I feel like such a creep, I'm not ugly or gross looking but the thought of complementing a child feels so gross to me.
Say this because I saw a girl no older than 10 maybe 11 in this violet/pink hued jacket, covered her head with the hood but she had hair that was naturally close to peroxide blonde with the haircut itself being long but sharp edged.
I don't know how else to say she looked cute as she did cool. Wish I could draw it out

On my first date with this latina I never once thought "in about 3 weeks this chick will be eating my ass daily", but here we are.

I wish I could rewire my feelings sometimes.

There are quite a few girls I can feel instantly attracted to, I do not have any certain type. After hanging out and watching how they act a few times, the rate at which I lose interest is 100%. I simply can not stand how the women (at least the ones I am interested in) all act. It drives me up a wall with how juvenile and self absorbed they are, in every occasion, not just on some occasions.

I am not lying when I say this is a huge reason why I have never dated anyone, even before it gets to that point I get the ick and completely disengage from them. I have never gotten to know someone and became more interested in them, over time. It's always the opposite.

Is this normal?? At some point it has to be me, my mindset, something I need to change, but I dont know how to do that. I really wish I could let it go and accept things as they are. Hopefully someone can relate.

>>34924936
jealous, would kill to get that. whats it feel like?

Yeah I don’t feel bad that your life was aimless and you wanted me to derail my own life to be with you. asking me “imagine choosing your career over a relationship” like imagine being a pathetic nothing and wanting me to stagnate and rot with you. Then telling me you wanted to kill yourself when you were with me? Be so fucking for real. And the best part was you taking another toxic person out of my life. I felt hurt at first but in the end after clarity it was for the best that you gravitated towards a narcissistic compulsive liar. Thanks for removing both of yourselves from my life. I prioritized myself over dead weight and now my life is infinitely better than when you had a pathetic tantrum and called the police over old dusty church clothes in a garbage bag. The police officer apologized for your stupid inconvenience to me as well lmao. You were a stepping stone and a lesson for me, thank god you’re gone.

>>34924873
It turns out that i am a male attention whore. I admit it.

>>34924936
Do you have a bubble butt as a guy? I love a guy with a big butt

I've been feeling like I just don't get anywhere lately.

I have a nice family supporting me, a few friends to hangout once or twice per month and I'm about to get my compsci degree(lol), but its just being such a drag, nothing feels really rewarding or excites me for the future.
I tried hobby-hopping(cooking, spoon carving, games, animes, movies, reading, drawing and others) and it does lighten life a bit, but I still just feel like a drag.

Idk, should it be like this?

it's over.

We're so back

>>34925130
no, we're not.

I liked talking to someone. Now it's all about them and their bf all the time. Tired of hearing about it. Just makes me angry especially as the bf is always around her. Why wasn't it me who got to go to her house? It could have been me staying over all the damn time. It's not fucking fair. I got my hopes up too much over escaping the KHHV cycle only to get hurt. I don't know what I should have said or done before this guy slid in so well. So fucking frustrating. Makes me so miserable lying in this bed myself when I should have been with that fucking girl.

Feel guilty, I'm doing an "Amazon swap" even though it is the exact same product, I didn't want to bother RMAing a Chinese mouse when I know QC can be so hit or miss.

Goon all day, hit two energy drinks, gee why am I on the verge of a panic attack? :3

You know what? You are not the only one who feels like a loser. If you are in a first world country and am a loser, that beats being in a third world country in a sweatshop not even being able to play games or look at hot women due to being forced to make fucking appliances in toxic conditions. At least you got the joy of an education, being able to know how read and write. They never get that joy and am literal slaves.

Went on a date with a girl who was kinda above my league (she does modelling) and it started very nice but she is distant now. What could i expect as a 5.5/10 male trying to date an 8/10? It's over bros

tried too hard to be interesting and now a gal i just want to be friends with thinks i’m a creep

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>>34925302
That... is a fair point

>>34925329
This one is easy, stop giving her the time of day and dont talk to her unless she talks to you first, if she approaches you on the topic you can bring it up otherwise keep focusing on you playa

>>34925193
You're probably taking things too slowly or giving her the vibe that you're okay with friendship. If you make it clear you won't settle for friendship and she values your attention to any degree, she'll escalate along with you. Anyway move on and find someone else to pine over.

That server is full of Geriatric retards and clowns

>>34925386
it’s really not that simple. i don’t have a lot of friends and she was one of two people who actually initiated conversations with me. i’m giving her space now, because obviously, after clearing the air to the best of my ability. but this modern isolation bullshit is already killing me.

I need help with my burrito game. I really like them, but I'm terrible at portioning the ingredients out so that it wraps well, specifically the condiments like sour cream, salsa and guacamole. When it's wrapped and done, it's like all of that stuff gets smooshed to one side of the burrito so I get nothing but bites of condiments with tortilla half the time. I guess maybe I should put them on the tortilla first and spread them evenly across.

Then wrapping them is something I try to do in private because of the shame. It never looks right and one end is always looser than the other. I fold in half first like a canoe, then I fold the ends in, in a vain effort to keep the fillings inside, and roll it like a sleeping bag. It works well enough because im just going to stuff it down my throat anyway. I get that people grill them closed, but I dont want to.go through all that effort. I just want it to hold closed without needing extra steps.

>>34925459
Why be part of it then? You like it right?

