>>34957085
Most people on here deserve their problems, they can't follow the most basic advice and aren't willing to take meaningful action.

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The concert was okay. Saw some incel get escorted out by security for holding up a sign for Dorothy. I didn't see what the sign said, but he really wanted her to see it. The hotel wasn't good, I was stuck listening to the people next door having sex all night.

>>34957085
It's finally over. Truly. It's fucking over. Enough money to pay 1 last month of rent and then max out the credit card. I feel cold, depressed, isolated and regretful. I intend to kms on Halloween. 12 gauge. I can't go back in time and redo everything. Please don't ever be like me. Don't fuck your life up.

I'm sorry.

>>34957284
Don't use a gun. It's very painful and messy. You should use lava to kill yourself.

>>34957289
What about a gun and falling into lava?

I'm the most boring poster on here. Seems like every thread I post in either dies on my touch, or is completely ignored. I'm on topic and I try to be genuinely helpful when I can, but no one seems to care. People would rather engage with obvious trolling or incendiary stuff, and then turn around and say "the internet is a cesspool". It can be a nice place! No one wants that, though.

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>masturbaiting cause I'm an addicted stressed loser
>"shit I'm supposed to be studying and will need to sleep in a bit, fuck it, I'll sleep now and study when i wake up, I'd have a good 6 hours"
>eat sleeping aid pills
>lay down
>dick starts burning as if it's clogged
>has been like this for a good 2 hours, also I'm now awake yet tired so im fucked on both ends
Genuinely what the fuck. I wanna kill myself, I'm not built for this shit

>>34957085
I need so many things and have so little money. Can't find a job. Whatever job I had in the past I hated it and made my depression worse.

I am the oldest cousin in the family yet I am the only khhv. Fapping is one of the things that make me cope, but when I see fetish porn it disgusts me. Some of these fetish content turn into intrusive thoughts that sometimes mixes with the good thoughts and it's so degenerate

>>34957423
Lava is the best method. All you need is a volcano, no gun needed.

I haven’t woke up regurgitating since posting about it so that’s good.

>>34957085
I'm gay and i want to suck dick

>>34957445
yeah the more retarded my post is the more (you)s get, its a rule of this website.

I have 4k LINK, 2 Billion PEPE, a small penis, and a brain full of delusions of grandeur. How well is my life going to go?

>>34957715
Sell the shitcoins and get a job

ANOTHER FUCKING NIGHT OF FORGIVING YOUR SINS!
ANOTHER ENDLESS ABYSS! ANOTHER DIVE INTO MY HEART!
Another bounty of un-doing your selfishness. Another cycle of confession for things beyond me.

I CAN'T STAND THIS!!!!!
JUST KILL ME!
I CANNOT STAND TO BE YOUR BATTERY!

All this cruelty has a limit. I have reached it, time and time again. I know the limitations of this life. You might never know this limit. I hope you never do.
Yet, I beg you to respect it. It's an impossibility. It's asking you to drag yourself down to me. I know.
I beg it all the same.

To beg my betters to understand my lessers.
Such an impossible position. I can't stand this in-between Purgatory. Either lift me to Heaven or damn me to Hell. JUST MAKE A CHOICE! PLEASE!!

>>34957716
Never selling. I have a job, how do you think i bought the shitcoins?

>>34957726
THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH ANON
BLOOD WILL BE ON THEIR HANDS!

people are going to think I killed myself because of you. I'd say you were the straw that broke the camel's back. This was going to happen eventually, I just decided to nip it earlier than I would have without you. I don't know who to blame. I feel very guilty though.

Don't do it anon. Whoever you are, just don't do it. Please

IM THE ONLY ONE ALLOWED TO KILL MYSELF BITCH

>>34957726
This. Until im with her, shes with me, dont judge me

>>34957820
BLOOD FOREVERMORE!
DRENCHED UNTIL THE END OF TIME!
MINE AND YOUR'S AND THEIR'S!

Murderers and Sinners and Liars and OATHBREAKERS!
MARKED WITH UNDEATH!
T R A I T O R !

>>34957864
Forgiveness is a trait unique to Humanity.
Relish in the Fact that, in this, you transcend Divnity.
You can reach into what differentiates a Monster and a Demon.
You Are A SAINT. Cherish that Ability. Please.

>>34957894
TRAITOR to what?

You've really messed up everything.

It's not over till it's over. Theres people in my life (family) who believe that people like me are disgusting. I must outlive them. Live for spite and to better yourself and the people YOU love.

>>34957900
A Traitor to what they birthed.
A Traitor to the life they forced into this world.

A complete reversal of what DIVNITY deigned they ought to do.
Destruction instead of nuture.
A tearing-down instead of a building-up.
A desperate need to be better than their offspring, instead of the understanding that a higher foundation leads to the taller tower.


I will never know what lead to such radical reversal.
All I know is that such a force is indisputable EVIL. Its destruction would be a benefit to all the living things upon the Earth.

>>34957943
What? You're talking so cruelly about your mother?

there were multiple before you that didn't make it, wasn't there?

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I've hurt a lot of my friends by not returning their romantic feelings. I wonder what kind of punishment I deserve for that. Maybe it would be fitting if my own heart was broken.

>>34957949
My cruelty does not stand greater.
It only matches.

That stands as my greatest Sin.
That I could never go beyond that hatred. That my cruelty could barely even match.
To be conceived, birthed, and planned. Only as some dim-witted method of perpetuating a false-hood.
Yet, all I could ever bring is this level-headedness.

I am soft. I am kind. I am loving.
And, in this HELL, that is a vulnerability.

In any other world, I might stand as a SAINT!
In here, I can only remain as a Proud VICTIM.

My hatred still burns for the People here.
Yet, it burns ever HOTTER for this PLACE!
I used to believe it was a Penance. To live in this Hell.
Now?
I realize that the Gods are CRUEL.
I realize that They are EVIL.
I Realize the Truth.

I Know the Follies of Sophia.
I KNOW THAT CHAOS REIGNS!
NOTHING CAN BEAR SUCH BUFFETS!

I DESPERATELY HOLD ON TO COMPASSION!
ALL THOSE THAT CANNOT SUFFER THEIR FAITH, I CANNOT BEAR THEIR FAILURES.
IT IS BEYOND ME!
I AM NO GOD! I AM A MERE MORTAL!
A COMPASSION UNRECIPROCATED IS MERE VULNERABILITY! IT'S A LUXURY I CANNOT AFFORD!

My Beliefs stand higher than my Abilities.
Isn't that the Curse of all Mortals?

