how do i harness the energy i create as a demented pervert to improve my life and be healthier? i have a massive creative force and my greatest joy in life so far has been writing smut and ERPing with friends. i never get tired of it, i'm told i'm really good at it, and i feel genuine full-bodied happiness when i write my freak shit. all of this is compressed into a private side of me i only let out at night or some days when i got nothing going on and i let myself go wild.none of my friends or family or coworkers would ever suspect this of me. i'm borderline asexual in behavior. i have never successfully recognized someone flirting with me in real life, and a few times that i've tested the waters with people i might like they kinda implied i was like a little sister. i'm generally funny and outgoing but so emotionally detatched from things moment to moment that i feel handicapped. i have trouble keeping up with laundry, eating, brushing my teeth. i shower every day and take care of my hair, thats about it. i space out a lot, people joke that i'm airheaded or a bimbo, or just call me stupid. i'm not. i just don't seem to retain most of the stuff normal people talk about. it is completely worthless to me so i don't keep it. i have no control over this.anyway my executive function SUCKS and i'm going nowhere fast. im working and saving and i have online friends but how can i improve my life just on my own? take care of myself, eat more, maybe exercise, want to meet people irl? specifically using the only engine i have that works. being a degenerate. it's where all my passion comes from, without it i really have nothing. it's not just dopamine from orgasm, i feel this way no hands involved. it's a genuine hobby whether or not i'm getting off.does anyone relate, is there any advice out there? i'm 23 and i'm making just enough money to cover my bills give or take like $100 and i am not whoring out. what else.
>i have trouble keeping up with laundry, eating, brushing my teethPut your own carrot on a stick. Make yourself unable to enjoy what you want unless everything is in order.
>>34902576>>34902648Have you seen this?
>>34902576make real art
>>34902576also hang out with me you can be my little sister