I do not like people. Always imposing themselves on you, always telling you to do something that pleases others at the cost of your own wellbeing. Always forced to be around nasty people. Forced to "make nice" to them, despite their behavior. Get the fuck away from me. I hate that we're moving closer to them. I hate that I don't get a say. Just suck it up. Swallow your rage, hurt, swallow the disrespect they spit at you, and smile while doing it.

Stupid fucking cage
Dare you to stick your hands in
I fucking hate you all

>>34925497
Who is forcing you to be around them?

"family" is nothing but a word used to manipulate and shackle you to people who will only pretend to like or care for you if you're subservient to them

>>34925503
The only person I did choose.

>>34925507
Uhhh…okay…?

i guess even that extremely clingy person is over me. im so fucking single lmao

>>34925552
sorry

>>34925552
I'm extremely clingy and I'm desperately struggling to get over her, so maybe your extremely clingy person is also just faking it.

>>34925559
its fine i just need to find someone else to feed me with attention at no benefit

>>34925565
nah they genuinely seem disinterested now. they should have been much earlier though, objectively.

>>34925570
You sure? I unfollowed her everywhere we were connected but I've still been checking up on her every day despite telling myself I shouldn't. Not that I'm recommending playing with an extremely clingy person's feelings, but the only way to know for sure is if you reach out and get ghosted.

>>34925576
i wont reach out, that would be an asshole move on my part since i dont have intentions of ending up in a relationship with them. was just lamenting my singleness in a larger sense. its fine.

>>34925585
You do you. Just know it's better being single than in a relationship with someone you're settling with or someone toxic.

>>34925585
are you sure they’re only interested in a relationship? i’ve personally (recently, even) been in situations where i wind up clingy toward someone i don’t really want to date just because i like them a lot as a friend and want to hang out with them
if this person really does want to be in a relationship with you, i’d wager they would be happier as friends than not having you around at all

>>34925328
Of and that is just prostitution, plus look at her butt, is it flat? If yes then she very much a lower number.

>>34925661
>happier as friends
Nah, absolutely not.

>>34925715
maybe i’m weird for this but i wouldn’t want to date a gal i’m not able to be friends with
i know this is the being sad and bitter about being single board but i would rather have friends and no gf than no friends and no gf

>>34925733
desu this is actually a very healthy mentality to have

The trainer at my gym is really cute

Silly me taking your asking how I am as genuine

>>34925431
I hindsight I realized that I did take it too slow and effectively ended up being friendzoned. It's just so unfortunate. I'm too much of a bottled person to have asked for more, I wanted to let it develop. In fairness her bf isn't a bad person and I can understand why they both got together and I don't wish ill on them, I'm just more annoyed that I never got to do that opportunity. Just so pissed off hearing that he's always at her house when that could have been me instead. Like it's not just about the fucking and all that, it's all about the company together. I just don't know what he offered more than me.

>>34925827
I'm a take it slow person myself so I don't blame you. Everyone moves at a different pace though, and unfortunately you've got to hope the other person wants to move at the same pace as you. It's not necessarily that he offers something you don't, there are so many variables in dating you can't control. Shit happens.

Once again, though, you've got to move on because pining over a taken woman is a terrible idea that only leads to pain and will keep you from rebuilding. Even if they break up in the future, if you've just been sobbing about this for months, she's not going to give you another chance. Build yourself up, date other women, give yourself a chance to find someone who's a better fit for you. Maybe the timing lines up again in the future and she'll see you having grown from who you were before, but I wouldn't entertain that thought honestly. Give yourself a little time to heal, but then get back out there and try finding someone else.

>>34925567
then i take it back

It doesn't matter it doesn't matter it doesn't matter I don't matter

>>34925733
Yeah thats dating her as well as being friends.

Being just friends is cucked. F that

>>34925854
what doesn't matter?

>>34925827
Took it at the right speed. Needed to wait for her summer break in a couple weeks. Thats not my issue. I was working around her stuff. If it was up to me id say skip the other stuff and come over.

i really can’t stand the person ive become or rather the lack of a person ive become
i feel like relapsing and if i wasnt so busy i probably would

>>34925827
He doesnt. If its who i think, he caused her to develop mental illnesses and cut. Her life is significantly worse ever since she's been with him

>>34925839
Not following your manipulative advice just so she doesnt me so looking out the window for me and you trap her like I abandoned her. Nah ill keep going for her.

>slept in late
>woke up tired
I hate menstruation so fucking much

Ive worked my whole life since i was 18 and work my ass off to barely scrape by. (I make 28 an hour). Ivw been saving to get my car and only have enough to eat. My sister is somehow magically pulling money out of nowhere. Shes only worked like 3 or 4 jobs since she was 18 n shes now 30. The thing is shes only lasted at those jobs for a few weeks/fired/quit. She doesnt drive. No car. No licesnse. She has 2 children who she ALWAYS leaves at home while she goes out and comes back late or next day. If you ask her where shes going she gets upset and defensive starts crying/yelling until my mom or dad walk in n tell me to leave her alone. And so the question is never answered. Same thing happens when i ask her where she gets money to go shopping everyday and order expensive things online or buy stuff vet bills for her 3 dogs. She says "from the times i worked i saved" which is a fat LIE theres no way she saved that much money from working at a warehouse for 2 weeks. Which was a year ago!. Now she saying shes looking at cars to buy! HOW?? she even took a vacation with a "friend" but didnt tell anyone where she was or prove where she was. When i ask my siiblings or parents they all say "i dont know". I can tell theyre lying im not stupid.
I just like to know how someone can afford new phones, games, tvs, clothes, computers, vacations and now a possible car by working in a warehouse for 2 weeks getting paid minimum wage? Am i crazy to want to know/curious??
Because my family are all telling me they dont know and im a crazy psychopath just for wanting the truth. Id like to learn her secret since im struggling financially.
She also leaves the house like 5 times a day and each time she's gone for like 10-25mins each then comes back home and leaves again
So what is she doing?
How is she getting all this money??