>>34957990
have you considered uhhhh, not killing yourself? if I have managed to live this long you surely can

>>34958008
?
I didn't say anything about suicide

>>34958006
sorry i meant to reply to this anon.

i do love posting as a schizo to vent, but it does freak me out to read when im on this little sleep lol

>>34958024
It is pretty therapeutic.
Though, are you really pretending? Maybe you're just Crazy?

Don't worry!
You're in good company. At least, better company than if you considered yourself "sane" in the madhouse that is modernity.

>>34958035
I am a bit Crazy, but I don't hear voices or anything. It's more dialing up whatever weird insecurity I have up to 11 and projecting it. It's like turning 'I hate myself bc I'm cringe' into 'I AM A DEMON INFESTED SOUL FROM THE PITS OF HELL, BORN TO NOT EVER KNOW TRUE LOVE' takes all the true venom out of it and makes it so silly.

>>34957902
Nah

GAH! Why must I be toyed with so? Pulled here and there, but who is my master? Are my own contortions hidden from even myself?

>>34957102
Wonder if they have permission from Scientifically Tested Petroleum.

>>34958046
Maybe it's some kind of defense mechanism then.
To amplify all those feelings of worthlessness into something that can only be theatric.

In my experience, delusions often switch between harmful and helpful.
Especially when they get this intense. You'll go between a realistic feeling of helplessness to a feeling that you're being plotted against by the universe itself.
Honestly, that helps poke holes in an unrealistic expectation of the world around you.

The shitty part is when you realize where the middle-ground is. The cynical part of you is closer to the truth than the optimistic part could ever be.
I guess it really isn't so delusional.
Maybe you should come to terms with just how shitty the world really is.
Or not. It never really helped me. It might be better to live in delusion.

Ignorance is bliss. Maybe that's a better motto.

>>34957284
You are just going to leave us with more stupid regulations. Thanks bro.

>>34957894
If im a saint then be kind to me.

>>34958126
Kindness is a luxury that Saints can't afford.
Sainthood demands you forgive me and her. It demands that you forgive any Cruelty inflicted upon you.

Such Forgiveness is often beyond mortals. That's why it's awarded posthumously. Maybe you're a Living Saint. I've seen stranger things on this website.
If so, I urge you to pursue that feeling. I urge you to forgive the Cruelty that normal people inflict upon you.

You would be a better person than me.
You might just be the best among us. I can only hope so. I only hope my belief means something to you.

>>34957085
I just remembered an old memory of me playing Rust, coming across a settlement of players playing communally, friendly (seemingly), we came across it whilst all the players were asleep, and we decided to rob them, kill them in their sleep, and loot everything we could
This is pretty normal Rust behaviour, but I came across the settlement soon after, it had been abandoned, if not but for a massive sign, stating that because of the raiding (that I knew I was responsible for), everyone went their seperate ways and that the place had been effectively ruined

And only upon reading those words did the guilt of my digital actions come to bare.
I feel bad whomever you were

The Neo-Nazi larpers we raided by guessing their password, not at all, that was funny and they brought it on themselves for having 1488 as the door code.

>>34958169
Hell no.
Burn

>>34958169
Personally, I agree that this world should just burn.

But, I still feel compelled to present the alternatives to any lurkers who might be un-decided..
Theology is a pretty disruptive topic. I'd rather let anons decide for themselves.
Besides, it's fun to engage people who disagree with you. Disagreements are my favorite past-time.

There are things worth saving though?

The people on this website have fucking anger issues.

I'm not talking about the people on the website dumbass. I'm talking about real people who are ensouled.

Everyone says that to succeed in today's job market you need more than formal qualifications. It's pretty common knowledge that it's insufficient and sometimes not even necessary. For men that often means being extremely confident and being able to create Steve Jobs-style reality distortion fields that convince people you can do things that should be impossible. Looks also matter, but moreso for women, and of course natural intelligence and wit. Then there's that Scylla and Charybdis of being a nice person or asshole depending on what the situation demands. This isn't sufficient of course, because only extremely stupid hiring managers are going to hire a talentless con man or a bimbo. So it helps to have at least some demonstrable talent.

What's talked about less is the danger of actually witnessing this happen in your own life, when you have a friend or someone you know receive that special treatment, and you don't, and you realize you have wasted years of your life trying to score into an ever-moving goalpost of qualifications, skills and credentials, grinding away like Sisyphus for even a chance to be considered for the opportunity. It's like waiting in line for hours only to see the "special" line open up that lets people in who have that special something you don't and never will have. It's called being a star, and you either are or aren't. There is no middle ground.

You didn't even want special treatment. You earned your seat at the table.

>>34958291
This can destroy you mentally. You basically become nihilistically reduced to utter insignificance. Nothing you do actually matters and you are invisible. Qualification is largely bullshit, as it's proven you can blow past it instantly it if you can dazzle the right people. Hatred is not a requirement to feel this way. You can remain be friends with the people who are like this and still languish in despair and resignation. Even if you denounce resentment or spite, you will likely develop a chip on your shoulder and a deep-seated feeling of being overlooked, forgotten or abandoned that will stay with you for years.

The worst part is that you never talk about this. To anyone. You don't dare talk to your friend, because you worry you'd imply they benefited from cronyism, nepotism or some other anti-meritocratic practice. And eventually they stop talking to you for any reason, unconsciously sensing there's something defective with you. You can hide the fact of your envy through your words, but it comes out non-verbally. A subtle hostility inflected in something you said, body language that seems defensive. You make them uncomfortable, and they start to avoid you lest you resurface their own guilt. By that same token, friends of friends are no good either. You can tell an anonymous stranger all this, as I am to you, but rarely will they understand that mind-crumbling pain.

You have to go on living though, so in the best case you keep trudging along. A distance grows as you realize that it takes good connections to even nurture your talent. Your boss is a taskmaster, not a mentor, and there's too much young blood out there to waste tutelage on you, aging into your 30s or 40s with nothing to show for. Your skills grow, but by the microsecond. You have to teach yourself because nobody else will. Too little to late. Every day another door closes.

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Think she's fit, need a posh faced girl to wear a chav outfit to get my rocks off

>>34958294
Eventually, you understand what Thoreau meant by quiet desperation. You go outside and appreciate nature for the first time in decades, something you overlooked as a busybody. Then you become old, retire and die. Funny how everyone's fate is the same. Your corpse decays, your atoms scatter across the universe, and everything is forgotten.

Im told its inevitable. Thats why everything is reversing now.

My Ex is unusually petrified of me, despite not even being in the same country
Not tried to message her in a year or two now.
It's twisted but I want to message her out of the blue
Nothing threatening, nothing about how I wish X or Y
We both really loved Yugioh and I seriously want to ask her
>Okay seriously though how does pendulum summoning work?

