is way too fast even at resting position and that there's no cause. I was very honest with the doctors, and nobody stuck me in a white padded room because it's been over three months since the event. God Bless America.