>>34925504
being respectful to your blood is not being a servant to them

>>34924873
Op sucks niggger dick

>>34925895
Sex work, duh

>>34925859
i think you have a victim mentality, anon

>>34925895
Either whoring, dating for money, or family gives her cash because girl. Leave home because of lack of honesty. Dont even say why you are leaving. Say you wanna go bird watching thats why. If they cant be straight leave and dont go back retard.

i can make peace with being ugly, inside and out if im on my own but the second i start a connection with someone it becomes unbearable and it ruins everything until ive managed to isolate myself back on my own which then the loneliness starts to hits, its a terrible cycle and i want out but im too gross to be salvageable. i feel like im doomed to be alone forever.

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Everything else becomes evermore futile and this becomes evermore impossible to refute.

>>34925839
The thing that gets me is I thought she was a good fit and we were having good conversations on text, I just don't know why she didn't even approach the subject. I know, I should have asked, but I'm too much of a fucking coward. If she was up for more I'd have been straight in there. I just don't get it...

I hope they die. What a gift that would be.

>>34925944
Women are way more terrified of rejection than men so they usually won't initiate even if they are interested. Did you ever ask her out or did you only ever text her? Rather than probe for interest until you have guaranteed signs, you're better off just asking for one on one in person time (i.e. a date) and getting your yes or no right away.

You are with the wrong person. You know they don't care about you for anything but sex. You know it's a situationship. You know it'll end in pain for you. You deserve better.

I keep getting ads for boner pills. I block the ads but it doesn't seem to do much. Now I'm just getting boner pill ads made by different companies. I dont even have sex, I don't want boner pills.

I'm severely mentally ill, and I don't know how much of this is caused by trauma and how much is caused by my life being absolute shit. I hope that things will get better for me in the future, but I kinda don't think that will ever happen. There's a horrible deadlock between me being a NEET, mentally ill, and a virgin where something needs to give for things to get better, but nothing ever seems to. I can't keep living like this, but I'm too young to really think about dying.

Feeling borderline hystrionic, need some sleep got a medical exam and I decided it'd be a good idea to basically hook myself into the EU4 heroin
>>34926028
Have you considered doing the exact opposite of what you're currently doing?
Sounds like a joke but I've been having those thoughts recently.

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>have to tell the priest i jerked off again.
6 days... i lasted 6 days... that's just so fucking pathetic.

>>34926118
Do Catholics really? Priests must spend like hours a day hearing about masturbation, no wonder they become psychosexually obsessed with pubescent boys

>>34925260
Babababababa

>>34926132
>Priests must spend like hours a day hearing about masturbation.
that's something i also wonder about but have in mind there are lots of other sins to confess. disrespecting your parents. offeding internet strangers. being a lazy pos. having a gambling addiction. fighting with friends over dumb stuff and not trying to make up. my INNER HATRED AND ENVY of happy normies. et cetera et cetera.
>no wonder they become psychosexually obsessed with pubescent boys
you're sick in the head. imagine your kid tells you he's struggling with porn. you're not going to be a perv about it, are you?

What are you supposed to say when an interviewer asks you why you want that particular job? I'm trying to make bread nigga, what are you doing here?
>>34926080
I'm currently running for office, I've made a bit of progress on dating, and I'm down 30 pounds from 2 years ago, so it's not like I'm not doing good things. The problem is that I never feel any form of payoff. I'm the underdog for the upcoming election, I haven't managed to secure a single date in the past year, and I'm still considered clinically obese despite my weight loss. If something just gets really good, everything else should follow, but good things don't seem to ever happen.

>>34926153
>I'm currently running for office
I don't mean this to be funny with you Anon, for your sake I hope you lose the race.
The absolute freaks that inhabit the modern political arena should be feared and rightly so.
Everyone in Western politics bums each other and that's not a joke.

>>34926153
Let me rephrase that,
I'm glad you're losing the weight, but I would literally do anything and everything in my power to avoid being in the political space ESPECIALLY knowing the people who run in the circles in them in the USA and UK.
I don't want you to get your bum hole ticked by Peter Thiel or your designated AIPAC/Friends of Israel handler.

sisters acting SUS
I went to my sister's house because our other sisters bday day is that day. problem is my sister (who's bday it is) told me my enemy was over (he's my brother in-laws brother and has a history of trying to fk my sister to get back at me) the night b4. But the night b4 nobody was home only my sister. she said he randomly came over with his very fat GF and that they were just "chilling". Then she dragged my older sister into the conversation to tell me an obvious B.S story about his fat GF. I became very suspicious in the fact our sister n bro inlaw were gone that night. also after our conversation, our sister (who's day it is) started texting and then isolated herself from everyone and then just stopped talking. even days after she would get angry if u asked a simple question about anything. Funny part is she knows me n him don't get a long. she says "I don't give a fk about him I don't care about him" (which is very weird n suspicious thing to say) yet she has him as a friend on social media and like each other's pictures. she got passed when I confronted her. n ghosted me.
WTF is going on?