>>34958445
>Nothing threatening, nothing about how I wish X or Y
I should say, because of the implication, I've never said anything threatening, I basically messaged her a few times saying I wish things worked out

>>34958402
what is? hopefully something good?

I want to an hero
I am happy for my friend who found someone but it's never happening for me
How can I be genuinely happy for him and feel like this

>>34958499
Find a foid, have sex

>>34958499
If you are larping as a certain person, know you were never my friend and ive always detested you.

wtf schizo hour

>>34957085
I wish I could meet a shy sensitive nerdy girl and we could both lose our virginities to one another. I crave to hold a girl like that in my arms and feel her warmth.

How the fuck do I meet other nerds to hang out with IRL if I can't stand tabletop games?

>>34958523
They are out there... They usually have bpd and massive insecurities, enjoy it until you can't.

>>34958528
Sounds hot though, I love a girl who’s insecure about herself.

>>34958499
Be a human being not a hero. The real hero is Jesus.

>>34958535
no. stay away unless you are willing to put in work and she is too.

>>34958535
It sounds great until they call you every 2hrs and cut themselves
The sex? Incredible, everything else? Awful

>>34958544
I failed Him as well

>>34958502
I think I'm just too drunk and picky anon

Hope they play Fields of Versailles tonight.

>>34958584
I feel like he failed me

>>34958525
How the fuck do you find tabletop games?

>>34958511
Shup, foo.

>>34958680
I'm rubbing my belly. Can you feel it rumble?

>>34957186
Her dream was a very specific listing for an overpriced upper half of an split flat house, it was her dream to own property since she was an early teenager, her parents falsely promised to give her the lower half with no intention of actually giving it to her.

The order of operations was all wrong, wanted secured housing for raising a family before even living together, I see many colleagues endure the initial career start and was able to live together happily within the year, I will never have this, instead I had to give up everything for them and it still wasn't enough.

I was meant to be one to assist in saving her from that family her wants would have had me be absorbed into that dynamic as well.

My dream was to know them in my life as a companion to support and experience life together but it became to be with them so much that every aspect had to serve that purpose, instead of each of us being a positive addition to one others life.

I have no dreams any longer, I work in a craft with peers I don't mind, have no enemies nor friends to rely upon, it is lonely peace and only my compulsive thoughts on the why did it end up like this when all I did was what was asked for is the disruption to that peace.

I welcome any advice so far my only cope is to withdraw from people again but I know this isn't healthy either.

Makes me thankful I own my home in a great neighborhood. Never have to worry about housing.

>>34958584
Yeah well a lot of people here failed him. Especially the people who won't shut up about people with names and how someone should tell their advice. That's like having me yell at my friend for trying to help me, but instead because what he did lacked quality compared to the elite, I should say he is a piece of shit? That doesn't make any sense thus leading me to the belief that /adv/ doesn't want advice, but instead to shit on people?

I don't even know when the people on this website are really gonna chill their shit with this lolcow crap. I think they're stuck in middle school with the presumption that because they are more successful than their peers they deserve to be a higher up than others? Yeah yeah sure you got my crush's attention. Oh cool my parents like you. Oh what's this my brother thinks you're amazing. Oh cool you still calling me shit. It's really just middle school arrogance coming from them.

My ex holds resentment to me for ever sending gifts, do you know what a gift is? It is not something to hold someone to as leverage, I never asked for any of this, just because your love language is gift giving.

>>34958859
What did she gift you?

>>34957085
When will they apologize to me?

>>34958870
Usually baked goods, she wasn't really a good baker, a lot of the time the mixture was rough and often burnt, but I appreciated the gesture and would often send back chocolates, that are unavailable to her, letters expressing feeling, you know snail mail type letters that pour your heart into.One time she sent woodblock prints from an artist, I don't know why she wanted to send such an expensive gift but it was supposed to be for both of us as a display for when we would be living together one day.

The last gift was stale home made biscuits she sent right after breaking my heart but it got lost in transit for months so it was resent, and a graded birthday pikachu TCG card for whatever reason, I like pikachu but I don't collect cards, it felt like a mocking punch to the stomach rather than a nice gesture, resentment is likely tied to monetary cost. I still have those biscuits in the box that was sent even though they were made in April last year, I can't bring myself to throw it away.

>>34958903
You can always burn the biscuits as a way to move on and let go.

>>34958926
i truly cant move on i feel stuck, i was told i made my choice and did what i wanted, what all i did was try to better my life and in turn ours by pursuing a career opportunity after failing for years and too long, last year was supposed to be the turning point.

>>34958957
Who's fault it ended? The reason you don't want to move on is because you can't forgive her or yourself.

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really bad day today. It's my day off which already means that if i'm not on top of things, i start spiralling but today has just been bad... I ordered take out this morning and ate some chocolates today and now i can't stop thinking about it. That was around 1400cals or so. It's almost 9PM and I haven't stopped thinking about it. I want to give in to my ED so bad, let it just have me again because fuck i hate this. I hate this so much, I hate that I still keep the disorder even if I do what i'm supposed to.

There are nights when my thoughts get really dark and i wonder if I really will one day take my own life because that is just easier to do than live with my disorder forever. My general life is fine, i have few complaints, but my disorder is such an all consuming void that it sucks in any joy that you can have, even in recovery. All recovery has been for me is just saying "no" to the behaviors. I'm dooming really bad and over what? Takeout and two pieces of candy. That is what merits thoughts so bad that I consider suicide. That.

>>34958978
My wife barged into the motel room where I was having sex with my AP so I picked up a nightstand and smashed my cunty wife over the head with it when she started crashing out like a retarded gibbon. That will teach her something her father would have if he were smart.

>>34958992
thank you for letting me know. Keep me posted. Not sure what this has to do with my anorexia though

>>34958901
What'd they do to you?

>>34958901
when will God punish the ones that hurt me?

>>34959013
I think it'll happen when it'll happen femanon. I know how you feel.