>>34926314
>>34926319
1) You spend too much time on /pol/
2) I'm running for a minor office, although I do intend to go federal one day
3) I don't live in the USA or UK

>>34926358
also
i found out where he's staying
im going to fuck his ass up so bad nobody will recognize him. I might kill him if I lose control

>>34926360
I don't go on /pol/ I looked into the abyss of irl politics and thought I should do literally anything else
>Federal
Germany isn't exactly different

>>34926358
You you write this out in English instead of whatever ebonics you've got going on

Need to get a new GF, or my old one back
Want to go head first into some pussy
Love giving head

I feel very alone at work, in my free time and in my life. I tried my best.

>>34926363
>>34926358
Shieeeeet

i made a girl orgasm explicitly against her will once

she lived with me for the entire rest of the school year

for the whole summer i've been trying to go on a multi-day hiking trip. it's just not possible. any of the people that would go with me, constantly have plans, are constantly out of town and make other plans, while i've been trying for more than a month to organize a single trip. it's just so frustrating. i really need to get out of town and it's not happening...

>>34926549
>organize
Do you need to organize a walk?

>>34926558
yes

Hate you, hate that I’m not over you

I miss her

>>34926549
just go for a day, alone

>>34926589
i am already spending most of my days alone. i can do that any time. it's not the same.

Its says you are married so unless that changes...

>>34926621
Where does it say I'm married?

Battling lust and it's hitting hard rn. Well I guess I only got till Sunday to hold out. Day at a time.

>>34926153
Based. More people need to be politically engaged

I am living with the worst examples of men, holy shit I need to get out of here.
People like these don't need to breed, thank God they don't.

I shouldn't have treated you like that. I fucked up one of the closest friendships I ever had by treating you the way I did. I can't believe you're still willing to talk to me on occasion, even if we don't talk nearly as much as we used to.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IlFw1la1NU

This bitch had the audacity to tell me "she never intended to hurt me the way she thinks she did" after treating me like trash, discarding me, fucking another guy a day after and then laughing about it.
I was feeling sorry for her the other day, cuz I only saw her apology a month later, turns out she split on her friend too, crazy ass BPD hoe.
Thinks I'm gonna orbit her, be her emotional tampon while some other dude fucks her, no thanks.

>>34926132
Cult of Shame & Self-flagellation

working in a bank is awful becuse writing 1 letter wrong 2 weeks ago makes me feel so much stress now I feel like I got run over by a car
stomach hurts, throat hurts, head hurts
I wish I was hit by a car instead of making that mistake
I hate office work I was obviously meant to plow fields

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>I'm almost 30 now
>every time my mom gets me a gift, its clothing
>sounds fine but i've told her three times now "I don't want clothing, stop getting me clothing."
>I always put a lot of thought into my gifts, often they're personalized and tailored to them (for example, my mom likes gardening so i got her a two-tiered potter)
>she usually treats it with humor (even though i'm not laughing) and finally I just told her "any clothing i get from now on is going to a donation box"
>gets all salty and pouty about it

Why are boomers such fucking retards dude? I go out of me fucking way to get a present i know is centered around your hobbies and interests and something that will last. So your response is to get what is essentially a participation trophy gift. You tried. You might say i'm the rude one here, but try getting three gifts you said in plain english you didn't want from someone who is supposed to really care about you and tell me how you feel afterwards. It really starts to eat at you after a while because all i can get from that is she either doesn't give enough of a shit to get me things i would like or she resents me and is doing this out of spite. My dad, meanwhile, always gives great gifts. Even if I don't use them, his heart is always in it and for me that's what counts. Getting me a fucking lame shirt that cost 15$ is not from the heart, it's you not caring enough to think about what i'd like. Boomers really do resent their kids, fucking serious.

>>34926937
A gift is a gift she's not giving you a bomb or anything. That's like complaining about how much you get in tips.
Just tell her your tastes in clothing.

>>34926949
I enough clothes already (and I've said this before, my wardrobe is perfectly stocked and has enough verity. I'm not a woman so I don't need three closets worth, one is plenty). The thing is is that it isn't a gift. A gift shows you're thinking about a person and what they want. The price isn't important, the thought is. A shirt tells me "well I had to get you something or I'd look bad so how about this." That's not a gift at all, at least not to my idea of a gift. I don't give people things unless I'm truly thinking about them and my dad is the exact same way. I'd take a 2$ meaningful gift over a 1k throwaway gift every time.

I'm so irritable and it pisses off and annoys my family, but I don't feel sincere if my manner of speaking doesn't come off that way in certain situations. They assume me to be angered when I'm not, and they mistake my character at times. I don't want to be an asswipe, but when a hospital gives me 2 papers with completely contradictory information and my family completely missunderstands me I'm not going to stretch a fake smile accross my face and try to be cordial. I'd like to try not to be irritable and pissy, pray for me I guess.

I want to start over with you more than anything in the world. But I'm too far away now, and I can't put my life on pause until that chance comes again. This doesn't mean I don't love you, or that I lied about any of the praise I've sent your way. And I hope my recent actions don't seem like I hate you or that I've abandoned you. But I can't wait forever, even if the payout is spending time with someone I feel I was fated to be with. If we really were destined to meet, fate will bring us back together.

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LIFE PLAN! get fit, learn to draw again, murder father & dogs, deport moms, and marry sister. Thoughts?

>>34927208
r u rtrdd nggr btch

Praying for my little nephew to feel better soon.

>>34927264
Your nephew's in my prayers too, anon!