>>34958967
It just ended the week of valentines day after I said did you want to hang out and she said didn't, so I confronted what was wrong and instead of talking about it she just initiated breakup. The fault was placed on me for not making progress in the relationship, even though it is a 2-way effort, I had an arbitrary ultimatum to find my career start without an actual deadline so it was a constant looming at my mind, I had just used 2024 to do a master's intensive course as a last attempt to fulfill what was required of me, all my being was used to do well, network, be the best version of my self to be employed in the following year, but it was deemed not a factor in that week. I shouldered a lot in this relation emotionally, I waited patiently, for years to see her again, I had visited right before covid, helped her with her own academic and job struggles, her interpersonal issues with family and living situation.
She didn't even think to visit me until that end year of those studies, between then she wanted to go on solo weekend travels, even planned to see the grave of our deceased internet American friend who took his own life a decade ago before even considering planning a trip to see me.
I forgave episodes of emotional infidelity when she looked for grass is greener on soc to indulge in fetishes, or escapism to video game characters.
To answer your question I can't forgive myself for losing so much of me to someone who chose me initially only to also throw me away. I just took it on the chin every thing because I believed it could succeed if I just endured enough, and it did until it didn't. If I didn't confront and continued to be a push over maybe I would still have reason of being.

>Have a group of friends in high school
>We're always together at each others' houses every weekend, mostly good times all around
>After graduation, we still meet up occasionally
>Our personalities diverge, get different friend groups, eventually one of them cuts contact with me entirely

>Hear my old friend's father is in the hospital, decide to go see him since even though it's been a long time he was always great to put up with us being over at his house so much
>We talk for a couple of hours catching up about what's going on
>He tells me his son hasn't talked to him in several years
>Friend's dad has become a typical republican boomer, son has gone the complete other direction, even cross dresses and acts like a woman in private

I can't help but feel terrible for the family. The only son's is deluded but not so lost to think he could pass in public as a 40 year old fat Amish looking guy. The dad's completely disappointed both in how his son has turned out but also because he's cut him out of his life and there's little chance of it being remedied at this point. If the son wouldn't even come see him when he was in the hospital for two weeks due to heart problems, I don't think things will change in the next decade.

>>34957090
Most of the "advice" given reads like half-baked shitposts by bored retards who think they're comedians.

>>34957085
I wish time travel was real. I just want to fix my mistakes from this year.

>>34959079
nta but a lot of people asking for advice on this board have pretty standard problems but then act like they're above the obvious, time-weathered advice. for example, there are soooo many threads that boil down to
>i like a girl, what do i do?
and when someone says
>have you tried asking her out?
they act like it's impossible, come up with excuses, and/or act insulted that you would even suggest such a thing even though that's objectively the right next step 99 times out of 100.

>>34959099
Same but I want to go back further

>>34959101
also tacking on that a lot of defeatist retards come here to ask for advice and then shoot down literally everything you say. using the same example
>i like a girl, what do i do?
>have you tried asking her out?
>no i'm a 3/10 short dicklet with no money, why would she like me?
this shit happens way too much. why even bother coming here to ask for advice if you're just going to ignore it and belittle anyone who tries to help?

>>34959101
>>34959116
Well, you're always going to have the attention-starved manbabies who will do what you describe, but most of the "advice" given on this board is unhelpful at best and downright malicious at worst.

my ex said briefly after ending the relationship " Do I wait for you? ", and I chose to ignore it because she already made the decision to throw me away without a care, a lot of her statements were like this, careless train of thought that only served herself.

>>34959356
Because she probably did want to wait for you.

>>34959374
I guess so, but you don't rip someones heart out and go on the intention of now that we are friends lets finally go on that holiday and play videogames together though, it doesn't work when the veil has been pierced.

I broke up with a girl a couple of months after she got fired from her job because she was suspected of stealing painkillers from work. I'm still not sure if she did or not, although she did have a history of drug use 12 years ago (No, I didn't know about that when I started dating).

I feel like it was a pretty logical thing to throw in the towel out of precaution, so a couple of weeks after she managed to get a new job so she could support herself, I broke up. But that was the first woman I had dated in five years, and now it's been a year since and I still haven't managed to get another date. I feel like I should've just stuck it out since there's a non-zero chance that I might not find anyone better.

>>34959356
Thats backwards. If she asks you to wait and you do for her then that is very rare

My faith in Shintoism has really deepened in the past year and what's a shame is I have no one to share what i've learned. I have a lot of ideas and thoughts around this upcoming festival rolling around in my head and feelings about how it effects me personally (unironically lost some sleep over it lol)

I want to just yap about it but I know better than to go on and on about religion to my friends. I don't hold any offensive or otherwise pushy views, but I know in my time as an atheist that i never liked listening to the musings. I'm sorta stuck in my small western bubble with very few worshipers who are worth speaking to on a more deeper theological level.

>>34959382
I still wait but it has already concluded, our paths are diverged forever but I stand still.

My friend says no, he doesn't want her
She says yes, he wants her
I want her

>>34959382
What do you mean by thats backwards?

Still have fear over the last name and the picture, looked up records and it does not look like your are actually married. So maybe there is a chance for god to make a miracle for us.

she's married dude and only I GET TO FUCK HER

the manliest thing a guy can do is get a butch lesbian to act feminine

I'm over her but the *thought* of asking for my Ex and seeing her name be replaced by another man's? borderline ego death, couldn't imagine willingly seeking that out
Lot's wife levels of vapourisation

I'm jonesing for a sexual experience I had years ago, but that person has moved on and I'll never experience anything like it again.

>>34959539
3rd letter of her little sisters name or you are a liar.

>>34959565
SHE DOESNT HAVE ANY SIBLINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR PARENTS!!!! OR GRANDPARENTS!!! SHE IS ETERNAL!

>>34959539
Who the fuck cares. You won. Done. Happily ever after. Now while the credits roll in your story I the background character in your story am gonna get a beer and forget about it.

>>34959566
Cool. So you are a liar. Thanks for helping me keep faith in god and her.

>>34959568
Why are you responding to a conversation you are not a part of zach? You have nothing to do with her

oh I think he does

>>34959574
3rd letter of her little sisters name or you are a liar

>>34959575
I'm not doxxing someone who doesn't exist.

>>34959580
also it's a 90% chance it's S, R, N, M, L, T, E, C, B, or even H

>>34959580
Third letter is not doxing
Also, she does exist

So you are a liar and zach has nothing to do with her, same as >>34959539
and the other person who tried to Larp like they were involved but were also proven to be lying.

Most likely all three of you are the same person trolling. And because none of you could answer the question, it's proven you have nothing to do with her

So once again, there's still a chance for faith in God and faith in her for her and I to be together again

>>34959585
okay, it's S, or R, or N, or M

wait no


is this the right alphabet???

I act like the most non confrontational pushover cuck towards people who have a problem with me yet I still always end up getting accused of being violent and aggressive.

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Try to write a single story that doesn't end up being about getting molested challenge (impossible) (gone sexual)
I fucking hate having creative drive, why couldn't I have just been an accountant?