>>34927272
Thank you anon.

My life is a life of pain
PAIN
AAAAAAUUUUYYUYGGGGGHHHH

I know you're out there

>>34927371
Yeah and I fucking hate it here.
Not this website, no, this is a decent echo chamber.
I just mean this workplace, while I'm sick as a dog, having to put up with every freak I thought I'd never deal with, not being at my real workplace, etc etc

I'm actively trying to get something better at this point, as this shit isn't what I signed up for. Although I laugh that I make at least 4 bucks more than the other people, meh, this work isn't substantial or worth my time.

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>Why do you want to work here, anon?
BECAUSE I WANT MONEY, YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHY DO YOU WANT TO BUY MY LABOUR? BECAUSE YOU THINK IT WILL MAKE YOU MONEY. MAYBE I SHOULD ASK YOU WHY YOU WANT TO HIRE PEOPLE, SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT.

Caring for a disabled parent is a fate worse than death.

>>34926937
Show her the same energy. Get her generic mom gifts she wouldn't like or care for.

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how do you live in a world so bad? cages and abuses and no one cares. don't give me that 'confused and traumatized people' shit. people acting without respect for their friends/families or environment. people knowingly doing wrong to selfish ends. the good in the world is too fragile and small against the baseline of selfish, cruel indifference of the majority of people.

you cant imagine how much i hate some of my best friends often times, the amounts and levels of misunderstanding, i dont know why i still put up with any of this shit. am i insane or are they?

Shit sucks

>professor unironically used the term microaggression

If my eyes could roll any harder they would burn out my skull

>>34926563
You're not a very smart person

>>34927763
I'm not going to tell you what kind of professor... it's a jewish professor

6 more months before I get to Die with Dignity instead of leaving a stain on the pavement for some poor sod to clean up

currently a bum and loser but i look good and want to bang a fast food worker thinking about lying to her about my current situation just to pump and dump but worried about what would happen afterwards

sometimes i like to think you're here too Kenna, but that is just delusional thinking.

I want a girl to send me nudes

>>34925064
The thing that draws you to someone contradicts what you find attractive in the long term and vice versa. It's possible the ones that won't give you the ick later, you don’t feel instant attraction to.

You either keep trying to find the unicorn who you're instantly attracted to and don't give you the ick later. Keep hopping relationship to relationship. Or really work out what you're looking for long term and try to get that.

Got the job, need to sleep, too horny to sleep, I want to cum but my cock is so sore.
FUCK where's my Exes tight warm cunt

>>34925064
Madonna-Whore complex.
That's not a joke

You're a bad person that hides behind any definitions or speakers or school of thought that not only excuses your bad behaviors, but places you as the moral superior for having these bad behaviors and calling anyone in opposition to them, or anyone who points them out as bad behaviors, morally wrong.

>>34927935
Who you talkin' to?

Men really do want children like they do a puppy. I should have listened to the evil feminists on this one.

you were a mistake

>>34927946
Word?

>>34927946
But what did you learn from the mistake?

The book on exile describe a potential situation where your political opponent would throw you out into the wilderness to die from the elements and surround city states that would kill you on site while if you came back you'd be refused treatment essentially just wondering with nowhere to get or give. Horrifying. It's like having me give someone the death penalty from starvation in a field of grass.

>>34927935
If people thought they were “bad,” they wouldn’t act like themselves. Everyone has a different view of good and evil. So define bad. I bet you won’t.

If you do not want to see me again
I would understand

>>34928091
... Lady, fucking ask him out. This is fucking ridiculous. This is the 21st century where Kamala Harris was Vice President and Hilary Clinton ran for president. Having ovaries means you have balls in your own way. You ain't a damn princess. You can ask him out if you want to get him.

getting ghosted by two japanese women this week is rough...

>>34928105
Men are way too used to getting what they want from women without a struggle. There’s a difference between acting like a princess and just being modest.

You are literally a homo if you don't like beans

>>34928122
I haven’t had beans since the danger lettuce shut down the Mexican food market.

One of the things I would have liked to have known is why why all this secrecy. Her parents must be filthy rich or some sort of big animals or something

>>34928131
That just one of the secrets of being the secret sign. Secretly. Don’t hurt me for believing some of the astrology be applies to me.

>>34928091
I could swoop you up tomorrow

>>34928131
SHE'S AN ALIEN

>>34927554
By acquiring power and trying to change it.

>>34928154
>>34928091
Get a room.

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Hello. A girl I haven't talked with in years and was close friends with years ago hit me up on Facebook messenger in mid july, gave me her insta. I don't have insta or see girls, I asked her what's up, she replied all interested with hearts and exclamation points and squiggle lines. But every time she replied Intook like an hour or two to teply because I had extreme inner ear inflammation with a pulse behind my eye, couldn't even think clear enough yo type normally and took forever typing out what to say in a note app... She probably thought it was rude I'm sure and I would too... I've had terrible health issues for almost a third of my life now that have stopped me from doing alot of basic normal things and alot of anxiety and self-esteem issues come with that naturally (I'm 29)
After all that she told me she lives in x place if I was available or near her to meetup (not date, neutral meetup) I said I'd keep it in mind and she showed alot of interest with lathering those emotes and squiggle thingies
I was very conflicted of even going out, had to buy new clothes first, find out where to go sense Idk about my city since we're gonna move out of here in a few years anyway why bother ya know. Never did any of this before

Skip ahead to late August (I was conflicted and hoping she'd never initiate and forget it ever happened), she messages me first again with "heyyyyy" blah blah blah, said she'd be in my city for work, hit her up to go eat out asap. Then I get sick, don't want her to get it so we reschedule (I'm not sure if she trusted me there after) but I can absolutely tell the mood changed and she's not nearly as excited anymore. I really couldn't blame her a fucking bit.
Then finally we meetup for the first time last Friday. Yes, we had our first meetup on 9/11 lol, at a restaurant. It was terribly awkward, I was out of it and barely all there because I dranke some extra strongly brewed matcha tea to help with my nerves and I guess I'm

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*and I guess I'm super sensitive to it to the point it made me dead inside for that day and I could barely carry on a conversation. Also made me really negative and I could only think of more negative shit to say and just complain about life or lies we were fed etc. I knew I was fucking up but I couldn't think of anything else to fill the gaps with.
I asked her every question about herself an job I could think of and listened as hard as I could to no avail. Didn't want to flirt first date, wanted to wait until second. Every time I would talk about myself she would rarely ever ask questions like I did which really cut down on time we could've been talking too though.
Then the awkward silence came. My health issues involving a pinched nerve somewhere between my inner left ear and eye was bad that made my whole left side of body tense af so I felt bad. She started looking at her phone, apologized first time, then kept doing it.
She paid quickly as soon as the digital thing came on our table which also a terrible sign, was the first to get up and start walking to the door too.
Anyways, I asked her two days after (the 13th) when she's free to walk at a nature center with trails across the street of a park and she hasn't replied now for 3 days. I think it's fucking over and it's partially and not partially my fault. I hate myself and my corcumstances

>>34926652
Insta

>>34928291
Oh, are you that dude again? Sorry.

>>34925942
Fr Seraphim Rose was a really talented writer and said alot of things in an eloquent way that's still really relevant about the current times. And Orthodox Christianity is closer to ancient christianity than papism or prot denoms. But I'm still pretty hung up on trying to fit it in with other original, authentic religious traditions like Gueñon writes about personally. Fr Seraphim Roses demonic encounters with some Hindu sect he was in is legit yeah, but that's just one small part of it and he never goes into great detail of Hinduism as a whole. I'm not an Evola guy though, he just ran too much on passion and feelings while Gueñon was much more dispassionate.

>>34926549
I'm not surprised these other fat fuck /adv/ normgroids don't get wanting to go on a hike with others. The countless missing 411 cases especially in national parks are more than enough evidence everyone, male and female NEEDS to go with other people when hiking for your safety, that shouldn't even be debatable.

>>34928118
That is a you problem not a me problem. You cry not my boyfriend so much he won't be there as your boyfriend. The girl who cried boyfriend.

There's literally no one more retarded than me, it's insane. I don't want to say I'm cursed but things have been going to terribly wrong. I'm an irritable, capricious retard who carelessly wrongs others, even if in small ways, as if anyone else has anything to do with my problems. I'm probably far more judgmental than I realize. I'm tired and frustrated of so many things, in my life, and the world. Things don't get better. I don't know what my point is here but to be punished. I don't know what my course could be. I'm stricken with an existential irony, in that I don't know whether I create my problems or not, yet I don't see an out. I don't know why I'm here. I don't know if I'm doing something terribly wrong, as if I've angered God.

I don't expect any response to this unfortunately, I'm probably yapping into the wind.

>>34928400
Well fate came back to tell you, you're still pretty cool even though you don't see it.

>>34928115
There there, Mr. Roboto.

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I feel like Im at a crossroads of about 50 branching paths.
Trying to fix things is what always makes these situations worse. Not much can be done on my end, and I don't know how to help you. I wish I was a better friend. The best I can do is just let things happen as they will, and try to be there.
I'm giving up little by little. Because of that I'm starting to truly internalize how much of this shit not only never mattered, but was like some active illusion.
I don't mean it in the smug way.
>I have it all figured out and everyone else is just a retarded NPC
I don't know about any of that, an I'm probably still sandwiched between different layers of reality like everyone else.
I guess I just realize now how much of the terrible shit in my life that is or *could* be completely stops having power the second I stop letting it put weight on me.

C
thank you thank you thank you thank you than you than you
I'm going to treat you right. The fact we met is insane and I'm going to forever thank whatever stupid universal chain reaction caused us to be there at the right time. There's no one else I'd rather do this with. I'm glad that you're able to see me unmasked

>>34928454
47 making bait threads because hes a unlikable loser

Gave up everything for a dream job and now i am currently not feeling it but if I quit what i had lost would have been for nothing

my brother really believes that im stupid or something. I ALWAYS catch him lying about something. And he thinks I don't know he's lying. Like once when he was in college he sent me a picture of certificate he obtained. But it was clearly a fake. he just downloaded a template and pasted his face and info on there. I even ran it through FakeImageDetectors and sure enough fake fake fake.
why does he do this?
I feel insulted that he thinks im stupid and won't find out.? will he ever grow up?

I think she's smoking dope.
the signs are there.
>always irritable
>stays up all night
>always leaving
>never tells anybody where she's going
>keep hearing a torch lighter click sound at night
>sleeps all day
>weightloss

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ED FUCKING SHEERAN. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.

>>34928864
I've stumbled across this drama like 4 times now and I still can't recall what the deal is, it just goes in one ear and out the other

>>34928122
>>34928126
If you digestive problems you wouldn't like them.

What was the point of all this. You get all week to laze about and here's your one day to do otherwise and engage and you can barely do that for more than 45 minutes.