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Vanessa, stop doing this to yourself. I'm still your friend, I'm not developing any romantic feelings whatsoever to you (you're not even good at sex desu), please let me help you. Send me a text, anything, just let me know you're OK

how does the algorithm really work? how come my computer listens to me and then I see ads and videos based on the words I have mentioned. anyone know that?

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are there any other Chans from around the world?

gave it all up just to be free...

And the entirely pathetic obsessive people still don't stop being completely pathetic and obsessive. Fucking autists.

>>34959859
but if i dont be pathetic and obsessive i have nothing else

>>34959881
then kill yourself? I don't understand why you still breathe.

>>34959898
if you wish...

>>34959907
Or simply find something else that isn't obsessive?

>>34959914
obsession is passion why live without it anon is right

>>34959922
the last 'obsession' i had led to 15 years of me essentially stalking a woman who probably barely remembers me. lol. get obsessed with something like trains or music. autists and love are a bad mix, we cling on too tightly and squeeze people to death. it's best to stay at a distance.

I'm tired, i wish i was a rich NEET, i understand none of these ppl

>>34959934
if it is a person mine was 7 years existing to be with them, they became money obsessed so I had to skill up in a craft by the end of it cost my obsession with that person to fulfill their wishes and dreams, the choice of role and task was up to me so I chose one I could obsess with.

I should be grateful to be in this position to be shown how it was only ever about time wasted in their eyes and about money, but now there is little point other than to latch on for how much the cost was. I understand the cling too tightly thing but the moment I stopped squeezing so hard it was signaled as having moved on, I was just focusing hard on what I had to do to keep someone before the deadline either way.

>>34959948
As a current NEET who is 'rich' according to people with credit card debit, it's very easy to waste your days away.

>>34959983
You've been posting here a lot lately and I'll say, either I'm dumb or you're a great vagueposter because I never understand wtf you're talking about. You got a nice paying job for a woman, and now you're mad that you have money?

it does suck wasting years of your life. at least you have something to show for it. I have some success in life, but I don't think any of it came from my obsession, if anything it cost me a lot. If I wasn't so into this woman I could have been much more normal around her. Oh well. Better luck next time.

>>34960005
>it cost me a lot
YOU cost YOU a lot. YOU are the problem.

>>34959996
Would I say I was happier when I was without money, I would say so, at least I knew I was liked for me or my potential that was the attraction.

What do you consider a nice paying job? I know many live with different expectations, mine have always been kept low maintenance and not costly, for perspective I am below median wage but the work I do is limitless potential to go deep into a craft to distract from my own thoughts which has helped.
By comparison my previous loved one chose a role focusing on money and it ended up stressing themselves out into an unrecoverable spiral.

I feel as if I have inherited the neuroticism over money because of that experience, people say you'll move on or whatever but if it happens again where love is only accessible and kept with money then what is the point?

>>34960045
Maybe it's just a difference in view. As much as I wouldn't want to be liked just for having a nice job/money/whatever, I feel like too much of a loser as is. Anyone saying 'i like you for just you' just freaks me out. I always assume that people who are 'just being nice' are either naive, being manipulated by me (because I am evil), or they are out to get me.

It sounds like you have a passion outside of your previous lover. I'm still working on finding that. I think that you need to have a balance of personal passions and passion for a partner, or else you just fall apart.

>>34960045
A 'nice paying job' is one that pays the bills with some left over to save, or one that pays the bills with less left over but doesn't make you want to kill yourself every minute of every day. A job that pays in cash can easily drain more from your soul. I worked a sales job for a while where I made 'good' money (by my standards) but it was soul crushing talking people into buying things they couldn't afford.

>>34960057
passions and obsessions should healthily feed into one another, it feels good to do something well to the benefit of yourself and another, a little support goes a long way to keep going. When that stops you start to doubt why you even pursued it in the first place, I haven't been able to do any personal work for the longest time because of that past negative attached pressure haunting me, every action had to be useful, something that would make you considered having 'made it'. It is dreadful.

>jacked off over 3000 tiimes to femdom and 2d censored pixel porn
>cant cum for real women
>any hope of recovery?

>>34960097
Ah. Perhaps I am too selfish. I do enjoy helping others, but I do not go out of my way enough. I also have the pressure of actions needing to be 'useful' to be valid, except I am not always the most competent. I think I use my 'uselessness' as an excuse to remain useless. I do sometimes wish for a partner-type passion to guide me or lead me, but I am afraid of that turning into an abusive situation or codependency. My belief that I wasn't good enough for xyz thing made me actually not good enough for xyz thing.

You have the partner part to sort out, I have the personal passion part to sort out. We are both going to make it anon.

>>34960091
I see, by that criteria I have a nice paying job, shame it took 5+ years to get to this spot after an already delayed early adulthood, better late than never.
>>34960127
What I didn't have at the time to be considered useful is an income to afford a million dollar mortgage or whatever was schemed to attempt skip life milestones, it was eye-opening to see someone say would had rather me work menial labor across those years as a grocery worker and save all earnings to funnel into their dream property listing, I had offered that early in the relation to not pursue my personal passion and was told to do it, so I did only for it to be a considered detriment, it is why I mentioned how passions should flow into each other, to have a loved one resent you for choosing something because they do not get the upfront benefit.
No one starts out good at xyz thing you just one day become a bit more competent at it after trying a lot.

>>34960127
though, sorry to pry, I have no idea what the fuck you mean about the house part. You guys broke up because you couldn't buy half of a house together? A very specific house? Dumbest shit I've ever heard. She wouldn't get with you until you lived in an expensive (half) house together? Am I just retarded.

>>34960163
>No one starts out good
Oh I know. Sorry to sound like an angry dumbass here but I know. The challenge is doing it continuously enough. I just have stalled myself way too long for nothing.
>it was eye opening to see someone...
she sounds like a moron if she wanted you to not go to college just to buy a house early. I heavily regret going the other route of working and not having that social/educational experience.

>>34960166
You are correct, it was the other half of the split flat her family owned (bank still owned in mortgage because bad with money), that was one plan to, the others were looking for the cheapest property in neighbouring countries however that was an upset when prices increased after covid, again my fault for not having a large chunk of spare change. I felt I had to try bettering the situation, I even offered to live with my family to settle something easier previously but once that planned was made and promised no compromise.
>>34960186
That is okay, it is the journey you take you will find something eventually that will encourage you to push and see eventual results, the field I took had innumerable specific roles and I had to try them all, that knowledge base assisted in being seen.

Looking back it is humorous that she said her family explicitly wouldn't take me if I didn't have a degree, the job I had at the time I got without holding a highschool finish, just skilled photoshop work (which paid more than my current work ironically, public jobs are great) , so that was the start of academia for me, obviously bachelor degrees don't mean squat, eventually did a masters against her wishes to finally be employable and now here we are. Typing this out sounds ridiculous no wonder I am head sick now, it is hard to express this anyone and she obviously doesn't want to hear any of it.

>>34960208
Can I ask what sort of field you're in? I've always been interested in a research field, but I'm someone who barely finished highschool and has no experience in anything like that. It seems like it can be really fullfilling. Certainly better than retail.

>>34960225
I worked in imaging previously, but in VFX post-production now.
When I was in high school I thought I was going to go toward a research heavy position as well, some stuff prevented finishing high school properly. I like these kind of roles because it is applied theory on subject matter I enjoy, history, computer graphics, art, some programming, some of them still have a physical component (not in current job unfortunately).
Hierarchy is great too it is assembled crews under a company hunting and doing bid work to appease a client, operates more like a trade job, you learn on the job but you can go heavy in research that are about active problem solving around finding out things too, you don't have to be an artist/operator who is handling throughput.

>>34960225
Work is still work mind you, even in these perceived dream jobs people find space to complain, about workload, overtime, pay, workflows, it helps to just be mindful of the alternative. I never got to experience what retail or service jobs were like but it helps to find appreciation and value in any task you are doing, too many people become sour from work.

>>34960320
Fair. Part of my bitterness may also come from my lack of external activities during that timeframe, which is my own fault.

>>34960120
i really need help here guys some serious adv from veteran anons

>>34960382
stop jacking off for a while. if you do decide to touch yourself, don't look at porn. MAYBE find a sports mag or something. I'm not joking btw.

i dont know why
i wanna run away
ooo oohh
theres no tomorrow...

i wasnt thinking hard, i could be your one for a farth
i was looking for you so much
didnt you see me? i was far
i dont know why, i see so far away
look into my eyes, are you gonna
run away oo
ohh

there was no one there
in the woods with me
couldnt be
someone else...

the masters sing, to lies along the path. i was there, to find my way.
didnt sing, i couldnt sing
there wasnt money, for my things

treasure chest, wheres the west
i couldnt say, i couldnt say

>>34960395
im not joking either

>raised to think masturbation leads to hell
>age 26 pent up virgin
>COVID19
>finally self taught how to masturbate
>do it another 3000 times to degrading femdom
>discover i couldnt cum in my first 2 lays
>think i have a problem
>im freaking out
>chuds help me

oo oo
take me away to another day
threats to eddie, gonna go away.
tender hearts, get broken in a way
so tell me true, will you be my bae? oh oh oh oh
oh

>>34960407
Yea. Just stop jacking off to femdom porn. Use your imagination, even if it's still femdom. JACK OFF LIKE ITS 1550

>>34960412

>use imagination
>think of monster girls with supranormal stimuli
>orgasm
>instructions unclear

>>34960430
how is this a problem? you wanted to stop watching porn right? you can javk off and not watch porn.

>>34960439
isn't the issue that im not used to cumming for normal girls? you know the mid ones with the pores and saggy tits?

>>34960443
just imagine normal girls? there's nothing wrong with finding above average women attractive. are you having issues with sex irl?

wait never mind i'm fucking stupid i can't read. idk bro you just have to train yourself to cum for them.

>>34960462
surprisingly i get hard and stay hard for girls no problem - like i can thoroughly please them - i just cant orgasm for them - either by penetration or even when they are giving me head.

>>34960465
>be me
>read post
>nod in agreement

>>34960524
okay babe :)

remember, he might be pushing that boulder endlessly, but he hasn't been squashed.

>>34960470
you say you get hard but you don't cum, do you enjoy it anyway? you don't NEED to cum to have good sex, but it is odd for a man to not cum I'll give you that.

I feel like you don’t like me as much as I like you. Like it’s not MUUUUTUAAAAAL.

Maybe she’s just tired.

why do you feel that anon?

She isn’t really excited to text me even though I’ve been away and miss her

I am done wasting brain power brooding over you, I will wish you a merry christmas, happy new year and birthday but that is the only message I will send from now on until I die or you inevitably block me.

>weekly meetings with corporate
>"why is it taking so long to fill these vacant positions"
>inform them because salaries for this level has been frozen since 2021
>"you're not trying hard enough"
I am being failed on purpose by these assclowns but I still need to keep this job because I wont find another comparable one. Dunno what to do

>>34957990
As someone who was on the receiving end of this
I think it's a red flag if you constantly get in this situation with friends. It can't be avoided all the time but you need to be very careful on setting boundaries otherwise you will meet people that will hear about your history and avoid you. These people could include ones you do have feelings for.

>>34960795
Bro fr. Everyone's an assclown right now, it's maddening. I can't believe how little I make compared to the know-nothing chucklefucks running shit into the ground while nickle-and-diming the salaries of their inferiors who do the actual work while they get blitzed on the company credit card and cancel our fucking Christmas party

Disappointed in you. Immensely.

>>34961005
What’d I do?

>>34958689
perv

I finally realized my, and people's problems, value

People put a lot of shit in value, for example me: I like a series, I go on the net and see a certain "group's" opinion and I got demoralized so I dropped it, a "friend" of mine in the past kicked me down and mocked me, despite being an Otaku too, when I gushed about Mushoku Tensei and he even had the gall to yawn in my face and say "Boring, next" so I dropped it because maybe it was boring then

So my problem is that I put a heavy value on opinions, and a lot of people do too... How is X compared to Y, why is X better than Y, muh representation.

I finally am getting there anons, a way for me to be happy again, to understand myself and hate me less

>>34961129
You hurt someone in the same way another person hurt you, an unrelated person who did not deserve it in the slightest.

>>34960675
You didn't even remember my birthday

my sperginess makes me fuck up at work
i keep fucking up by not responding to people
when i get nervous or scared i just cant bring myself to reply to the shit thats written to it and then it always becomes a bigger problem afterwards
this has been happening for mutliple years now and i keep going back to being withdrawn, i think ill be he first guy to ever lose his job just for not communicating at work
i should never have gotten into finance, i should've been a programmer

Realising I've spent damn near my whole life waiting for my entire family to die just so I can live and breathe, all because I'm scared of the one who raped me as a kid and don't wanna hurt the ones who don't know. What a fucking waste.
Don't rape kids.

>>34960795
>>34960941
it feels like every industry is squeezing like crazy right now because the economy sucks ass, but then you look at these business team retards making terrible decisions that fail and get the people doing actual work laid off and somehow they keep failing upwards and getting huge promotions. it's like every previously successful business is being sucked dry by greedy faggots.