>>34928999
I wish I was neet mang, it's my own fault. I fucked up aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. It's not fair!

>>34928992
Digestive problems are for homos

>>34929017
I'm not a homo. Homos, don't have digestive issues, they're usually healthy, ripped, and or really skinny or slim that or anorexic.

I feel bad about bullying people online the few times I have, but certain people just suck you in.

Wheres the money you owe me? When are you all going to arrest these people? Why do you keep dragging your feet on everything? When am I going to get answers for all the bizzare crimes you fucking cunts put me through? When is this over? I need an exact date and time.

Also stop sending people to harass me.

I need to stop investing my time and feelings into someone who doesn’t want them, or won’t accept them. I should take that time and those feelings and either give them to people who already appreciate them, find someone new who accepts them, or reinvest them in myself.

>>34929062
I am definitely one of those people that always gets bullied. Idk what it is but I get picked on a lot, even if in jest. I play along but secretly hate it

I'm tired of being the only man, and the only person who doesn't have anxiety in my family.
I've lost all of my hobbies, I don't have spare time aside from maybe 20 minutes in the morning when I wake up before work and everyone else's still asleep.
I'm back at another blue collar job I wanted to get out of, just to make ends meet, and I'm not as picky as anyone else.
I feel like I'm becoming less and less of a person, and more of a function. A function that's supposed to earn the money, a function that's supposed to calm them the fuck down every time any slight inconvenience or a problem arises.

I've lost control of my life, and I'm morally and physically tired beyond I ever thought I could be.

i am so alone and so completely empty and cold, i get so exhausted with myself that i just lay down and barely want to move. i don't even feel like if i had a boyfriend it could make me feel much better, and it makes me feel awful because that means its my fault, i'm not just lonely, there's something so wrong with me that im allergic to joy. i wish i could just be happy but its so hard.

I lost my virginity last saturday as a 27 year old with the hottest most beautiful 37 year old. She was so caring and reassuring.
I feel such a weight off my shoulders.
Everything is possible.
Life is good.
Shit was a dream.
Im glad it never happened any other way.

>>34929816
As I understand it, being in a relationship does prevent loneliness, but not other triggers of mental illness

i fucking hate women so god damn much. if you're a girl in NYC i sincerely hope you get raped to death

i really want this person to romantically/sexually kidnap me and my pet in real life, where i wake up and find that one guy i keep dreaming about. i want to believe it is real, so show and tell me and just take me. i am tired of of waiting for you. i need hardcore love action

i am making wish for the foundation of my life and reality. please save me from everyone else around me because i want you too. you have a name, and while it is what it is i want to the break the barrier. the testing scares me so i pause and

Feet always hurt often go numb. Same with my hands there's often a stinging tingly pain in them. Lungs are fucked can cough up phlegm on command
Always tired can never sleep. Right side of upper belly hurts all the time quite possibly my liver, even though I stopped drinking
Always thirsty, but no amount of water quenches my thirst
I am so unbelievably fucked.
It's so over

>>34929845
bait. sex isnt real

>>34930166
You sound like me one year ago. Move around more and get blood flow. If youre straining your liver, do the opposite. Stop wearing clothes that are too small. Most of all stop stressing out.

>>34929996
Why tho

>>34929845
High five anon

>>34929062
Karmatic stab wounds

Wow, it really did not take long getting back into dating to realize you treated me like shit. Go spread your legs for your ex, whore, and pray he doesn’t dump you like last time.

>>34930279
It got better for you? What changes did you make?
I'm quitting alcohol completely. Debating lessening coffee too because it makes me piss way too much
>Move around more and get blood flow.
I do exercise a lot: weight lifting, frequent walks, some yoga. It does makes me temporarily feel better, but the symptoms are still there

>>34930290
You probably treated her like shit, you're a scumbag

>>34930282
because they're all stuck up cunts that just want to date tall, rich, and famous guys. nyc women are the most superficial on the planet.

>>34930134
what ovulation does to a nigga

>>34930290
You’re an asshole projecting insecurity over her exboyfriend and her current boyfriend. We’re glad she left your ass and her exboyfriend. She broke it off with both of you losers, but you’re a misogynist who’s also delusional to believe you had the upper hand. You can move on to fuck hoes and she’ll still live rent free on your mind.

when I was 11, I got banned from my church because an 18 year old gave me head on top of the AC unit behind the church while her friend watched. In hindsight, I think it was to cover up the incident and keep it in house. I heard that she was allowed to keep going to said church. It was pentecostal btw

Trying to find people with similar interests feels like a fool’s errand sometimes

A first date should absolutely never be a restaurant. Even if you're loaded taking a woman to a restaurant is essentially giving her a meal ticket as she has the leverage to just ghost you right after or say there was no chemistry. A first date should always be coffee, a drink or ice cream. Fuck sinking 60 dollars into finding out if you vibe with someone

>>34930531
the first date you should invite her to a public park, beat the shit out of her, and then leave without explanation. she'll be obsessed with you for the rest of her life.

My friend tells stories like every second of his life is some epic adventure, and it drives me nuts.

He'll never just say "I ran into Joe at Walmart!"

He'll explain the whole damn story of realizing he needs something at Walmart, why he chose Walmart, the quest for coupons, how he almost didn't go that day, how he almost turned around because of traffic, how he suddenly made a decision that allowed him to barely see Joe at the only possible second...

Bro, love you to death, but shut the fuck up sometimes, your life isn't that interesting.