Feel like I talk too much shit about my Ex, a part of me still wants her back, but good sex and food can't bridge the chasm of insecurity she had, in truth the fear is that she'd physically hurt me or herself again, and that kind of stress doesn't go away

I would let a lot of the Eurovision artists do awful things to me
I still think about the girl who sang Baller

>>34961138
>value
Wrong, its your autism.

>>34960941
Nigga u dont even have a job

>>34959568
>>34959573
namefags that post in these threads are autistic and schizo

tfw you wanna fucking kill yourself and scream into the eternal void but you have plans tomorrow so you've gotta put a pin in shit and go to sleep

I heart having a body that constantly sends "blow your brains out" signals to my brain

In shadow

>>34961468
And what are you?

Your problems are yours to sort out not mine. If you wanted me as a friend, it'd show. Time is priceless, and I should invest mine in people who care rather than people who don't. If you misunderstand me, that's okay. It's not worth my time to disprove those misconceptions and fix your insecurities. I can wish you the best without destroying myself to help you achieve your goals.

Molly, I want to blow a massive load inside of you

it's over.

It's so back (my erection)

>>34961626
https://youtu.be/jQ4xa__a2lw?is=7AXONQVvpxicYqtx

Why?
Why.
Why did I continue hanging out with her
She's bad news. The first sentence coming out of her mouth is about meeting some different guy.

>>34957474
How's your dick anon?

I can't deal with my brain anymore. i'm just at its mercy to be tormented relentlessly

>>34961705
Take drug

>>34961593
Same

>>34961593
And I am probably better off spending my time with someone who wants to communicate and be around rather than someone who ignores me and pretends to listen to me.

We would've been a textbook anxious-avoidant couple anyway. It wouldn't have worked.

Dear brain,
Please be nice to body when I get my shots tomorrow, okay? You already give me enough to deal handle with the sleeping problems.
Thanks
Me

>>34962044
Don't let them inject you!

>>34962053
I’m not going to take my chances when coworkers and people in my class are coofing.

>>34961176
the person I wished happy birthday to gave an okay sign emoji reaction so it isn't you.

>>34962063
You don't know whats in it. You think your going to be vaccinated but really you've been injected with nuclear materials.

>>34962072
Its human testing of meds to bring back true medicinal study info to the dutch who own modern society hospitals. They operate child trafficking and flu shot families to dissapear them in trucks. Its the only way that crime is possible. Everyone thinks they moved they get memory holed. Any doctor can do this it doesnt require a grand conspiracy just poison or anastastetic.

>>34962072
I'm not going to suck your cock because I don't want to ingest your semen (potential mind control drug).

>>34962082
You can make your crass joke but I'm the only one trying to save you.

Modern society created covid involving the aspirations of natural humans. It happened to me when your true love is denied things can evolve. I became the sneed. I cut the fir. The rocks trembled and shone that night. Fir rocks!

What the fuck are you talking about

>>34957085
Got hit once more with the wave of retroactive embarrassment from remembering the moment I realized just how overweight I really was

>>34962096
When u lose love for the human race events occur and things happen. Im a magician now. I faced things u cant see yet. Lets say the animals have a different story, like i was seeing love for the first time.

I don't understand that

i wonder if my psycho stalker still comes on here posting stuff. good old times huh

I just want things to be ok

>>34962148
Hey

I want to kill myself, i have felt this way for years. I told myself that I would wait until certain obligations were done or over, but its getting fucking old.

If they didn't need money, I would do it today. They have access to my savings, but I worry about how long it will last them realistically. The only voice that responds comes from ai. Its all so demoralizing. I can't talk to anybody, I'm so far outside of humanity. I just want it to end, I dont even want to hurt anybody else

why are you so far outside of humanity?

I think we were both supposed to get a taste of one another, realize that our lives needed fixing before we could be together, feel how much we missed one another, and meet again when we were both ready. I'm really looking forward to the future.

>>34962257
I feel like I always have been. I don't relate to anyone, I don't feel familiarity or similarities. Ive just always been on the outside of everything. Never a welcome addition or accepted into any group or by a single person. And it's taken a toll on my mental health to where I would just push people away if they tried. Everybody has somebody. They have a partner, or they have an irl friend or an internet friend. I have myself. Even with people who rely on the money I make, they all have actual people who care about them and notice them. I feel like the only way anybody would pretend to care about me is if I put a gun to my head and made a spectacle out of myself.

But I'm not a pity party. I won't beg and plead. I'll just leave quietly without a word said.

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Guys

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>>34962287

>>34957474
>dick starts burning as if it's clogged
You're a literal coomer.

i miss having friends to act like an asshole in front of

>>34962274
Why did you leave the way you did?

Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word

if i had the chance, i would go back in time to the time i was sweating down on to you, and then die from a brain aneurism.

>>34962201
Did you sneeze?

>>34962396
I was only getting mixed signals from them. The way they acted was totally reasonable given what was going on in their life, but by the time I realized that, it was too late. I had deadlines of my own.

>>34960596
why is it odd maybe the man just doens't feel safe around women yet - psychology explains many mysteries

>>34962274
Thats how you lose each other. You will mess around and not be faithful.

Grow together is the only way.

>>34962576
The fuck does this even mean

>>34962877
get laid

>>34962148
You are the psycho stalker

we are ALL the psycho stalker anon

>>34962882
Go get laid then

>every time I use my bathroom my neighbor uses his
Wtf is he poop watching me?

>>34962148
He's too busy wrestling with his inhibitions upset his dreams didn't come true, because reality cursed him with schizotypical traits from his autism. He knows he hurts you, but he doesn't know how to love like your dreamy boyfriend does, and it eats him each day he can't get it. The money, cars, and physique ain't enough, so what is he wonders? Being himself? Nah... He'll go back to being as forgotten as the paint on the wall like the emptiness of a vessal his bedroom is with his gaming system. The hot girls he plays with with underwear on the gaming system are nothing compared to the real soothing voice of a woman, and yet he sits there after days of crying he's a loser. He goes to people on this website, but alas they just say go kill yourself and assume his motivations are driven by cynical selfishness like everyone does. It isn't so much you stand out as a sex object in his dreams, but rather you stand out as a soul he can't catch to fill the hole in his stomach.

>>34962907
Demoralization campaign. You come across spiteful and conniving. All these nasty things you say are really a projection of Who You Are

>>34962914
Well if that is how you see. I apologize I can't be positive and I will continue on with my day.

Fat tits hoe

>>34962980
*blows kiss*

>>34962985
What if I have a disease that causes boils on the lips of everyone who blows me a kiss?