Found out when I was 15 that my younger sister and our cousin kept raiding my closet, caught them one time and they thought I would be angry but I just suggested we all hang out playing videogames in my boxers.

I've had feelings for one of my closest friends for 2 months now. As I type this, she is currently at her friends with benefits house, most likely getting fucked. She wants him to get serious but knows deep down he won't. She considers herself single; her words.

I'm gonna tell her how I feel in a low pressure way tomorrow; i can't take this shit anymore: she's all I think about and I overthink when around her. I'll never know if I don't try.

I'm a 28 year old virgin, I'm fully expecting to be turned down once again tomorrow. Either our friendship survives or that makes it easier to move on.

I'm not a victim of asshole behavior and intentions. It turns out I was the asshole most of my life and people responded accordingly. I was the asshole the whole time.

This is pretty trivial compared to the problems some of you guys have, but I want to whine about it anyway: I'm just starting to get sick (you know that one painful swallow you get that basically confirms it?) at the start of a five-day weekend I've been looking forward to for months.

>>34930792
Honestly dude just tell her but I wouldn't even stick around if she says no. Women who know very well their sex buddy doesn't actually want them but keep going back hoping to change his mind are extremely immature and not worth the trouble.

>>34930792
>>34930852
Also adding to clarify they're not even worth the trouble being friends. You're filling the gap in her dysfunctional relationship (and any she enters going forward) by providing emotional support that her fuckbuddy doesn't. She wants him mistakenly thinking it's a fulfilling relationship because you're carrying half (if not more) of the weight by being her friend to vent to. And she's too stupid to realize it.

>>34930852
>Immature
Full disclosure: she's 19. We met through work. I left said job like a month ago. We have quite a lot in common.

>>34930883
If you're absolutely fine being friends and nothing but friends with her forever then sure, stay friends. But it sounds like you're not, and pretending you're okay with it is only going to hurt you and delay your chance to move on and find someone who reciprocates. And if she's 19, let her make the mistake of thinking her FWB is a great guy and learn from it. Like I said here >>34930882 don't fill the gap in her relationship by being her emotional support - that should be her boyfriend's job, not yours, and it sounds like the guy she wants doesn't intend to do that.

Anyway TL;DR it's a mess, I would shoot your shot and then move on rather than lying to yourself and saying you're okay being friends. But DO shoot your shot - get rejected rather than dwelling on it forever (or maybe get the answer you're expecting, I dunno).

>>34930916
I'm not calling you wrong, I could probably stand to be less of the "emotional support" guy and I'll probably take some distance if she does reject me regardless. But it's also hard for me to think of walking away from a good friend.

Again, you're not wrong I don't know if I'd ever be happy just being friends at this point. But she's also been there for me and gotten me out of the house in a time where I easily could have kept being a shut in. She's the only friend I have who actually does stuff with me in person: movies, drinking, etc.

i used to watch a ton of blacked porn when i was 12-18, im 32 now and i still have a crippling blacked cuck fetish. if i had married my college sweetheart she would have taken so much nigger dick in front of me. she would've been the town bicycle. i don't think i'll ever get married, because no matter what i know ill want her to get blacked, but i don't actually want to be an irl cuck.

>>34931000
Youre not a cuck, your a desensitized porn addict. Go have more real sex and grow up.

when its morning all my frustrations and anxiety disappears, when it gets dark i become anxious and keep overthinking

>>34930941
Speaking as someone who has been on both ends of this (lost a close girl friend because I asked her out, lost a close girl friend because I rejected her), it really sucks but it's a legitimate reason men and women can't maintain friendships. It's not easy, but you could also take space from her for a while and find another girl, then reestablish contact. But that can also be a bad idea if you still have any feelings for the first girl whatsoever, and if your new girlfriend is the jealous type at all it's not going to work. Even if she's not jealous it's not wrong for her to be concerned about you regularly chatting with a female best friend (especially if she's single).

>>34925483
Condiments go under so they encapsulate the solid foods in the middle.

i'm feeling burned out, i really need a vacation, but that's not gonna happen any time soon

I'm struggling to get people to reply to me at all. I feel like my earnest posts are not interesting enough for people to engage, or are too wordy for people to bother engaging with. It's really bleak. I'm here because I'm lonely, and it's making me believe I deserve the loneliness because I'm the most boring person on earth.

>>34924873
All of my
>emotional competence and maturity
is just one giant bid for intimacy through people pleasing. How the fuck else do people even relate to one another? How do they even interact? What is play?

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>>34931149
replying to myself an hour later just to say yep, still no fucking attention despite my best efforts to contribute. can people smell loser through their screens now?

>>34931149
I'm here and I heard what you have to say
I deeply relate to you

>>34931257
Thanks anon. I feel crazy. It's like you have to spout slurs and hate speech or be intensely pathetic to get anyone's neurons to activate here. I already know which method works more effectively.

>>34931266
Why do you need responses so badly?

>>34931266
Anon, everyone is searching for an audience, but rarely do they want to be one. At the end of the day, no experience in your life will ever hold as much weight or meaning to others as it does to you.

>>34931271
I would like reassurance that I don't deserve neglect. I don't ask for a lot, people go to bat for the silliest things online, but even that is denied to me.

>>34931272
In the literal sense, being an audience member at something like a concert is way more fun than being up on that stage. At least to me, it is.

>>34931283
What kind of neglect are we talking? What situations? What is it you're asking from others, and from whom?