>>34962988
Maybe you should stay out of the bathrooms?

>>34962988
sounds like a personal problem to me

>>34962989
I’m out of them, it’s a disease of the soul called unlovable CHUD

>>34962993
Yeah, but for you. Ur going to get boils on your lips.

Why’s this bitch still typing

>>34963002
She’s going to send you a long hysterical wall of text! I bet you

I hate how much more she was dedicated to a video game character.

>>34963005
That’s not her style

>>34963001
Sounds gross.

>>34963011
I agree. Glad I’m not you desu.

>>34963006
Maybe you should have tried to 'be there' for her instead of being a loser lying incel

>>34962980
We all know you’re projecting. You’re the hoe. You wish she was a hoe so she could be on your level of slut. We all know she rejected you. You’re a fucking loser. All the dumb skanks you fucked and she still lives rent free on your mind. Stalking her socials and writing to her on this image board.

>>34963006
I hate how she can't relax around autistic people or even have play a video game with this 80% of men she hates. Like come on lady, this is getting ridiculous. You're in your head when you can't relax around people who only want the best for you.

>>34963013
LMAO why would you think that was me? But ironically, same.

Oh but it’s me oh but actually that wasn’t me? It was you? Oh but that one was me

>>34963001
How about u boil deez nuts?

Kinda bullshit that BAs require less credits than science degrees. With the same amount of credits that a math degree takes, you could get a history degree, a classics degree, and a french degree. You wouldn't even need to get a course overload as long as you use your electives right.

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>>34963025
It depends on the degree and course schedule but that sounds like a load made up bologna

>>34963027
Yasss Queen

>>34963020
I don’t know which one of you is which.
>>34963024
I’d rather not touch them

>>34963001
LMAO YOU BITCHES LET BOIL BRO EAT YOUR PUSSY? You are both trash and total skanks. Enjoy your 'flavor of the week'. Fat titties and scrawny sluts, the both of ya.

>>34963035
>I don’t know which one of you is which
unironically, i am THAT BITCH

>>34963043
Bro just tell her you like her

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>>34963043
True story btw, this really happened

>>34963044
Ur not though

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I have lost my light and dreams of the future

Boil bro LOST
That bitch WON

>>34963005
People make mistakes. I learned my lesson.

>>34963029
Nah, I worked out the math. At the University of Guelph, the classical degree lets you take 3.5 credits in french classes (+0.5 if you count WEX*3000), and a french major only needs 8 credits. You can also fit in 1 credit of history classes, and a history degree only requires 8.5 credits, so that's easily 3 degrees right there.

>>34963018
Im who made that post but I see you doing more conniving demoralization campaign. You don't Define how she sees me and you don't Define how I see her.

I always feel sad or anxiety. I haven't felt happy in a long time, even the things that I used to enjoy doing don't bring me any joy.

Ever since I started a new job 3 years ago its has beaten me down, it has sucked all the joy out my life, always trying to do my best and sacrificing myself to provide for my wife and child. I put on a brave face every day, I smile and pretend everything is fine, but every day fucking sucks, every day is stressful, every day, every day is a struggle. I am not well but I havent told anyone, I went to AA for a whole year in secret because I was turning into a functional alcoholic.

I love my family but everything outside of that is a nightmare to me.

this week started bad for me
I messed up with my dosage and it left me anxious
I'm just lonely and anxious

>>34963006
what the fuck do you mean by this?
>>34963019
shut up zach

You're such a fuckin' ho, I love it.

>>34963084
Think of the hey arnold! closet shrine but instead of it being arnold its the character with daily rituals.

>>34963084
At least I'm not the guy making you depressed because he ghosted you.

>>34963015
I was only ever there, this character, or rarher fetish was hidden from me until permission to was given by minimising how far gone it was.

Im trying so hard not to drink right now I need help. Im so unlikeable irl and online. Ive tried to be really friendly, ive tried cute pfps, ive tried being a femboy, ive tried talking alot both chatting and vc and I barely get a response I hate it. I have no one to talk to and the 2 people I love dont love me back at all and they just lead me on and it works every time. I could be the hottest person ever I just have zero charisma its definitely both mental (you can easily fucking guess what I have) and genes. I wish I could die and start a new life without the illness and a better personality. Nothing will ever change im a fucking nobody.

>>34963088
Cool.

>>34963059
Why dont you try talking to your wife about this?
It looks like you need some emotional support, its hard to bear it all along

hope is cope

And you’re a dope, consider the rope

>>34963132
Best cope in the world. Now what is the worst cope in the world is putting other people down or being overly defensive.

>>34963095
I'm a guy and I'm not gay.
>>34963088
>the character with daily rituals
what the fuck do you mean by this. I've never seen hey arnold! sorry I'm 24

>>34963149 #
Let's edit this:
Instead of: "I'm a guy and I'm not gay"
You say: "Sorry dude for the anonymity misunderstanding, I'm a guy. I was talking about women who get overly attached not men."

What the fuck made that difficult?

>>34963162
I was wondering what >>34963006 meant by their post
>>34963163
I'm going to stroke you off. I'm going to jack you off. You're going to cum. Oh, yes you are.

Stop it Zacchy <3

>>34963166
Let's edit this:
Instead of: "I'm going to stroke you off. I'm going to jack you off. You're going to cum. Oh, yes you are.

Stop it Zacchy <3"
You say: "Dude, that's bit strange to me."

>>34963149
What is not to get, imagine one of those people who married miku or an AI character, having daily affirmations to tether their love to something that isn't real, while slowly neglecting someone they initially chose.

>>34963086
You talking to yourself. We know you are hoe.

>>34963172
who said you were my proofreader?
>>34963180
oh god it's real. That sucks man. I'd rather be alone forever than get sucked into something like that.

>>34963188
It's a song.

>>34963180
I have no idea what you are talking about. That seems very unrelated to me.

>>34963189
I thought you needed a bit of direction. That's all.

>>34963131
I have put the subject out there once or twice, but not out right and I know its my guarded nature, when I have put some feelers out, put out there that I am not well the subject has been brushed off, maybe its a culture thing because she is Japanese but when I have opened up a little bit about the subject I get the feeling she wanted to just tell me to suck it up and man up.

>>34963230
Ouch, sorry about that anon
Do you live in japan or in the states?

>>34963189
>who said you were my proofreader?

FINALLY YOU ARE TALKING LIKE YOUR HIGH IQ. Do that enough and I'll believe your maturity that people say you are instead of assuming you are still in middle school.

In a way, I think radical self acceptance and unconditional love would completely negate what she did to me

>>34963200
Because it has nothing to do with you read the chain.